1 more chapter left and then the 3 part epilogue. I am over writing this story now but I will finish it out. I am so excited to write about Evan I already have the first 2 chapter of his story ready to go once I am finished here.

Happy reading to my supportive readers!

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ETHAN'S P.O.V.

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"Mio caro ragazzo pieno di sole (My dear boy sunny). It's not too late, you can still choose the path you take. You see, life is for the living, you're still living because your purpose in the world is not yet fulfilled. You are what holds the family together. Their days will be dark and destructive without you. You bring them light; you sunny." She points at me.

Know this, you are strong, you are brave, stronger than you realize. You're not weak, not at all. A weak man does not have the courage to jump from a building but what you did was selfish and selfless all in one, you didn't stop to think how it would affect everyone. You have choices sunny. When something bad happens, God gives you free will to have faith and choose. You can choose to let it define you, destroy you or strengthen you. Choose strength each time. Don't let this define you." She smiles down at me.

"You know in my days, I had a friend who got married and it went downhill a month later and she killed herself? She felt she didn't have anyone to talk to. At first I thought she was crazy but I cannot judge her. I have no idea what she felt, how bad it was. See people are so quick to judge, suicide is a serious thing but something society brushes under the rug. I remember when they used to have people jumping in front of trains a lot. It is a cold world that you live in but you have to make it warm. Life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it. Take this strength sunny and use it to fulfill your purpose. Life is for the living, live it!" I listen to everything she's saying.

"When you go back!" I look up at her, I can go back? I think. She nods and smile.

"People will judge you, they will slander your name, call you weak, even though they themselves are no better. Don't relish in what people think, the past is where your learn hour lesson, the future is where you apply the lesson. Let them judge you, because they can't handle half of what you have been through, there is a reason you have done the things you did, there is a reason for who you are. So when they say he's so weak he would kill himself for a girl, just ignore them, you know your problems ran deeper. People will always be there to talk about you but they aren't always there to help. Now go save your wife and glue your family back together before Evan does something crazy!" She laughs.

She removes her wings from around me and I lets me go. We are in front of a white door but too far away for me to see inside the windows on the door.

"Go on!" She smiles.

I look back up. "But what about Elora and my sister. I can't just leave them."

"They are fine. Evania is always with you all as well as myself. Elora, you will see her again, this is not her ending." She tells me.

"What do you mean?" I'm so confused by that statement. "I will see her in my dreams?" I ask.

"Sunny sunny! Just tell my daughter to behave herself and to stop telling me to come back everyday." She laughs. "Tell her I miss her as well but I am always with her. Tell Bryce I couldn't be more proud of him and tell Evan to never say never, everything is going to catch up to him so be prepared. And to your wife to be, tell her I said, she needs see to Dr. Gwendolyn Kinsley and not Langston! And Remember when I said your wing will always carry you? I meant it. With Quinn you never have to worry about falling again. Now go to her and be the strong man i know your are. I love you." She press her lips to my cheek and I close my eyes.

"What about Nonno( grandfather) don't you want me to tell him something for you too?" I ask her.

"Oh don't worry about that vecchio pazzo ubriaco. I will see him soon enough but for now, I talk to him every night in his dreams." I can hear the joy in her voice at the mention of him.

I no longer feel her presence and open back my eyes. She is gone and the door is directly in front of me.

Why would Quinn need to see that doctor? She's already in the hospital. I shake the thought from my head since it make no sense to me.

I walk up to the door and look through the window and my breath catches.

I start pulling and yanking on the door as much as I could.

I need to save her.

She must have heard me because she was no longer sitting on the floor. Her face was in the window staring back at me.

I pushed and pulled on the door hurriedly. But it wouldn't open and I couldn't hear her through the door.

Then saw a white button.

I pushed it so hard I am surprised it didn't fall off.

The door pushed open and I ran inside and enveloped her in my arms.

"I'm so sorry!" We both said at the same time.

Before she could say anything else to me, I pressed my lips against hers and she didn't wait to kiss me back.

"This is all my fault!" Quinn cries pecking my lips with each words. "Don't ever leave me again!"

"Baby I'm so sorry! I would never try to hurt you. I love you so much, I'm so sorry Quinn." I hug her tight to me.

"Let's go home!" I tell her.

"There's something I have to tell your first." She pulls away from me.

I pull her back. Never wanting her to leave my arms again. "It's ok, you can tell me anything."

"It was all my fault. Ethan I can't have children. I should have told you a long time ago. I was rapped when I was younger. My uterus is damaged. I was told I would never be able to have children. I should have told you." I was now fuming.

"It's not your fault. Its the bastard that rapped your fault. He took that away from us. I promise he will regret it." I threaten but at the same time I was even more hurt for Quinn that she had to deal with that. Now I fell even worst. Instead of trying to run, I should have been trying harder to love her.

We both have demons.

