Tears rolled down as she heard the door clicking shut, clenching her heart to death.

She silently, cries watching him leaving her alone as if nothing matters what ever they shared didn't mean anything to him.

How can he act stone heartedly ?

Didn't he feel ..
what she felt ?

Not even this time ?

She sobs hard craving to be loved !

She wants answers !

This time he cannot shut the door looking for an escape .. he will have to face her.

She is done watching him acting strange creating distance, after sharing extreme level of proximity with her .. she cannot act according to him.

Wiping tears, she strongly stood up wearing silk robe angrily marched towards his room with lot of determination.

She's done constantly hiding her feelings !

Opening the door, sees him smoking clenching her teeth quietly went and sat on his bed who's completely shocked.

"Why is it that you can have sex with me spend time with me but cannot share the bed with me why do you push me away ?" she ask, gathering courage "don't act or wear a facade by saying ur just a girl I sleep with to satisfy my desires .. I'm not gonna fall for it sidharth." he gritted teeth.

"Not now, please shehnaaz don't complicate the situation for the two of us !" he pleaded.

"You know that we have feelings for each-other it's more than attraction.
I am going to be super honest with my feelings. Yeh joh hamare beech mein haina ..
Bohut pyaara hai ..
Mere liye, pleasure aur attraction se bohut aage badh chuka hai ..
I want us to grow closer .. not just physically but emotionally too .. I need you to hold me tight .. I need you to caress me to sleep .. I need you to be there by my side .. I need you to open up to me u cannot just walk over me, and expect me to be as  heartless as you !" she says, walking over to him.

Cupping his handsome face "zindagi bharr main care, pyaar aur attention ke liye tarse hoon jinhe maine apna samjha woh toh kabhi mere thai hee nahi.. mujhe tumse nafrat hone chahiye sidharth lekin phir bhi na jaane kyun khud ko aur apne so called respect ko kuchal kar tumse tumhara waqt pyaar aur care maang re hoon." tears stream, she almost begged him through her innocent gaze.

He felt pathetic for not letting her in "kya soch ke maang re ho shehnaaz yaad haina tum is ghar me kyun laaye gaye thi ... kya maine tumse koi waade kiye thai .. nahi naa .. phir achanak se yeh sab kar ne ke wajah .. ur expecting the unexpected from a guy who doesn't have a heart to love !" his words, slash like a knife through her heart.

"I can do anything but love sharing bed with u is next to impossible." he told with a straight face.

He made sure that not even an ounce of emotion reflects on his face, although his heart succeeded to break down the walls and let her in.
She felt so heartbroken "if you can't love me then let me go !" her lips manage to utter.

"I can't stay locked up here for life and become a sex toy to you.
You have to let me in ..
Else
Let me go ..
Are you scared to fall for me ?" she yells, getting mad at him.

"Fuck man, you are not a sex toy !" he groaned.

"I can already see the goodness in you so no use to show hatred or put up an act in front of me !!" she snorts, pushing his buttons.

"I will do anything but never let you go." he pulls her closer by grabbing her shoulder, dangerously whispered to her.

A shiver ran down her spine "I can't love anyone all I have ever learnt is hate.. I know how to hurt people and make them bend on their knees !
How can you expect love care and attention from someone like me, who doesn't even know what it actually means ... I never felt such way also don't expect goodness from a monster like me who got only hurt and hatred to give in return." she leans closer to his face and strokes his beard.

"Then, let me love you !" she confesses, shocking him instead of giving up she is being determined to win over him.

"I don't want you to love me !" he argues, pushes her hand away.

"You cannot solely decide !" she stubbornly, told driving him insane.

"Since you don't know what it means to be loved  I will shower on you so much, that you will be in awe of it.
You're only aware of emotion like anger, revenge and hatred.
You have no idea how one feels strong, powerful by having love by their side." she explains, cause he can't stay foreign to these feelings.

"I am scared that in the process of loving me you will be miserably shattered." he shared his worry openly making her smile.

"You said .. your not aware of this emotion called CARE hainaa lekin abhi tumne apne bataun se ye saabit kardia hai ke tumhe meri fikar hai .. mujhe hurt karne se darte ho gosh sidharth please hume ek dusre ko chance daina chahiye." she requests.

"Main tumhe khush nahi rakh paunga shehnaaz. Mujh pe apne emotions waste mat karo .. tumhe sirf dard milega." he highlighted.

"Mujhe manzoor hai !" she quickly, clarifies.

"Tum thak jaoge !" he snorts.

"Koi na, tum phirse himmat de daina." she curls her lips into a big smile.

"Hum ek saath .. ek room mein nahi soh sakte !" he says, annoying her "kyun ?" she ask with alot of interest "bed share karne ke adat nahi haina I prefer to have my own space." he lied.

"Oh come on, you already look scared, thinking how will you keep your hands to urself, haina ?" he raises eyebrow "g nahi .." instantly, denied.

"Darr hai ke mujhe galat saabit nahi karpaoge ? Mere pyaar mein parr jaoge ?
Meri gandi adat lag jayegi ?" she questions, he's really going to lose his patience with her.

"Sidharth Rao, kisi se pyaar kar he nahi sakta !" he confidently, utters irritating her.

"Main kehte hoon, sidharth rao already pyaar mein parr chuka hai bass mehsoos karna baki hai." shehnaaz wraps an arm around his neck and confidently says it back to him.

"Fuck man, you are just super annoying !" his heart races fast as she plants a kiss on his lips.

"I'll make sure you get a reality check soon !!" she's somewhat relieved that he didn't deny it like always this time he surprisingly gave up a little sooner than expected.

She quietly, laid down waiting for him to take step instead he stayed glued to the couch with laptop infuriating her.

She decides to stay calm and take babe steps ! Hence, remained silent while he worked sleep took over her as she was clearly exhausted.

He kept himself busy, refrained from going to bed until sleep took over him. She woke up by noon to find him sleeping on the couch.

She goes closer to get a complete look of him !
He looks like babe peacefully sleeping without any tension reflecting on his face.

She leans more to peck on his forehead.

Turns to leave but then feels her hand quickly being grabbed by him due to which she stares back only to find sidharth anxiously talking to himself fear and horror clearly getting visible.
Sweat beads covering him.
Shocking her completely!

"Baba .. yeh main kaise karsakta hoon ?"

"I can't do this to her !"

"Mujhse nahi hoga !" some of his words that hardly reached her ears.

Getting terrified, knelt down to grasp his face with utmost tension and love "sidharth utho ! wake up .. plzzz wake up .. tumne kuch ne kia. Sab theek hai." shouts and shakes his body to which he immediately reacted.

Breathing heavily and shaking terribly coughs trying to come back to his senses "you're okay dekho sab theek hai ... breath sidharth .. come here." she hugged him tightly almost hides his face in her chest right close to her heart that is only beating for him.

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