We were quiet the whole time we’re inside the elevator. He’s holding my hand, and I let him because it comforts me. It gives warmth in me. Until we reached the right floor we’re not talking. I guess, he’s also weighing my expression and contemplating everything like I do.

“You don’t have any specific food you want to request?” He asked again while looking for any ingredients he has in his refrigerator.

I smiled at him even though he's not facing me. “Nothing. Any food you’ll prepare will do.” I said, still smiling.

“You don’t have any shoots this week?” he asked carefully. He knew I am not eating too much every time I have upcoming shoots that’s why he’s asking me this.

“I have no shoots this week. Pahinga ko. Next week meron pero para sa isang brand lang.” Saad ko habang nakapangalumbaba at pinagmamasdan siya.

Tumango siya habang naglilinis ng mga gulay na gagamitin niya sa pagluluto.

“I’ll cook you sinigang na baboy, is that okay with you?” he informed me then turned to me.

Tumango ako. “Anything basta ikaw ang nagluto,”

He smirked at me then continue to do his thing.

Habang naroon siya sa kitchen at nagluluto ay inabala ko ang sarili sa living room. Kinalikot ko pa ang mga librong nakapatong sa coffee table at binuksan ‘yon. Napapakunot naman ang noo ko habang binabasa ang mga title ng libro. It’s all about crimes and laws. Well, these are all connected to his course. Nakakahilo lang basahin.

Habang tiitingnan ko ang mga librong naroon ay nahagip ng tingin ko ang isang magazine na… ako ang front page. What the hell?

The magazine was released three months ago!

Kinuha ko ‘yon at binuklat. It was the brand I modeled while… I was desperate chasing him. Bakit meron siya nito? I thought the copies were already sold out?

“Blade…” I called him while I am looking at the magazine I’m holding.

“Hmm?” He hummed when he heard me. “What?” He asked when he saw me holding the magazine.

“Why… Do you have this?” I asked then show him the magazine. I arched a brow.

His eyes became distant but then he sighed. “I just bought it…” he shrugged.

I narrowed my eyes o him. “When did you bought this? And hindi mo man lang ba binabasa o tinitingnan ‘to?”

“I bought that months ago,” he answered honestly. “And I just bought that because I got curious.”

This has a short background about me.

“Fine. I bought that when I saw your face in it. I got curious because you’re one of the best model in the country just like that magazine said. I’ve read your background.”

“And are you satisfied about it?” I asked teasingly.

He rolled his eyes. “Nope. Hindi nakalagay riyan ang iba mong pinagdaanan.”

“I already told you about it.”

“That’s when I got satisfied.” I smiled at his answer.

Walang sali-salita ay hinagkan ko siya at hinalikan sa labi.

“Crush mo na ako noon pa, ‘no?” I teased him.

“Nope,” napanguso ako sa sagot niya at iniwan siya roon. I heard him.

Then I roam around his condo. This looks like mine. Kasi hindi mo halos maiisip na lalaki ang nakatira rito. It is so neat and clean. At hindi madilim, just like other guys wants in their pad.

“I’ll go to your room!” I shout as I walk towards the stairs and went up. I walk in the hallway where his room is.

Hindi ko na narinig ang sagot niya dahil pumasok na ako sa kuwarto niya. This is heaven! His room gives such comfort to me. Mabilis akong naglakad papunta sa kama niya at humiga roon. Ipinikit ko ang mga mata dinama ang lambot at lamig ng kama niya. Kinuha ko ang isang unan at niyakap ’yon, thinking it’s him.

Hindi ko namalayang nakatulog na pala ako, kung hindi ko lang naramdaman ang kamay na humahaplos sa aking braso ay baka mas lumalim pa ang tulog ko. Nag-aagaw na ang kahel at dilim sa langit nang magmulat ako ng mga mata at tumingin sa sliding door ng kaniyang kuwarto.

“Hey, sorry to wake you up. Dinner is ready,” he said calmly.

Nagkusot ako ng mga mata at bumaling sa kaniya. Ngumiti ako. I spread my arms, wanting a hug from him. He obliged. It made me smile having his warmth in me.

“Are you tired?” he asked softly.

“Nakapahinga naman na ako,” sagot ko habang yakap siya.

He kissed the side of my ear and hugged me tight. Humiga na rin siya para mas lalo akong mayakap. Dinama ko lang ang yakap niya ng ilang sandali bago nagpasyang bumaba na para kumain.

Sa sobrang sarap ng dalawang putaheng niluto niya ay napasarap din ang kain ko. Para akong hindi pinakain ng ilang araw sa dami ng nakain ko!

