You all probably hate me for the Eren x Erwin ship. I just wanted to mess with a few things that's all... Don't be mad. ;-; it's only an experiment. But I still do kinda ship it.

------no ones P.O.V------

Levi drink the night away, not giving a damn about anyone or anything. Hanji came down the steps and groaned in discomfort.

"Geez, Levi! Why do you have to drink?! It really smells bad!" She said. She covers her nose and sat in the chair in front of him. Levi clicked his tongue.

"Shut up shitty glasses. I'm not in the mood." He broke the eye contact between the two. She sighed and leaned back in her chair.

"Levi, are you still worried about Eren and Erwin's relationship?" She asked.

"Why do you care?" He snapped. She rolled her eyes and shook her head.

"Levi." She started. "Why don't you just tell him you love him?" She asked. He slammed his shot glass on the table, almost breaking the glass. He looked into her eyes in pure hate.

"It's not that fucking easy, Hanji! It's not like giving a Nanaba a banana (a/n: sorry :/)! I just can't fucking tell him 'I love you..'" He shouted. She sighed. "He's terrified of me! Hell, Erwin won't even let him talk to me!" He shouted and tears began to build up in his silver eyes. Hanji looked at the short male in concern. He began to hiccup and the tear fell onto the table.

"Levi-" Hanji whispered but was soon cut off.

"No... I'm sorry. I s-shouldn't be act-ting like this.." Levi said between hiccups. Hanji slowly stood and made her way to the crying male.

"Hey... It's okay." She cooed in his ear. Levi kindly pushed her off and went up the stairs. "Eh? Levi?" She asked.

"I have to handle some business." He said. She smiled, knowing what would happen next.

----Erwin's room----

Eren's P.O.V

Erwin was on an important meeting. It was really dark and it was cold without him. I sighed and clutched onto the blanket, knowing that was my only warmth. But I'm not sad for that reason.. My hips were in so much pain. He sure didn't go easy this time. I heard a knock on the door. I slowly got up, silently hissing. I made it to the door and opened it. It was Corporal Levi. I tensed up and froze.

'Was he going to beat me again?!' I mentally shout. 'Wait...is that...alcohol?' I ask.

"Eren." He broke the silence. "May I talk to you, please?" He asked in a pleading tone. I reluctantly open the door.

"W-what's the matter?" I stutter.

"E-Eren, I.." His shoulders began to shake.

No Ones P.O.V

"L-Levi Heichou...?" Eren stuttered. Levi was completely wasted. He was in Eren's chest, hiccuping and sobbing.

"I'm so sorry, Eren! I shouldn't have -hiccup- done that to you! I love you brat and seeing you with him makes -hiccup- me so fucking jealous! I just want to -hiccup- kill him and take you! I know it was -hiccup hiccup- wrong to beat you! Please, don't make me suffer anymore!" After the whole confession, Eren was at a loss of words. After his little speech, he broke down in tears.

"Heichou..." Eren whispered. Eren hesitantly wrapped an arm around his crying Corporal's back.

"Eren." Levi said once he calmed down.

"Yes sir?" Eren asked. Levi looked up to see Caribbean colored eyes starring into his own.

"Do you resent me...?" He asked softly. Eren, on the other hand, was too scared to answer.

"I don't hate you, but I'm scared of you." Was all he said. "Actually..." He started. "I still love you..." He whispers. Levi's eyes widened. He couldn't believe what was heard.

"Eren. How could you still love me..? After what I've done to you...?" Levi asked in pure confusion.

"I don't know. Erwin has shown me love and happiness, but..." He trailed off. "I think... I would be happier...with you." Eren says. "Yet, I still love Erwin." He lowers his head. Levi continued to look at the young male. He grabbed his chin and softly place his lips on Eren's. Eren gasped and reluctantly kissed back. Levi placed his hands on the skinny male's waist and held him in place. Levi began to lick Eren's bottom lip, asking for entrance. Eren slowly opened his mouth and let Levi enter. Levi took control of the situation. Things were about to get hot. Eren moaned into the kiss and weakly wrapped his arms around his neck. Levi moved to his neck and began to lick and nibble. Eren moaned loudly once Levi brushed over his sweet spot. Levi continued to lick on that spot making Eren moan insanely loud. Eren finally came to his senses and placed both hands push him away. Levi was shocked at first but then wore a saddened expression.

"I-I'm sorry. I can't do this...with you..." He lowered his head in guilt, knowing he was hurting Levi. Levi looked at the teen in worry. Levi had so many emotions built up inside, he would break pretty soon.

"It's fine, Eren." He stood up, surprising the teen. "I understand." Levi dusted his outfit off and turned towards the door. Eren heard a high-pitched creak, signaling Eren that Levi was at the door. "But remember this, Eren..." He started. "Nothing, and I mean nothing, will make me stop loving you." He said and shut the wooden door. Eren was appalled. He didn't move any muscle. He could hear light footsteps becoming louder, but he still hasn't removed his somewhat-sore bottom from the floor. As the door opened, it revealed a tall, muscular blonde male with a faint smile. Once he spotted his lover on the floor, he joined him.

"Eren? What are you doing on the floor?" His nostrils filled with a strong, unwelcoming smell. "Eren... What is that smell?" His expression dropped to pissed immediately. Eren didn't want to look at his recent lover after the events that recently took place. "Eren." His voice boomed and echoed in the room.

"It's nothing..." Eren lied. It really killed him inside to lie to his Commander/lover.

"Why are you lying?" He asked suspiciously. "Levi was in here...wasn't he?" He assumed. Erwin knew he was right. The smell of alcohol was stuck to Levi once he passed him. Eren looked away, knowing what would happen next. "Answer me, Eren." Erwin commanded. Eren's shoulders began to shake lightly, making Erwin panic slightly.

"I-I don't know what to d-do anym-more..." Eren whimpered. "I can't do this anymore..." He whispered and had a good grip on his hair and he lightly tugged at it. Erwin's heart slightly shattered. "I don't know who I love most..." Eren sobbed quietly. Erwin watched as the tears he thought he wouldn't see, fell from his beautiful face. Erwin had no response. He scooted over to Eren and wrapped his arms around his lover's trembling shoulders. Eren turn to face his chest and continued to sob.

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Why...?

Why me....?

How did this even happen...?

Why must I love you both....?

Why do I have to love?

Do I need this?

Do I even deserve this?

No...

I don't deserve any of this. I don't deserve anyone to love me, to care for me, and to worry about me...

I'm causing so much pain...to everyone around me. Even to the men who love me.

I guess my only answer to end all of this is...

Suicide...

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Sorry for not updating. I've been trying to make my stories better and I have testing to do which really sucks.

Anyway, I hope I didn't fuck with anyone's feelz and yes... Eren is really considering suicide. The next chapter will explain why.

Anyway...

I hoe you all have a wonderful day my bootyful attackers!

Keep Calm and Fangirl On~ <3

Have a nice dayyy~