A long one 🤌

Sometimes you realise too late that what you are looking for is exactly what you just let go.

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Karan's Pov.

This was the worst feeling, the pain was unexplainable.Just today I had thought about her absence and realised how her absence affects me.But who knew god was listening to me and he did that to me in reality.

We are sitting outside the airport wearily and my tears were flowing inbetween her memories.We roamed the airport area for 3 times till now but didn't found her or clue about her.

Even tried to investigate about her in the office staff but they didn't shared any information saying it was against their rules.

How I am going to find her now?

"Karan mujhe lagta hai preeta ne mobile yahi kahi chod ke gayi hogi ya fir she forgot here that's why we got the location here..lekin woh kahi nahi mili"Abhi thought about that and informed me.

I turned to look at him feeling ruptured.I was out of words now.It was nearly 12 at the midnight and we were in the middle of the road searching for her.

"Usne aisa kyu kiya abhi.Usne bilkul thik nahi kiya.Jab mile gi na toh bilkul baat nahi karunga usse..She is hurting me so much.Mujhe usse dekha hai.. please tu leke aa usse.. mujhe bohot Darr lag raha hai..kuch thik nahi lag raha..woh safe hogi bhi ya nahi..kaha gayi hogi"I bluttred weakly feeling devasted.

"Mil jayegi karan..tu please aisa weak mat ho..Mein tumhe aise nahi dekh sakta.. woh itna sab keh ke gayi hai toh kuch soch kar hi kahi gayi hogi.She will be safe karan..hum usse dund lenge don't worry"Abhi consoled patting my back.But Still his words didn't made me calm.

My heart was still racing in fear of loosing her.My babydoll.

"Ka..karan"Roshni gained our attention and I looked up to her.

"Mu..mujhe kuch batana hai..woh,Tumne pucha na preeta ko aisa kyu laga hoga ki humare bich abhi bhi kuch hai?"I nodded listening to her attentively and she continued before gulping her saliva.

"Tumhe yaad hoga jab mera interview tha toh mein ghar aayi thi..lekin preeta ka laptop Ghar mein nahi tha..aur hum dono ne tumhara laptop dunda..woh niche cupboard mein tha.Toh laptop ka password abhi bhi wahi tha jo meine pehle rakha tha mere naam se tha..toh preeta ko laga ki tum abb bhi mujhse pyara karte ho"She stopped and I can see the tears in her eyes.

But my eyebrows furrowed being stunned.Something made sense,she thought because of that password which I didn't touched since many month's.

"Tum mujhe ye aab bata rahi ho?Abhi mein woh laptop chua bhi nahi tha kitne mahine ho gaye.Agar mein usse use karta toh change karta because roshni was my past"I know she must be feeling hurt but I didn't had any choice.This was the reality and I must clear it now.

God! How can she think like that just Because of that password!

"Lekin karan mujhe bhi yahi laga tha..so meine usse kuch justification bhi nahi di.Even I was confused lekin mujhe nahi pata tha ki tumne usse use nahi Kiya tha"she explained with teary eyes and even some flowed through her eyes.But I felt angered listening to her.

"Toh tum mujhe bata sakti thi roshni,Mein tumhe jawab deta tum kyu chup thi uss wakt and that is why she was behaving like that since that day..aur mein soch soch ke pagal ho raha tha..lekin preeta ne bhi kuch pucha nahi uske bare mein.. atleast tum toh mujhse kehti roshni mein preeta ko explanation deta"I bursted feeling enraged.

Even I felt Angry on preeta for this.She could have asked me atleast once.Just once.But no she was drowned in her own thoughts and came to such conclusions.

"Karan shant ho jao you are hurting her"Abhi held my shoulder.But I shrugged and shook my head in no.

"Kaise Abhi these women's are really tough for me.Mujhse kuch pucha bhi nahi aur uss password ko lekar isne kuch aur assume Kiya aur preeta ne kuch aur assume kar liya? How is this right tell me..mein kaha Jake Maru yaar"I kicked the tire controlling my anger and rubbed my forehead.

"I am so..sorry karan, mujhe nahi pata tha sach mein.I was just confused"Roshni said in between her cries but I wasn't satisfied with her answer.Not at all.