“I think… I need to go to a gym tomorrow,” nakasimangot kong sambit nang matapos sa pagkain.

“It’s fine, I think? Hindi ka naman din siguro… tataba agad niyan?”

Malungkot ko siyang tiningnan, “mom’s watching my weight.” That simple statement made him stiffened after he realized what I meant. I smiled sadly.

Huminga siya ng malalim bago lumapit sa akin.

“If one day you decided to stop walking on that ramp, posing for others, faking your smiles… I will let you do whatever you want. I don’t care if your parents will be mad at me for letting you do it. I just want to make you happy.” He kissed the top of my head making me smile.

If one day I decided to stop modeling… kami pa kaya no’n?

Hindi naman sa makikipaghiwalay ako sa kaniya, but what if he’ll grow tired of me? What if his feeling fade? What if he’ll realize I’m not the one for him?

Then the fact that I’m arranged for someone and he doesn’t know about it made me feel guilty. I don’t deserve him. I don’t deserve this kind of relationship with him. At nagawa ko pang pagdudahan siya, awayin siya, saktan siya.

“Do you want to stay here for a while or… iuuwi na kita sa condo mo?” he asked. Naghuhugas na siya ngayon ng mga pinagkainan namin at ginamit niya sa pagluto.

Umiling ako, “dito muna ako please. Gusto kitang katabi matulog. Umuwi naman na rin sina Mommy at Daddy sa Cebu kaya ayos lang na matulog ako rito.”

“Alright, may damit ka sa closet ko. Binilhan din kita ng ilang pirasong damit pambahay.” I smiled at his thoughtfulness.

“Thank you, hon!” I said as I walk towards the stairs.

Pumasok ako sa kuwarto niya at kumuha ng damit sa walk in closet niya. Ilang piraso? E, ang dami nito! Alam kong bago lahat ito dahil iilan lang namang damit pambahay ang dinala ko rito noon. May damit din na p’wede kong gamiting pampasok sa school.

Umiling na lang ako at kumuha ng pantulog na pares—isa sa mga binili niyang pantulog— at pumasok na ako sa adjacent door papunta sa kaniyang banyo. Naligo ako at nagbihis doon. Pinatuyo ko na rin ang buhok ko bago lumabas.

Naabutan ko siyang nakatitig sa kaniyang cellphone, tila may binabasang hindi niya maintindihan o sadyang ganiyan talaga ang ekspresyon niya? Mukhang galit dahil magkasalubong ang mga kilay, matalas ang tingin, at ang labi ay kagat-kagat niya.

“What’s with that serious face?” I asked playfully making him look up at me. I smiled and arched a brow.

“Just reading our thesis,” he answered. Ibinaba niya ang kaniyang cellphone sa bedside table at pinagmasdan ako.

Lumapit ako sa whole body size mirror niya at tiningan ang sarili roon habang sinusuklay ang aking buhok.

“Let’s rest now,” he said seriously. I turned to look at him and smiled.

He tapped his side, urging me to go there and lay beside him. I chuckled and shook my head. Tinapos ko ang pagsusuklay ng buhok at pumunta na sa kama para tabihan siya.

“Damn, smell so sweet.” He kissed my hair. Natawa ako roon bago tinabunan ang sarili ng kumot niya.

Niyakap niya ako habang umaayos kami ng paghiga.

“I fucking missed you,” he murmured.

“I missed you too.” I smiled before closing my eyes.

Hinawakan niya ang aking panga na nagpamulat sa akin. Maya-maya pa ay bumaba ang mukha niya para patakan ng marahang halik ang aking labi. I smiled at that. I saw how desire crossed his eyes while looking intently at my lips. Then he dipped again to taste my lips. This time it last for a few seconds. Then he looked at my eyes, soulful.

My eyes mirrored his. I saw how his feelings intensified looking at my eyes with the same heat.

Bumaba muli ang mukha niya para bigyan muli ako ng halik. Ngayon naman ay hindi lang iyon simpleng halik, mas malalim iyon. Gumalaw ang labi niya dahilan ng biglaan ko ring pagtugon. I stilled while tasting his lips. Then he bit my lower lip making me open my mouth a little. Ginawa niya iyong pagkakataon para ipasok ang kaniyang dila sa bibig ko.

“Uhm…” I moaned when I tasted his tongue inside my mouth.

Naramdaman ko ang pag-iinit ng katawan ko lalo pa nang maramdaman ko ang kamay niyang bumaba mula sa aking leeg papunta sa aking beywang.

We got drunk by our hot and wild kisses. He made me drunk with his kisses!

