So
I live in a family that has a religion in which we care a lot about modesty in clothing (not showing shoulders, upper legs, stomach, etc etc.)
And so as much as I love my religion and my fam I kinda hate this aspect. Bc for one, a lot of other teens who go to my church wear clothes that are 100% not modest. And 2 I just wanna be me. I want to be able to wear what I want.
So my mom takes this whole "modesty" thing very seriously and enforces it. She tells me to wear long shorts and never show shoulders or my stomach.
I hate the shorts thing and honestly I think I'm just going to buy a bunch of shorts and wear them and see what she does... She wouldn't even let me wear shorter shorts (5inch inseam so not that short) for volleyball until I spent weeks convincing her. Recently tho she said that I can choose my shorts so I think she'll be okay with other ones. Hopefully 🤞

For the tank top /showing shoulder thing I totally wish I could. I love tank tops sm and you may see me draw them a lot bc I wish that I could wear them. Most of the clothing I draw that is clothes I don't wear I draw bc I wish I could. I don't think I'm ever gonna wear tank tops tho bc my mom would freak and it's not as necessary as shorts.

For showing my stomach I honestly think even if I could I wouldn't bc I'm an insecure mess. But I would like the knowledge that if I really wanted too I could wear crop tops or whatever else. And another thing is with swimsuits this absolutely sucks. I hate wearing ugly 1 piece swimsuits. And an annoying thing is ik that if I could show my stomach I would cuz of the whole insecurity thing which I hate bc honestly if I feel this way I can't imagine how others feel. Cuz for me I am super skinny and tall. Kinda like a tree lol. But still I feel this way.

Another thing about clothes in general I hate is that they don't support tall ppl 😭😭😭 I have to shop at random online places or stuff if I want anything that will remotely fit. Cuz I've been 5'10 since I was 12 and I'm mostly legs and no torso. And I just measured and I'm five 11 I think I'm gonna cry. Lol. But yeah being tall sucks with clothes. Literally any pants r off limits from normal stores.

Anyways I love my mom I just sometimes don't know what to do with my feelings of wanting to be like everybody else and fit in.
So yeah I drew a pic and it basically sums up what I wish I could wear but I can't. Oh and it's kinda old and I spent barely any time on it so don't mind it being not so great.

So yeah... if I continue to draw a bunch of tank tops / crop tops/ short shorts u know y lol.
Sry this was so freaking long thx for reading it all if you actually did <3
🫡-Mag