When I reached into my room I lay on my back crying my eyes out.

My heart feels so heavy.

I lost my virginity having no clue how it happened and I'm hurting...badly. But somehow I'm also hurt about what I said to Lucifer.

I keep treating him like he's a heartless person and say whatever comes to my mouth forcing and rushing him, but I get to realize that he's not the cold hearted asshole I thought he was. I know he's genuinely trying to help me as he did before, and he needs time to open up.

I cant believe I was going to slap him. For some strange reason he feels like more than my boss.

He doesn't control the actions of others, so I shouldn't blame him for what happened to me. I wish I have the answers.

I don't hate him at all. Infact...I think I'm even falling in love with him. Shit I'm falling in love with him. How do I know for sure?

This feeling could just be infatuation.

A knock on the door breaks me from my thoughts.

"It's Leona. Can I come in?" I sniff and wipe my face with the back of my hands. I don't even have anything beside me to wipe it properly.

"Miss George!?"

I sit on the bed edge.

"Yes. Yes come in!"

The door opens and she walks in.

"Oh dear I'm sorry you have to go through this" She sits beside me. I can see the sadness on her face.

I notice something very strange with her appearance.

I nod with a sniff.

"Miss George-"

"Christina...you can call me Christina" I try to lighten the mood despite of how I'm feeling. She smiles.

"Ok" She looks so graceful.

"I have a friend, and years ago she was drugged. I'm not saying you shouldn't be upset about it, but she was very fine after that and I'm sure you will too" She doesn't understand what I've lost.

I nod. I don't feel like opening up to her right now. But there is just one thing I need her to answer.

"Why do I feel like I'm important to you?" She sighs.

"Because you are" She smiles so sweetly.

Her expression gets a little concern now. I on the other hand is a little confuse.

"I can see that you're a good woman too. I also notice something else..." She puts her hand on my mine.

"...You like Lucifer don't you?" I look away from her for a moment.

"Yes. I did not want to accept it but I do" I look back at her and she's smiling. The concern is now gone. I said I didn't feel like opening up to her, but I change my mind.

"It's the second time you've asked me this. I don't get why this is so important to you"

"I've know him a very long time. He had a very rough past. He wasn't always so tough. He deserves good things in his life" I frown and wipe some tears.

"Can you please tell me?" I need to know more about him.

"When his dad left his mom for another woman, it took a negative turn on his life. He looked up so much to his father and he was hurt by his actions. He was such a nice boy..." She breathe out the last sentence with a small smile.

"...It turns out he was being bullied at school too, and I mean broken leg, broken arm..." What?

"...And going back home to his moms depression, it was too much for one child to bare..." I nod frowning.

"...There are children that the separation of their parents doesn't affect them much, but it did him..." I'm kinda speechless right now.

"...Of course he got over it, but never forgave his father. If he does now I'm not sure because he doesn't talk about it. He also wasn't the nice beautiful boy that he should've been anymore..." So he doesn't behave the way he does because he's wealthy. He's just been through a lot.

"...Through all that he made it out through university and turned out well, built his company from scratch and now a billionaire" I smile to that. When did he get his extraordinary strength though? Was he born with it? I remember when I accidentally slammed him into the wall with my powers and it was like it never happened.

"His only friend was doctor Lewis, but otherwise he always stayed to himself. He finds it very hard to trust people..."

I almost feel like we aren't so different. We both had to endure the pain of loses and finds it difficult to trust.

"...Do you know why I'm telling you all this?" I shake my head.

"I'm telling you this so that you understand him, not to pity him. I'm not sure if he's going to ever tell you these things..." I sigh mentally.

"...but I've seen where you bring out the best parts of him that I haven't seen since he was a boy" What? She smiles confidently at me this time.

"I've known about you before you know me" Um.

"He cares for you Christina. That's why he brought you here after he found out you're in trouble, hire bodyguards for when he's not around, set up a whole room to make you comfortable, why he made sure you're always fed, and why he's doing everything in his power right now to find out who did this to you" My eyes widens. Hearing all this is just tearing me up. He tried to talk to me earlier, but I didn't give him the chance to.

"So please don't blame him for what happened. I kinda heard faint shouting so I realize" Damn.

"It was just unfortunate that it happened to you. You were just drugged and it'll wear off. Dr Lewis will take care of you" Thinking of what I've been deprived of again now makes me cry even harder.

She rubs my hand that her hand is still on top of.

"You don't understand Miss Leona... someone raped me" She frown confuse. I'm done holding back. I'm too hurt to keep this in. She needs to know why I am so upset and hurting.

"What?"

"I was a virgin" She widens her eyes in shock.

She looks as if she's thinking.

Is she wondering if I'm telling the truth about being a virgin? No it has to be something else.

"I don't know where it happened, I don't know who it was or who they were. I'm stressed out" I need my friend.

She wipes away my tears and for some weird reason it feels so comforting. Now I feel as if she wasn't thinking that I'm lying.

"I'm sure it's gonna be alright. Now get some rest ok. I will make you something to eat" I nod. She cannot be sure that it's going to be alright.

She leaves and I lay down again. I wipe my tears and sniff.

I feel weak. I really should be resting.

How am I going to get over this?

I'm also worrying.

My brother and Tina been on my mind for so long now. I feel like they want to give me space, but I need to talk to them. I need to know if they're ok.

Shit but my bag is left in Lucifer's room. Miss Leona has left so I cannot ask her to get it for me right now and I cannot wait.

I get up and walk out of my room going back to Lucifer's. His room is really huge. His wall is painted as the rest of the house, only mine is painted differently. It has me thinking back on the fact that he renovated an entire room for me. Now I'm sure about that and the guards since Miss Leona confirmed it.

I can't believe he cares so much.

It's kind of a long walk back to his room.

Miss Leona open my eyes on a whole different level right now.

I still cannot shake the fact that my virginity is gone, just like that. I know my body and I can feel the difference inside me. Something's been in there.

A weird noise catches my interest. That's sounds like someone shouting.

When I finally reach his room and look inside, I see when Miss Leona pushes him in the chest, though he did not budge.

The door isn't close.

When they see me she stops quarreling.

What's that about? What's going on?

"We'll talk some other time" She says before walking off.

"You should be resting...but I will get you something to eat. You've only had fruits yesturday right?" I nod.

With that she walks off. I can tell that she's still upset about something.

I just realize how hungry I really am.

I look at Lucifer and I don't think I've ever seen him looking so stress since I've known him. He sits on his bed taking his tie off.

I walk in and all of a sudden I feel a bit dizzy. I shut my eyes for couple seconds and blink a few times.

Feeling a little better I walk to where my bag is and take it up.

"I only came for this" He looks at me, but hasn't say a word. He just keeps gazing. I can tell he wants to ask if I'm ok but he just won't do it.

He fully takes off his tie and lay it on the bed.

His gaze is very intense and intimidating.

I take my phone out the bag and look at the time. It's still working hours, normally at this time we'd still be at the office. I just have a feeling he's still here because of me.

I look at him trying to picture the innocent boy Miss Leona talked about and...I don't know it's like I can see it, the innocent boy...though now he's a man.

"What was that about?" I know that look, he doesn't want to talk about it. I do and I need him to answer.

"I know that you've known Miss Leona for a long time now, but why would your house help treat you in such manner?" Especially after she told me how she would get fired for just being inquisitive. If he tells me fine and if he doesn't I'll just give him time.

"There are some things we need to talk about. You are going to sit down and listen to me this time" His voice is demanding, but his expression shows worry.

I obey and sit beside him so that we're facing each other.

"The first thing you need to know is that she is not my house help...she is my biological mother"