He comes home and finds her reading some book from the library. She doesn't react to his presence ignoring him completely. He gets hurt witnessing her distant behavior.

He forwards the envelope containing tickets and admission forms.
She remains faintly aloof, irking him to death.

"This is your ticket and admission form passport & everything else is ready" she is startled to hear all that he said, without showing a slightest form of emotion as if sending her away ain't a big deal.

"I have an apartment over there, where you can stay as you like and easily travel around the city You can lead a normal life as per your choice. But, aunty will be going along, as I can't let u go alone that country is very new to you.
A driver's appointed too can't compromise with your safety" he just goes on and on with details, without bothering to know her reaction.

"I had sources so getting your passport along a valid student visa to America wasn't a problem" he thought, he answered all the questions that must have ranged in her head not knowing her biggest question was how dare he decide it ?

She went into a deep state of astonishment her mind froze losing the ability to think right "you have a flight to catch get your packing done the doctor says your fine to travel" tomorrow night she has to catch the flight tho he wanted one of his own private jets to fly her there.

But, she wanted a normal life and this won't be counting under the category of normal. He was expecting her to say something but she didn't a pin drop silence was directed towards him.

He felt it pricking him more literally killing him turns to face her and notices how both her hand tightly held the book.

She has it held close to her chest that's heaving with emotions rushing into her blood. Her face depicting pain and pretty orbs getting watered. He didn't have strength and guts to face her all he needed was the ground to slip under his feet to bury himself with shame.

He knew he was doing wrong with her but he's giving her what she wanted.
He doesn't have power to hold her question on what's exactly disturbing her.

Isn't she happy after all he's giving her freedom the one she desperately craved for ?

Turning his back immediately on her ran out of the room like a total coward.
She slumped down, finally letting her tears fall !

She couldn't believe what just happened. He got away like a coward, turning his back on her. She lets out a loud cry unable to hold on to her heart that's breaking with his decisions.

He ruthlessly, walked out on her !

He walked out on their relationship ruining it all that she had put in to build them.

He broke them apart.

He wasn't man enough, to protect their relation and help fulfill her dream together.

He used her for his pleasure!

He never loved her the reason why he wanted to keep their relationship limited to Sex.

He never confessed, why did she fool herself ?

She invested her heart and soul into this took all the initiatives first misunderstanding that he has had bad experiences in the past. He feared to get into serious relationships.

Everything was a lie ..

Facade ..

She was being played around by Him.

He always controlled his life and today also he's doing the same by sending her away.
He thinks, he's giving her freedom to lead a very normal life but again under his supervision.

Like always, mens like him sadly don't change !

She trusted the wrong person !

He dictated and simply chose to walk away after all he owns her, thinks she is a lifeless doll who's breathless and heartless.

Mens like him only Fuck !

They don't Love !

She would have fought him, but not now not for something he doesn't want to treasure.
It's meaningless, better to leave than beg for his love maybe his ego satisfies when she does it ?

She will do .. what he wants !

After all, she doesn't have a life of her own, will do what he makes her do.

There's absolutely, no room for argument !

You shout ..

You fight ..

When you know there is scope here there is no room for anything.

He doesn't care 💔

On the other hand, sidharth seems to be more than broken with the thought of letting her go.
He knows, if he wouldn't have walked out then her tears would have definitely made him alter his decision.

He would selfishly keep her !

Then, she couldn't have lead her dreams !

Staying with him and leading a normal life is impossible.
She needs protection last incident took her life.

He cannot afford to keep her, when he failed to protect her.

The dinner table and the food kept on it wasn't touched as none of them made presence. She'll not utter a word of complain.

Asking aunty got everything packed for tonight chose to rest in her room where it all started.

A flash of their multiple fights came in front of her eyes like a wave of light.

She trembled then sobbed watching herself in that same room standing alone previously she had self respect and virginity to be proud on it has now gone nothing is left to be proud on he took everything from her even sealed her poor heart with betrayal.

Yes, she feels betrayed and shattered.

Nothing makes sense to her.

She doesn't want to get into that point of what made him decide. He doesn't care to sit or talk like sensible people.

He is just full of himself.

What does he think of himself ?

"Sab mera qasoor hai, use khud se zayada chah ne ka qasoor hai jiske sazah toh milne he tha na kya socha tha maine ke woh mera bann jayega ? Kya is jaisa .... insaan sorry monster badal sakta hai ?
Nahi, sirf meri self respect he toh thi jis par me itraate thi uske pyaar mein woh tak kuchal de ! Aaj mai is kamre mein khaali haath khare hoon us waqt mere dil mein shadeed nafrat thi, lekin aaj shadeed mohabbat hai" she laughs then her tears frantically fall on her palms, shaking with anguish and sadness.

He walks into an empty room that once smelled like flowers due to her presence.

