Yes I overthink but I also over-love :⁠-⁠)

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The next day too passed in a blink of an eye.Karan didn't even look at Preeta which was making her more enraged.His actions of proving as if she was wrong was haunting her.She was not able to digest that.

She was feeling ignored when she should be the one to do that.

It was late evening and she was sitting in living room waiting for him to come so that she can talk to him.She was becoming frustrated day by day.Its been two days and he was not even ready to approach her.

Neither did he try to explain her nor his actions looked like he was guilty and sorry for what he did.Moreover he was acting as if she was not present in the home.Having his food alone not caring if she did or not which ached her to the fullest.

And due to lack of food she was not even feeling sleepy and kept changing her position to sleep last night but didn't felt like eating anything.He didn't even complain when she slept in other room.And It was scaring her more now.

Her mind said that he is no more in love with her.Her heart ached seeing his careless behaviour towards her.She was all disturbed.She was imagining many irrelevant thoughts which made her afraid thinking what was running in his mind.She felt like he no longer wants her.His actions proved that.

Now she had decided to get her answers in any condition.If he keeps behaving like this she was not ready for this.She wanted him to speak up and comfort her for his mistake.She wanted his answer.She decided to initiate because she got to know that there is no use of silent treatment which he is following in place of her.

Not to forget he was coming home late these two days and she knew it was to ignore her presence.

The sound of the door broke her chain of thoughts and she realised he was up.She looked at the time and it was 9:30 PM.He himself opened the lock from outside and entered in.

Removing his shoes he placed his bag aside and walked towards his room ignoring her.She just watched him silently.But her eyes said either.They were moist.

She waited till he came back after getting fresh.Another fifteen minutes passed and he directly headed towards the kitchen to have his dinner as the dining table was empty.

She chuckled painfully and got up.Entering the kitchen she looked at him filling his plate with the food.

Walking towards him she stood at some distance.

"Dinner kar rahe ho! Akele?"She gulped her tears before asking him.Her voice was weak yet low.

Karan ignored her words and headed towards the refrigerator.Her nose flared in anger at his actions.

"Karan! Mein kuch puch rahi hu tumse"She said, again trying to gain his attention.

But he continued his actions causing her to hold his hand in fury.

"Leave"He whispered meekly in his stern voice, his eyes still lowered.

"I won't, Why are you behaving as if it is my mistake, when you are the one who made me hurt, the mistake is from your side.Why are you doing this"She whisper-yelled, staring at his face.

He lifted his head and looked at her.

"Don't you want to give any explanation? You are impossible ka.."She flinched stopping her words when he took his hand back in anger while throwing the plate he was holding.

Her eyes widened in shock at his actions.Lips parted to say something but he was already bursting on her.

"Haa! Galti meri hi hai.Galti meri hai ki I made friendship with her.Galti meri hai jo mein usse tumhare kehne par bhi haa kaha.My mistake! It is my mistake that I wanted to show my friend around when she did the same when I was in London.Why? Because I am married now right? My mistake is that I tried to make you talk to her.My mistake, that I accepted to dance with her knowing that my wife doesn't like it.My mistake, that I wanted to help her.Uski aankhon mein kuch chala gaya tha, toh mein dekhne keliye uske close tha toh woh meri hi galti hai.I shouldn't have done that.but I didn't knew na, that my wife would miss understand us thinking we were about to kiss.My mistake that I cared for someone other than you as a friend.My mistake that I believed you have trust in me.My mistake that I thought everything is transparent between us.But no, I didn't knew that my wife is so insecure.My mistake.Galti meri hai tumhari nahi.So I am sorry and if you got your every answers please leave me alone for god sake" He shouted furiously without a pause and left the kitchen leaving her shocked.

Preeta was stunned.She became speechless.Her heart pierced and guilt of tears leaked through her eyes after listening to him.She never thought like that.Placing palm over her mouth she sobbed shaking her head in no.

Her heart ached not because of pain.In guilt of not trusting her husband.The way he said made her clear that how hurt and stressed he was.She didn't even double check and put an allegations on him.Her heart clenched in pain.