Bawat galaw ng labi niya ay siyang paghalinghing ko. Then I felt his hand went inside my clothes. He cupped my breast and mold it. Dahil wala akong bra na suot dahil matutulog na ako ay ramdam na ramdam ko ang init ng kaniyang palad sa aking dibdib.

“Ohh!” I growl as I felt his two finger play with my peak.

Kissed me wildly I forgot to think right.

“I love you,” he whispered in between our kisses.

I blushed even more. “I love you, Blade.”

Bumaba ang halik niya papunta sa aking leeg. Habang ginagawa niya ‘yon ay dahan-dahan na siyang kumukubabaw sa akin.

“I know you’re not ready yet but… please, let me taste you. Just a foreplay…” he smirked making my body heat even more. “Hindi ko lang mapigilan.”

“Do as you please…” I respond hoarsely.

Itinaas niya ang aking suot na satin sleeveless top at agad na ipinasok sa kaniyang bibig ang kaliwang nipple ko. Napaliyad ako sa init na lumukob sa aking buong katawan. Mula sa paa hanggang batok ang init na aking naramdaman habang pinaglalaruan niya ang aking utong gamit ang kaniyang dila.

He sucked, nibbled, and licked my nipple while massaging the other boob of mine. I arched my body when he did it alternately. Then his mouth slowly went down. From my mound to my stomach. Kissed it lightly that made me shiver.

Then slowly his kisses went to my pelvis. Is shivered. Maya-maya pa ay hindi ko na napansing naibaba na niya ang aking short at panty. Naramdaman ko ang lamig ng buong kuwarto dahil doon. Pero agad ding nawala at napalitan ng init nang maramdaman ko ang labi niya roon.

“Ohh! Fuck, Blade!” I arched my body when he kissed my sensitivity.

Napasabunot ako sa kaniyang buhok nang maramdaman ko ang kaniyang dila na humagod sa pagkababae ko. Napaliyad ako at mas lalo siyang sinabunutan at ipinagduldulan doon. Hindi ko na inalintana kung nasasaktan siya sa pagsabunot ko dahil mas dinadama ko ang init at sarap na binibigay niya sa aking katawan.

Bawat hagod ng kaniyang dila ay mas lalong dumidiin ang pagpikit ko at ang paghigpit ng sabunot ko sa kaniyang buhok. I don’t care anymore if I hurt him, I just want to hold onto something because he’s making me fucking crazy!

“Oh! Shit, Blade. I’m—ohh! I’m coming!” I shout as I curled my toes out of anticipation to cum. “Ah! Fuck, yes, keep licking me… ohh…”

After a few lick, my body convulsed in intensified sensation. I orgasm in his mouth. I felt like my world span literally as I felt myself releasing. Bawat hagod ng kaniyang dila roon ay mas lalong nagpabaliw sa akin na para bang hindi ko na alam kung paano ako aahon mula roon. He kept on licking my femininity, tila inuubos ang orgasmong inilabas ko. Damn it, Blade!

Pilit ko siyang itinutulak palayo roon. Nagpatulak siya pero nabigla ako nang maramdaman ko ang kaniyang daliri na unti-unting pumapasok sa pagkababae ko. Napatirik ang mata ko dahil sa biglaang naramdaman. His long finger slowly thrust inside my femininity. I let out a long groan when I felt my inside tightening.

Then slowly, his finger moved inside and out of my femininity.

He kissed me making me bit back my moan while his finger started to move faster inside me. Mapakapit ako sa kaniyang braso at batok. Hinayaan niya ako. Then I felt it again, my insides are tightening while his finger keeps on thrusting inside me. Hindi nagtagal ay nilabasan ulit ako. I bite his lower lip so hard I tasted metal.

“S-Sorry,” I apologized after biting his lip.

“It’s fine…” he respond hoarsely.

Dahan-dahan niyang inalis ang kaniyang daliri sa loob ko dahil ng pagpikit at pag-ungol ko. He gave me a tender kiss before lifting himself up.

“Hey…” tawag ko sa kaniya nang dahan-dahan siyang umupo sa tabi ko. I’m all naked and he’s still wearing his clothes. I pouted. It’s unfair since I’m only one who got pleasured. “I want to…”

“Hmm!” he turned to me, looking amused.

“I want to…”

“You want to… what?”

“Pleasure you, too.” Nahihiyang sambit ko. “It’s just too unfair… because… ako lang ‘yong nakaramdam ng… pleasure?”

He chuckled. “It’s fine for me, though. I just want to pleasure you,”

“But, how ’bout you? I know you are… aroused too.”

“I am. But if you’re not ready yet, then it’s fine for me. I don’t want to force you.”

