20| painful

"i don't wanna go." taehyung whispered to himself. he had his things packed, a huge suit case with him as he trotted down the corridor, looking down to the ground.

jimin had explained everything to him. he'll go to a place in daegu, which is so far, but he's safe there. he will live there for a while, spend a few days there, until jeongguk and the team finish up with choi's people, who wouldn't stop asking for them to hand taehyung over.

they'll never get him.

jimin also explained that the people there are from bangtan's mafia too, their team name is got7 [watch me cry]. there is a guy called park jinyoung who'll take care of taehyung there. not that he can't take care of himself, but that was jeongguk's order.

taehyung doesn't know why he was so against the idea of going there. he is aware that he isn't safe in seoul and he knows that everything that jeongguk decided was for his good. he knows that he has to go.

but he doesn't want to.

even though he maybe just has to stay a week or two there, he didn't want to leave seoul. he didn't want to leave bts' residence and his friends... he didn't want to leave jeongguk.

taehyung pressed his eyes together and a sigh left his lips.

jeon jeongguk

this male was probably the biggest reason he doesn't want to leave. taehyung knows he is safe with jeongguk, even if everything around them is breaking together or is lighting up in flames, as long as he is with jeongguk, he feels safe.

it's the feeling of being safe, that causes the need of staying by the mafia leader inside of taehyung.

but something besides all of this was still worrying him. jeongguk and he shared a kiss, but more wasn't there.

seokjin barged in and caught them, but nonetheless he promised to stay quiet and tell nobody about it. after that, jeongguk and he had to go to the others and taehyung apologized for overreacting without knowing what was really going on.

and since then, he hasn't seen the ravenette again.

fine, it had been only a few hours, but taehyung was concerned because jeongguk wasn't looking for him or at least coming into his room to talk to him. to talk things out.

the suit case suddenly seemed three tons heavier as he dragged it with him.

then again, taehyung sunk into his thoughts. the bad thoughts. what if jeongguk doesn't put any meaning to the kiss? or worse, what if he is tricking taehyung, to break him after because he can't accept that the blond doesn't fear him?
all these thoughts and more were crossing his mind.

he felt suffocated and he knows he needs answers or at least a talk, but he won't search for jeongguk, he wants the older to come to him.

but... taehyung was leaving tomorrow morning and it's already pas midnight.

another sigh left taehyung's lips, as he finally brought the suit case downstairs, where he left it next to the couch in the living room. jimin said that jackson wang, or so, is going to come and take taehyung to daegu with his car, so he has to already bring his things downstairs, for them to quickly be able to load them tomorrow morning into the car.

taehyung went back upstairs to his room and the first thing he did was letting himself fall onto the soft mattress and close his eyes.

everything seemed so pressured right now, he felt like doing so much, but there was actually nothing he could do.

he took a deep breath and decided to call it a day.

he got up again and went to the bathroom, taking a quick shower and doing his skin care routine, et cetera.

but laying back in the bed and trying to sleep didn't seem like the plan his mind wanted to follow. he did lay on the bed, but he was far from falling asleep.

he hated that jeongguk kept invading the space of his mind once again. the blond turned to his side, where he eyed the door. maybe he'll still look for him. or maybe he won't.

but nonetheless he had a little hope.

taehyung closed his eyes, trying to block thoughts about the certain ravenette out of his mind. jeongguk isn't worth the time taehyung had spend on thinking about him.

okay... maybe he is. but the boy is unsure everything.

he doesn't know what jeongguk wants, or if what they've done means something to the ravenette. he doesn't trust jeongguk yet.

because the kiss for sure meant a lot to taehyung.

the blond was glad that his breathing started to get more even, meaning he is about to fall asleep. and soon, all thoughts got pushed to the side and the blond slid into a peaceful slumber.

but jeongguk didn't come to look for him.

taehyung woke up with a heavy heart. he hated everything knowing that he has to go in a few hours. so with a bad mood, he trotted to the bathroom and made himself ready, then put lazily some comfortable clothes on and went back to his room, wanting to just sleep again.

taehyung blowed the air from his puffed cheeks out when a knock interrupted his internal ranting. he walked over to it and opened up,
but he didn't expect the next thing that would happen was him getting pushed inside and then slammed against the closed door.

taehyung's breath hitched when he looked into jeongguk's raven eyes.

"j-jeon?" taehyung asked confused after a while, because the ravenette wasn't doing anything besides looking up and down his face.

so many different kinds of feelings were rushing through taehyung. one of them was excitement, another was fluster, but there was also a slight spot of fear.

