32| i like that

jeongguk and taehyung were still asleep, while the other members were eating breakfast. jin had cooked and no one would ever pass something made by the worldwide hands of the worldwide handsome. firstly, it always tastes like heaven, secondly, he kills you if you don't eat it.

it was unusually, awkwardly quiet in the dining room, the members are normally loud mornings, but—

"y'all heard them too last night, right?" namjoon blurted out, the question that kept mingling in the air and that everyone didn't dare to ask.

"thank you, i thought i was the only one that had to suffer." hoseok leaned back, closing his eyes.

"i bet even the neighbors suffered." jimin mocked.

"we don't have neighbors." seokjin then spoke up and jimin pursed his lips.
"exactly, they maybe died yesterday."

this made everyone laugh, before they dug into their food. "do you think they are in love?" hoseok then asked, making jin smile a little, as he remembered how gently jeongguk was handling taehyung when he was asleep and how he admitted, that taehyung made him feel special.

"i can tell you that jeongguk has fallen head over heels for taehyung." he said, turning to the sink.

moments later, a small ravenette woke up from his sleep in his lover's arms and he couldn't hide his smile at the idea, that jeongguk really loves him, like— really is in love with him.

his cheeks tinted pink as he remembered what happened the night before and he hid his face in jeongguk's chest, containing his giggles.

the constant moving of the smaller male curled up against jeongguk woke the older up and he opened his eyes, only for his heart to melt by the adorable view.

"g'morning princess." jeongguk said, taehyung internally cursing at how fast his heart was beating by just hearing jeongguk's husky morning voice.

"good morning." he whispered, pulling the blanket up to hide his flushed face a little under it.

"get up, you have a long day in front of you." jeongguk then said and taehyung peeked up from under the blanket.

"i do?" he tilted his head.

"we do." the older whispered, pecking taehyung's forehead. "you won't get me away from you today." he said, taehyung smiled.

"so? what have you planned?" taehyung asked, smiling when jeongguk did.

he knows how rarely jeongguk smiles, the last time before taehyung arrived being a few years ago. the ravenette really loves to know that he had caused jeongguk's smile to appear again after all those years of claiming that he is heartless. "you, smiling, makes me happy." he blurted out, caught up in his thoughts.

his eyes widened a few seconds later in realization and he quickly moved entirely under the blanket, hiding his pink cheeks. "i didn't want to say that out loud, ignore it please." he said, his words were muffled for jeongguk who smiled just more by the younger's behavior.

the blond sat up, leaning against the head board and looked down at the big bump on the bed, that was caused because of taehyung curling up to himself beneath the blanket.

he chuckled, his hand reaching out to pull it away and to reveal the small puddle, who held himself covered by clutching the soft fabric with his small fists. "no, no, no!" he whined, light laughter underlining his words.

jeongguk could have easily taken the blanket away from the younger, but he let it be and sighed, soft smile never gone missing from his lips. "c'mon baby, it's okay, i'll ignore it."

that made taehyung peek up from underneath and he smiled sweetly at jeongguk, who really was about to loose his mind, not knowing how he can control himself from not kissing the daylight out of the male.

"we should get up, don't you think? it's 1pm."

taehyung nodded and got up, only to fall due to his instabil, shaking legs, the sudden pain that run through his lower area not helping at all.

jeongguk moved to the bed edge and looked down at taehyung, firstly worried, but then with an amused expression, when he spots the smaller sitting on the ground with a pout, arms crossed.

"i can't walk, it hurts."

"what the fuck." yoongi muttered looking at jeongguk and taehyung, who were making themselves some cereal with milk. well jeongguk was trying to do that, while taehyung clung onto him, arms and legs crossed around the older male, as if it was the most normal thing in the world.

jeongguk knew that hoseok and yoongi were there too, watching, and looking at taehyung's reaction of him hiding his face and quietly whining, he must be well aware of it too. nonetheless the mafia leader proceeded with a smirk to make their breakfast, since there aren't any left overs from jin's meal anymore.

with two bowls in his hands and taehyung clinging onto him, he walked to the table, placing the bowls there and then sitting taehyung on a chair, who winced a little.

jeongguk kissed his head, before sitting down next to him and started to eat.

"are they aware that we are right in front of them?" hoseok asked. "and they switched hair colours? jeongguk— blonde?" he took another look and yoongi sighed.

he was a little sceptic before, he didn't trust jeongguk about taehyung. the youngest male is one of the two most important persons to him and he loves taehyung too much to see him hurt or sad. he didn't trust jeongguk— knowing his usual attitude that he shows. but seeing the mafia leader take care of taehyung on the table like this, he realized that taehyung isn't in bad hands. for now he'll just keep an eye on jeongguk.

"jeongguk really likes him more than we expected." hoseok said, looking at jeongguk who was wiping the corner of taehyung's lips with his thumb.

yoongi chuckled. "taebear, don't ignore me."

"good morning!" taehyung squeaked with an awkward smile, finally turning to look at his beat friend.

"morning my ass, it's almost 2pm." yoongi muttered. "you look pretty with black hair." he suddenly said, receiving a wide smile and a 'thank u' from taehyung and an unpleased, bored look from jeongguk.

yoongi chuckled. "don't worry gguk, you also look pretty with blonde hair." he mocked and jeongguk scoffed, taehyung giggled.

"jimin is gonna be mad at you because you didn't tell him that you changed your hair colour."