“But I want to do it…”

Hindi ko pa nakikita ang kaniya but I am thrilled. I don’t know why, but… I want to see it, too.

“You sure?” he asked carefully, making sure that I’m not just feeling guilty and forced to do it.

I nodded.

“I want to pleasure you, too.”

I saw a ghost of a smile while looking at me. Then he smirked. Stood up and removed his shirt. I gulp out of the sight. Damn, he’s smoking hot! Then he removed his short. I gulped even more. Next is his boxer brief. His member sprung. Nanlaki ang mata ko sa nakita. His size is overwhelming! Or… is it just because this is my first time seeing it in person? I’ve seen a fucking cock in one of our subject—anatomy—but didn’t expect this kind of… size. In real life.

“Damn, baby, don’t stare at it too much. I might cum in a seconds just because of your stare.” Napabalik ako sa reyalidad nang magsalita si Blade.

I look up at him and blinked.

“You’re… big.” I stated the fact.

He chuckled. “Yeah, I am.”

Slowly I get up and sit just in front of him. I saw how he swallowed hard. His Adam’s apple moved because of it. Dahan-dahan ay iniangat ko ang aking kamay para hawakan ‘yon. Ang dulo nito ay mamula-mula at may pagkamakintab. I think because of his pre-cum? Slowly my hand wrapped his maleness around.

I heard him grunt. I looked up at him and saw desire and pleasure mixed together. His breathing became even. Mas lalo akong na-motivate na gawin ito. Because of it, I slowly move my hand back and forth.

“Fuck, baby. Faster…” nahihirapang sambit niya habang pinagpapatuloy ko ang ginagawa. “You’re making me crazy.”

I smirked. Mas lalo ko pang pinag-igihan ang ginagawa sa kaniya. Ang kanina’y dahan-dahan ay binilisan ko. Rinig ko ang mabibigat at malalim niyang hininga. Maging ang kaniyang tiyan ay tumitigas dahil sa aking ginagawa.

Then I remember that one porn I’ve watched with Dane and Theo… damn those old times, magagamit din pala. Galit pa ako kay Theo noon dahil pinapanood sa amin ‘yon ni Dane!

“Want some spice?” I asked lusciously.

Kumunot ang noo niya, tila naguguluhan at nahihirapang intindihin ang sinabi ko.

Dahil doon ay unti-unti akong lumapit sa dulo ng pagkalalaki niya. His mouth dropped open when he saw me nearing his manhood. Hindi ko inalis ang titig ko sa kaniya habang ginagawa ‘yon. Maya-maya pa ay dumikit ang labi ko roon. Making his breathing hitched.

Slowly and seductively, I put his manhood’s head inside my mouth. I gagged. This is my first time, and with his size, I almost choked up. Pero hindi ako tumigil.

“Ohh! Fuck, baby! This is fucking insane. Damn!” he cursed a lot. I didn’t care, though.

Maya-maya lang ay nag-umpisa na akong gumalaw. Labas-masok sa aking bibig ang kaniyang pagkalalaki. Inabot niya ang dibdib ko at minasahe ‘yon na mas lalong nagbigay ng init sa akin. Then he’s slowly meeting me halfway. Making me gagged even more.

“Oh shit! Oh! I’m coming! Fuck!” hindi rin nagtagal ay inilayo niya ang sarili niya sa akin at siya na ang nagpatuloy. Napapikit ako nang tumalsik sa mukha ko ‘yon. Nandidiri kong pinunasan ‘yon.

“Iw!”

Natawa siya at kumuha ng tissue sa night stand bago pinunasan ang mukha ko.

“Sorry… and thank you.” He said while wiping his semen out of my face.

“I think… I need to shower again,” sambit ko dahil nanlalagkit na naman ako dahil sa ginawa namin.

“Okay, wash up if you want. I’ll just check everything downstairs before we sleep.” Tumango ako at umalis sa kama.

Nag-half bath na lang ako at kumuha ng bagong panty. Sinuot kong muli ang hinubad ko kanina noong… natapos akong maligo kanina. Then I proceed to the bed. Saktong pagpasok ni Blade. Nakabihis na siya ulit—’yong damit niya kanina—bago dumiretso sa kama at tumabi sa akin.

“Let’s sleep now?” He said softly before giving me a kiss on my lips and forehead.

“Let’s sleep. Good night, mahal.” I said before closing my eyes. I heard him gasp.

“Damn. I didn’t know I will love endearment like this.” Rinig kong bulong niya pero hindi ko na siya pinansin dahil hinihila na ako ng antok.

Kahit naman ako… I didn’t know the time will come that I will love someone truly.