"i missed you."
taehyung's heartbeat arose in an instant and he felt his senses getting clouded with jeongguk's voice and the few words.

jeongguk was then leaning forward, not to kiss taehyung's lips, but his neck. taehyung tilted his head back to the side, closing his eyes by the feeling of pleasure that jeongguk was giving him. 

a soft moan left his lips when jeongguk suddenly sucked on the soft skin and taehyung's finger dug into the rough fabric of jeongguk's pullover.

"jeon...ngh!" taehyung whined when the ravenette bit into his skin, licking over the soft wound that he caused.

it was painful for taehyung. and it was pleasures.

but painful.

taehyung doesn't want to feel any pain. he isn't meaning the physical pain, hell, he would let jeongguk bite him how often and wherever he wants, but he means... he doesn't want to feel internal pain.

taehyung feels something by all the things that jeongguk's doing to him. he feels his body reacting to the older, his heart accelerating, but what about jeongguk?

what is this to him?

taehyung slowly opened his eyes. "s-stop, please." he whispered and jeongguk stopped immediately, looking up to taehyung's teary eyes.

he felt a tug on his heart by the view and quickly cupped taehyung's face in his hands. "princes, what's wrong?"

taehyung almost leaned into the warmth of the older's hands, but decided to not do that as long as he doesn't know what jeongguk wants. he wants to trust him, but he can't.

he shook his head, showing jeongguk to retreat his hands of the younger's face. the ravenette's eyes grew concerned and he slowly took a step back, retreating his hands.

taehyung looked down, biting his lip.

"wh-why are you doing all of this?" he asked his voice soft, quiet and jeongguk got the hint of uncertainty in it.

"because you are the only one who ever made me feel this way." he answered after a few seconds, he remembered what he had talked with jin about.

taehyung looked up, eyes wide. he searched in jeongguk's eyes for any emotion that shows him that jeongguk was joking, that he wasn't meaning what he said and that he was just trying to trick the blond.

but there was none.

"do you mean it?" taehyung still asked and jeongguk confirmed with a soft nod and a chuckle.

"would i be here like this, if i didn't?"

taehyung looked up confused, to which jeongguk chuckled. taehyung is the complete opposite of how he normally presents himself. deep down he isn't the male who knows what he wants and is confident about his actions.

jeongguk knew about it. he knew taehyung wasn't the person he seemed to be— strong and independent.

taehyung looked unsure, looked like analyzing the whole situation so that he knows wether to believe what was happening or not. wether to have belief in the dark eyes or not.

jeongguk took another step closer, leading to taehyung's breathing to become heavier.

jeongguk placed his hand once more on taehyung's cheek, softly stroking the smaller's cheekbone. taehyung closed his eyes by the soothing touch, he had no other option than doing that, his body acting from itself.

jeongguk looked at the younger intently, taking in the beautiful view of the blond. "you're pretty."

taehyung's eyes darted open, he was sure his heart was about to explode.

a blush was evident on his cheeks and jeongguk licked his lips by the view of those rosy lips of the other's. his thumb moved from taehyung's cheek bone to the smaller's bottom lip, where he gently stroke it, pressing his thumb lightly against it, making taehyung part his lips.

"you have pretty lips." taehyung felt his knees giving in, his body was slightly shaking by jeongguk's dominance. taehyung's eyes unintentionally moved down to jeongguk's lips too, eyeing the glistening silver piercing.

he remembers how it felt to have exact these lips against his own. how it felt to taste them.

jeongguk was still teasing taehyung's lips, before he leaned more forward. taehyung closed his eyes. deep down he kept thinking jeongguk was playing with him, but now that the older shows him this kind of affection, he couldn't seem to back away, since this is what he wants.

he's attracted to jeongguk, in any way, the male makes his heart skip beats.

so when he felt jeongguk's lips against his, he gave in, kissing the older back. jeongguk's hands moved to taehyung's waist, pressing him more to himself, while taehyung had his hands resting on the ravenette's clothed chest.

after the small make out session, which taehyung cut off first, they remained close to each other, heavy breathing's evident, as the air seemed to get thicker.

"i don't want you to go." jeongguk whispered and the way his breath was fanning against the blond's lips was sending a shiver down taehyung's spine.

"i-i don't want to go either." taehyung whispered, clutching on jeongguk's shirt in order not to fall weakly to his knees.

"is everything alright?"

taehyung looked into jeongguk's eyes and honestly he feels alright. he feels good, feels protected, but in the end he is still so unsure if he should give in to these feelings.

"y-yes, i'm fine."

jeongguk raised an eyebrow and brushed a strain of taehyung's hair away from his forehead. "so pretty."

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what did i do...

this made me laugh haha

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