"Aur bhi kuch hai toh bato? Aur kya kya socha tha tum dono ne please..let me clear atleast for you now" I queried anxiously.

"Wo..kal shaam ko preeta ne mujhse yahi baat kaha tha jo usne letter mein likha hai...kaha ki tum mujhse pyaar karte ho aur tumhare khush mere saath hai aur tum dono ki shaadi zabardasti karaya gya tha..mein tumse kehna chahti thi karan lekin himmat hi nahi hua..mein bohot ghabra gayi thi, jab mujhe pata chala ki preeta gayi hai..I was scared of your reaction"she stopped and started sobbing leaning to the car.

I gaped at her in utmost shock with this new found information.She was planning this from yesterday?My head started throbbing realising that preeta didn't even thought to ask me once about this to clear her mind.How come she can take this immature decision without confronting me once.I was just speechless.numb!

"Tumne mujhe itni badi baat bhi nahi bataya roshni...kaise aise kar sakti ho mere saath?"I held her through shoulders and shook her furiously.

"Tell me kyu nahi kaha mujhe kal raat.Mein tabhi usse clear kar sakta tha..aur aaj woh kahi jati bhi nahi,mere saath hoti woh..you know what you are so selfish..tumne sirf usne jo kaha usse sun kar chup chap thi..how could you do this? Atleast tum usse clear kar sakti thi kuch toh"I yelled and left her harshly without listening to her cries.

Beacuse her cries didn't mattered now.She was the reason for everything.If she would have told me something like this was going through preeta's mind,I would have explained her and would have never let her go away from me.

"Agar tumne mujhse kabhi pyaar kiya hota toh aisa nahi karti roshni..I had said you before only that 'I am married'.Tumhe uska matlab samajh Jana chahiye tha? Agar tum mujhse saccha pyaar karti thi toh mere paas aati,lekin tum nahi aayi..you just went away.. whatever the reason may be..jab tum yaha tak aane ka socha tha toh mujh tak pohochne ki koshish nahi ki tumne pehle"I paused gritting my teeth and looked at her angrily.

"Karan kya keh rha hai yaar..woh sab baatein kyu kar raha hai?"Abhi tried to stop me but I wasn't going stop now.

"Tumhe pata hai..humne kitna dundha tha tumhe..tumhare ghar tak aaye the..jab tumhare papa nahi rahe toh tum bahar aa sakti thi right.. tumhare paas phone tha..tum mujhe contact kar sakti thi..lekin tumne kiya nahi..you didn't cared about me anymore..You were fine without me..Tum mujhe bhool gayi right? Toh jab mujhe fir se mili toh fir se mujhse pyaar hua?how come is this possible roshni..tum..how should I explain you?"I bursted making her look at me.

Tears started leaking through her eyes while shaking her head.

"I am sorry karan.. please mujhe kuch samajh mein nahi aa raha tha..I thought tum bhi mujhe bhul gaye hoge..toh Meine tumhe disturb nahi karna chahati thi..aur mera papa ka waada bhi nahi Tod sakti thi..mein kuch nahi kar payi Karan..I am sorry..please forgive me"She explained while sobbing.

That doesn't mean I will forget everything.I will not forgive her until I find preeta.I want to see her.I wanted to explain her everything.

Where she must be right now? What she must be doing?

I looked away from her and turned to the other side trying not to think about the past.Abhi held her and started consoling her.She could have asked me itself but just because of her missunderstanding I am here searching for my babydoll everywhere.

"Karan,tu preeta ke parents ko call karke puch Shayad woh Delhi gayi ho?"Abhi asked from behind.

"I don't think so..woh waha nahi gayi hogi..tum nahi jante woh apni probelms kisiko share nahi karti.. moreover mom dad aur uske parents ko bhi nahi batayegi..agar unhe sab pata chalega toh kaise feel karenge..I don't think so woh unhe kuch batayegi bhi"I thought and explained him.

"Mein call karke puchunga bhi kya puchu yaar,Ki preeta ghar chod ke gayi hai? Agar unhe pata chal gaya ki preeta mere Saath nahi hai toh I don't know kya hoga..mein aisa risk nahi le sakta abhi..They will be tensed aur mein aisa nahi kar sakta..I have to find her at any cost"I whispered and closed my eyes feeling shattered.