My mistake, that I believed you have trust in me.

Sliding to the floor she started crying not believing her own self.

My mistake, that I thought everything is transparent between us.

"No"She whispered pulling her lower lip in.It was hard to digest.The words she said to him roamed in her mind making her hold her head.

But no, I didn't knew that my wife is so insecure.

"I am sor..sorry!"she said, still weeping and stared at the plate and food laying on the floor.She needed to apologise before he could hate her.She got to know the reason for his ignorance and this raised a fear in her heart more.She thought to apologise quickly.As soon as possible to confront him.She realised it was badly needed after her behaviour since two days.

I didn't even let him eat properly!

Gulping her tears back with difficulty she stood up with a support and wiped her tears.She didn't have any face to go to him, but still she wanted him to have his food which he left because of her.Thinking to talk to him making the reason for food felt better for her.

Filling the other plate with moist eyes she meekly walked out of the kitchen and stood infront of the door of their room.He was sitting on the bed lowering his head and she knew he was hell angry.She could sense it looking at the way he was clutching the bed and his white knuckles.

She ruined everything!

She got to know that.She made a massive mistake.She doubted him.She questioned him.She didn't trust him and it was killing her now.too Badly!

"Karan"She whispered in her wailing voice and approached him with baby steps.

His clutched the bed more realising her presence and closed his eyes.He was not ready for any explanation but it slipped out from his mouth in anger.And he was regretting it now.He wanted her to trust him without any answers.

"Get out! Please"He requested, not wanting to face her right now.He was already frustrated and he didn't wanted to do or say something bad.

"Karan..I didn't k.."

"I said goo!"He shouted making her scared.

Her hands shivered and tears cascade down her cheeks non stop but still she didn't move.She wanted to apologise.She was not ready to see that hate in his eyes for her.It was breaking her more.

"I am so..."her words were again incomplete as he didn't let her.

"Fucking leave me alone!"He yelled this time before standing up and approached her.

"Karan khana..tum..tumne nahi kiya"She stammered feeling scared of his anger when he caught her arm tightly.

"I don't want to.Now leave me"He said taking her out of the room and closing the door on her face.

"Karan"her lips shivered before taking his name.She dropped to the floor and kept the plate aside.Placing her palm over the closed door she cried calling him.

"I am sorry..Please kholo"She said meekly in her broken voice.

Whereas Karan stood leaning his back to the door and let his few tears roll down his eyes.He didn't want to do that.He never thought she would make him behave this harsh with her.

All he did these days was to cherish and love her like anything.But she ruined everything in a blink of time which would never come back.He was disappointed with her.

Her words and fake accusations were roaming in his mind ruining his peace and were breaking his heart.He cannot forget that.He can never forget that.She had made fun of him by questioning his love for her.How can she?

Wiping his tears he walked forward ignoring her silent cries and turned off the light to sleep.He was not sleeping well without her, but he didn't had any choice either.It was necessary to stay away from her.

While Preeta's sobs turned into silent cries and she clutched her dress not knowing what to do.But she didn't move an inch from there.She wanted him to take her in.She wanted to apologise for her mistake.

"Please open the door!"She kept saying but there was no response from his side.Still she sat there waiting for him to open the door while leaning her head on the door and didn't even realise when sleep consumed her due to crying.

Karan woke up at midnight and opened the door to go out to drink some water.But he was shocked to see her laying on the floor.

His heart ached looking at her.Immediately kneeling down he picked her up in his arms and walked to the other room to make he sleep.She immediately snuggled in his chest causing him to close his eyes.

Placing her on the bed he was about to move back but her tight hold on his shirt pulled him back.He leaned towards her and gazed at her face and then her fingers gripping his shirt.

He badly wanted to touch her, to embrace her but remembering her deed he removed her fingers and stood up.Covering her with the blanket he left the room before glancing at her.

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The next morning was painful for Preeta.As soon as her eyes flickered and she got up she realised that she was sleeping on the bed.And she knew he was the one to make her sleep.

Her face fell remembering the last night.And her senses reminded her about the apology.Quickly walking out of the bed she entered their room to find no one.