"probably, but it looks good! and jeon looks also handsome with blonde." jeongguk smiled lightly at his boyfriend.

"of course, jeongguk looks really pretty." hoseok chuckled and jeongguk tried to ignore it.

"who is heartless, here?"

the leader tried to blend all this comments out, not in the mood of arguing right now. "please leave." he just demanded with a plain voice.

"what the fuck, he said please!" hoseok blurted out and jeongguk frustratedly let his spoon fall into the cereal. "you never said please before!" he continued and jeongguk clenched his jaw.

taehyung looked confused at jeongguk, who was obviously fuming in light anger.

"taehyung really has a great effect on you." hoseok continued. jeongguk already knows that, he knows that he is changing and taehyung was the cause, but he didn't mind it though. if changing because of taehyung means the smaller male is going to stay with him forever— he is down for it. no matter what.

but this worried him the most, when he decided to let taehyung through him. he was well aware of the fact that taehyung is too good and that he was seen as the devil and the moment the devil does something good, it'll be seen as a weak spot.

and people make fun of it.

"...jeongguk became soft." yoongi said.
the mentioned male closed his eyes and clenched his fists. "get out, now." he mumbled, hoping this was sign enough that he was mad, while he tried to contain the urge to shout at them.

taehyung was now looking at the older worriedly, sensing his uncommon behavior.

"okay, we'll leave... lover boy." hoseok nagged and yoongi shushed him after the last words, before they left the room together.

taehyung turned to jeongguk, whose jaw was still clenched, while he looked at nothing in particular with sharp eyes.

"jeon?" he asked cautiously, the older snapped out of it and turned to look at his baby. "don't listen to them, it's fine." he whispered and jeongguk felt warm by the reassuring words of the younger and sighed, relaxing his tense muscles.

"you know, when you were scared of me... i was scared of you too." jeongguk felt like talking it out now, he knows taehyung will keep everything for himself. he knows, the trust the two have build up within each other during the time was immense.

a surprised expression hugged taehyung's features. jeongguk scared... of me?

"remember in the room with the piano, when you shouted at me for hurting myself?"

taehyung nodded, it was only two months ago, yet it felt like it's been ages since he has known jeongguk. "from then on... my feelings.. for you started to form and to increase with every passing second."

taehyung's eyes widened, his heartbeat increasing its pace. "you told me that i should stop hiding behind a mask... you were the only one ever to notice that it was only a mask, while everyone, including me thought that's who i am. you told me that you want to hate me, but you can't because you didn't know the true me." jeongguk had remembered every little word that left taehyung's mouth and the younger was more than overwhelmed knowing this.

"i was scared to be weak and tried to push you away from me and also let my frustrations out on you. i though you hated me, which made it a little easier, but still, i knew when you told me to not call you princess anymore, that you were lying. you like when i call you that." he chuckled lightly and taehyung didn't know wether to cry because jeongguk remembers everything or whine in embarrassment, because yes, he loves when jeongguk calls him princess.

"after a time, i thought that it doesn't make any sense, you made me happy and i... i wanted to be happy. i thought i don't deserve to be happy, to get liked by anyone, or even loved, after what i've done in the past. i isolated myself under this mask and whenever someone was nice to me, i was rude towards them. i thought if they understand that i'm a bad person, they won't be nice to me. it rarely worked with yoongi hyung and so on. even if i was shitty towards them they always... loved me."

taehyung didn't move one bit, listening to jeongguk talking about his feelings with everything he has. tears formed in his eyes, he knew jeongguk was hiding and shielding from every emotion, but he didn't know that it was affecting him so much. he slowly reached his hand out, placing it on top of jeongguk's that was laying on the table, intertwining their fingers.

jeongguk took a shallow breath, the gesture from taehyung letting him feel warm inside.

"i love them too, they're my family, of course, but... i don't know how to show 'em without them thinking that i am pathetic."

taehyung blinked. "you're cute, do you know that?"

jeongguk looked at him surprised, an eyebrow raised. "what?"

"ggukie, they would never think that you are pathetic, yoongi and hobi hyung just teased you a little." he smiled sweetly. "it's new for them to see you care for someone so much again. i know you've lost someone you loved dearly—" jeongguk stiffened lightly by that and taehyung sighed. "— jin told me. i don't know what really happened, but i know that from then on, you started to change.

"i really understand you, jeon, you were hurt and you... felt lost." taehyung looked down, glossy eyes focusing on his and jeongguk's intertwined hands. "and i can understand why you want to appear strong, why you want everyone to be scared of you. i know i won't ever feel what you are feeling, but i want you to know that... it isn't bad to show how you feel. you shouldn't be sad alone, ggukie, no one should. if you don't feel comfortable to show them to the others, then i'm here. i'll be always here for you. you deserve all the love on this world."

he looked up, searching for jeongguk eyes only to find the older smiling widely at him. "you called me ggukie, that's adorable."

taehyung's mouth hung open and he hit jeongguk's shoulder. "you asshole, did you listen to what i just told you?!"

jeongguk laughed and pushed taehyung's hands that were about to pull his hair down. "i heard you princess, i heard every word." he answered. "thank you." he kissed taehyung's forehead. "thank you for everything." he repeated.

taehyung tilted his head a little. "you like me calling you ggukie?" he did the same thing jeongguk did and the older scrunched his nose by that.

"yeah, i like that."