28| like you a lot

jeongguk was finally able to convince the younger to go for a walk with him. taehyung had complained, telling jeongguk over and over that he needs to rest and that it's too late to go out.

in the end jeongguk won, because, afterall, he wins everytime.

it was 1 am in the morning, but neither of the too was feeling slight tiredness, they were awake like owls. probably because their hearts wouldn't let them feel tired, knowing the person who causes them to beat this fast is right next to them.

taehyung had spent two months inside, so walking around was really freshening, plus it was in the middle of the night and cool outside and nothing is better than late-night walks.

the two just walked next to each other, occasionally stealing glances at the other male, blushing when their eyes meet.

"where are we going?" the blond after some time managed to ask. jeongguk shrugged. "i don't know, just walking around. after all... you live here now, you should know what's here around."

taehyung blushed and thanked god that it was dark. well so he thought, because the light the moon illuminated towards the males was bright enough for jeongguk to see the red cheeks.

he smirked. "it's hard holding back when you are like this." jeongguk stopped and took taehyung's chin in his hand, harshly turning him to look him in the eyes.

"let go." taehyung said, biting his lip. jeongguk chuckled. "i don't want to." he leaned down, sealing his and taehyung's lips with each other.

no tongue or saliva was involved, they kissed shortly, then kept looking into each other's eyes.

"you changed a lot since the day we met." taehyung marked, studying jeongguk's face.

of course jeongguk has changed. he had been the cold mafia boss he told himself he had to be. now he is all fluffy with taehyung.

if someone had told him this before, he would've gotten stressed, try to convince them otherwise, threaten them at least.

but no. not taehyung. because jeongguk knows, he changed, "only because of you." he whispered, his lips brushing against the of the other's. taehyung closed his eyes, sensation of feeling jeongguk's lips against his shooting through his body, the moment their lips met once more.

"you know i've always been a man of control, but it never seemed like i can control you." jeongguk's lips were back to stroking taehyung's, driving the smaller crazy.

"i'm glad you're aware of it." taehyung said back, tucking with his teeth on jeongguk's piercing, holding an eye contact. jeongguk looked at taehyung with a small smile, completely ignoring what the younger was doing.

taehyung stopped, looking at jeongguk with a raised eyebrow. "what?" he cocked his head a little to the side.

jeongguk chuckled, grabbing his hand and continuing to walk, taking taehyung along with him. "nothing, you're just pretty." he said and taehyung blushed, rolling his eyes.

"i never go out like this." jeongguk suddenly said.

"you don't? well me neither, i was kept inside my whole life over." taehyung said with a light pissed tone in his voice.

"no one will ever keep you away from doing what you want." jeongguk whispered. taehyung felt sudden happiness building up inside of him, because for the first time he really feels free. even though he had told himself so many times that he is free now, he never really got it in his head.

he didn't know it had to be said by someone else fore him to finally feel the happiness.

"you're happy." jeongguk whispered, looking to the smaller, whose fingers were still intertwined with his.

a wide smile formed kn taehyung's lips. "i'm finally fucking free, you should've expected me to be this happy." taehyung turned his head to jungkook.

"you know... even though i told you i wasn't scared of you, i was. i think i can tell you now. i was scared of you, you hurt me before and so i was afraid you'll do it again. but when i understood you would never kill me, the fear of you hurting me was gone. i grew to like you... quite a lot. then you kissed me and, it was literally the best kiss i ever had— i didn't have a lot. just three or four in school time, if we don't count the ones bogum forced on me."

taehyung chuckled lightly and jeongguk wanted to say something, but the blond was talking now. he started letting everything out, he wants to end it before jeongguk says something and he loses the courage to.

"when i had to leave the next day with got7, i was waiting for you and i thought you wouldn't come. i overthought things. i was scared... you don't mean it. you don't feel the same way like i do when we kiss. you showed physical affection, complimented me, yet there was something in my head reminding me that you are supposed to be heartless."

taehyung bit his lip, there's also jaehee, but he better not mentions her.

"when i was in daegu, i had a lot of time to think, i realized that what we have right now is something i really want. i can't get you out of my mind, even though i don't even know what all of this means to you. and that's why... there's still some part of my brain telling em that all of this is just a game to you—

"you talked a lot, it's my turn." jeongguk interrupted. taehyung was determined to keep talking before, but now jeongguk seems to take the lead.

