"Tere bina zindagi se Koi shikwa toh nahi Tere bina zindagi bhi Lekin, zindagi Nhi "
.....Gulzaar.

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Harsimrat's POV

"Only you "

No, he can't be serious, he never be.

"You can't be serious, I don't believe on you "

" Why don't you believe me Searat, I want you only "he hold me from shoulders.

I swat his hands away.

"You are the one who told me you never marry me even if I'm the last girl on this earth, you are the one who told me I'm not your type, you are the one who told me you never loves me, So now how I believe on you "___"I'm still the same old girl, I still not your type and never be, I never be loved by you__and I don't have enough heart to rely on you again or fall for your charms "I'm sobbing.

"I'm done with you, I don't want to continue this fake marriage anymore _i want divorce now "I told him my decision.

"Nah!! I'm not going to give you divorce ever, I'm not going to let you go this time, Searat why you are still stuck to the past "

" For you it's easy to move on because you are not the one who face wrath of past, it's not that easy for me to forget everything like it never happened, I never forget that day on which I find the true colors of people, but thanks to you.. You are the one due to whom I find my best friends are not even friends, my stupid believe on heart is actually a worst nightmare of my life "__"I'm not living with you anymore, I decided , I want divorce from this fake marriage , I want to free from this burden. "

" Searat this is not burden, you are connecting past with our present, I know I'm your culprit but please due to my past behavior don't ruin our beautiful future, I promise I never hurt you again, please give me last chance "he join his hands in front of me ,huh __time is the great player, three years before he humilates me and told me he never marry me and now he's requesting me to give him last chance.

Did he give me any chance??

No!!

Then why I ??

" We never be meant for each other if we still continue our marriage like this , past will always be shadow to our future, so it's better we stay separate, it's better we part again forever. "I told him my decision.

Which I think is good for both of us.

"Okay, so you want divorce right, you want to part from me right, this is your final decision right "I nodded ___"Okay, so now listen my decision.. I'm not giving you divorce ever , you are stuck with me for lifetime ,
L.I.F.E.T.I.M.E__insert this word in your hard skull, do you get it, do whatever you want, go wherever you want, but I'm always stand behind you, like you said shadow of your past, so here I'm your real past and present of course future always "He said and put the the keys of door on table.

I control my tears not to fall in front of him. I don't take this, I don't want him, I don't want him.

I took my bag and keys from table, and walk out of the home..

*****

After one and half month...

I'm getting ready for the inauguration of our startup. Here Our means me and karan, yeah we both started a small publishing house.

Reflection Publication.

You all know Karan wants to start his own startup, somewhere corner of my heart I also want to open my publishing house, so I gave him this idea. He also agree on this, he already have management degree.

After that incident, his fight with ammy he quit his job or you can say that ammy fire him, both are the same thing. I left his house on that day and after that I apologizes to karan for the ammy's behavior. He said he don't have any problem with me but he's pissed off with my so called husband.

So, he wants to start his own startup so, I gave him that idea, Ishu also agree on this.

We started our startup under the Indian Government startup scheme.
Their are three options in which anyone can register there company.

*Partenership Firm
*Limited liability parternership firm
*Private limited company

We register in partnership firm, karan and me both are partners .

We both decided to publish a weekly magazine, it's not any usual magazine. This is for youngsters,in this we want to give a news of whole week in interesting manner, that youngsters can learn current affairs in a more interesting manner.The motive of these news is to prepare them for their competitive exams. Even anyone can gain there knowledge through magazine ,not only youngsters.

Also every week we decided to provide a whole knowledge about any competitive exam,or any highly rank job..how to prepare, how to make strategy, whole syllabus,Reference books, even the previous question papers. Whole information regarding that job profile.

And also one summary of story of any struggler every week.

New fashion trend of the week, newly brands about clothes, perfumes, handbags, shoes etc.

One recipe of any Indian cuisine of any Indian state.

And at the last quiz round of whole magazine of that week.First three winners of this round gain the "Genius of the week " title. And also there picture in next week magazine.

And at last column of the magazine we decided to write some motivational or any poetic lines of any genre.

And name of the magazine would be
"Inspiring roots weekend magazine "...by reflection publication.

We thought it's name, because what we will showed them in this magazine would be daily basis information but it would be reflect back in interesting manner. The information which we will provide in this magazine would be we can easily get from internet but still we can't collectively take that information from internet or from any other source.

We are just doing here as reflection for youngsters to gain there knowledge.

We rented a floor of a nearby building as a office where two printing machines, and also we hire two volunteer young editors ,and two volunteer teachers who are also jobless. And two manual workers who are expert in using printing machines.

