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" What do you mean you're not sure if you want to be with him? " Noora questioned me.

I shrugged, " I know Noora.. but I'm not sure anymore. I feel like things are different. I'm scared that he'll cheat on me again. I don't know what I'm feeling. " I admitted.

" You're just scared Aria. You know he wouldn't cheat on you again. He knows he fucked up the first time. He loves you, I can tell. Everyone can see just by the way he looks at you that he's in love with you. He looks at you like he'd gladly take a bullet for you. Like if he had to, he would do just that. He talks about you so highly, hell, you're practically all he ever talks about. What is there to not be sure about. " Noora spoke to me so sweetly and honestly.

" Well he is going away, I guess I'm really just worried he'll find someone else. It sounds stupid, but it's how I feel. "

" Just talk to him okay? "

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" Hey. " Chris greeted me happily as I walked through the door. He smiled at me from his spoy on the couch.

I smiled back, " Hey. "

" Woah, what's wrong? " Chris immediately asked, sitting up so he could see me better.

I laughed a little, how could he already see something was wrong with me? I sat down on the couch across from him. He scooted close to me and placed his hands on my cheeks. I looked up at him, " When do you leave? "

" If that's what this is about then I won't go. I'll stay here with you. " He said, moving even closer to me.

I shook my head. He took a breathe, " I leave in 2 days. "

" Okay, so then I guess this has to happen now.. "

" What has to happen now? " Chris asked, taking his hands off my face and placing one of them on my leg in a comforting notion.

" I can't date you while you're gone.. " I spoke quickly.

Chris took his hand off my leg, " What? Why not? "

" Hey. " I grabbed his hand, " Listen to me, okay? I love you Chris. God I'm so in love with you. But I can't. Cause the thought of being with you and away from you will just drive me insane. I'm not doing this because I don't trust you. I'm just scared. I don't want you to have to worry about how much I miss you, or how I'm doing without you. I'll be okay. But I want you to be okay too. It's not even really like we're breaking up, we're just going to be on a break you know? I'll still wait for you to come back. I'm not going to be with anyone else. I just don't want you to stress about me okay? I love you Christoffer Schistad. Don't you know that? "

Chris bit down on his bottom lip and squeezed my hand, " I love you Aria. "

I smiled, " I'll wait forever for you to come back. Just have fun, I promise when you get back it'll be like nothing changed. It might even be better then how we left things, maybe we just need some distance to help us be stronger you know? "

" You won't have to wait forever. I'll come back. " He assured me. I nodded in agreement. He leaned in and pressed his lips against mine, and I fell back onto the couch, pulling him down with me. Our lips detached as we both began laughing. Chris smiled down at me and placed his forehead on mine, " God, I'm so in love with you Aria Esposito. "