HIS POINT OF VIEW (Untold scenes)

I was a playboy when I met her. When she bumped into me, I got seized by her alluringly beauty. I felt like my world stopped for awhile as I look at her angelic face. She's a real definition of beauty. And her voice . . . damn. So fvcking attractive.

"S-Sorry,"

"It’s fine.” I smiled a bit at her and she looks stunned. "H’wag ka na lang siguro tumakbo sa susunod kapag maraming tao." She nodded obediently at me.

So adorable.

And the following days was so fvcking odd. Like, what the fvck! She just saw me kissing a girl in our library!

But I think that doesn't make her like me less. I know. Sa paraan pa lang na ginagawa niyang pagsulyap sa akin, alam ko nang gusto niya ako. I know when girls has a crush on me. But she's young for me. I told myself she's not my type but here I am, looking for her every damn time.

Kapag hindi siya nakatingin, ako ang tumitingin sa kaniya. I think, I'm starting to like her. Her personality and her cuteness. She's damn cute whenever she blushed.

"Bro, crush ka siguro no'ng freshman na 'yon, 'no?" Yaj asked while we're having a lunch break.

"Who?" I asked confusedly. Kahit na may hinuha ako kung sino.

Hermione Belle Gaila.

What a beautiful name.

"That freshman, sino ba 'yon, bro." Siniko niya si Yro.

"Malay ko sa 'yo, tsismoso ka 'di mo kilala?" Pang-aasar ni Yisroel sa kaniya.

"Gago, bagong student lang kasi kaya 'di ko kilala. Palagi ko kasing napapansin kapag uwian nakatingin palagi sa 'yo 'yong babae na 'yon. Tapos maya-maya ay magtatago. Creepy but cute." he even smiled at the last sentence.

I throw him a dagger look, "bakit ba ang dami mong napapansin? Mag-aral ka nang mabuti para hindi ka bumagsak."

"Sinasabi ko lang naman na crush ka no'n. Halata naman kasi." He shrugged before resuming eating.

Napailing na lang ako bago nagpatuloy rin sa pagkain. Napabaling ako kay Axton na tahimik lang sa gilid, tapos nang kumain kaya naman nagkakalikot na lang sa cellphone niya.

"My cousin's doing fine, Axton." Napatingin siya sa akin at nagtaas ng kilay.

Nakitaan ko siya ng sakit sa mga mata at pangungulila. It's been two years since my cousin left him yet he's still not over it. Sinundan pa nga niya sa ibang bansa pero bumalik din. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Akala ako ay kakausapin niya si Julia pero hindi naman nangyari.

Our days went well until we're already in our fourth year in College. Isang taon na lang, I will soon to be an Architect. I feel proud of myself.

"Puro ka na lang laro sa pagmamahal, Cyrus. When are you going to be serious in just one girl?" Mommy said in a frustrated tone.

I really don't know. Maybe if our paths would cross again, I would.

Mapait akong napangiti nang maalala ang nangyari noong fourth year College ako. She was in second year that time, and she's still striving her dreams. I can't ruin her. Because I know to myself we'll just break up if ever I accept her confession.

I rejected her for her own good. I can't ruin her because of my playboy side. I can be a one woman man for her. But we're still young.

"You're too young. I can't like you. You're still young for me. I would be a cradle snatcher if. . ." I will give myself a chance to be with you.

Cradle snatcher my ass. She's already nineteen! She's not a minor anymore but I told her that just to . . . keep her strive her dreams.

"You're . . . rejecting me, right?"

Damn. Her shaking voice and pained eyes made me want to punch myself. Nakakagago na gusto ko siya, pero nire-reject ko siya ngayon.

"I hope you can move on," no. I don't want you to move on, baby. I want you to stay in love with me. In love? Is she? Or is that just an infatuation? Damn. Just . . . just don't fall in love with someone else and I will really pursue you when time comes.

After I graduated college, our paths didn't cross again. I was hoping to see her again. Because God knows how much I want to see and talk to her again.

I became a notorious playboy that my mother wants me settle down at the age of 27. Pero hindi ko pa kaya. Parang . . . may hinihintay ako. Parang may hinahanap pa ako.

I hired an investigator to look for her. Nalaman kong may trabaho na siya sa isang bangko. She's living out of her uncle and aunt's house. And she's now living in an apartment but I did not made a way to meddle in her life. I want so bad to face her but I also wanted to made it as coincidence as possible. I would look like a creep if I show up in her face just like that.

