Oh wow.

That was why the moment she walked into my room, I noticed how strange she really looked. It's because they resemble each other very much.

"Why lie that she's your house help?" These are the things that causes me to get upset with him, keeping me in the dark.

I'm choosing to listen to what he has to say this time.

"I've never told you that. Yes I didn't fully tell you everything but she has her reasons why she didn't want you to know" When I think about it, he'd never introduced her as his maid.

But I think I have an idea why. I think Miss Leona wanted to know the type of person I am looking from the point of view of a maid. Why?

Honestly I don't feel upset at all. Infact I'm happy he has someone like her as a mother.

So that story she told me was all her. Wow. I'm sorry they had to go through all that. Dealing with a child coming home with broken limbs couldn't have been easy to deal with, especially with her separation and doing everything alone.

Wow this is kind of a lot to take in.

"Ok. I understand" He looks like he doesn't believe me.

"It's ok really" I wonder if I should tell him that she told me about a part of his childhood?

"I also do not hate you...Infact it's quite the opposite" He looks at me as if he cannot believe I just said that. For some weird reason I feel the urge to kiss him, then immediately, again I remember that was drugged and raped. How do I deal with this?

No. I will leave his childhood business alone.

"I...I have something else I want to tell you" I look at him curious. Why does he sound like that? He'd never done that before.

"You were with me the entire time you were drugged, so no one harmed you" It feels like a ton of steel lifts from my chest at this moment. If that's the case it means I wasn't raped.

Thank God!

Why does he look so uncomfortable though?

"What's wrong?" I ask concern and touch his shoulder.

"If only you know how I feel right now"

"I just don't want you to have any regrets. I will grant your desire, but just know that I respect you very much"

"For the record, I want this too"

"...You said that you respect me. If you know that you are clean as I know that I am...Please be careless tonight. I need this"

"You're perfect"

What?

My whole body goes weak after that memory. I'm certain it's a memory. I can now differentiate a memory from if I'm being tricked.

It's the memory of last night. He's the one.

I can't believe this. Damn it!

Thinking back on something his mother said...

"Speaking of, it was really weird that he wiped his car out today before leaving. I've never seen him do that before"

...Was he wiping out blood?

My blood?

Something did happened afterall. I was right all along, except that it wasn't rape.

"Hey. Are you alright?" I look at him looking at me with so much concern and it feels strange now being beside him after remembering everything that happened.

It makes sense. If he was with me the entire time I was drugged, it has to be him.

I take my hand from his shoulder. I feel naked and I fight the urge to hug myself. Of course I'm not naked, but he'd seen it all so I just feel weird.

"Yes I'm listening" I will not let him know that I remember. I want to see if he's man enough to tell me.

"You may not remember this but...I'm the one who had sex with you" He looks at me right in the eyes while saying it.

"So you weren't molested...that's what I wanted to tell you earlier" I stand.

"So you had sex with me while I was drugged, which means I was not thinking clearly...and you think that I wasn't molested?" He shut his eyes and I can see there are no more walls. I can see that he's feeling. He'd been showing signs. He's making no effort to hide his emotions right now.

I'm only messing with him though, and I won't take it too far.

"It was a mistake. It shouldn't have happened" That statement shocks me. I did not expect him to say that.

He feels like it's a mistake?

No maybe he's only saying this because he thinks that I wouldn't have wanted it. When I just met him I would've never, but seeing a part of who he really is now...

...I don't think I regret it.

If it was for him alone I'd still be a virgin, because I know he wanted to bring me to the doctor, instead I compelled him to have sex with me.

But he cant just take my virginity and calls it a mistake. It will give me a reason to regret it.

Thinking back on it now I really wasn't in my right mind. If I was sober I don't think I would've done it. It wouldn't be because I wouldn't want to, but because I would've been sober enough to think properly about it.

Honestly, I'm not even sure.

The way he made me feel, how he dealt with my body as if he cherished it...that isn't something to be regretful about. I loved every bit of it. I even feel arouse now thinking about it.

I lost my virginity at the back of his car. Damn I did not expect this.

I know he's well aware that he took it. He hadn't mentioned anything about that part though.

His phone starts ringing and he picks it up in a hurry.

"Yeah" He says switching back to serious mode. He holds up a finger to me indicating 1 minute, before walking out the room.

I will take this opportunity to call my friend.

I dial her number. Please pick up.

"I've missed you" Her words warms my heart.

"I've missed you more"

"Can we meet up to talk or at least come where you are?"

"Of course. Um...I will ask Lucifer, but remember that you have to be careful"

"Don't worry. I have Bodyguards with me everywhere I go"

"Wow I love the sound of that"

"Thanks" Lucifer says behind me. I haven't noticed that I turned my back to the doorway. He end his conversation and put his phone in his pocket.

He gives this curious look when he sees the phone at my ear.

I look away from him.

"Give me a minute"

"Sure" I put Tina on mute.

I fully turn around and gets frighten almost bumping into him because he walks up right behind me, and I didn't notice.

Our eyes meets and for some reason I cannot stop gazing into them. It seems that he's lost in mine too. Shit I have Tina on the line.

