AN/ Whats that? You don't want wolfstar angst? Well TOO BADDD

Remus had no clue why he'd invited Sirius in, all Remus knew was that he missed him, and all he wanted to do was share a cig with an old friend. So that's how he ended up outside with Sirius, sharing a snout between them.

"I take it Andys told you that Nymphs moving back?" Remus said, blowing out the smoke into the cold air and passing it to Sirius, who happily took it.
"Dora actually told me herself," Sirius confessed, tapping the extra tobacco from the cigarette before taking a draw.

Remus nodded, feeling oddly betrayed, he would have thought Tonks would've told him that she was speaking to Sirius again, then again they were cousins, so Remus couldn't grudge literal family speaking to one another, but he still didn't know how to act around Sirius, the rage was still there, but the longing for his old best friend was there as well, it was like a civil war in his brain.
"Thanks again for driving Ted back, he's been... He's never done anything like this before." Remus said lowly, squeezing the bridge of his nose in exhaustion, Sirius nodded and handed the smoke back over.

"He's a teenager, and compared to most teenage boys.." Sirius paused, laughing lightly - clearly remembering their own teen years. "He's actually really cool, that whole blue hair thing he's got goin' on." Remus chuckled then, snubbing out the cig on the windowsill beside them and tugging a hand through his own dirty fawn locks.
"Well, it may be cool, but now my loo's tainted with blue hair dye." Sirius barked a laugh at this, startling Remus to how familiar it was. He was sure he could've just shut his eyes right there; and he could've pretended that he was fifteen again, wrapped in Sirius's arms, cracking jokes and teasing him.

Sirius looked over at Remus, admiring his side profile, the same long nose that fit on his face just right, the scatters of freckles and the faint markings of scars he had obtained when he was a kid. Sirius wanted to tell him the truth, he wanted to spill every single thought he had had over the last sixteen years.

He wanted, he wanted... He just wanted so bad it hurt, but it wasn't his right to want anymore. Remus had made that perfectly clear. So instead of smashing his lips into Remus like he so desperately wanted to do. Instead, he cleared his throat, which made Remus snap his eyes open.
"That's- that's me off," Sirius said, the mood suddenly horribly awkward. He would have never thought he could be awkward around Remus, but hey! - sixteen years will do that to a relationship.

Remus just nodded briskly, and Sirius turned around, heading back to his car, keys jingling in his pocket. He wished that he could turn around right now, that Remus would stop him, stop him from leaving. Sirius was so sick of leaving.
"Sirius, wait," Remus called and Sirius froze immediately, turning around to see Remus looked at him painfully. Sirius felt the flicker of hope erupt in his stomach, stupid, stupid hope.

"Talk to James, he misses you like hell," Remus said, now looking at the ground, the cold air biting at his nose, making it flush red underneath the yellow glow of the streetlamp. Sirius's stomach dropped, cursing himself for hoping.

"Alright," Sirius said slowly, looking at Remus one last time before turning back around and marching towards his car, leaving the only person who he's ever felt at home with.

Remus sat across from Teddy, staring at his boy in the cold light of the day.
Teddy was shifting uncomfortably on the sofa, his leg bouncing up and down. The two hadn't spoken since the night before, only waking up and sharing some knowing stares. Teddy had made his father a cup of coffee, which sat untouched on the coffee table. Remus needed this over and done with.

"I'm sorry Da, I made a huge mistake." Teddy suddenly burst out, tears in his eyes, and Remus felt like the worst father in the whole world. He felt like Lyall, and that made him want to cry by itself.
"I'm sorry as well, I should have never screamed at you like that. You weren't a mistake annwyl, you're probably the best thing that's ever happened to me." Remus confessed, all of his anger gone.

Teddy laughed and finally looked Remus in the eye, "What about that time we saw Hugh Grant in Tescos ?" He joked, and he burst of much-needed laughter, and Teddy laughed back. Remus opened up his arms and Teddy sprinted across the room, launching himself into his Dad, burrowing his blue head into Remus's scratchy jumper.

"I love you Da, you're my bestest mate," Teddy said, his small sounding voice vibrating against Remus's chest. Remus kissed the top of Teddy's head.
"Ditto."

Teddy laughed again, wiping a tear from his eye as he looked at his Dad, and he knew his Dad deserved the truth.
"Da?" Teddy said nervously, moving away from Remus's chest and sitting on the edge of the coffee table in front of the sofa.
"Yeah?" Remus answered, wondering why Teddy was so nervous all of a sudden. Teddy played with the end of his bracelet that Lily had gotten him when he was 10.

