My eyes fall on Amity as she sits cross legged on a couch, a bowl of popcorn in her lap, "You're up early, Again." I comment catching her attention, somethings going on with her, she just won't tell me what. Regularly, Amity will try to sleep in till 12 and here we are, a whole week of her being up before 9.

"Are you sure you've stopped feeling sick, i know it's been a few days but this isn't normal for you." I comment as i sit beside her. "Titus i'm fine," The way her voice comes out makes me suspicious however i don't want her to think i don't trust her, therefore, i keep my mouth shut. "You should've woken me,"

"Awe, baby do you feel excluded?" I chuckle at her as she leans into me, resting her head on my chest, my fingers run through her hair, stopping at points where the curls won't let me go on further. "No but i would like to know that my mate isn't gonna disappear on me."

"You worry to much."

"No, No i don't. I wont stop worrying until Xander is caught. He threatened your life Amity, i'm not gonna let that go lightly." She sighs, nodding, "Especially not when you could be pregnant."

"Titus, i said i'm not. Stop bringing it up." She snaps causing me to scoff, "You're due on your period any day now, the second that happens i will stop, but lying to me about throwing up and denying it will not affect my thoughts." So much for not making me look like an untrusting asshole.

"Titus, i'm turning 19, it's far to early. And i think i'd be able to tell if you were right." I roll my eyes "You're talking to me like you can control whether you are or not. We should've been more careful Amity, if this isn't something you want, we should've been careful, thats the moral of the story."

Her mouth drops slightly as she turns to face me, "Why are you putting words in my mouth, When did i say i didn't want this? I just said it's not the truth, it's also far to early in my lifetime for it to happen, yes we should've been careful but you should've been the one to remember considering you're so used to it." She says with a scoff before standing, "I'm meeting Libby, I'll be back soon." Her voice is now a hushed whisper as she stands. Leaving behind everything else.

"Amity-," She cuts me off.

"I'll see you when i get back Titus." With that she shuts the door behind her, leaving me alone in the house. "Fuck." I shout as my fist collides with the wall, a small dent left in its place. This whole thing is so fucking stupid. If she's right, she's right. I just want to be certain, i'm not even gonna consider it before he's gone. Before the sick bastard who tore her to pieces is gone. Before the sick bastard who took my princess from me is dead and his head is hung on the wall of my office.

I take a few deep breaths. Trying to calm myself, somehow it's been an hour of me storming round the house for no reason, slamming doors and shattering pots. "Amity's gonna kill me." I whisper to myself as i stare at all the broken vases, flowers on the floor along with the other nasty shit that cares for em.

I bend down, picking up the vase pieces, leaving the water and flowers on the floor as i head into the kitchen.

I just saw Amity walking through the woods, she looked pretty distraught; is everything good?

Lance's voice fills my mind.

It should be fine, We argued, i'm guessing it's about that. Just keep watch, make sure she's safe

My response doesn't give him many answers nor does it need to, mine and Amity's relationship is our business, not my beta's or anyone else in my pack's. It's ours. It's the one thing we really have left for us.

I scrub the laminated floor clean, washing away the mud stains, Amity's been gone a long while, i don't know where the fuck she is and it's killing me inside.

Your fault

My wolf blames me for her walking off and truth be told so do i, tomorrows a full moon, meaning it's the pack run, we do it every month, all hunt and find food, just let out our wolves. Amity can't join obviously. Her being human makes it all so hard. I cant do half the things i was brought up with, I cant run with her, I can't hunt with her, I can't do all the things with her that link to wolves.

It's so fucking hard for me, i'm giving up so much but it's so worth it. I love her and honestly i wouldn't change her for the world.

I cant do this. It's to soon. Far too soon. I cant. I just can't. I cant let someone else suffer on my expense. A sob escapes me as i look down at the piece of paper in my hands. I can see history repeating itself, i just know it. I lost Charity. Now i'm gonna lose him or her too. I cant. I really just can't.