⊱La peur de toi⊰

Fear of you

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I downed the drink in one go and hissed loudly as the liquor trailed down my throat and chest, burning my flesh, and leaving a buzz to my nerves. Gluttony would be both proud and disappointed that I was drinking to numb my mind like a depressed man. It felt so satisfying to be affected by alcohol more than the usual as a deadly sin after what happened.

"Are you keeping a tab on yourself, Eunsook?" Greed asked carefully, watching me pour another glass for myself. "I've never seen you drink so much and that means a lot."

"That means nothing to me," I groaned before draining the glass. "I've never been in a pinch before. I've never thrown myself into this... one hell of a situation where I have to live in anxiety and fear before! Without my powers! Lucy kept pressuring me and I acted on my anxiety and fear like an idiot and now, Jungkook hates me!"

At first, people were handing me glasses after glasses, praising my dance and I splashed the drinks back on them when they were spiked. No surprise there. Some were afraid of Greed who sticked by my side and never approached, and I was glad that I called him here before arriving.

The room started spinning and I rubbed my eyes to get a grip. Girls and boys alike were whooping out loud in high spirits, giving a sense of youthful exuberance, dancing or rather, rubbing against each other's bodies and kept downing drinks like there's no tomorrow. I wasn't done with the night yet so passing out now would be hella disappointing.

I would only pass put after wallowing in my comfort long enough to dampen the regret of my actions.

Greed heaved a sigh before wrapping an arm around my waist, hugging my side and giving me a sympathetic smile. "You'll be fine, Eunsookie. He won't hate you because of that. Any man would bend over backwards for you."

I giggled, hearing his nonsense but appreciating him trying to cheer me up. "Sure. That's because I'm an object of desire that charms any man... except that one man who probably shoved me out of his whole life even if I wanted to stay in it."

Speaking nonsense myself and stripping my feelings bare, I could feel myself getting intoxicated and I blamed it on being human.

"You want... to stay in his life...?" Greed bent forward to examine my face with wider eyes. "As in... willingly?"

"I don't know, okay," I shouted, covering my red face in exasperation. "Maybe I do or maybe I don't. I'm so sick of all of this and I just want to live peacefully, Jimin. Whenever I'm with him, I just feel so comforted and peaceful. Ugh, I don't know!"

The blonde slick back haired man's expression fell and he caught his lower lip between his teeth as if he was deep in thoughts.

"No matter how many times I try to get him in bed, he still doesn't do it!" A familiar voice whined and I snapped my head her way before scowling at the girl.

Did I hear that, right? Jia was doing what?

"Do you know how long I waited to tap that fine ass. He's huge and I assure you that. Those thighs and biceps and abs- I just can't believe he's not doing it with me after how long?!" She groaned to her friend who just burst out laughing before asking if he was gay, and something inside me snapped before I strutted towards the two.

"Hey! He's not some piece of meat, Jia," my mouth spoke on its own and I didn't even know if I was controlling my own mind at that point. I was woozy and drunk and just so so pissed that I wanted to drag Jia on the floor with her strawberry blonde wig.

"Well if it isn't the home wrecker who's dying to have my man," she chuckled, causing her friend to do so as well before eyeing me up and down. "With those skimpy skirt and crop top, you can try all you want, honey, but my baby is a loyal man. There's nothing a 'fille de joie' like you can offer a man like him anyways."

Enraged by the insults, I was about to slap her until Greed held my arm in mid-air before pulling me away, excusing us from the girls.

"Let her get a taste of my hand, Jimin, what are you doing?"

He sighed before handing me a glass of water. "You're drunk. Her insults were weak and clearly provoking you. Don't do anything stupid."

"I'm already stupid," I grumbled before sipping from the glass.

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Hours later, when I scanned the room out of boredom one last time before leaving the party, my eyes widened at the sight of someone who never went to parties like this. He seemed to be looking for someone, his eyes darting from person to person, and I realized Jia must had called him to pick her up. She was drinking so much just now.

