This is crazy.

I shouldn't have agreed to come here. I've been sitting by myself watching everyone having fun. I've been sipping champagne and wine for 2 hours now. I should stop. Even though it can wear off faster than normal doesn't mean I won't get extremely drunk.

I keep looking around. I don't see Lucifer anywhere.

This shouldn't bother me.

Why do I feel so weak? I feel like I'm drifting off into my own mind.

I don't give a damn! He should be here with me at least a few times because he fucking invited me! Instead I'm here sitting alone! I didn't ask him to fucking come here!

I suddenly feel the room shaking and the music stops.

Everyone is trying to hold on to something so they won't fall...except for me. My eyes find Lucifer across the room. He comes running from a corner looking all over the place. His tie is loose and the button at the bottom of his shirt is pull.

When I see Samantha runs out with her clothes looking disheveled I feel furious. The place starts shaking even harder and that's when I realise that I'm the one doing this. I suddenly feel the urge to kill everyone here.

I feel someone touch my shoulder and it snaps me from my thoughts.

"I know that you're the one doing this. You need to calm down before anyone notice that it's you" Harrison is the one who's touching me.

Christina we cannot risk you getting exposed please calm down.

Is that Lucifer?

Get the fuck out of my head and go back to what the fuck you were doing. I don't care about anyone here anyways...not even you.

"If you don't leave me alone you're going to end up on the next side of this building" I tell Harrison. He lets go and backs off. I look at everyone who are trying to move out of the building because it's shaking even harder.

You're the darker part of Christina aren't you?

I don't know what you're talking about.

The real Christina doesn't know how to mind converse fluently yet. Plus the Christina I know will not want to hurt anyone.

Your words means nothing to me. I hope you know that.

I shut the door with my powers so no one can escape.

Christina I know you're still in there. I also know you can fight this. I know things are complicated with you right now but I know you're going to be better because you are not alone. You are much more than just my employee...I care about you...I care about you a lot.

Hearing this from him makes my body calm. Why? I don't even like him...but she does. No...this time I'm not going to allow her to surface.

Everyone is screaming. I smile looking at them running around like headless chickens trying to escape. I can feel my energy building up and when I release it, I'm going kill everyone. There are at least over a hundred people in this place.

Perfect.

I told you I'm going to keep you safe and I will...trust me. I will protect you with everything I've got. I know you don't want to hurt anyone, and to not do that you need to fully be in control. Take that part of yourself and be one with it again.

I can't...do it.

That's right you can't.

Don't listen to her Christina. Everyone has good and bad in them. You just need to choose the good because you're a good person...Remember all the good things that happened in your life, push aside regret and pain, the things you weren't able to control is not your fault...Now take full control of your mind and your body...permanently this time...I know you can do it.

I can feel my body fighting with itself. But I feel the weaker part of me taking over. I'm the one that's suppose to be in control. I'm the stronger one...NO!

I look to see Lucifer half way across the room getting closer to me.

I can't believe he said those things to me. How did he managed to say all that being the type of person that he is?
Moreover...how did I managed to take back control of my body?

I'm still sitting, luckily everyone is busy running to find a way out that they haven't notice how calm I am throughout all this.

I shut my eyes and focus on the energy that's going to release any moment. I have to stop it. I saw what it did before, and this can kill everyone in here, take this whole building down and probably kills me too.

You are much more than just my employee...I care about you...I care about you a lot.

I care about you a lot.

I care about you a lot.

I close my eyes and focus. I calm my mind and my whole body.

Lucifer was just saying things to bring me back and it worked, but I really do regret not being able to save my parents, especially realizing the things I can do now. I also regret shutting out every other family member at the time of our lost too. Both of us did.

But I have to move on from everything.

I think about the love my parents had for me, my sensitive brother and my friend who loves me very much, my beautiful Gabby...and for some reason Lucifer.

I manage to deplete the energy that's building up inside me. Soon the building stops shaking and I open my eyes.