"Toh abb kaise dundhenge usse..kuch samajh mein nahi aa raha..preeta ke friends ke number hai toh call karke puch atleast..kiske Ghar gayi ho?"Abhi suggested.

And the only person came to my mind was,Ritik.But I didn't had his mobile number.

"Ritik.lekin mere paas uska number nahi hai.Kaise contact Karega usse"I asked him feeling tensed.

"Hospital?tumne kaha woh doctor hai toh..hospital mein enquiry kar sakate hai na"Abhi said and I nodded my head immediately.

"Try karte hai..chalo"I quickly opened the door of the car and sat inside.

"Mein roshni ko leke aata hu"Abhi said taking her with him.I can see her sobbing,but that wasn't going to work now.If she would have said it before, there would be no missunderstandings between us.

But now I realised that bringing her to my home was a wrong decision.Abhi was right but I didn't listened to him and let her stay with us.But not even in my dreams I had thought this is going to happen with me because of my past.

I sighed and drove off to the hospital.I reached their after another 20 mins and Abhi reached behind me.

"Chal jaldi.. Night shift mein zyada doctors available nahi rehte..but let's try our best"Abhi said and I nodded taking a step ahead.Rohsni followed us silently.

"Excuse me,Kya Doctor Ritik Manotra abhi available hai?"I enquired praying for him to be there.

"Sorry sir,he is on day shift.aapke paas appointment hai toh aap, dusre doctor se consult kar skate hai jo abhi hai"Receptionist replied.

I sighed heavily and eyed at Abhi in dismay.I know they will not give his his number.But I can try once.

"Nahi kya aap please Doctor.Ritik ka number de skate hai..we were in need please"Abhi asked her with puppy eyes.

"Sorry sir,hum aise kisike doctor ka information nahi de sakte.Aap kal unse mil sakte hai"she informed shaking her head negatively.

"Aap Doctor preeta ko jante hai na..ye unke husband hai.Karan luthra.Its safe with us.. please Doctor.Ritik inke friend hai toh hum usse contact karna chahte the.Preeta ghar nahi aayi hai"Abhi asked again trying to explain her.

"Woh aap hi hai na Jo nearly 9 baje ko call kiye the..I mean aap karan Luthra"Receptionist inquired trying to remember.

"Ji meine aapko call Kiya tha"I hummed.

"Lekin sir mam aaj hospital nahi aayi hai."she added.

"I know..lekin hume nahi pata ki woh kaha gayi hai..It's just because of some personal problem.Please kya aap doctor.Ritik ka number de sakte hai..It will be helpful for me to find her"I requested her.

She thought for a while and nodded unwillingly.

"Mein preeta mam keliye de rahi hu..lekin aapko kuch proof dikhana hoga ki aap hi unke husband hai..So that their shouldn't be any problems further"she said and I nodded immediately.

"Kya mein marriage ka photo dikha sakta hu?"I asked and she nodded.

I searched our marriage pic and showed it to her even our marriage card which I found Just beside that picture.

She nodded and said, "Give me a minute sir".

She gave her his number and I noted it and saved.

"Sir please,aap kisise mat kahiye..meine sirf aapko Diya hai..woh bhi preeta mam keliye.. otherwise we don't have permission to give their information"She requested.

"Thank you"I thanked her and felt greatful for helping me.

She smiled at me and I headed outside immediately to call him.

"Woh so Raha hoga"Abhi interuppted.

"Woh kuch bhi kare yaar.. mujhe baas preeta ke bare mein puchna hai"I replied and dialed his number.

He didn't received and I sighed sadly.I think he might be sleeping.No doubt every one must be sleeping at this time.

"Aur ek baar try kar"abhi said and hit the green button.

He received it on the 5th ring and I nodded to Abhi.

"Hello,who is it?" I recieved his sleep voice from the other side.

"Me..mein Karan"I gulped and replied.I never knew one day I will require his help and will contact him like this.

