ENID

I paused and looked directly at my food. Different thoughts swarmed my head and they were not those I liked to have. 

What?

How?

Why is he here too?

What the actual fuck?

Esme had already started to eat her food so I took a deep breath willing those organisms n my belly away. I took the first bite out of my burger and loved it! As I continued to eat, the butterflies slowly left. Not as if they were ever there. Maybe they were there because I was hungry? I scrolled through Instagram as I munched the rest of my burger and drank a Pepsi afterward. I finally took my time to look at him. I didn't want to but I just couldn't control myself. I put my head on my arm as I stared at his friends. They looked so cool to hang out with. But then someone caught my eye, not him.

It was a girl, a pretty one indeed. As if I offended the devil, she whispered something into his ear and pointed towards me. At that moment, I wanted to throw up and disappear forever. I could feel my heart thumping away as he turned his head in my direction. He looked at me with a blank expression. He looked at me for a total of 3 seconds, yeah I counted, and he looked away. I could feel my heart drop. I expected him to hold eye contact or give me a sly smirk but now it looked as if he didn't even want to see me. That spoilt my mood entirely. I looked back at him and I saw him on his phone. As if on cue, Esme stood up and said it was time to go catch the bus. 

I hopped on my feet because I didn't want to stay in the same compartment with him. There was an awkward tension around us. I'm not sure he felt it but I was sure as hell feeling it. I walked past his table with my head high and Esme followed behind oblivious of what was actually happening. As I turned, in the corner of my eye, I could have sworn I saw him looking at me. That only made me more furious. I was really angry at myself for getting carried away. I hadn't even spent up to a week yet, I was already knocking myself up over a boy. A boy that I crossed paths with simultaneously, twice in the same day. Could it be fate?

I sat quietly on the bus ride home and thought about the events that happened that day. I tried to push out the memory of him ignoring me. I remembered the shopping I did. It was fun! I had new clothes, I couldn't believe it. I felt obligated to tell Esme thank you so I did. I whipped out my phone which had a low battery already. I managed to send her a text that read,

Esme, thank you for today, I feel weird that's why...

She patted my shoulder from behind and I felt really tired but I couldn't sleep on the bus so I waited till I got home. I walked in after Esme and closed the door behind me quietly. Mother and Father were home and I was really tired and not ready for their tantrums that night so I rushed to my room with my clothes in hand. I dropped them off at the side of my room and laid on my bed to catch some z's.

The next morning, I woke up after rolling off my bed with a loud thump. I rubbed my arm because I landed on it. I sat up on the floor and looked around my room. My eyes zeroed in on the bag of clothes I left there last night. I looked at my hardwood floor as the events of yesterday rushed back to me. I frowned when I remember how stupid I was. I stood up from the floor and went to my bathroom to freshen up and I walked out with a pair of my old pyjamas. I was ready to waste the whole day sulking and chatting with my best friend.

 I walked downstairs and found it empty and lo behold another sticky note on the fridge. Typical. I ripped it off and didn't bother to read it. There was something good out of it. I was home alone. I rushed upstairs and grabbed my phone which I totally didn't charge last night. 

I plugged into a power supply and video called my best friend, Addi. She picked up on the second ring. I smiled at her when I saw that she was just waking. "Hi Addi!" I beamed. "Enid, for Christ's sake, don't call me at first light." I laughed at her knowing very well the sun had been up long ago. "So yesterday, Esme took me shopping!" I paused to see her expression. "You said whatttttt? Esme took you shopping for YOU??" Even though she said a totally incorrect statement, I nodded still. 

"So like I haven't unpacked yet so I'm going to do that while showing you the clothes," I said walking towards the bag and dragging it to my bedside. She yawned obviously still feeling a little sleepy. "So this is the first one. It's a 'go fuck yourself' cotton tee shirt. Whatcha think?" I said to her. She was already asleep back I sighed before yelling. "Addi!" I heard her lazy voice come on and I rolled my eyes. "Okay, let's do this instead. I'll tell you about a special thing that has happened to me in the past few days and you stay awake and listen and give me crappy ideas I'm never gonna use." She frowned at the last part but brightened up when she heard that I was going to tell her something important. 

I folded the shirt and arranged it in my wardrobe and I walked back to the phone. "So the first night, I was hungry. The family ditched me as usual. I brought out my spare change and went to a diner nearby. Then I got there and ordered breakfast for diner." I walked back to my wardrobe with other folded clothes in hand. "I scanned the diner and I locked eyes with a boy our age." I could hear her squeal. I sighed and realised how I missed Addi.