The first one Lucifer showed me caught me off guard.

I better prepared myself for the one he just made me watch. But...I really don't know how to describe how I feel.

I guess I should just accept it? I don't know, I'm still confuse.

Why every time my powers acted up I don't and can't remember?

"I believe your powers activates whenever you get angry" I look at him. I'm sitting before him on the same chair I sat when I first came in here for this job. I don't know if I should regret it or be grateful.

But if this power been inside me since I was a child, being here wouldn't have changed anything.

Whenever I get angry?

"When I was in high school, sometimes these mean girls would pick at me. I'm not sure why. Anyways the point is it never got to me no matter what they said. Daniel was always there and Tina.  It wasn't hard to train myself to not let things bother me. I never used to easily be this angry. Earlier when Diana was bothering me it felt as if I wanted to kill her. I get angry even when I don't want to. Something different is happening to me. Powers have ways to be controlled, so I need to learn how to control it. When I'm my evil self I don't care about anything. How am I going to care if anyone gets hurt?"

"What do you mean the your evil self?"

In his head he probably thinks I'm easy to get in bed with, but he should know that's not so since he knows something wrong is going on with me.

I still should ask him about the flashback I got.

I don't know if it's his business to offer me help.

What does he want?

Speaking of that I need to find out who changed my clothes.

I look at my phone ringing on his desk.

I take it up. Lucifer sits back in his chair.

It's my brother. He must be waiting now.

"Excuse me"

"Hey"

"I'm down. You ready?"

"Yeah. I'll be down soon" I hung up.

"It's my brother. I um...we can finish this conversation tomorrow" He sits forward.

"Do yourself a favor and don't tell him about what happened to you today or our conversation"

I frown.

"What do mean?" I stand.

"We need to be certain about what we're dealing with before you involve people"

"People? You mean my brother? I can trust my brother more than I can trust you. Don't pass your place with me" He stand.

"I'm still your boss. Choose your words wisely" He's really playing the boss card right now?

"You might be the boss, but I'm not embedded with you. I can leave whenever I want. If you want to keep this between us just say that, but don't talk like my brother is a stranger. He's family" I turn around and walk towards my office to get my things.

"Your brother or you cannot be compared with me. You're nobody! I thought you were different, but you're just a slut"

My eyes widen.

What the fuck.

I turn around. I feel a stink in my chest from his words. I'm also very surprised.

"What?"

"Nobody here likes you Christisha or whatever your name is. So why don't you go back to wherever you came from and stay there slut!"

I exhale deeply. I look around and realize that I'm still where I'm standing.

I feel like I just relived what Lucifer showed me on his laptop. Yes there was also the audio.

I look at him.

I should hate him for what he just said to me, but I know why he did it.

He's been trying to drag my memory since I stepped foot into this office. He's lucky I remember that, or I would've sent him into the wall again, or through it.

What am I talking about? I don't even know how I did it.

"You had a flashback didn't you?"

He didn't have to be so harsh with his words. I hate being called a slut.

"I made you helped me with documents so I could kill some time until Diana send in her resignation letter"

What's also bothering me is how comes nobody is talking about it.

"At the time I thought about asking you about your memory issue, but instead I chose that method. You must've noticed the date difference"

He is the one who brought me back out of my suppressed state. How did he do it? Why couldn't my brother?

"I don't think you should be walking around confused and clueless. With what you can do it'll be much worst not knowing how to control yourself"

"Do you know why I'm like this? Do you know why I forget?"

"Tell your brother I'll drop you home"

I fold my lips for couple seconds before I sigh silently.

I dial Daniel's number.

"I was just about to call you. Are you ok up there? Are there men with guns keeping you hostage or something? If so just say ah" I smile.

"Your so smart and adorable you know that. Anyways go on without me. Lucifer will drop me off I have unfinished business here in the office Alright"

"Is e-everything alright? Is this going to be a thing between you two now?" I look at Lucifer. He hasn't taken his eyes off me.

"You don't need to be so worried. I can take care of myself"

"Sure you can" He replies.

I frown.

Why is my brother so nervous?

"Now that that's settled, lets talk" I walk back to the chair and sit.

"You can't remember anything because your memory was wiped" I look at him as if he's crazy.

But really, I would be crazy for not believing him.

"What? By who?"

"Lets just say that's not for me to say"

"Why? What do you mean by that? You said you want to help me-"

"And that's what I'm doing. We have a lot more things to discuss before we reach that part"

"Is it the man who threatened to kill me and my family?"

Shit. Lucifer didn't know about that.

Damn

"I know" I frown.

"How?"