Furrowing her eyebrows she searched him in the entire home but he was not there.Her mood fell when Maria said he had already left before half an hour without having his breakfast.

Her lower lip plucked out in agony.She wanted to see him, talk to him, apologise to him.But his ignorance said how hurt he was.She knew she badly ruined their growing bond.But she was also determined to get her apology no matter what.

Only if she knew his state.

Getting ready for the hospital in the next one hour, she quickly grabbed her belongings and left the house.

"Feeling sorry to interrupt you in office hours.But I can't hold this pain more"She mumbled nodding to herself and kicked off the engine of her car to reach the company soon.

It took an hour for her to reach there and she sighed before getting down from the car.Walking ahead she smiled at the woman who greeted her.

"Glad to see you here mam!"She said shaking hands with her and Preeta wondered how she got to know about her.

"Do you know me?"Preeta inquired.

"Everyone in our company knows you mam.Karan sir had announced about your marriage a few months back"The lady replied causing Preeta to smile with a nod.

"Good morning mam! Do you want to meet Karan sir?"Another person came running towards her and Preeta turned her gaze to him.

"Yea! Can you please tell me his floor number.I can manage further"Preeta replied with a small smile.

"Yes sure mam, I will take you there.This way"The person said walking ahead.

"See you!"Preeta said to the lady and followed the person.

"I am Rohit! Karan sir's PA"He introduced himself while entering the elevator.

"Oh! Nice to meet you"Preeta said waiting for the door to open.

"Likewise"Rohit said with a smile.

Reaching the tenth floor Preeta's eyes shined seeing the interior of the corridor.The floor had different aroma realising he was there.She sighed with a smile and walked towards the cabin followed by Rohit.

"Wait for a minute mam,Karan sir was in online meeting.I will check once and inform you"Rohit said and Preeta nodded in return while looking around the place.

The door of the cabin was carved with his name.

KARAN LUTHRA,
         CEO

She smiled seeing it and waited for Rohit to return soon.

"Can I go inside?"Preeta asked excitedly.

"Actually! Mam"Rohit said in disappointment and looked at her with a wry face.

"Kya hua?"Preeta inquired noticing his silence.

"Sir is quite busy.He is not even ready to listen to me"Rohit said and Preeta pouted in return.

"Okay! When will he get free? At least ask this"Preeta informed him wanting to keep it profesonal.She could have barged inside but knowing he was in a meeting she thought to go against it and to wait patiently till it ends.

"May be in another fifteen minutes.I have the schedule mam"Rohit informed her.

"Oh! Okay then I can wait for fifteen minutes.It's fine"Preeta replied walking aside and sat on the couch which was present there.

"I am so sorry mam.Would you like to have something?"Rohit asked.

"No thanks!I am fine and there is no need to ask for sorry.I can wait.You can carry on with your work "Preeta said, with a small smile.

"I will be on the same floor, in my cabin and will come to you in next fifteen minutes"Rohit said.

"Yeah, that's totally fine"She said and Rohit hummed in return before walking away from her.

"Huh!"Preeta huffed crossing her legs and took her mobile to pass some time.

After another fifteen minutes she stood up to enter inside that Rohit came towards her and informed her to wait till he checks whether his boss was free or not.

But she frowned when he returned shaking his head in no.

"What? Is he still in the meeting?"she questioned.

"No mam, sir just ordered me not to let anyone inside the cabin right now.He is not ready to listen to me properly and I cannot talk against him"Rohit replied feeling sad for Preeta.

"You can go.I will handle further"Preeta said walking ahead and opened the door ignoring Rohit's calls.

"Mam"he stopped when she was already inside.Thinking it won't bother Karan he walked towards his cabin.

Whereas inside, Preeta was astonished seeing him working on the laptop.

"Karan"Preeta called him loudly gaining his attention.

He lifted his head hearing her voice and was shocked to see her inside.He had intentionally said not to let anyone inside the cabin.He had already noticed her in his cctv.

He was stunned to see her in his office but also was furious right now seeing her in his cabin.