"You're already twenty-nine, Cy. What are your plans in life, huh? Just play around girls? Don't you think settling down is a good way of . . . having a best day in life?" si Mommy na may pagsusumamo sa mga mata.

Kumunot ang noo ko sa sinabi niya. Why is she keeps on telling me to settle down? Ayaw ko pa. I still want to explore our company — my company. I still need time to settle down. I need to . . . see her.

"Mom, I'm still not yet ready to settle down." Ang palaging linya ko para tigilan ako ni Mommy sa usaping 'yon.

And God heard what I am always praying.

I saw her again. And damn. She's my new employee! She's now under my company. And my naughty side is there again, for her. Only for her.

"You have a boyfriend?" I asked looking pissed now when she bumped into me and told me she's waiting for her boyfriend's reply. "Fvck." I muttered a curse before walking past her.

Bigla akong nagalit. Bakit? Bakit kailangan niyang mag-boyfriend agad?! And what the fvck, she looks so smitten while waiting for that bastard's reply! Hindi maaari 'yon.

So I did everything to investigate about her boyfriend. And turns out, I knew that he's cheating. Now, it's my turn to pursue her. Hindi ko na hahayaang magkalayo ulit kami at maghintay nang matagal.

And when I saw her flushed whil we're having that heated night, I realized, I'm falling for her. No, scratch that. I already fell for her since then. I love her. But my mouth says otherwise.

I just fvcking told her I just like her. I saw disappointment crossed in her beguiling eyes and I want throttle my neck for that. Napakatorpe mo, Cyrus!

"You're always busy, Cyrus. Ano ba'ng pinagkakaabalahan mo sa trabaho?" tanong ni Yadiel habang nag-iinom kaming magkakaibigan.

"Ano'ng ano? Sino!" si Yisroel na sinamaan ko ng tingin. "Always busy with someone. Always occupied by someone. Hindi na nga 'ata 'yan nagtatrabaho nang matino at mukhang may binabakuran." Natawa siya sa sariling sinabi.

"I'm not as possessive as you, Yisroel." inirapan ko siya.

"Well, my Leanne is damn beautiful and guys were flocking her. Nakakairita. Kaya kailangan talagang bakuran." Nagkibit balikat siya at hindi idininy ang akusa ko.

"E, 'di pakasalan mo na." ani Raven na nakangisi.

"Malapit na, bro. Malapit na. Ano'ng akala mo sa 'kin, walang plano sa buhay? Ikakasal kami ni Leanne, kapag natapos na 'yong bahay na pinagagawa ko." Gumanti ng ngisi si Yisroel kay Raven.

"Ikaw, any plans of marrying your girl?" I asked Raven.

"I already have the ring," kaya pala mayabang at nakahanda na.

Nailing na lang ako pero masaya ako para sa kanila dahil simula pa lang noon ay masaya na ang love life nila. While me? Still playing before Hermione. And she killed the playboy inside me.

Now, I want to settle down. With her.

"I like that girl for you, son." Kumunot na naman ang noo ko sa sinabi ni Mommy nang umuwi ako sa mansyon.

She saw Hermione in my office. So now she's concluding something.

"I saw your stare at her, Cyrus. Kung alam ko lang na siya lang ang magpapatino sa 'yo, sana noon pa lang ay pinahanap ko na siya." Naguluhan ako sa sinabi niya. She sneered at me. "I saw her picture on your room, son."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

"What?! Mom!"

She smiled sheepishly at me. "That was . . . the time you graduated in college and you chose to have alone life in your condo. She's a beauty, indeed. I like her for you, Cy. Please . . ." she had her puppy eyes.

I smiled, "I think, mom, I'm ready to settle down."

Napapikit ako nang bigla siyang tumili at hinayaan siyang yakapin ako nang mahigpit. Napangiti na lang din ako dahil kahit ako ay masaya.

We're having a good relationship with each other, even without label, I still consider it as a relationship. I want to fvcking tell her how much I love her and have a real relationship with her but every time I try to tell her that . . . my tongue is just not cooperating. Natotorpe ako. Alam kong kahit siya ay gusto na ang label sa relasyon namin pero siyempre dapat ay ako ang mag-open niyon sa kaniya. Pero naduduwag ako. At hindi ko alam kung para saan ang kaduwagang 'yon.

And the next thing I knew, she's asking for space. Because I'm confusing her. She wants to think about this deeply. I am too. I want her affection yet I'm giving her mixed signals. I'm such a jerk for that.