"What the hell was that!" A woman shouts.

"It was probably an earthquake" A male adds. Everyone starts talking at once it's hard to make out what they're saying.

"Everyone relax! If that was an earthquake it's gone now and the party is not yet over. Turn on the music!" Samantha says.

The guy that should be playing the music gets up from the floor and turns it back on.

The guards also reopens the door.

I think I'm beginning to understand how to take over from my dark side if she ever comes out again, though it takes a lot of focus and energy.

My body feels weird though.

"Christina!" Lucifer reaches up to me. He walks and stops so close to me that I'm able to feel his breath on my face and I'm most certain he can feel mine.

I refuse to look in his eyes. Even though I wasn't in control of my body earlier I still saw where he and Samantha came from and how they looked. He seems to straighten out himself because his button isn't loose anymore and his tie is perfect. It hurts but I had to remind myself that we aren't together. It doesn't hurt any less though.

It took a lot out of me to regain control of my body, but I know that if it wasn't for him I probably wouldn't have. Hearing those words coming from him gave me the motivation I needed. Why am I feeling this way for him? I shouldn't be.

He said he cares about me but Samantha...

...I should just stop thinking about this.

"Hey!" His voice breaks my thoughts. I look at him this time and the looks in his eyes are ones I've never seen before all together. It's a mixture of worry, pain and...

I don't know. I don't really want to think beyond what things are so I'm going to leave it alone. The pain in his eyes reminds me of the look Daniel had when our parents died. I know that I'm not dead, but the looks in his eyes just reminds me of how my brother own looked when I looked in them those years ago. In other words I know what love looks like in the eyes.

Does this means that Lucifer loves me?

No that can't be right. I must be missing something. I cant focus properly because my body doesn't feel right.

"She's just frightened, everyone here is! She'll be alright!" Samantha is now standing beside Lucifer with her hands on his shoulder. I think back on when I saw them coming from that area that I'm sure leads to an office. I know based on the structure of this place. I remember how my darkside did not care much about them, but I did...and I think that's why she reacted and wanted to kill everyone. What if she was only acting off the way that I was feeling? What if I'm the one that wanted to kill all these people?

No. I'm NOT going to blame myself for this.

"I'm fine!" I look at a far corner and see Harrison there speaking to someone.

"Excuse me" I can't stand that woman. I can only imagine what they were doing before all this started. I stand from the chair.

"Are you sure you're alright!?" Of course I'm not.

"Yes!" With that I walk off. The weird feeling is getting worst. I look back at Lucifer and he's still looking at me walking away while Samantha looks away from me, then looks at him in perplexity.

I look in front of me and finish my walk towards Harrison. I need to speak to him before he tells anyone about me.

"Excuse me! Can I speak to you alone please!?" The lady he's speaking to looks at me. I can see that she's a little unhappy seeing me. The smile she's wearing is fading.

"Sure!"

"It'll just be a moment!" I say looking at her. She doesn't answer, but her expression changes to a calmer one. It's obvious she has a crush on him.

We walk away from the lady so she wouldn't hear our conversation. She did not wait though she just walks off.

I look at him, he is wearing a simple expression. He looks as if he's just waiting for me to say what I want to say.

"About earlier I wasn't myself. Can you just keep this between us!?" Harrison is a very handsome man.

What am I thinking?

"You told me that you'll think about coming to the party with me, but you didn't even take my number. You could've told me no, it wouldn't have been a problem!" He's really coming with this without giving me an answer?

"I'm sorry it didn't cross my mind at the time!"

"You're here with him though!" I frown.

"You do understand that I owe you no explanation right!?"

"Well if you want me to keep your secret I should at least know something right!?" No I'm not going through this. Not now. Especially standing beside him feeling like this.

I walk away from him. He holds my hand and gently pulls me towards him. I quickly control my steps to prevent my heels from getting out of control allowing me to fall.