"Um...Tina has bodyguards so she's safer now" He cocks an eyebrow and looks around then lands them back on me. It seems he doesn't care.

The thought of him fucking me senseless is still wavering in my head.

At first it scared me when I thought it was some stranger who did it. Knowing now that it's him...I don't care if he's my boss anymore fuck that, I'm glad it's him. For some reason a part of me is still a little sad, but I can be more calm now.

Actually no. This frigging scares me.

I wonder if he thinks about it too? Shit Tina.

I look at the phone and she's still there. I don't expect anything less, but I do not want to keep her on the phone waiting too long.

"I would like her to come here. I miss her" He looks disapproving.

"Lucifer it's either that or I go out to see her. I'm not your prisoner remember? We both agreed to this..." I point from me to him.

"...If you disagree I will tell your mother" He breathe out a small laugh. That was unexpected.

His teeth are so white. His laugh is also really gorgeous.

"I keep telling you to do that more often" He looks away and for a moment there I see a little shyness.

He looks back at me.

"Only your friend. Your brother is not welcome" He seriously says. I'm very determined now to find out why he dislikes my brother so much. Maybe Tina can enlighten me. I like the way things are with both of us, and I don't want to argue about this.

If Tina don't know anything I will ask Daniel myself. You know what, I should give him a call, but after I speak with Tina.

I unmute my friend.

"Hey sorry for the long wait. Come today...right now actually"

"Aren't you suppose to be at work?"

"No. We have a lot to catch up on"

"Alright hon"

"I'll text you the address"

"Ok" I hung up.

"I have some business to sort out. I will see you later" He takes up his tie from the bed and makes to leave.

"Hey. When do I need to get back to work?" He turns back fully to me. He puts the tie around his neck so both ends hangs in front of his chest.

"What you need to do is focus on getting better" I smile. It's just drugs it'll wear off soon. I'm almost feeling better already.

"I like the way you care about me" I can't believe I just said that. He gets even closer to me. My heart starts pounding faster.

"And I like the way you make me feel around you" I'm sure my eyes blinks a few times. His words surprise me.

He said things when I read his mind, especially at the party when he helped me regained control of myself, but never had he told me something like this to my face.

This brings butterflies to my belly. I remember something he said earlier and I don't feel comfortable about it.

"Even though it was a mistake and it shouldn't have happened?" I just want to get that off my chest. I know it wouldn't be a response for what he just said, but I had to say it.

He looks away for about 5 seconds then back at me. I'm afraid to hear his response.

"I shouldn't have said it like that. I don't regret it" Good answer.

Shit I just realize that I indirectly told him I loved what he did to me. I'm sure he's smart enough to realize that.

He strokes my right cheek sending shivers down my spine. I swallow to not act on the way he's making me feel, but his face is moving closer to mine. I can see that he wants to kiss me, and I want to kiss him.

I'm not sure.

I turn my head sideways.

"I didn't know it would've been your first time. I'm sorry for the way it happened" He says after a little while, and moves back to his normal position.

I look at him. Why didn't I let him kiss me?

"Maybe if it wasn't for the drug it wouldn't have happened" I say. He smirk.

"Maybe" He says. I look away from him feeling a little horny. These feelings damn.

"I never thought you molested me when you told me you were the one who did it" I can see that he looks curious, but that's because he doesn't know that I remember everything.

If I didn't remember, this conversation probably would've taken a negative turn. Even though I don't think of him that way.

"I remember everything that happened" Disbelief appears on his face. I really want to face palm myself right now.

I was touching myself right beside him, moaning and all.

"I was just messing with you" His expression changes to a softer one.

"It's incredible how you can do that. Normally people in your situation never remembers"

"That's because I am not normal" I tell him.

"That's because you're special" I smile while we look at each other, gazing again.

I think I know why his mother is upset with him. The moment I told her I got molested her expression changed. I highly believe she was arguing with him about having sex with me while I wasn't myself. She figured it out.

She's such a nice and smart lady.

"Do you actually call your mom by her first name? I know that it's her real name but usually children refer to their parents as mom or dad" I break the awkwardness. He smiles. He didn't changed his expression when I mentioned 'dad' maybe he did forgave his father...or atleast moved on...

...or maybe because he's just good at hiding his feelings. Maybe.

"I do refer to her as mother, sometimes mom but because she didn't want me to..." He makes the expression that I should remember that it's because she didn't want him to.

"Yes I get it"

I like this side of him. I remember miss Leona told me how he came home with a broken arm and leg. I know the pain though, because I've been through it, not by bullying though.

He doesn't walk abnormal. Infact the way he walks is perfect.

"I will inform the guards that your friend is coming. I have a business meeting in an hour" He keeps looking at me.

"Drive safe"

"Yeah ahh. Thanks" With that he leaves.

What does this new change means for us? Will it go back to the way it was when he was totally closed off? I wouldnt want it to.

"I like that don't stop" He rubs it a bit faster and it keeps getting sweeter and sweeter.

"I know you would" And like he senses what my body wants, he starts pushing again.

I cannot stop thinking about it.

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