"I need to tell you something as well. I have a daughter. I just saw her, the most beautiful little girl. When I was 16 I got a girl pregnant. Both Evan and I had sex with her. She didn't know who the baby belonged to and said she couldn't live without knowing. Evan no longer wanted anything to do with her but I think the thought of having the baby grew on him after a while. I still stuck around hoping it was mine. Sara couldn't handle it, she was almost 4 months pregnant when she got rid of the baby. We never figured out who's she was and what gender she was. But I met her today, and she was mine and a little girl. . for some weird reason I always knew she was mine and I guess that yearning never died, and I transferred it into our relationship. I'm sorry baby. I should have told you, It was just a secret that Evan and I carried for so long that I promised I would never talk about again." I plead to her, hoping she forgives me. "I promise, no more secrets."

"I promise no more secrets as well. I promise to trust you and I hope you will trust me." She says looking up at me with love radiating through her eyes.

I hug her burying my face in her hair, I can't believe I thought leaving this girl would be what's best for me and her. I am a fool. I kiss her ear. "I promise. Please forgive me for what I did?" I beg.

She ease back and cups my face with her hands and smile. "You've already been forgiven. I can't imagine what you were going through. I ignored your cry for and pleas for attention and when your soul needed saving. You tried one last time and I put you out and you left the letter and I was too stubborn to read it. All you needed was help. I am sorry Ethan. Forgive me?" She asks.

"It's water under the bridge baby!" I smile scooping her up into my arms. I walk towards the door up ahead. The door handle has a "no re-entry sign on it". I smile knowing only my Nonna would do that.

I push the red button and the door opens to Quinn's surgery room. I walk her over to the gurney she was in after standing at the door and realizing no one could see us.

"Let's get you back in your body baby, I want to hold your forreal." I say about to lay her on top of her body.

"Wait." She grabs my arm. She sealed her lips onto mine and I didn't waste anytime reciprocating the kiss. "I love you Ethan. Please don't leave me."

I look into her eyes. "This is going to be our first step. Do you trust me?" I ask her.

"Yes. I trust you with all my heart." With that she closed her eyes and I kiss her lips once more before laying her down.

Immediately her heart rate started to pick up on the machines and she opened her eyes. The doctors were all gathering around her.

I smile and head back out the silver double doors. The doors didn't take me back to where I just came from. Instead I was in the hallways. I kept walking trying to find my body. But stopped when I seen the familiar curly hair woman walk out of a room heading down the hall.

The room she exited door was open.

I look inside and Evan was sleeping in a bed. His jacket is gone and his white shirt is bloody and his hand is wrapped. But otherwise, he seems to be sleeping peacefully.

Thank god my brother is ok. I don't know what I would if something happened him regardless of how he acts, since I am partially to be blamed for his damaged heart.

I look down the hall to see her take a left and hurry behind her to see if she could lead me to my body. I stop once I see her in-front of Bryce, Cara and Rae.

"Is he ok?" Cara asks. Her face was red just like Rae's, like she had been crying as well.

Shantel looks down and breaths into her hand before looking back up. "He's fine. The doctor treated his hand and gave him some pain pills and they knocked him out. He's in room 228." Shantel explains.

Rae breathed a sigh of relief, while Bryce just stood there looking out of it.

"How did you know he was here?" Cara asks looking at Shantel now with a glare, all signs of gratitude leaving her face.

"Um...uh I brought in my friend, she wasn't feeling well. Then I heard the commotion and came to see what happened and then I just tried to help. It's the least I could do for all they have done for-" She was cut off by Bryce hugging her.

"I miss you. Please come home?" I heard bryce whisper in her ear so no one else could ear.

"I just need time. I promise I will when I'm ready. He's out of it, please don't tell him I was here, tell him he imagined seeing me." He agrees, lets her go and she hugs Rae begs her to stay and hugs Cara awkwardly before walking away.

I think Bryce knows she's not coming back by the way he watched her leave.

"Doctor tell us you have some good news?" Cara says really loud.

I turn to see the doctor that was by Quinn's bedside walking towards us.

"She is awake and seems to be doing pretty well." The doctor explains

"Oh thank god." Rae sighs with relief.

"But there is one slight problem. She is demanding to see Ethan. She keeps saying he's not dead. Were not sure if she is still in shock or just denial. But I would more assume denial since her heart rate is stable" He looks at them as if he has no clue what to do with her.

"Can we see her?" Bryce asks. It's the first I have seen him speak.

"Right now we are getting her assigned to a room. You can see her after. And I know it might be hard but you may need take her to see him if that will help. His body should still be in room 104. I will have them hold off on taking him to the morgue until you are able to take her. I'm sure she will need you all around to deal with it."

Bryce thanks him after he directs them how to get to the room Quinn will be in.

As they leave to that area, I find myself to room 104.

I walk into the room and look to make sure no one was looking. I pull the sheet back from the body letting it fall on the floor.

My mouth falls open, now I see why some people choose to drown themselves. I was so saddened by what I saw and knew that by the looks of it, my spine could be injured and I may never walk again. Now I feel even more foolish for what I did.

But I was given a second chance, so no matter what happens after this, I'm going to fight.

I climbed on top of my body and laid down. I slowly started feeling myself becoming one with my body again.

"Quinn here I come." I whisper as I close my eyes.