"Just keep an eye on her. Tell me everything she does everyday, before she go to work and after work. I want your report, everyday." sambit ko sa isa sa mga personal bodyguard ko dahil hindi ko naman p'wedeng ipagkatiwala sa iba ito.

"Copy that, sir." aniya na tinanguan ko lang.

Umalis na siya kaya naman inihilig ko na ang ulo sa backrest ng aking sofa. Huminga ako nang malalim bago ngumisi.

"I'll give you the space you wanted, babe, but I want to know what you were doing." bulong ko sa sarili ko bago pumikit.

One day, my personal bodyguard gave a clip. When opened it, my body froze. Hindi . . .

My Hermione is with her ex-boyfriend, Sherwin, and they're heading to her apartment. She looks sick, paled, and weak. I don't know what happened to her and I texted her about that, she didn't replied.

An idea flood my mind but I refuse to think about it.

"Hindi niya gagawin sa akin 'yon," I believe her. I trust her. She will never cheat on me. She will never.

Our days went on. I'm keeping my eye on her even in the company. Bumababa ako sa cafeteria para lang malamang kumakain siya ng tama. I'm watching everything she does from afar.

At kahit alam kong hindi siya mag-rereply sa text ko ay araw-araw at gabi-gabi ko siyang tine-text.

To: My babe
Babe, I will be with my friends tonight at a bar. I will drink but I promise I will be at home before 12am.

Bubuntutan ko pa sana ng salitang 'I love you' kaso baka bigla siyang mabigla.

And that night was like a whirlwind. We're having a good conversation as we drunk some hard liquor. Until I felt my world spinning. I kept on saying I miss Hermione so much because it felt hell without her beside me. Without her sweet smiles and beautiful face everyday. Damn. I fvcking miss her!

"Ah, I'm drunk." Umiling ako habang sinasapo ang aking ulo.

"Let's go home," ani Yro at inalalayan akong tumayo dahil lasing na ako. Hinahawi ko ang kamay niya habang nanatiling nakaupo sa VIP couch na 'yon.

Napatigil sila nang may dumating sa reserved seat namin.

"Hi! I'm Kendra, I'm Cyrus' friend."

Nag-angat ako ng tingin at naningkit ang aking mga mata.

"I don't have a friend named Kendra," b*tch.

"Ah, ako na ang bahala sa kaniya. Hermione knows me. I'm her cousin. I promise, he's safe with me."

She's talking to me but I don't know what she's talking about now because I'm drunk. Damn liquor. My eyes were closed when he suddenly kissed my lips. Agad akong umiwas dahil do'n.

"Don't. My girlfriend will be furious if she knew I was kissed by other girls." lasing na sambit ko.

"Hindi naman niya malalaman," bulong nito pero umiling ako.

"No . . ." she was trying to kiss me again pero agad akong umiiwas para hindi niya mahalikan.

I don't know what happened next. And the next thing happened was, I am in a room — an unfamiliar room, with a woman I don't know.

"Who are you?" I asked, getting up in the bed.

She's undressing herself and it made me felt disgusted. What a desperate woman.

"Hmm?" She hummed seductively that made me cringe.

"Don't undress yourself in front of me, I won't be seduced. I only wanted one woman in my life. It's just Hermione Belle Gaila. She's the woman I love."

I saw how her face turned sour. Her lips in a grim line and she stopped removing her brassiere.

"You really love her, huh." She scoffed.

"Yes, I do. I do really love her and I will always love her. So stop that. Uuwi na ako." Pinilit kong tumayo pero hindi ko kinaya at napabalik sa kinahihigaan, napadaing ako at humiga ulit.

"I love you, Cyrus. Bakit ba hindi mo pa rin ako mabigyan ng kaunting pansin? Puro ka na lang Hermione nang Hermione! Puro na lang siya! Bakit hindi naman ako?! Subukan mo 'ko, Cyrus! Kaya kitang mahalin, higit pa sa pagmamahal ni Mio! Kaya rin naman kitang pasayahin sa kahit anong bagay, paligayahin sa kama, kayang-kaya ko . . ." rinig ko ang paghagulgol niya pero nanatili akong nakapikit.

"I will never love you the way I love your cousin. She's my one and only girl." Marahan kong sambit upang maintindihan niya na hindi lang katawan ang gusto ko kay Hermione. I want all of her, her personality, her smiles, her sweetness, her gestures, her lips, her everything. Walang hindi ko magugustuhan sa kaniya. Even her flaws, her sassy side, I love everything about her. She's like my salvation.

