Okay this is a bit of a special one for those of us who haven't yet had our 'first time' whether you're just not ready, you're waiting for someone special, and even if it doesn't interest you for now... just know that it's not a race.

Take your time and don't let anyone (boyfriend, girlfriend or friends in general) pressure you to do anything you don't want to do.

Our time will hit. When it hits.

That's it.
^^^

Elian Deogene's POV

"What, do I make you nervous?" Aaliyah asks.

I glare at her trying to slow my heart rate down.

"Baby are you sure we can't just hire a tailor to fix it?" I ask her.

She looks at me.

"Calm down, baby it will only be a minute. And I don't want you paying a stupid amount to get something I can do at home." She says.

"Do you have to be so close?" I ask.

"Did I ask you to go and split ya pants right before a company dinner?" She asks.

I roll my eyes.

I stay extremely still as she threads and stitches my pants, fixing the seam on my inner thigh.

I think of all the bad things I've heard on a case or when I watch the news to avoid thinking about how close my girlfriend's face is to my crotch.

"What's on your mind?" She asks.

I look down at her as she works.

She's focused.

"You don't wanna know" I say.

She chuckles.

"I think I have an idea" she says.

"Oh?" I ask.

She grins and leans forward.

I inhale a sharp breath, watching her.

She opens her mouth and snaps the thread attached to the needle and my pants.

I breathe out.

"I'll kill you" I 'threaten'.

"Nigga I wish you would!" She says.

I have half the mind to grab her throat but I decide against it because I know that we won't make it to the company dinner.

"Did you decide what you're gonna wear?" I ask her.

She nods her head yes.

"Well?" I ask.

She shakes her head.

"You'll find out" she says.

I nod.

We finish off fixing my pants and she goes to get ready.

I do the same, getting out of my pants to go and shower.

Just as I do this, Aaliyah walks into the room.

"El, I need the- -" she stops, realising I'm practically naked.

She blinks at me then turns away.

"I need the perfume" she says.

I chuckle.

"You're allowed to look you know" I say gently.

'I want to make it to the dinner on time' she signs.

"What, do I make you nervous?" I ask, teasing her.

'Extremely' she signs.

I chuckle and pick up my perfume bottle walking up behind her and handing it to her.

She takes it, still not looking at me.

"Wanna save water?" I ask her, kissing her neck gently.

She sucks in a breath.

"We'll be late" she says.

I pull away, chuckling at her determination.

"Alright I'll let you go" I say softly.

She wastes no time, getting out.

I laugh and I go and take my shower.

Once I'm done, I dress up and I wait for her in the living room.

I fiddle with my hearing aids while waiting for her.

I'm nervous.

A lot of people don't think I deserve her.

I don't care about how they treat me but I know Aaliyah does.

As if hearing my thoughts, Aaliyah walks into the room.

I immediately feel dizzy with interest.

^^ Aaliyah's fit.

"Is it Christmas already?" I joke.

But I'm hardly laughing.

"Be serious! Do you like it?" She asks looking down at herself.

I gulp before responding to give myself time to collect myself.

"Yes I like it" I tell her.

She looks up, sensing that my tone has changed.

She looks at my face and then smiles, moving closer.

"Are you sure?" She asks, putting a hand on my chest.

I hold her hips, and I let my hands fall to her ass, squeezing.

"Mhm. I'd much rather tear it off, but we need to go" I say, my voice coming out strained.

I lift my hand and I smack her ass hard, making her arch her back towards me.

She takes a deep breath and lets it out.

"You're gonna be the death of me" she says.

I smile at her.

"I can certainly try" I say to her.

She leans in and gives me a peck before pulling away.

"Let's go." She says.

We leave the house and we sit in the car.

I drive, keeping one hand on her thigh.

A question surfaces my brain.

"Baby why were you so hesitant to love me?" I ask her.

She looks up thinking.

"I just never thought love was for me. The whole idea was just a chemical reaction to me. And two people trying to find validation in each other." She says.

"Why did you feel like that?" I ask.

"Did I tell you about the hot mess losing my virginity was?" She asks me.

I chuckle.

"Briefly." I say.

"Well I rushed into it because I was the last of my friends to have had sex and it was the opposite of what I had imagined" she says.

I continue listening.

"After we'd done it, I realised that I liked him way more than he liked me. And when he found out, he decided we'd be better off as friends" she says nonchalantly.

She talks calmly and her facial expressions don't change.

But I know it must have hurt.

"After that, I just felt it harder to open up to people and the way men treated me made me sure that I didn't want a relationship."she says.

I nod, starting to understand.

"Being selfish became the imperative." She finishes.

I take her hand and I kiss the back of it.

"Well I'm promising you now more than ever that you don't need to be selfish when it comes down to loving me" I tell her.

She smiles as I stop the car at the Venue and she leans over to kiss my cheek.

"Thank you for showing me how to love" she says gently.

"And I'm not done showing you either. I plan to for the rest of our lives" I say.

I turn my face to hers and I kiss her.

She holds my face and kisses me me back.

"Elian you'll make me cry and I'm wearing makeup" she says, her voice becoming thick with emotion.

I smile down at her.

"After all the time you just took? Nah I wouldn't do that" I joke.

She laughs and uses her thumb to wipe the lipstick off of my face.

"I love you Elian" she says

"I love you too judge" I respond.

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