Hi Rahul,

You didn't reply to my previous mail. Though why I was anticipating it is beyond me at the moment. Somehow I just secretly desired to read from you again.

No, no. Don't get any wrong intentions. My feelings for Aman haven't changed a bit. They still remain the same and will be forever. Especially now. After he has confirmed.

That is why I'm writing you again. I don't know if you prayed for me or not, but if you did, those prayers have reaped the fruit I wanted. After that initial shock washed over, I thought of the situation with a calm head. And the more I thought, I neared only one conclusion. It has all happened for good.

Before I sent that mail, my feelings were still confused. But that week of anxiety and nervousness confirmed my suspicions for final. I just didn't have any feelings for him, I loved him.

If that mail hadn't been hitched, it wasn't possible for me to see the surprise creep over Aman's face. You never know what he might have thought of me after reading the mail. Maybe that I don't even have the courage to face him while saying something of this stature? Just that thought gave me the courage which I know was never in me.

I barged into his office, looked him in the eye, and said the three golden words. You should've seen his face in that instance. For the first time in my career, I saw his face flinch. His mustache twitched a little as he parted his lips to speak. But no words escaped his mouth.

This moment of silence sent shivers down my spine. All that braveness disappeared in a second as I started trembling right in front of him. He must have seen this too as he got up from his chair and stood in front of me. His hard hands held my shoulder as he repeated the words for me.

I love you.

I can't express my happiness through this words. You must be thinking why I'm telling you all this, but trust me, even I don't have an answer to that. It's just I can't keep it all inside of me. I had to tell someone. And you were the first that came to my mind.

Anyways, thank you so much for reading all this. But more importantly, thank you for making me aware of my mistake and eventually strengthening my feelings for Aman.

I hope you reply. I'd love to know more about you too if possible. Maybe even be a friend.

Goodbye Rahul.

In Love with my other half,
Shruti.

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"Feelings change over time. You can't control it."