⊱Ses yeux m'ont coupé plus profondément qu'un couteau⊰

His eyes cut me deeper than knife

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The stars in his lovely eyes that showered me with fondness, the adorable grin that filled me with warmth and the gentle actions that provided me comfort were no longer there. The sweet tone of his voice was replaced with a terribly harsh one and the tenderness in his gaze dissipated into emptiness.

I berated myself again and again for losing all of those. Just a single move and he was distant. I was invisible to him.

Nearly a week passed after the talent show, and we had stopped seeing each other outside our classes. I never dared to go to his dorm room and he never minded my absence. I figured it wasn't important to him.

I never felt so lonely like this.

Every now and then, I would glance at him without knowing, and all I would receive was a stone hard look. The tension between us was unbearable.

Gaining the courage, I took a peek at his portrait painting. The body and outlines and the background were almost finished save for the facial features. Admiring his work, I whispered, "Wow, that's amazing... You're nearly finished, huh?"

Jungkook remained expressionless as if he didn't hear me and continued to move his brush against the canvas, not acknowledging my presence once again.

Pride had his eyes set on us and he gestured me, asking what happened with his brows furrowed to which I shook my head and walked to my own seat in defeat.

"There's nothing to be amazed about, it's not even finished."

My ears perked at Jungkook's voice and I snapped my head up at him with a small, nervous smile. "There is though. I'm sure you know that I told you I'll compliment you until you're sick of it."

He sighed and uttered, "That's bothersome," shattering my hope with few words.

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Staying in my dorm room without doing anything that could silence my growing anxiety was noxious. I tried painting but it felt so lonesome. I tried visiting hell but it only aggravated my perturbations. I tried calling the other Sins but they couldn't stay long with me.

I never realized how much time I used to spend with him.

I... missed him...

I missed his cooking and the small lunches he would bring me during classes. I missed his little ramblings whenever we watched Disney movies or any other superhero movies. I missed his gentle touches while braiding my hair when I was unaware. I missed his adorable giggles whenever he was happy and it felt like I hadn't heard it for decades.

"This won't do..."

Grabbing a coat, I left the room to wander the streets and hopefully clear my mind. The sun was already setting and the sky had streaks of gold and lavender overlapping each other. Compared to the morning, there were less people bustling around and many were chatting and dining in restaurants, filling the buildings, emptying the streets.

Should I go shopping? Maybe I could go roller skating...

"Please let me go! Someone help!" A young girl's voice could be heard in an alleyway a few feet away but no man or woman who passed it went in there even if they turned their heads to look.

The owner of the voice ran out with tattered clothes and grabbed a man's hand to cry out, "Please help me!"

The man scanned her and the alleyway before saying, "He seems to be someone you know, no?" and slipping out of her hold to leave as if he didn't see anything.

I couldn't believe what I was seeing. It was something I was used to but hated with all of my being. 'Civilized' humans would never be like this. Where was Chastity when you needed her? Where was the righteousness she loved to preach about?

Marching to the scene, I pulled to the poor terrified girl behind myself and glared at the disgusting creature in contempt as he frowned at me.

"Who the fuck are you?!"

He had his zipper down and was holding the ripped pieces of the girl's clothes, showing no regret, no guilt whatsoever. The sight made me tremble in fury and my blood to simmer with resentment.

"Your worst nightmare," I gritted out before grabbing his collar and slamming his face into the brick wall with all my might, earning a shriek from the girl. "Too bad for me, I can't torture you unless your soul becomes mine after you die."

Blood dripped down his head and he fell to the ground with a loud thud but I wasn't done with him.

Turning around to the shivering girl, I held her face as gently as I could and wiped the tears that were staining her soft cheeks. I was lucky that I got here before anything happened, but it still hurt to see her state like this.

"Don't be afraid. You don't remember what happened but this man was trying to... assault you," I whispered and her eyes flashed bright purple. "You can get past this. Call the police."

Covering her smaller form with my coat, I patted her head when she fished out her phone. Hearing the man spit and call me derogatory names, I whirled around and bent down to his eye level before choking him.

"Oh how I want to finish you now and have you writhe in pain in my chamber," I sighed with so much hatred before activating my powers again. "Vivez avec l'agonie mentale et ne touchez aucune femme. Admettez vos crimes." (Trans: Live with mental agony and do not touch any female. Admit your crimes.)

Soon, the police arrived and took the girl and the man away. I regretted not crushing his skill after they left, but I knew I went a little far with my interference. I wanted to calm myself by going out but I just earned myself a scolding from Lucy. Still, I didn't regret it.

Continuing my stroll, I went from building to building, wondering what I should do. Tired already, I thought of going back to the dorm and hitting the sack. The day wouldn't turn out better if I just walked aimlessly like this anyway.

Finding an ice cream shop I liked coming to, I decided to take a stop there and eat something sweet on my way back. With that thought, I walked inside and was about to walk to the cashier when I saw Jungkook giving orders by there.

Suddenly freaking out, I ran to one of the empty tables and hid myself behind the menu. I didn't know what he was doing there all alone, but it looked like he was buying a huge ice cream sundae. The one I usually ordered whenever we visited this place.

After he left, I bought the same for myself and followed him from afar. He was heading back to the dorm and I was feeling a little disappointed that I was going back so soon until he changed the course and walked to the park near the dorm.

Settling himself on a bench, he kept sighing while watching the sky. I had already finished my ice cream and I wondered if his had melted by now. I was proven wrong when he took it out of the box after what felt like an hour and started eating it himself.

What threw me off was that it wasn't what he would order to eat. He didn't seem to enjoy eating it, either, but I couldn't possibly walk there and casually sit by his side to ask what he was doing.

Would we grow further apart just like this?

I didn't want that but my feet were stuck in quicksand.

I missed him...

And I had to try and try again to not lose him.

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Hope you all remember that this is a kind of dark story. Please be mindful of triggering contents 🌹