"I wasn't with Victoire last night..." Teddy flushed and Remus tried to keep his shock to himself.
"Then where the hell were you then?" Remus said slowly, not wanting to get angry again.
"Do you know Leo Rankin?" Teddy said, his blush getting deeper, and Remus felt like a total idiot.
"Well, He's my boyfriend," Teddy said shyly, looking up at Remus nervously. Remus couldn't believe he could've been such an idiot. After all, he had done the same exact thing, he'd pretended to date Lily so that his dad didn't suspect him and Sirius, (Until his dad caught him and Sirius in bed together the illusion was shattered.)

"And Victoire?" Remus asked with a knowing smile that only made Teddy flush even deeper.
"She's- Don't tell anyone Da, but she's going around with Cathy.." Teddy said and Remus smiled softly at his son - who was more like him than he'd thought.

"Oh Teddy, why did you think you'd have to lie to me? I would know better than anyone, for fucks sake I did the same thing with Lily!" Remus laughed and Teddy's eyes went wide.
"Lilys?"
"No, no but it was a good way for James to stop asking her out every two minutes," Remus smirked and Teddy relaxed a little bit, the guilt dropping from his shoulders.
"It was just easier, you know? And Leo's not exactly the most... He just wants to keep it a secret."

Remus looked at his son, and he saw himself, he saw himself when he was fifteen and hiding with Sirius, but that was then and that was him and he never ever wanted that for his son.
"Son, you deserve more than that, if Leo doesn't want anyone to know then, then he's just not worth it, okay? You deserve more than hiding and sneaking around - that was for my generation, but you don't have to do that, it's not a way to live - trust me." Remus said, grabbing Teddy's hand and looking at him right in his eyes.

"I know, but I love him Da," Teddy said desperately, tears streaming down his young face, making Remus's heart break.
"And if he loves you back, if he truly loves you he'll do anything for you, he'll tell anyone, otherwise, fuck him. There are a million other guys who will love you like you deserve to be loved Kiddo." Remus said, wiping a tear from Teddy's face, and Teddy nodded, launching himself back into Remus's chest.

The apple doesn't fall far from the tree.

16 years earlier

Remus was boiling mad, well he was more than mad. Sirius had really fucking done it this time. They were done, over, kaput. Remus was done making up excuses for Sirius, he was done with Sirius's lies and bullshit. Flirting was one thing. Sirius couldn't help himself, Sirius would flirt with a tree if left alone with it for too long, but kissing Cindy Long in the common room was just blatant cheating, and Remus was pretty sure there had been more than that, he just couldn't trust Sirius anymore.

He was hurt, crushed, and wanted, no- needed , Sirius to hurt as well. I guess that's why he found himself rattling on the door to Nymphadora Tonks's dorm room. Remus knew that she had just broken up with Charlie, so he wanted to talk to her. He also knew somewhere in the back of his mind that Tonks had always fancied him, so there was that.

To his surprise, Tonks opened the door, wearing only a little tank top and shorts, Remus realised that he'd never done anything with a girl, what if he wasn't gay? What if...
And that's how he found himself snogging Tonks that fateful night, and again to his surprise, she snogged him right back.

"James, can you please stop buying Pepsi and just buy Coke like a normal person!" Remus called from the Potters kitchen, his head stuck in the fridge. Later in the day, Remus had just told Lily and James (With Teddy's permission.) The truth about Teddy's dating life.

"Like father like son, eh Moony?" James laughed, and Lily rolled her eyes gently at Remus,
"You Lupin Boys, so eerily similar," Lily said, bouncing a sleepy Harry on her knee.

"I will stop buying Pepsi Lupin when Aldi stops making it so damn cheap!" James shouted back from the living room. Remus shook his head disapprovingly but grabbed a can of Pepsi , walking back into the living room and sitting next to James on the sofa. James had a controller in his hand, playing Fifa 19 quite half-heartedly, but when Remus sat next to him, he dropped the controller and turned to Remus, a serious expression on his face.

Remus was quite alarmed, as the only times Remus hadn't seen James look like a perpetually happy douche was when he married Lily, and when Harry was born.
"What's up Prongs?" Remus said nervously, cracking open his Pepsi.
"What did you say to Sirius?" James asked, inspecting Remus's face suspiciously, and Remus then remembered what he'd said to Sirius last night.

