AN// MERRY CHRISTMAS DOUBLE UPDATE!!:) hope you like it- Meg

I know I'm tired, I can tell by the burning in the backs of my eyelids but I lay here wide awake, unable to sleep.

Why can't I sleep? It feels weird not having Sehun here with me, it's the first time in a while that he hasn't been sleeping next to me and honestly, it is a bit lonely without him.

I pull my sheets off of me after a few minutes of contemplating if I should or shouldn't get up to see if Sehun is having the same problem. I quietly crack the door open and look out on the couch where he's sleeping, trying to fit his long legs under the small blanket. Why didn't he grab a bigger blanket? He knows where they are but he gets the smallest one.

I go over to the cupboard and grab a bigger and thicker blanket before going over to him and gently laying it over his cold body.

"You can't sleep either?" He asks grabbing my arm as I turn to go back to my room.

"N-no."

"Come here." He says pulling me to him and lifting his blanket up."Lay down." He commands.

"Why don't we go to my room?" I say pulling him.

"No, I don't want to get up." He complains as he pulls me onto him.

"I'm going to squish you." I chuckle as he wraps me in the blanket holding me tightly to him.

"I don't care, go to sleep."

He has his arms locked tightly around my waist keeping me pressed to his chest tightly as he breath in and out. I shut my eyes, finally feeling relaxed and fall asleep.

I wake up in the middle of the night hot, really hot, and in a tired daze. I grab the bottom of my jacket and try to pull it up over my head but it is harder to get off than I thought it should have been. When I get it off I push the blankets off me as well before falling back into a deep sleep.

I wake up to the feeling of cold fingers tracing over my back and I quickly jump up and grab my jacket from the floor.

"Lu- Luhan, what are those?" Sehun says with wide eyes as I pull my jacket back over my head.

"Nothing, I fell off my motorcycle a while ago." I lie.

"No, falling off a motorcycle doesn't make shapes like that on you. They were put there," he says standing up, "who put those there?"

"No one, it's nothing."

"Yes it is! Someone has been cutting you and spelling out things on you in some weird language! Who did it, Luhan, this is serious!" He says coming closer to me.

"It's nothing, ok?"

"It is something Luhan, what do those marks mean."

"They mean nothing, this isn't something to get yourself into, Sehun."

"I know they mean something, Luhan. What language is it in?"

"I don't know what you are talking about, they are just scars, they don't mean anything!"

"I saw them before, Luhan, I thought they were just that, scars. But I know they aren't, someone cut those into your skin. I know it wasn't you because you can't do that kind of thing to yourself." He says reaching for my hand but I pull it away.

"It is nothing, don't worry about it, Sehun." I say looking away from him.

Sehun's POV:

Once again, he leaves to his room locking the door behind him.

What the hell were those? It was in a language I didn't know but I know it was writing, it was obvious. I did see a while ago when he was trying to get me to have sex with him but I thought they were just scars, and I only had seen it for a few seconds.

Why is he acting so weird about it? I know it must embarrass him but he should know that I won't judge him by now. I feel like there are so many secrets he is hiding from me and I desperately want to know what they are but I don't know how I can find them out. He doesn't have any family here that I can ask and I know something more happened with his step dad. I can't say that I don't think it was him who did that to him and it pisses me the fuck off.

It's almost time to leave for work but I really don't even care about it right now, I just want to know what those markings mean and why they are on his back.

Did he let them put those there or did they force them into his skin? Why didn't I see them earlier? I've seen his bare back before but I never saw those and I know they aren't new, they are old, really old.

A few minutes later he come back out, showered and in his uniform with a smile across his face. Is he bipolor or something?

"Why aren't you dressed?" He asks as he walks into the kitchen and grabs an apple from the fridge.

"What? That's what you are worried about?"

"Well, yeah, we have to be at work in, thirty minutes." He says looking at the digital clock on the microwave.

"Let me see you back." I command as I walk over to him.

"What? Why?" He says biting into his apple.

"I want to see those markings, Luhan." I command.

"What? I don't have marks on me."

"Don't play dumb, Luhan. Turn around." I say more forcefully.

"Sehun, are you alright?" He asks

"Luhan, not ten minutes ago we were arguing about those weird letters on you back."

"I don't have any 'weird letters' on my back, maybe it was a dream or something." He says acting like I'm crazy.

"Then let me see you back." I say turning him around.

"Here." He lifts up his shirt and I'm become speechless.

"Wh- where did they go?" I say pulling the shirt higher and running my hand over his smooth skin for some kind of bump or anything really.

"Your hands are freezing." He says flinching slightly at the touch of my fingers.

"What happened to the marks, Luhan, they were just here."

"Are you sure it wasn't a dream? I've never had 'marks' or 'weird letters' on my back."

I let him put his shirt back down as I stand back, could that really have been a dream? It wasn't a dream, I know it wasn't.

"It wasn't a dream, I woke up and you were laying with me and you had all of this writing scarred into you back and when you woke up you freaked out and left to your room. I swear."

"When I woke up you were still sleeping, so I went and took a shower. Let me feel your forehead."

"I'm not sick, stop lying."

"I don't think you should go to work today Sehun, you are burning up." He says feeling my forehead.

"I'm not sick, I feel fine."

"Go take a cold shower, I'll tell Mr. Wu that you aren't feeling well, ok? Want me to make you some soup before I go?"

"No, I'm not sick."

"Sehun, you aren't going to work today, so just go do what I said alright? You cheeks are bright red and you're burning up. You can sleep in my bed if you want, but you need to get some rest."

"I'm not sick, I feel fine!"

"You are, just go get some rest and stop fighting me." He chuckles softly.

"Ugh, just take my car ok?" I groan knowing that I'm not going to win.

"Ok, I'll see you when I get back." He says before kissing me on the cheek, grabs my keys, and a jacket before leaving.

Maybe I'm just sick or something, I don't feel ill at all but he is right about my face being red.

How could I have dreamt that up though? None of this is making any since to me, how could that have been a dream? It just felt so real.

Or maybe he is hiding something from me, maybe he put something over it so I couldn't see it? No, I felt his back and there was nothing there. What the hell?

AN// hope you liked the double update:) -Meg

*edited 6/28/15*