"What the hell are you doing here?"He questioned standing up from his seat while pushing the file aside.

Her nervous smile turned to a straight one and her eyes lost the shine seeing him angry.And she knew that he didn't like her presence in his office.

"Mei..mein tumse baat Karne aayi hu.Tum subhe ja.."her words went off when she saw him heading towards her.

"Can't you see that, I am busy! It's better if you leave my cabin and office right now, Preeta"Karan warned her trying to control himself.

Her eyes became moist and heart pained seeing him not even looking at her.She knew she made him hurt at first but still it was painting her a lot and she felt weak whenever he saw her with those angry eyes and talked raising his voice.

"Karan mein, bas 10 mins.Give me ten minutes please"She spoke holding his hand.

"I don't even have five minutes.Please jao yaha se"He said jerking her hand and walked forward turning his back to her.

Only he knew how much it was getting difficult for him to talk like this to her.But he knew she deserved it.He didn't want to hear anything from her after he explained everything to her.

"Please, I am sorry karan"She pleaded again walking towards him and held his arm making him face her.

And it made him more furious.

She was apologising!

"Leave, please!"He whispered rubbing his face and went towards his chair to sit ignoring her presence.

Wiping her tears she thinned her eyebrows and turned her back towards him knowing he won't talk to her.He was completely ignoring her.

It was making her frustrated but she knew it was her mistake and she felt helpless.Now she was realising his love and care but it ached her more when she  only saw anger in his eyes, for her.

Which made her more weak.

She had brought breakfast for him thinking to have it with him.But she knew it won't happen.Taking the tiffin box out from her bag she placed it on the chair near her and said before gulping her tears,

"Breakfast kar lena,please"Saying she turned and left the cabin with teary eyes.

Running towards the lift she pressed the ground floor and wiped her face and shifted her hair back.

Reaching the ground floor she ran outside and walked fast to reach her car ignoring the lady who wanted to talk to her.

Sitting inside the car she lost her patience and burst in crying.Her heart was heavy and she knew she won't feel good till they come back to normal.Not till he talks to her like before.

Now she was cursing herself for bringing this situation for herself and him.She knew he was hurt and angry at her.Also she knew she realised it late and that too when he himself opened up infront of her.It was making her guilty and she was getting angry at herself for making mountain out of mole hill.

But it had already happened and now she doesn't know how to make him listen to her and forgive her.She was all puzzled.But the only thing running in her mind was to see his love filled eyes whenever he looked at her.She was feeling devastated.

She knew he was feeling no less but only change was now she was feeling guilty for not apologising before and he was angry because she didn't trust him.

Coming out of her thoughts she wiped her tears realising the time and composed herself before giving life to the engine.

Whereas on the other side Karan was leaning his head back on his chair being all disturbed.How can he stay calm when his heart and mind was restless.

Moreover her apology made him enraged.How can she say sorry to him.He didn't want her apology now, after he himself told everything.He just wanted to stay away from her for some days to make her realise that how much hurt he was.How much her words have affected his heart when she asked and said he doesn't love her.

He cannot forget that night and her eyes which held the betrayal in them as if he was the culprit.It didn't leave his mind even for a second when he all did was to love her sincerely.He can never think of another woman neither he was interested to look at them in any other way and getting close to them the way she thought was impossible.

He found his true love in her, his wife and he truly respects and adores their relationship and wants to stay happily with her, he sees his future with her, he wants her everywhere beside him, he wants to have a family with her, he wants to have a joyful life without any misunderstandings.

Small fights and arguments were okay, but there shouldn't be insecurity and doubt in any relationship.He knew the result of that and he was suffering from it.

He cannot act normal when he was all frustrated and angry with her.This was a serious matter and about his character which he was not going to leave easily.

Taking a deep breath he lifted his head and gazed at the tiffin box she had brought.He had already eaten fruits before some time and he didn't feel like eating it.

Trying to ignore the disturbing thoughts out of his mind he concentrated on his work before drinking some water.

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The morning turned into night and Preeta was shown standing inside the kitchen while chopping Vegetables.She wanted to cook something for him.She knew he won't melt or talk to her properly with these small gestures.But still she wanted to try atleast.