Or the little witch was setting a trap for him to do what she was always trying to do.

Whatever it was, after bidding adieu to Greed, I quickly headed to where I saw her and gripped her chin to make her face me with surprise and disgust.

"What the hell?"

"Jungkook m'emmènera avec vous. Une fois arrivé chez vous, vous entrerez tranquillement et vous dormirez. S'il demande, dites-lui que vous allez bien," I ordered whilst activating my powers and her eyes shined violet. (Trans: Jungkook will take me with you. After you arrive home, you will quietly go inside and sleep. If he asks, tell him you are fine.)

"Jia."

We turned to see Jungkook standing there with a surprised expression, seeing us together, and his eyes narrowed dangerously at me, making me gulp.

"What's happening?"

"You'll take her home, too," Jia said immediately and walked past him, "Let's go."

Jungkook licked his lips with his brows knotted as he watched her go, and heaved a sigh before uttering, "Come on," and following her out. Jungkook went into the driver's seat of her car while I dragged Jia into the back seat with myself.

"Drop me off first," Jia told Jungkook and only I could see her eyes shining violet as she did.

He must had found it strange but the drive was as silent as the dead of the night and the tension was enough to suffocate me to sleep before the alcohol could.

When we arrived at her dorm building, Jia slipped out of the car as quietly as she could and walked to the door as if she was all sober. Jungkook opened the door and walked out before shouting, "Wait, you're going inside on your own?"

"I'm fine," she exclaimed and disappeared into the building, leaving him stunned for a moment.

Getting back inside, he drove us back to our dorm in silence and I had to hold in my laughs at the comical event that just happened. Jia would be so mad at herself tomorrow.

My drunkenness was getting to me and I was fighting to open my heavy eyelids that kept closing every now and then. When I opened them one time, I was walking inside the hallway to my room with my arm around Jungkook's shoulders as he held me close to himself. Suddenly aware of his body flush against my side, heat was rising up to my face and it wasn't the alcohol this time.

Opening my room and taking off my heels, I was dropped on the bed with a huff of breath. Jungkook was about to pull the cover over me when I stopped him, grabbing his hands.

His eyebrows were drawn together again as he studied my face and it seemed like he was so close to lashing out at me. Seeing such an expression on him who was always so gentle and happy with me, I wanted to break down crying.

A tear slipped down my cheek and I was fast to wipe it away.

"Do you think I'm a whore?"

He seemed to freeze for a moment. "What?"

"Because I can see the hatred in your eyes and I know it's because of what I did earlier," I whispered, unable to look him in the eyes. "You think I'm always throwing myself around and enjoying the attention? I hate being with men and I want to vomit whenever I'm around other guys..."

I was slurring words and I wasn't aware of what I was saying, but I couldn't stop.

"But around you? It's so hard but it's so nice. Why are you like this? Why are you giving me such a hard time, Jungkook?" I sighed covering my face with my cold hands. "You're wasting yourself on a girl like Jia, do you know that? Why do you even stick with her?"

There was a beat of silence and I thought I fucked up my situation even more until he whispered, "She occupies me and makes me forget things I don't like thinking."

I shook my head, disapproving his reasons.

"I can do that! I can do better! You deserve someone who'll love you and take care of you as you should be... Do you think I can't?"

"You can and you do..."

My breath hitched and I uncovered my face to gaze into his dark, mesmerizing eyes that I was afraid I would never see up close again.

"Then why do you push me away?"

He pursed his lips and brushed away the strands of hair sprawled over my face and neck. "There are boundaries I won't cross..."

"You're a coward," I blurted out before I could think.

A ghost of a smile lingered on his lips before it disappeared into a frown, and the tension was back again to suffocate me.

"I am... I'm afraid of you. I'm afraid of what you'll do to me."

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Just so you know, I won't spare Jia 😔