"It's just a part of the missing pieces of your memory"

"You seem to be a part of the missing pieces of my memory. Aren't you worried that I'm beginning to think you have something to do with it?"

"All you need to do is to ask your brother"

"Why don't you like Daniel?" He look away for a moment then back to me.

"Both of us had a misunderstanding which is between us. Lets continue"
I raise my eyebrow.

"The second video you watched was actually the first time your powers triggered. You should've remembered instantly, but your memory was wiped" Yeah he keeps reminding me that my memory was wiped, but keep telling me to ask my brother. Obviously he know that brother knows something.

"How do you know that it was the first time? I don't even know if it was the first time"

"I did my research" Right.

"You said you remember the flashback you just had. Do you remember exactly how it happened?" It was only part.

"No. I only remember from the part where Diana and I was arguing then the rest"

"I was investigating your past until you snapped at me" What? That can't be the whole thing.

"Why would you do that?"

"It's my job to investigate all my employees. Don't you think I'd want to know the type of person I hired?" He should've done that before he hired me.

I sigh.

"I know somewhere I can take you to train you and also to better understand your powers. You also need your memories back and I'm going to help you"

"How?"

"I just did didn't I?"

"Do me a favor and don't call me a nobody or a slut"

He closed his eyes, exhale then looks back at me.

You're the most pure thing I've ever seen.

I frown.

That's his voice. Wait... It sounded just like the one I heard in my head in Daniel's car.

"This might sound weird, but I think I just heard you think of me" I need confirmation so I needed to say it.

"Please don't lie to me. I don't want to feel like I'm going crazy" He almost looks a little surprise.

"What did you hear?"

"That I'm pure?" That's the first time I've seen his eyes widen. I've never seen him this surprised.

"Was that a part of you helping me remember?" He shake his head.

"How did you do that?"

"I don't know" I reply.

Oh my god.

"Did you hear anything else?"

"No. Just that" I look away for a bit. I can't believe this. How?

"I wasn't thinking of you after that. Well nothing focused and specific"

"Do you mean I heard it because you wanted me to?"

"Kinda"

Why would he think that I'm pure? Did we have sex?

It surprises me that he's thinks of me like that.

After stripping both of us naked, he dealt with my body in a way no one has ever done. Oh my God I can literally die of pleasure right now. He nibbles my nipples while penetrating me slowly and deeply with his fingers. I open my legs wide. My mouth opens slowly.

"Ahhhh". I bite my bottom lip after moaning.

Suddenly he stops and remove himself from over me. He sits at my waist. He stretch his hand...and ever so gently brush his knuckle over my cheek. I lean to it enjoying every bit of his soft comforting strokes.

All I want is for him to have sex with me, but he's hesitating. Why?

I can feel my walls twitching so fast for him.

"Why did...you stop? Please...continue" I've seen him having sex before, but the looks of his face now is totally different from the time I saw him screwing Diana. His face was fierce and he was rough with her, even when she tells him to slow down he never stops. Hm...yet she still seem to always want to do it with him. Yes, I saw and heard more than what I say. Although I know that he screwed her, it doesn't bother me at all. I don't and won't regret having sex with him...and I never will.

The size of his member has me curious. Will it hurt due to the fact that I'm a virgin? If so, will I adjust quickly. So much curiosity.

I've never seen him caress Diana's cheek like this either. It's sending some unusual feelings through me, as if he's silently communicating with me through his caresses. It makes me even more horny.

"Why...are you looking...at me like that?" The pants are still there. I want him. I need him.

"Your so beautiful. Beautiful and innocent". He finally says. My eyes widen. He meant it. Does this mean more to Lucifer than it should?

Why do I feel connected to him anyways?

"Show me how you really feel about me". He smirk and lean down to me. I almost pull away after his lips landed on mine, when I feel the multiple emotions flowing through the kiss. But I allow myself to be consume by it.

"Ms George?"

I shake my head.

Hearing Lucifer's voice, I'm now back to reality. I'm looking to my left instead of on him. I want this flashback to stop. It's making me feel horny and is evoking feelings inside me...for him. I don't want to.

"What did you just remember?"

Memory

If I ask him this, I will probably know.

"Let me ask you something. Does every time I have a flashback it means it's something that really happened"

"Most likely. Unless your hallucinating. If that's not the case.. yes" Oh boy.

How?

I still don't know for sure. He can't either. I don't know what is really going on with me yet.

"What did you remember?"

"Just a piece of something that was missing. It doesn't help. It's nothing important"

"Are you sure? The point of doing this is to help you make sense of the things you remember"

"Seriously. It's fine" I smile a little.

"Earlier you said something to me that I didn't utterly comprehend. What did you mean by your evil self?"