She thought not to stop her efforts till he forgave her.She was longing to see him and talk to him.To see him smile looking at her like before.She pouted sadly while gazing at the wall.

"Ahh"A painful shrink left her mouth and she instantly took her hand back leaving the knife aside.The forefinger of her left hand got slightly cut at the tip and blood started to flow without a pause.

She whined running towards the basin and placed her finger below the tap for some seconds.Then placed other finger on it to stop the blood.

She made a cry baby face seeing the injury and the blood.Walking towards the room she took the antiseptic band and covered the cut area.

Then she turned to go out of the room that she heard the sound of the door and got to know that Karan was up.

Nervously she walked towards the living room and saw him.While Karan sighed loosening his tie and walked past her.

She pressed her lips while biting her lower lip not knowing how to initiate and what to say first.She knew he would get angry if she starts talking.

Thinking to talk to him calmly while having dinner she headed towards the kitchen to complete the dinner she was preparing.

After another half an hour she smiled in content and opened the lid smelling the veg biriyani she had prepared.Quickly preparing the raita to match with it she washed her hands carefully lifting her injured finger.

After setting the dinner on the table she walked towards the room to call him.Standing at the door she found him  on his study table in front of the laptop.

Debating with her mind while silently watching him for minutes she gulped her saliva before parting her lips to speak.

"Karan! Dinner keliye aao"She whispered meekly.

"Please"adding the last word she furrowed her brows nervously when he didn't turn or stopped his work.

"Karan"with a baby steps she walked towards him already getting ready to bear his anger and his words.

Whereas Karan continued his work behaving as if he didn't hear her.Standing behind him she called him again.

"I am sorry! Please mere saath dinner Karo"She requested placing her hand on his shoulder causing him to pause his fingers which were on the keyboard.

He closed the laptop and stood up feeling hungry, but didn't want to have with her.And about her apology it didn't even affect him this time.

She bit her lip seeing him standing but before she could say or react something he moved past her.

But she smiled slightly thinking he listened to her and followed him.Her eyes shined seeing him sitting on the chair.Quickly talking seat beside him she looked at him.

Filling his plate he started to eat which made her hurt.But she jerked it away as soon as he took the first bite.She sat placing her chin over her palm watching him have the food she prepared for him.

She felt like seeing him after many days but he was here in front of her calmly having his dinner and she felt really happy.Her tummy filled seeing him without eating anything.He didn't look at her and she knew the reason.

She wanted to ask how is the rice but knowing he won't praise her now she left it there and decided to talk to him and apologise properly.

"Karan"Initiating she held his left hand causing him to stop eating.

"Please listen to me.I am sorry for what I did.Mei.."She stopped when he stood up.

"I am sorry, baitho please"She pleaded pulling his hand.He clenched his fist and snapped at her.

"Don't touch me, please!"He whispered in a harsh tone and pulled his hand away from her hold causing her look at him being dumbfounded.

Don't touch me!

Her eyes got widened in shock and mind went numb.She could feel her heart beating rapidly listening to him and feeling the way he jerked her hand and went inside the room.

Her heart cried in pain.Placing palm over her mouth she sobbed shaking her head in no.This cannot happen.He cannot say like that.He can't talk to her like that.She was not able to bear that.Her heart was breaking.

But this is happening because of you.

She cried more when her mind mocked her saying that she was the reason for everything.She agreed but his ignorance was killing her.She accepted her mistake but his silence and harsh words were eating her appetite.She was not able to sleep or eat properly.

But now he said she shouldn't touch him and this was everything for her.She realised how massive her actions made him hurt.She was trying to apologise but he was not even letting her to speak completely which made her feel terrible.

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To be continued.

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Ughh! Anything you all want to say🫣.

Me: We can't help Preeta😐 and I am not on your side this time 😒.

Let's see whether he will give her any chance to speak or not 🫢.

Hope you all liked the update 🦋 and don't forget to tell me in the comment section ❤️.

See you soon and till then bye🙋‍♀️(hopeful coming Sunday).