This song above is "Heaven Knows I'm miserable now" by the Smiths. The title kinda fits the mood of the chapter.

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Luna: *turns on the camera and tears are streaming down her face* NO MORE DEATH! NO MORE DEATH! First Layla then Ticci Toby!! Why universe why!? They cant be dead though. They cant be! Layla is a member of the Ferflame fanclub still. But in -----Fiona-----'s book, she made her die, along with Ticci Toby! I CANT DEAL WITH THIS!

Luna: to deal with my pain I'm going to write a song. *goes and gets her guitar/base* I call it all my friends are dieing.

Luna: *sings and strums/plucks the strings on the instrument*

🎶 "SO, You have done it again, You've killed all my friends. But I ask you why? Why do you make me endure, all this pain I feel inside. "

"I was a happy girl, living my life."

"Free to smile, free to cry. Free to ship what ever I ship."

"Then a barrel of sadness rolls into town, killing my friends with it!"

"Why why? Did you do this! All the happiness is gone!"

(Strums the instrument faster and faster)

"WHY ARE ALL MY FRIENDS DIEING!!! WHY WHY OH WHY! DO PEOPLE I LOVE ALWAYS DIE! FRIENDS, BEST FRIENDS, FAMILY! ALL MY FRIENDS ARE DIEING!

"My life seems meaningless without. All my friends...my friends that met a sad demise.

"OH WHY OH WHY DO I ENDURE THIS CHRONIC PAIN! BLOOD SPILLS FROM THEIR THROATS FROM THEIR WOUNDS. RUNNELS OF CRIMSON!

FROM THOSE WHO'VE DIED.

I YELL: "BOGOSHIPDA" AT THE SKYYYY----

"To those who have felt such pain, I cry with! I cry and cry and wish to die. I ask the sky WHY ARE ALL MY FRIENDS DIEING?

"I ASK TO THE SKY: WHAT PERSON PLAYING SUCH GODLY ROLE, WHO ARE YOU FOR DOING THIS TO MEEEE!

"YELLING AT THE SKY! CRYING TILL I FALL TO MY KNEES.

(Loud and faster playing *Luna starts tearing up, and has a mad expression of a person with trama*)

(Luna is screaming the lyrics know) "PIANO KEYS SMASHING on THE GROUND, GUITARS THROWN AT BRICK WALLS. LARGE STREAMS OF WATER FLOWING DOWN THE HOUSES. FIRES ENGULFTING OUR MINDS!!!!!

WHY WHY OH WHY!? ARE ALL MY FRIENDS DIEING! I DARE YOU I DARE YOU! I DARE YOU TO KILL ANOTHER. SEE THE PAIN FROM THOSE WHO LOVED THEM FEEL ALL THE REGRET!!!! I DARE YOU! I DARE YOU!

I CONTINUE CRYING, RIVERS OF DEPRESSION, LIGHTING FIRES TO ALL THE THINGS I DISPISE!

"All my friends are dieing, oh yes, all my friends are dieing! I'm watching all my friends die! Oh all my friends are dieing!

(FAST PLAYING GRADUALLY GETS SLOWER)

So, you've done it again, killed another of my friends....

As the pain builds up inside me ready to burst, I feel my feet wobble beneath me, as the ground shakes. And my head breaks and all the sounds of flames and waves pour into my mind. All the superfluous emotions not needed START TO BUILD UP INSIIIIIIIIIIIDE!!!!

WHY WHY WHY! DID YOU HAVE TO DID YOU HAVE TO? KILL ANOTHER ONE OF MY FRIENDS!?

"All my HOPE IS GONE! AND ALL MY HAPPINESS WITH IT!

"BRING TO ME. WHAT I HAVE LOST! BRING MYSELF BACK TO WHO I WAS!!!

AND I YELL UP TO THE SKY : "BOGOSHIPDA" TO THOSE THAT DIED!

HOW I MISS THEM ALL AND WISH THEY COULD COME BAAAAACK!

"BOGOSHIPDA" I YELL AT THE MOON I YELL TO THOSE THAT SURROUND ME.

THE PAIN I UNDURE! DOES ANYONE CARE IF I LIVE? DOES ANYONE CARE IF I CRY!? DOES ANYONE CARE IF I DIE?

(Instruments, Luna starts banging her foot on the ground while strumming her guitar/base, and the cords and notes change frequently creating a chaotic mess of instrumental emotion)

So, you've done it again, killed all my friends. So, have you gotten what you wanted? So you've done it again, broke me again. So you have won, you killed all my friends, and For WHAT!?

(Instruments, noises are fast, and chaotic, then after a couple seconds, they slow down another time, *she stops banging her feet on the ground*)

Why drag any pain further? Why not end it all? If there isn't emotion left...

I don't. And I go on my life. What am I to do nothing?

"I once was happy... But Then a hurricane of pain ened that joy and bliss.

"So why do I sit here doing nothing to fix it?

(Shouts and plays louder, while banging the ground with her foot)

"I LISTEN TO THE SONGS TO FILL MY BRAIN! TO FILL THIS HOLE INSIDE! I LISTEN TO THEM ALL! LISTEN TO PAIN IN THEIR VOICES TO EASE MY OWN SADNESS! BUT IT ALL MAKES ME EVEN MORE MISERABLE!!!! SUCH PAIN, ONE WOULD PITTY!

"I'm just a person who loves to feel pain, so I'm just a person who loves to feel pain. I GUESS I'M JUST A PERSON WHO LOVES TO FEEEL PAIN!

(The tune changes to that of a more hopeful-sad tune and less of a raging-train of pain.)

