⊱Un esclave des émotions⊰

Slave to emotions

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"Eunsook! Stop!"

Completely deaf to Greed's yells and blinded by my fury, I marched towards the pink haired girl giggling and kissing the tall guy. My blood was burning my bones and my heart was trembling in wrath.

By the time I reached her, the male had walked away after waving at her, and my hands moved on their own, grabbing and squeezing her neck. Every part of me was screaming at me to kill her, torture her, punish her.

Jia's eyes were as wide as saucers and shaking in terror as she coughed and clawed at my hands. She was acting like she was seeing a monster.

"Sautez d'une falaise," I growled and shoved the girl away with her eyes burning bright purple. (Trans: Jump off a cliff and die).

"Eunsook, stop!" Greed gripped my shoulders and shook my body. "What in the hell are you doing?! Are you out of your damn mind? Killing a mortal?!"

Throwing his hands off myself, I started screaming at him. "How could anyone do this to him?! Him of all people! I can't accept this! Someone like her doesn't deserve someone like Jungkook! I'll kill her! Don't you dare stop me!"

"Snap out of it! We can't take lives directly or indirectly, Eunsook! There are limits we must never cross!"

He suddenly teleported to appear in front of Jia and mumbled something with his eyes locked with hers, making her drop to the ground, passing out. He must had made her hallucinate that she did jump or something. My knees buckled and I dropped to the ground myself.

Droplets of tears fell to the ground before me and I realized that I was crying. I was completely at the mercy of my own emotions and nearly broke a dire rule if Greed didn't interfere.

Just the thought of Jungkook hurting threw me into insanity.

I wasn't myself anymore.

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Pitter patters of the rain drubbed my mind as I tried finding solace in the downpour. The heavy sounds were still not louder than my thoughts, but there was nowhere else I wanted to be than under the heavy rain, soaked and alone with my uncertainties.

I wanted to tell Jungkook what I saw. Oh, how I was aching to tell him and how I was dying to make him break it off with her. He was being deceived and I hated that. I hated that so bad...

But if I told him, I wouldn't be able to complete my mission. Time was running out and he wouldn't date anyone else soon.

...I would disappear.

Still, I just wanted nothing else but to tell him. He didn't deserve this... How could someone cheat on him?

As my thoughts spiraled and left me numb, I didn't realize that the rain wasn't pouring on me anymore.

I lifted my head up to find Jungkook in his black sweatpants and shirt standing before me with an umbrella in hand, covering me from the rain. The pain in my heart worsened seeing him.

"You deserve so much better," I whispered, avoiding his gaze. "Someone who loves you and cherishes you because you're too precious to be ignored and thrown away by someone..."

A chuckle made my ears perk. "This feels like deja vu."

I didn't understand what he meant but I couldn't stop my words from being spilled. "You don't use people, you don't party and you don't drink your pain away... You're so nice and you're just... Are you human?"

"You know why I don't drink my pain away or party around?" I could imagine him smiling from his tone. "Hearing people like you tell me that I'm doing good is enough... Hearing that is healing enough."

"No, it's not."

"Yes, it is."

"Why did it have to be you?" I whispered to myself.

"Come on." He gestured me to stand up. "You're gonna catch a cold."

Sighing, I stood up from the bench and let him walk me back to the dorms. It took everything in me to not open my mouth.

"Does your skin crawl when you're with me?"

Startled, I whipped my head at him and furrowed my eyebrows. "The fu- Never! Where did that come from?"

"Okay," he chuckled, shying away.

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After showering and changing my clothes, I paced around my room, nibbling on my thumb. I have to tell him. I can't let him get hurt like that...

"Then what will happen to your agreement?" I jumped in shock and whirled around to see Greed leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. "We both know he must be in a relationship for your seduction to work."

Blinking, I let hesitation continue to swallow me like quicksand.

"If you're not gonna do it, I'll make him commit a sin of Greed," he said, making me jolt and take slow steps towards him.

"Don't you dare," I warned. "If you try to do anything, I won't forgive you."

Shifting from his disapproving look, his narrow eyes widened abnormally enormously and his mouth hung open. "Oh my gosh- you're in love with him!"

I froze. "What?"

He pointed his finger at me, covering his mouth with his other hand. "You've fallen in love with him!" The sheer shock and horror in his yell made me panic even more.

"N-No, I haven't! W-Why would I? That's so ridiculous!" I kicked his shin, screaming and scowling deeply. "In any case, other sins won't work. It's stated so in the agreement, Jimin!"

He stood silent before me, simply frowning, not believing my words.

I heaved a sigh. "Look, I don't love him. This is just an erratic emotion."

"Sure. I just hope you know what you're dealing with," he whispered, giving me a pained look before vanishing into thin air.

Was I?

Messing up my hair in frustration, I flung the door and walked into Jungkook's room. When I reached the handle, I hesitated again.

But the door opened on itself and out walked the ebony haired boy.

"Oh! Eunsook?"

I scanned his outfit which was different from the previous one - ripped jeans, black sneakers and leather jacket. "You're going somewhere?"

"Yeah, I'm going to meet Jia."

Something shattered inside me and I hated myself for not being able to tell him about her. I stepped backwards and let him go in the end, unable to stop him and reveal her sins.

Every inch of me was aching as I dragged myself to my room.

Disappointed and guilty, I looked at myself in the mirror after repeatedly splashing water at my face. A Sin wasn't supposed to care about a human. I wasn't supposed to care about Jungkook.

"What happened to me?"

My eyes trailed down my long purple hair. Never had I thought I would see such long hair on myself again. It looked pretty but it looked so scary to me. While most of it was purple, it was dark brown around the roots from up close and it terrified me. It terrified me because...

...our hair colors never changed.

"What have I become...?"

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