In this way we are total eight people including me and karan in this publication house.

For this magazine we do lots of advertisements, posters, add films, vouchers and also promotion in nearby schools, and in every colleges. College students and secondary school students are more interested in this magazine. We all eight did a lots of hardwork to promote this magazine.

A big thanks to Indian government due to its support we never achieve this.And also Ishu and her husband paras also help us a lot. Due to all this I had taken lots of leave. I don't know how I manage now office and magazine.

Ishika also wanted to join partnership but due to her pregnancy her paras don't gave her permission. Yeah, she's three months pregnant.This is the reason why on Guruzz she's eating too much rasmalai on that day like hungry bulls. I'm very happy for her.

Today is first weekly magazine published, came out in world. We all are very excited.

I just had my omelette and tea in breakfast. I'm already getting late for our first day in publishing house. Yesterday night we already print seven hundred copies of our weekly magazine. Today we all are going to distribute the magazines in schools and colleges who are interested to take them.

It's monthly cost is one fifty rupees, in which we are giving them four magazines per week.

As I just did my dishes, my door bell rang.

I know who it can be, this cycle is continues from last one and half month already and now I'm getting used to it.

I open the door, took the bouquet of flowers, red roses from floor.The smell of roses are still fresh, they are so beautiful, don't know how many money he wasted on these innocent flowers. I fill the new vase with today's flowers.

This is really a big headache for me to handle these flowers, they are too many that I bought two three new vases for them specially. And I read the note.....

Dear wifey,
I'm still waiting for you , please come soon in my life..

Your jerk husband.

This note make my day in true manner from last one and half month. I really appreciate his efforts but still I don't have heart to rely on him again.

I keep that note in a box which is only filled with his daily notes.

But he actually stick to his words, his mean of shadowing I never thought it like this. This is not the only time I get these flowers even at night time too daily. And also whenever I went with karan and Ishu outside, caffe or any where else there too I get these flowers from unknown peoples with the note of him. But I actually never saw him, I even being attentive for his sight, that I catch him anywhere around but I never caught him.

He's actually act like my shadow and his notes are totally crazy like him, I kept those notes with me, but I gave those bouquets which I got outside my apartment to Ishu, she's blooming with joy when I gave those flowers to her. They all knew who sent those flowers to me, even sometimes I too surprise.

One day me ,karan and Ishu went for a movie there we got late, when we came out, there I also got bouquet from a unknown man, and only thing written on note is... It's already late night reach home asap and in bold letters beware of karan.

I mean what's this mean beware, like karan is any dog that I have to beware from him. At that time we already in hurry that they don't ask me what is written in note this time, thank god Ishu don't read it by snatching from me.

Anyways I'm already getting late now for distribution of magazine,i take leave too today.

*****

At evening when we done with all the distributions, I decided to gave it's one to copy to my husband.He gave me too many surprises so, I thought I also have to given its one copy to him free of cost. So, I drove my thar toward his home, even backseat of my thar is already filled with too many bouquets.

I parked it beside his car, he's home.

When I enters, I saw him in kitchen half naked.I gulped by looking at him, he's preparing something on gas. Maybe his dinner. I stand there at door, admiring him from far, I saw him after one and half month. His beard is grown little more.Light music is played on his phone, maybe dusk till dawn.

Still looking too hot to eat in one gulp.

His one hair lock as usual is fall on his forehead, maybe when he bent a little it also moves down. I want to made it on its place on his hairs.His lips are dry and pink he lick his wet tongue on them, and here my saliva got struck in my throat.

My wish to roam my hands on his bare chest is still pending, don't know it ever be fulfilled or not.

When I'm too busy in staring at his naked body he caught my eye. He noticed my presence. His lips tugged into a tight smile, I too smile back.

It's just merely a small gesture but it means a lot,this time his smile is taking so many emotions together. I still stand there sticking my feets to floor. After washing his hands ,he approaches towards me.

I don't know what to spoke, last time I fought here with him for our separation and now I'm again stand here in front of him in his house.

He came near me with big foot steps and engulf me in a tight hug. I don't expect this. His bare chest is crushing my small figure.

"I miss you.."

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Good evening dear beauties and gentleboys..

Hope you enjoy today's update..

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Seriously I don't know anything about Indian government startup schemes, how they work or how we get advantage from them.

The whole information which I provided in this update is true but actually I don't know how it actually work.

If I'm wrong anywhere in this please don't mind, this is all a work of fiction.

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5th Oct '2019

~Preet.