Warning: umm yeah angsty bs that I cried while writing

John POV:

Eliza came running up to me, smiling.

"John, guess what?"

"What?"

"Alex proposed and I said yes."

I turned around to look at her. I could feel my eyes blur with water. The tears beginning to spill.

"John, I was wondering if you'd be one of my bridesmaids."

"S-sure Lizzie. Congrats."

I casually walked upstairs but close my door room. I cried and I couldn't get ahold of myself. I heard a knock on my door.

"Wh-who is it?"

"It's me, Angie. John I know you're crying. Just let me in."

I opened the door and fell into Angelica's arms, crying even harder.

"John, what's wrong."

"H-he pro-promised. When w-we were l-little."

"Calm down. Shhh. I know. I know. Shhh, I know."

*Time skip to wedding*

<time for AIDS medication>

I walked to where I was supposed to be. Blood trickling down my arms and nails onto the grass, dropping onto the grass. My dress also had spots of blood. My eyes had mascara running down. When I stood next to Peggy and Angie, they looked at my arms, with widened eyes.

"John, what the heck did you do(Naomiiiiiii~~~)?"

"Peggy no cursing."

"I'm erasing/ruining the world's biggest mistake."

Eliza threw the bouquet and it landed right in front of me. I stared at it, blankly.

"JOHN. YOUR ARMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"What do you mean, Alex?"

"The blood."

"This is helping erase the world's worst mistake."

"John you're not a mistake."

"Yes, I am Lizzie. Look without me: Alex wouldn't have to give me fake promises. Laf, Herc, Angie, and Peggy won't have to console me. Jefferson and Madison won't have to do everything to make my dream come true. Lee, Francis, Seabury, and Frederick won't have any guilt left. And finally you, Lizzie would be able to live happily with the love of her life. EVERYONE WILL BE HAPPY!!!!!"

I let everyone stand there, shocked, and ran back to my house. I ripped my dress off, leaving me in my binder and shorts. I went to my room and grabbed my bottle of pills. I opened it, put all of them in my mouth and swallowed it. Thank god I won't have to cry again in my life. I grabbed my suicide note and then the world faded away to a black.

Third POV-

The whole hamilsquad ran to John's home. They searched the whole house, praying that John was safe.

"I found him, mon amis."

They all ran upstairs and saw John's limp body.

James called the ambulance while Laf carefully grabbed the note out of John's hand.

"M-Mon ami. Wh-what did you write?"

Laf fell down and the others crowded around him reading the paper.

Dear Hamilsquad.

I just wrote this to tell you that every year, don't mourn my death. Instead, celebrate the wedding of our dearest friends, Alexander and Eliza. I'm just a mistake and no one should care about a mistake. People move on from a mistake, be it big or small. There's a reason why I hate October 28, but I'm going to love August 27. Thomas and James don't think you failed yourself. I wasn't perfect for my dream. That dream was way out my league. Don't miss me. Love you all.

Sincerely,

John Laurens

"John, no."

Epilogue:

The ambulance arrived but on the way, John was declared dead. Everyone cried.

The one who probably cried the most was Angie. She cursed herself, saying she could have saved him. After the PM, the found out that John was pregnant with Lee's, the person who recently raped him, children. They buried him and put to smaller tombstones for his unborn twins on his.