"I told him that he should talk to you, cause you miss him," Remus said truthfully, knowing nothing could get past James Potter. Remus expected James to get angry at him, because it was actually none of Remus's business if James missed Sirius or not, but this is James Potter we're talking about here, so he pounced forward and gave Remus a very aggressive hug.

"Thank you Moony," James whispered in Remus's ear, before unlatching himself and picking up the controller so he could join another match.
"I take it he spoke to you then?" Remus said, looking at James and realising how he'll never ever know what the hell that man is thinking. James nodded, not taking his eyes from the TV screen.

"He came over this morning," Lily said from the doorway, Harry hugging her leg like he was a koala. Remus looked at Lily and tried to read her expression, something told Remus that she wasn't as happy about Sirius's visit as her husband was.
"What did he say?" Remus asked nervously, as Lily walked into the room, sitting on the armchair across from them.
"Uncle Moon, Mum says I can't get an elephant!" Harry interrupted, crawling up on the sofa to sit in between James and Remus.
"Harry, it's not nice to interrupt a conversation." Lily scolded, and Harry nodded, looking adorably discarded, his big green eyes welling up with tears.
"Sorry Moony," Harry said sadly and Remus smiled at him, picking him up and hoisting him onto his lap, tickling the toddler gently.

"Apology accepted, Prongs Jr," Remus said as Harry squealed happily. "And in my opinion Harry, elephants are overrated." He added and Harry shook his head, settling on Remus's lap, gearing up for a nap.

"So, what did he say?" Remus asked again, and Lily's expression changed from fawning mother to unhappy friend in moments.
"Well, actually he didn't say anything to me, only to James, which I'm extremely pissed at because it's not just James he hurt, he hurt me as well," Lily said, her voice thickening. Remus wanted to punch Sirius, how idiotic could he be? Like honestly how pigheaded-

Before Remus was going to burst with anger, the doorbell went.
"One-minute Moony, sorry," Lily said, standing up and going towards the door.
Remus looked over to James, who was smirking to himself while continuing to play the game.
"Prongs... What are you-" Remus began, but was interrupted by a shrieking Lily Evans.

"SIRIUS BLACK, ARE YOU CRAZY?!" Lily screamed, and Remus ran to the door, chuckling James at his heels and Harry in his arms.
"Padfoo!" Harry chuckled as he saw a nonchalant Sirius Black, leaning against a brand new Mini Cooper that had a huge red bow on it.
"Holy-" Remus said, but Lily beat him to it.
"Shit. What- Sirius this is-" Lily said, hands over her mouth as she walked towards the car.

"I know this doesn't make up for anything Lils, but I just wanted to do something - I felt like words weren't enough to show you just how sorry I truly am, I wasn't here, butI will be Lily, I'll be here for you, Prongs and baby Harry. I'm so sorry. I really am." Sirius said, all air of arrogance dissipating as he talked to Lily, tears coating his eyes. Remus felt a strong pang of jealousy mixed with pure awe as he watched the two.

"Sirius, you are completely and utterly mental. " Lily whispered, tears streaming down her face. She took a step forward and leapt into Sirius's arms, burrowing her red hair in his neck.
"But I love you for it."

Remus smiled softly and looked to James, who had his arms crossed and was looking victoriously at Sirius. Like the years had melted away and the two were back in school, completely joyful after pulling another prank. Sirius looked up from Lily's shoulder and looked right at Remus, smiling softly as he silently said with his eyes.
You next.

17 years earlier

Baby Teddy gurgled happily in the common room as he bounced against Tonks's knee, it was Saturday and Dora had brought Teddy to school for the weekend, he usually stayed with Granny Effie or Nana Andy, but this weekend he was terrorising Hogwarts, to the delight of everyone (Except for Tonk's roommates, who could've lived without a screaming baby waking them up at all hours.)

Remus couldn't believe how they had managed to do this, but with the help of, well, everyone. They had managed to juggle school with raising a baby boy.
"He has Remus's face but my nose," Tonks observed, tapping Teddy's nose as if to confirm it.

"Thank god for that, I wouldn't wish this nose on my worst enemy." Remus laughed, ruffling Teddy's thin blonde hair. Lily shook her head disapprovingly at this.
"I love your nose, Remus!" Lily defended, pulling down her skirt over her knees, she was rattling a toy in front of Teddy's face, smiling whenever Teddy reached for it.