"i understand why you feel like that, why you can't fully trust me yet. i wouldn't trust myself either if i were you... it's just.. most of the time i acted impulsive on you was because i was scared too."

jeongguk sighed, taehyung looked at him with surprise. "as a mafia leader i had to be strong and keep pushing feelings away. when i saw you for the first time, i just wanted you there. i don't know why. i-i think your beauty.. or the way you were scared, but still strong enough to show how much you hated me, was what caught my eyes.

you kept breaking through my walls and i wanted to stop it. but you were here and i realized you were already changing me, it was already too late to send you back. firstly, you knew too much and secondly... i knew i didn't want to let you go. i knew i cared for you too much."

"yet you kept denying it." taehyung whispered while looking down with a small smile.

jeongguk nodded. "i was scared that if i give in to the feelings you cause inside of me, that i will get vulnerable."

taehyung hummed. "are you giving into the feelings now?"

jeongguk smiled. "what do you think? do i act like i hate you?"

the blond shrugged. "you act like you like me a lot."

jeongguk smiled smugly. "what if i do?"

"i'd be glad, because i do like you a lot." the smaller answered, looking down.

jeongguk looked at taehyung for a moment, wanting to admit that he fucking loves him, but stayed quiet.

taehyung likes jeongguk a lot. jeongguk loves taehyung a lot. there's a difference.

well that was jeongguk's point of view.

taehyung sees it differently.
taehyung loves jeongguk a lot too. yet jeongguk seems to not be sure of his feelings so he stayed quiet, which led to taehyung thinking that jeongguk maybe doesn't like him and now he feels like a fool because he told jeongguk he likes him a lot and the older most probably thinks that he must be dumb—

he stopped his own thoughts, with a shaking head. "jeon, now that i can do what i want, i want to dye my hair." taehyung randomly blurted out, finding the idea actually very good.

jeongguk raises an eyebrow. "what colour?" he asked. taehyung smiled. "it's a surprise." he said. "you will come with me though." he then added and jeongguk hummed, not complaining at all.

but now he's fucking curious and wants to know the colour taehyung wants to dye his hair too.

time passes, the two of them didn't realize they spent almost two hours walking around, talking about everything that kept invading their minds. they were laughing, actually having fun. taehyung heard jeongguk laugh for the first time and he can easily admit, he could listen to it on repeat.

"it's cold, we should get inside." jeongguk suggested after a time. taehyung just nodded, feeling also a little tired from walking so much.

"i loved today." he whispered and jeongguk smiled.

he opened the door of bts' mansion, holding it open for taehyung, who didn't wait to pull out a 'gentleman' comment. jeongguk rolled his eyes.

"i... i think i'm gonna go to my room then."

"no." jeongguk stops him and took his hand. "stay with me, sleep in my bed."

taehyung felt lost at words as he looked into jeongguk's eyes. he? jeongguk? in a bed? and what?

"just normal sleeping, nothing else. i just... want you near." taehyung felt awestruck by jeongguk's words, but smiled widely. "why not?"

and next thing he knew, he was getting carried in bridal style. "let me down, you bastard! you're still wounded, it'll hurt!" taehyung hit against jeongguk's chest.

the older just chuckled, kissing taehyung's forehead. "the pain was gone, the moment my princess kissed me."

taehyung looked at him, before hitting his chest once again. "don't be this cheesy, it doesn't suit you." he whined.

"what do you want me to do then?" jeongguk asked and taehyung hated the way he put his voice lover and raised his eyebrows. "fuck you, don't make things sound like that!"

jeongguk smirked. "like what?"

taehyung glared at him. "not gonna tell you."

"come on baby, tell me." jeongguk pleaded and taehyung pouted. "like... like we won't sleep tonight."

jeongguk tried to hold his laughter back, but bursted out laughing quiet loudly. taehyung blushed and wiggled in the ravenette's hold. "let me fucking down now, jeon!"

jeongguk let him down, since they were in front of his room now. "we will just sleep today, don't worry." he said and taehyung blushed madly.

"you can sleep in my clothes, i don't mind."

taehyung stopped, blushing again.

keeiwkwk jeongguk's clothes jwjwnwaj

"okay." taehyung whispered. they got ready for bed, had a little toothpaste fight in the bathroom, ending with a small make out session, with taehyung sitting on the sink, then left the room as if nothing happened.

now they were lying in bed it was almost 4 o'clock nights. taehyung turned to the side, his back facing jeongguk. "jeon."

"yeah, princess?"

taehyung blushed. "hold me." he whispered and jeongguk turned to see his back facing him. he smiled lightly, as he wrapped his arms around taehyung, pulling him flush against his chest.

taehyung melted by the warmth, slowly placing his hands on top of jeongguk's. "are you comfortable?" jeongguk asked and taehyung hummed closing his eyes.

when the younger was asleep, jeongguk pulled him even closer, pressing a small kiss on his hair.

"i love you."

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