"You're still not trying me," her pained voice made me open my eyes and look at her indifference.

"I will never try anyone, not even you. I will stay faithful to her."

"You still don't know her well,"

"Even so,"

Wala na akong nagawa nang lamunin ako ng antok. Nagising ako nang nakahubad na ang pang-itaas na damit. I look around the unfamiliar room and saw a woman, grinning from ear to ear while looking at her phone.

"Why am I here?" I asked, getting up and feeling sober now. I look for my shirt and dress up, my hair is in disheveled but I don't fvcking care about it. I just want to go out of here.

"Why?" Ang malambing niyang boses ay nakakairita sa tainga.

"Why am I fvcking here?! Fvck it!" Mabilis akong naglakad palabas ng kuwarto na 'yon. Pero hindi pa man ako tuluyang nakakarating sa pintuan ay nagsalita na siya.

"There's something happened," natigilan ako at napatingin sa kaniya sa galit na paraan.

"Nothing happened." mariing sambit ko at naglakad palapit sa kaniya.

"You were naked, so I am. Something happened between us. You kissed me . . ." that phrase triggered me.

I almost punched her but I stopped. Kung sasaktan ko siya ng pisikal ngayon, para ko na ring pinatunayan na meron ngang nangyari at . . . na kaya ko ring saktan si Hermione ng pisikal. Hindi ako mananakit ng babae. Kahit ganito pa kagago ang babaeng ito.

Kita ko ang bakas ng takot sa mukha niya nang ibaba ko ang kamay ko.

"Kahit lasing ako, alam ko kung may nangyari sa atin o wala. Hindi ako bobo. Hindi lang ikaw ang babaeng gumawa ng kadesperadahan sa buhay niya, para lang makuha ako. Hindi ako tanga."

Mabilis akong umalis doon at iniwan siya. Pero bago pa sumara ang pinto ng elevator ay sumakay na siya. Nanlilisik ang mga mata kong tiningnan siya.

"Sasabay lang ako papunta sa kompanya," aniya na nagpatagis ng bagang ko.

"Ang kapal ng mukha mo 'no? Wala talagang hiya."

Hinayaan ko siyang sumabay sa akin. Pero hindi ko alam na may binabalak pala ang babaeng 'yon sa lahat. Balak ko na sanang kausapin si Hermione nang bigla niya akong sampalin.

"Ang kapal ng mukha mong magpakita pa sa akin!" sigaw niya na nagpatigil sa buong katawan ko.

She accused me things that broke me. But those accusations are not true. I will stay loyal to her even she's away from me.

Hindi ito ang panahong hinihintay ko na sasabihin ko sa kaniya ang pagmamahal ko pero wala na akong nagawa kung 'di ang umamin sa nararamdaman ko. Dahil hindi niya man ako paniwalaan, at least nasabi ko. Nailabas ko.

"Yes, I damn love you. Fvck."

But her decision were already made up. I want her to stay so I begged. Kahit ano gagawin ko, manatili lang siya. Kahit pa ang lumuhod ng ilang oras sa lupa, gagawin ko. Manatili lang siya.

And when she said she's staying, I hold onto that. Kumapit ako kahit hindi ko alam kung gusto pa ba niya ako.

Ginawa ko ang lahat upang mapatunayan sa kaniya na hindi totoo ang nang akusasyon ni Kendra; na may nangyari sa amin. Hindi ako papayag na sirain niya ang kung anong mayroon sa amin ni Hermione.

I lover her so much I couldn't live a life without her. I would really lose my sanity.

Pinatanggal ko ang pinsan niya sa trabaho.

"You can't do this to me! I'm working very well!"

"Oh, yes I can. I will pay for the compensation. You leave." matigas ang boses na sambit ko. "Ayaw ko nang makita pa ang pagmumukha mo." namutla siya at hindi na alam ang gagawin.

My investigator compile some CCTV footages and worked hard for it. I will give him a reward if Hermione give me another chance in her life.

"She kissed . . . my man." It hurts seeing her in pain, and that pain was inflicted by me.

I can't lose her again. So I did everything to prove myself not guilty with her accusations that I cheated behind her back. I would never do that.

And when she said yes to me, I fvcking feel like I won the lottery.

"Damn. I love you so much, babe."

And I will never, ever, waste this chance you have given to me. I will always love you. Always.