So, most of my friends have died. So I cry till I feel nothing

ONCE I WAS HAPPY. but now I'm not.

So, I honor those with a song, I sing "YOU ALL DIED TOO SOON, BUT KNOW THAT I STILL CARE ABOUT YOU! AND THOSE WHO HATE ME AND TRY ME, WILL SUFFER WORSE THAN YOU!"

I SING TO THEM: "YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN! I'LL REMEMBER YOU ALWAYS!"

OH PLEASE LET ME FEEL NO MORE PAINd please oh please make it all stop!

Haven't I said it enough!?.

So, he's done it again, killed my friends. But not anymore, not anymore. He can't mess with me again! Never NEVER AGAIN! NO HE WON'T EVER AGAIN, ONCE I AVENGE MY FRIENDS.

(Pause in musical instruments in the background for a couple seconds, then she continues with a slow strumming of her guitar/base)

So, I think to myself, "Not all of my friends are dieing" 🎶

[Keeps playing her guitar for a couple more momments, and gradually slows tune down, untill the sound fades, and she stops playing]

Luna: well that was a song I wrote....it is kinda bad because it is like a depressing rant that goes on, and has emotion, then that emotion is stretched, or dragged farther untill it becomes meaningless......I notice that I, and Violet of EarthSea, and some of our other universe-versions often use the phrase "drag on further untill there is no emotion" or phrases similar with such concept.....it is poetic and very relatable....um and it's thought provoking. But using that phrase so much, makes it almost become meaningless because it is being stated....more than once.......so the phrase itself is being dragged........like a net filled with rocks *smirks* refrence from another work of Violet of EarthSea's, known as a book called All I want......hehe.... Shoot spoilers.......

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(I shall add on to that)

In the book Luna speaks of, that book is in progress still I haven't published it yet. It is about the song all I want....though I added the phrase/concept "dragged on further untill there is no emotion left"  to the book as well because when stanzas/phrases are repeating in songs, it is used to show emphasis. So if a song was written into a book, wouldn't those events representing the lyrics also be repeated to show emphasis. Yes. And that is what I did. I restate the themes, and the lyrics through events in the book, and therefore that phrase "dragged on....till no emotion is left" was added. If this phrase/concept seems fimiliar to you I wish to know were you guess believe it is from. This concept I actually took from a song, but this version I created is like a rearranged version in a sense or a version of it in my words. The concept is actually inspired by these lyrics below:

"Would we have dragged this on until now? If you don't have feelings anymore"

(I would fall out of my chair, or wherever i was sitting if someone in the comments, correctly, guessed the song these lyrics come from. I might scream and fall out of my chair to be exact!)

The book that I was in the progress of writing it is deep, and sad, but it is a little repetitive, and I might loose the readers focus/attention. And it was because of this that I added that phrase, also becuase the song "all I want" it repeats lyrics such as "if you loved me Why'd you leave me" and other lyrics, so I repeat these concepts through that book. I repeated the concepts, I also reappeared to put emphasis on the depressed, sad emotions, and description of the main character's pain, and the description(or is it spelled discription?) Often I repeated to show emphasis, that the character kept feeling those emotions constantly. And I added that it, the character's emotions of sadness, were those feelings that were dragged on untill there was no emotion left. The phrase also fits the main character's love intrest/person they love who left them, but the emotion they drag is regret, and a couple other things.....GOSH DARN IT WHAT IS WITH ALL THE DEPRESSING SONGS BEING SO INSPIRING!!!! ALL THESE SAD RELATIONSHIP-SONGS! AGHHHH!? IM THINKING OF (insert any depressing and painful sad-relationship-song here)!

I totally forgot what the point of that was! Shoot! Oh yeah! So the point of that was that in this book Luna wrote a song, that was described as a depressing rant that very much dragged the emotion until it seemed to have no meaning anymore, and the reason for me bringing up the "all I want" song/book, was because the concept is reiterated through my writing. When I try to write depressing stuff, it ends up like that whole concept! So much emotion that is dragged on untill having now meaning anymore.
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(Back to Luna)

*camera is still on*

Luna: * is playing the base* (cover of an actual song) 🎶I don't know what to do without you, I don't know where to put my hands. I've been trying to lay my head down. But in writing this at three A.M. I DONT NEED THE WORLD TO SEE THAT IVE BEEN THE BEST I CAN BE! But I don't think I can stand to be, where you don't see me.

On sunny days I go out walking, I end up on a treelined street. I look up at the gaps of sunlight. I miss you more than anything!

I don't NEED THE WORLD TO SEE, THAT I'VE BEEN THE BEST I CAN BEE! BUT, I DON'T THINK I COULD STAND TO BE WHERE YOU DON'T SEE ME!

And Autumn comes when you're not yet done, with the summer passing by, but, I dont think I could stand to be where you don't see me!🎶

Luna: *sighs* (turns off the camera and the video ends, and everything fades into the black)

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Later:
Luna: * listens to a bunch of songs by the Smiths to make her feel better*
(Sings along to the song "Heaven knows I'm miserable now" and then the song "How Soon is Now")

(Later)

Luna: *lets out a deep sigh* (then ends the video once again, and turns of the camera)

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Well in this chapter I ranted and stuff! Not as bad and the 6,000 words rant about a ship.....I will never let myself forget that......

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter! If you wish to have discussions or rant with me or anything, or say opinions about all that stuff I said, go ahead and do so, If you want. Idk. Continue asking Luna questions, and remember dares are also allowed(safe ones though). Again, hope you enjoyed reading!

~Violet of EarthSea🐉