I guess I should be blamed for this one. The first time I wasn't thinking straight. This time I'm the one who seduced him.

Should I be ashamed of myself? I don't know how to feel about this. I should've never seduced him. What is wrong with me? I should've thought about how I would feel afterwards.

This man makes me so horny even just thinking about him.

I think he truly cares about me. Seeing for myself the things he's doing for me is making my feelings for him even stronger. I don't know if it's going to be easy to get rid of the feelings I have for him.

I silently walk over to where my clothes are. I take them up putting them on. Despite of the fact that we enjoyed what just happened, what will he think of me?

Should I really be thinking about this right now?

I'm also still fretful because I don't know his HIV status. I need to ask him for it. I'm not accusing him of anything, but I need this uncomfortable feeling to fade. He said he's clean and I need to know that for sure.

I put my clothes on. I haven't looked at him once since we finished. I hear the jingling of his belt and soon after the sound of his zipper.

After putting on my clothes, I take my phone from the desk checking the time. It's a little pass working hours, which means everyone should be going home now.

There are a few persons who checks in with him before they leave. He needs to get out of here before that happens.

Damn it!

There's a knock on the main door. Just as I thought about it. I'm so lucky. But they know not to ever enter his office without permission, so everything should be alright.

I really hope so.

I look at him. I get a little nervous, because it seems like he's been looking at me long before I looked at him. The moment I set eyes on him he's already looking at me. I don't get it, this minute I'm the bravest person around him and the next minute I'm as shy as a virgin.

I laugh to myself thinking of that last word. It's still feels weird that I'm not a virgin anymore, and that he took it.

Does he know that he looks very sexy when he puts his hand in his pockets? That's what he's doing now. It seems like it's just a habit.

A sexy habit.

Does he feel strange that he took my virginity? Had he ever taken another woman's virginity before?

No Christina stop!

Just stop it!

That's not your business because if that question has a YES on it jealousy is going to weigh down on you.

Yes I should stop thinking about this.

The person knocks again.

"Mr Morningstar. Are you in?" I faintly hear someone say.

He walks off just when I'm about ask if he's not going to go out there and answer the person. I really don't want anyone to see us like this.

He walks pass me without saying word. I look at him unlocking the door. He walks out and still didn't look at me.

Why do I feel like this? Why do I feel so disappointed? Shouldn't he have said something to me?

I try to ignore this uncomfortable feeling and start getting my things together. I'm going to need him to take me to my brother. We have a lot to discuss.

I'm really starting to hate the idea of not having my own car. I know that I am an independent lady, but I feel so... dependent. I should have my own business instead of working for Lucifer. I'm well capable of owning a business.

My own company.

I walk out of my office with my things. Lucifer is sitting at his desk talking to those I've known as Moya and Kimesha. The moment they look at me their expression changes to a curious one. Why are they looking at me like that?

"Your hair is messy" Lucifer says. What? I touch my hair with my right hand and it's all over the place. How the hell did I forgot to check my hair?

Don't look suspicious. Don't look suspicious.

"Bad hair day" I breathe out with a smile. I rub my hair downwards hoping it looks a lot better.

"What a day you've had. Your hair is always perfect, before and after work" Kimesha says nicely.

"I know right" Moya adds. Both of them glance at each other. I keep smiling and shrugs when they look back at me.

"We are done here ladies" Lucifer directs to them seriously. They turn away but keep looking at me as they walk away. I know that look. It looks as if they are accusing me of something. Or is it because I am guilty of something why I'm thinking this?

Could they have heard us somehow? No. Unless they were directly at the door the whole time and that isn't likely.

"Why did you say my hair is messy like you somehow know what happened to it? Why you had to be the first person to point that out?" I walk to his desk.

"That's because I do know what happened to it" He's smirking. He's frigging smirking.

"Do you think this is a joke?" The smirk turns into perplexity.

"Don't you think it would've been more suspicious if I wasn't the one who said something about it?"

"It wouldn't have been because it's not something you normally do. You're my boss and we can't let people know that this is happening" He stand.

"So what if I'm your boss? Huh?"

"I don't want a scandal ok? There's already someone out there who wants to take my life. I can't handle this"

"Typical you" I frown.

"What do you mean by that?"

"It's just like how you walk away from me at the party, and just now you completely ignored me in your office as if nothing had happened" The party...Oh.