Sidharth witnesses, a pin drop silence cause her sudden absence started to eat him up due to which he panicked and anxiously walked out.

"Aunty, where is she ?" he comes across her.

"In her room !" she says, worriedly.

"Oh okay !" he became silent.

"You know, she is just a room away you can go speak to her" she suggests.

"It's fine .. did she pack her bags ?" he asked.

"Yea, almost done !" she replied.

"Did she eat ?" realized he didn't make it to the dining table unaware she didn't too.

"No sir, she wants to stay alone" on being asked this is what she told requesting not to disturb.

She must be hurt "fuck man" running back hand through his messy hair.

"You haven't eaten anything ?" she asks, cuz she was busy packing shehnaaz bags.

"Doesn't matter, aunty please take care of her u have to keep me updated.
I am giving you my heart and soul to protect.
Please take care of her like your own daughter ! She means the world to me ♥️" his heart has not rested in peace since he made this decision.

He had a constant argument between his heart and mind.
He still feels anxious as the time of her walking out of these doors are coming closer.

"Be rest assured, she is my responsibility and u know u can trust me ... u don't want to stop her but whenever it feels right do pay visits to her I know u both can't stay without each other, take time but don't completely abandon your love !
Mujhe wajah toh neee maloom lekin apne jagah kabhi khaali nee chorne chahiye jiska fiada utha kar koi bhi kabhi bhi apne jagah bana sakta hai.
She's young and extremely beautiful !" she says, smiling at him, whose stunned by her choice of words, his heart stopped beating.

"I trust her !" he said more to himself.

One cannot lie or get over the fact that she is a beautiful lady someone who can get any guy to love her. He is very much aware of it but she is
never going to move on from their love.

He is her first and last love ♥️

The night, went like a year turning and tossing alone on their respective beds craving for each other's touch and addictive smell.

"Hate you !" she cries to sleep.

"I've never said this out aloud but I truly love u shehnaaz ur the only girl I wish to get old with" he confesses, stroking the side of his bed where she would sleep engulfing him.

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"Hey, so you're leaving, huh ?" kushal asked on entering her room and seeing her getting ready.

"Hmm, following the orders from our master !" sounded way too blunt and sarcastic "damn, ur savage girl" he laughs to lighten up mood.

The atmosphere around feels suffocating "what have u decided, huh ?" pointing at the file of all the admission forms.

"Pata nahi, kehte na apne bhai ko yeh bhi khud he decide karke bata daite mujhe toh waise bhi khaali deemag samjhte hain shayed after all he doesn't even bother to ask my opinion" she's in that position where she wants to think negative about him, no opinion will change it.

"He's scared, his fear of losing u is making him do this for once just sit down calmly and think. Mujhe pata hai, that I am asking for too much ! No, don't even think main uske side par hoon."
he insistently, read her facial expression.

"Reason, uske support mein de rahe hona." she doesn't wish to argue hence became quiet.

"Take it, as my way to make you feel better and positive about this entire situation. Tum dono .. apne apne jagah par theek ho bass ego drop kar ke baat karlo problem he nahi rahegi" he gave a solid advice to end their fight.

"Yeh jakar apne bhai ko bolo is baar main nahi laine wale koi bhi initiative.
Main thak chuke hoon khudko push karte karte ab meri bass ho chuke hai.
Har baar maine he toh pehal ke hai is baar usee karne padegi agar woh chahta ke hum saath me rahein .. kushal.. maut se aap kab tak darr sakte ho itne safety ke bawajood asakte hai" she won't give-in this time and he's on some other tangent only so no use talking to either of them.

"Acha bhae mujhse toh gussa mat ho !" kushal changes the topic and pushes her attention, on choosing right course.

She prefers becoming an english teacher cause during school life was her most favorite subject.

"Perfect, mera dost professor hai yahan fill kar tab tak main us se baat karke ata hoon." kushal deals with her paper work.

Soon, it's time for them to leave ..

She meets the staff and great-fully appreciates their services. They smile and bid her goodbye respectfully.
She waits to get his single sight before leaving, but he never comes.

She strongly, sat down impatiently waiting for him while constantly shaking her legs feeling a wave of anxiousness break her.

She won't lie, poor heart desperately waited & then got shattered, witnessing his absence.

"Shehnaaz, chal yaar woh nahi ayega" kushal is the one who grabbed her attention.

"Woh ayega !" her mouth, spilled waiting.

On the other hand, he constantly fought battle between his heart and mind.

Heart, ordering him to Go !

Mind, asking him not to lose strength, be seated
time to keep her safe !

Unable to decide, anxiously held his head down fisting his hair angrily.

"I have to see her off !" by the time, he decided.

She was long gone hurtfully waiting for an hour his heart sank with guilt and breath caught into chest falling on his knees cried loudly.

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