"Let's just hope he doesn't have Dora's balance." Charlie chuckled, earning a swat on the arm from Nymph. Remus high-fived Charlie behind her back, sharing a knowing look.
Lily also giggled at this, reaching for Teddy.
"Give him over Dora, stop hogging the babe," Lily said, snatching Teddy from Tonks.
"Of course Lily, it's not like I ya know, birthed him or anything." Tonks quipped happily, snuggling into Charlie's side. Remus smiled but again couldn't help the jealousy that he felt. He hated to admit it, but he desperately missed Sirius.

Lily stuck her tongue out at Tonks, continuing to fawn over Teddy happily.
"Who's my handsome boy! Who's my clever, clever boy!" Lily cooed, and Teddy happily laughed under her praise. Remus couldn't help but agree with every word that was coming out of Lily's mouth.

"Talking about me again Evans?" James said, walking in, his rugby uniform looking sufficiently muddy after practice, Lily rolled her eyes and pulled a face of disgust.
"Keep dreaming Potter," Lily retorted.
"You're in all of my dreams Lily-flower," James said suggestively, and Lily went as bright as her hair, muttering to Teddy about what an idiot James was. Remus smiled knowingly and wished that the two would just get together already.

"Alright everyone, essays are due for Wednesday, don't forget to put your names on them, Yes I'm talking to you Issac," Remus shouted as the bell rang signalling the start of lunch, it was the next day, and Remus found himself looking over to Leo Rankin more in class now, mentally slamming him against the desk and knocking him out.

"Mr Lupin? Do you have a sec?" The small sounding voice of Victoire said from beside him, and Remus flashed the nervous-looking girl a smile.
"Of course, all the seconds for you Miss Weasley," Remus said pleasantly, and Victoire started to relax slightly.
"Teddy told me that he," Victoire looked down at her shoes, her face flushing. "He told you the truth, and I was wonder-"
"Don't worry, I won't tell anyone." Remus interrupted and Victoire looked up, nodding quickly and muttering Thanks before fleeing the room, Remus felt extremely sorry for the girl.

Remus spent a moment looking at the door, in distant thought about the girl. He then sat back down in his chair, settling only for a moment. However, Remus's quiet lunchtime was interrupted by a certain P.E teacher.

"Moony! The apple of my eye, the love of my-" James began, arms wide open, a grin plastered firmly on his idiotic face.
"Your lunch is in my bag." Remus deadpanned.

James jumped on the spot, a cheesy fist pump in motion.
" That . That's why you're the best!" James said, hunting through Remus's worn satchel and retrieving the lunch Lily had given Remus yesterday, with a knowing look on her face.
"And that is why I'm desperately concerned that you're a father," Remus said, giving James a disapproving glance. However, James seemed unphased, chomping happily into his baguette.

"So, what did Sirius say to you?" Remus asked nervously, eyes still glued to his computer screen.
"Well, he told me what an idiot he was, and he just- he told me... stuff," James answered vaguely, making Remus a little bit irritated.
"What does 'stuff' mean?" Remus asked, looking at James, who was now avoiding his gaze.

"All I'm gonna say Moony, is that- maybe you should talk to him?" James said, nervously and Remus sighed.
"I'm sorry, I'm just not there yet, there's still a lot of hurt, ya know?" Remus said and James nodded.
"Of course Moons, but just keep in mind that we aren't sixteen anymore, yeah?"
"Yeah.."

"And you're sure it's-" Remus said, eyes darting from the test back to Dora, heart beating a million miles per hour.
"Me and Charlie- we've, we've not done, that ," Tonks said sheepishly, her face red from crying. Remus felt like running, he couldn't do this, he couldn't be a father , it's not like he had a very good example growing up.

"Dora, I'm gay," Remus said frantically.
"Yep, and I'm with Charlie but-" Tonks said, shrugging, Remus was frozen in place, utterly shitting himself.
"So what, what are we going to do?" Remus said, sitting down on the bed next to Tonks.

"I'm, Remus- I'm going to keep him," Tonks said nervously. Remus turned, looking wide-eyed at her.
"Him? He's, he's a boy?" Remus said a small smile on his face. Tonks nodded, tears streaming down her face. Remus knew then, he just knew, that this baby was going to be the love of his life. No matter how old he was.

"If you'll let me Nymph, I promise to be the best Dad in the world," Remus said, grabbing Tonk's shaking hands. He wouldn't leave, he couldn't.
"I would want that more than anything Rem," Tonks said, and Remus kissed her forehead, thinking about the future. He wondered if he would live to regret this.

He didn't. He had never once regretted Teddy. 

AN/
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