I remember not wanting them to take pictures of both of us together.

Wait...

He's offended that I didn't say anything earlier?

"It's almost as if you are ashamed of me. I don't get it. Am I that disgusting to you?" I look away from him. How can he understand from my point of view?

I'm far from being disgusted by him...well at least now I am. I hated him a few months back.

I still remember the multiple moanings I had to block out with music.

"Have you ever seen yourself on the media? Or have you forgotten that I was in that very office when you were fucking!-" I stop myself, but I'm not done.

"You're a womanizer. I don't want to be seen with you for people to think of me as one of...those women" I gesture my hand in the air expressing myself. He looks surprise by my words. Why though? Isn't he a womanizer?

"You are a public figure. I've seen many events with you even before I applied for this job" He looks like he's about to say something, but he's holding back.

Typical him.

Someone knocks on the door.

"I'll be outside" With that said I left the office.

***

I'm outside looking around enjoying the evening fresh air once again.

I don't know if he understands. Of course I enjoy his presence, but the scandal of being just another one of Lucifer's sex toy all over the media just doesn't excite me.

I really like him and god knows I enjoy having sex with him, but I'm not sure where I stand in his life. If he wants to move further with me, why haven't he asked me on a date yet?

But that's actually what I've been. The world may not know that we're just having sex, but I know. I feel like I am just a sex toy...

...and I put myself in that position.

Maybe I'm the one moving too fast and I'm definitely thinking foolish. I'm nobody's sex toy.

A date...that sounds impossible with him. It's not so easy to believe that I'm the one for Lucifer Morningstar. He's not an easy person to deal with either?

How different am I than the rest of this woman who seduced him? I did that today. I should've been stronger. I shouldn't have acted on impulse.

"So this is your spot huh?" I look to my right.

"Are you stalking me? It doesn't fit you" Why is he here?

"I'm not actually...but I am here to see you" I frown.

"What for?"

He stands in front of me.

"I'm not going to play around ok. I like you, isn't it obvious?" I laugh.

"Why? Hmm?" I don't get this man. Is it because he knows my secret why he thinks he can use that against me? Does he thinks that I'm going to accept whatever this is that he's doing or even to be interested in him because he thinks I'll be afraid of blackmail?

If that's the case he's only fooling himself.

"Your laugh is contagious, even though I know it was sarcastic. Right now I'm trying not to laugh so you don't think I'm joking" He steps closer.

"Your bright brown eyes captures me so deep its almost impossible to refuse the urge to kiss you. Your seriousness is scary, but sexy-" He stops.

"Do you want me to keep going?" He continues.

"I didn't stop you" He needs to step back a bit. He probably couldn't find anything else to say.

"Are you saying that you're enjoying the things I said to you?"

"Is your aim to have me enjoy what you're saying, or to tell me how you really feel?" I raise an eyebrow.

He wiggle his eyebrows looking away as if he's thinking.

"Both actually"

"Hmm ok" I get the feeling he's being honest. He's so straight forward.

His breath smells nice too.

I'm beginning to realise that I have a certain quality that I look for in a man.

"Can I have your number?" I frown.

"Come on. I need to have your number, how else am I going to keep communicating? I don't want to always show up here. Obviously you don't like it, and the last time it didn't ended so well" I remember the last time, Lucifer was furious he showed up here. He even let the man know that I'm living with him. He was definitely jealous.

"It doesn't bother you that I've have powers?" He frown.

"What powers?" What? Is he really serious? Did Daniel somehow got to him and erased his memory? But how would Daniel even know that I told him?

"If something happened and you told me not to tell anyone, it's seems like I completely forgot about it. So what are you talking about?" I realise that he's just messing around, he remembers. He just playing smart.

Actually he is smart.

"Nevermind" It's seems like he's looking at my hair.

"You've had a rough day huh?" I guess he realize that it doesn't look it's best. I hope that's the only thing he's thinking about. How would he know that Lucifer and I had sex anyways?

I smile.

"Yep"

"Are you going to give me your number? Please" Maybe it wouldn't hurt to just give it to him.

"Give me your phone" He smiles widely and take it from his pocket handing it to me.

This man is just too bold.

"I'm not promising you anything" I tell him.

I see a figure at the corner of my eyes to my right walking towards us. I look to see Lucifer walking, but stops when he sees my hand taking Harrison's phone.

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