"Karan?Kya hua?itna raat ko kyu call Kiya? Preeta preeta thik hai na?"he asked suddenly and I didn't got how to tell him about her absence.I can sense the worry in his voice.

"Wo..preeta mil nahi rahi hai..she has gone somewhere!agar tumhe kuch bataya hai toh ya fir pata hai ki woh kaha gayi hai?"I asked him feeling nervous.

"What the hell karan!tum kya keh rahe ho?kaha hai Preeta?Tum kaha ho Pehle ye batao?"He questioned and I can feel he was angry.

I really didn't wanted to talk to this man.But it was necessary and I have to do this patiently.

"Hum aapke hospital ke bahar hai.we were searching for her.Agar tumhe pata hai toh bata do otherwise I will find her on my own"I snapped at him.

"Just stay there..mein aa raha hu abhi!"He commanded and hung up the call.

I gaped in shock and looked away feeling angry on him.How dare he to talk with me like that.Just because of preeta I bared him and now commanding me to stay here.

"Kya hua? Tu itne gusse mein kyu hai?"Abhi asked and I glared at him.

"Seriously yaar I hate him..sirf preeta Keliye baat ki usse..he is so annoying.Usne kuch nahi kaha..yahi rehne ko kaha woh aa raha hai"I informed him leaning to my car.

"Toh accha hua na..may be he knows something about her..Let's wait for him then..tu thoda acche se baat kar usse..woh help karega..agar tu aise gusse se baat karega toh nahi chalega"Abhi suggested holding my arm.

"What? Uske bina bhi mein preeta ko dundh lunga"I glared at him and rubbed my forehead feeling tensed.

Where are you preeta?

My mind was completely occupied by her.Her smile,her face,her beautiful eyes and those tears.I felt angry on myself for not forcing her to open up with me.

Knowing that she was sad.I didn't asked her anything thinking she should approach me by herself.but she did opposite and took this childish decision to go away from me.

I think she doesn't know that I cannot live a single day without her presence.

Why she always wants me to run behind her.It hurts like hell.I can run behind her to hold her in my embrace but I don't want her to go away from me and make me Chase her like this.I cannot take this anymore.

I was in my deep thoughts and suddenly came out of my trance listening to some loud noise on this barren road.

"Kya kiya hai tumne preeta ke saath..kaha hai preeta?"Ritik  approached me fiercely and without a warning held my collars and pulling me.

"What the hell are you doing..chodo mujhe"I shouted jerking his hands giving him a death glares.

How dare he to touch me?

"Kya hua ha? Ye kya tarika hai usse baat karne ka..hum bhi preeta Keliye hi yaha raat se dund rahe hai..agar hume pata hota toh tumhe nahi bulate"Abhi too yelled furiously jerking him away from me.

"Ohh..kya hua hai..woh tum iss karan luthra se kyu nahi puchte?usne kya Kiya hai preeta ke saath.I know you very well.Meine usse kal kaha tha ki soch ke decison Lena but I don't know how she ended up taking such decision..uska Phone bhi nahi lag raha hai..kya kiya hai tumne aur roshni ne mere preeta ke saath"Ritik yelled staring at me angrily.

This was it for me, I grabbed his shirt feeling enraged and whisper-yelled staring at his face,

"She is mine..my wife. Don't you dare to address her like that..tum uske dost ho toh learn to stay in your limits specially jab, tab tum mujhse baat kar rahe honge"How dare he call my babydoll as 'his Preeta'.Only I have all the rights to call her mine.

I could have punched on his face.But Abhi pulled me back and interuppted.

"Karan stop this..pehle usse sun lo I think he has some missunderstandings"Abhi tried to explain.

Ritik correct his shirt while glaring at me and continued,

"Mujhe koi missunderstanding nahi hai..preeta ne khud mujhse kal kaha tha..she was totally broken..uske aasu meine dekhe hai..woh bhi tumhare liye.Jo bilkul apni wife ki kadar nahi Karta aur keh raha hai ki wife hai..sirf kehne se wife nahi hoti mr.luthra.Tumne husband hone ka ek bhi farz nibhaya nahi hai shayad..nahi toh preeta Aaj tumhe chod ke nahi jati"His venom words just pierced my heart and stabbed directly to my heart.

I don't know why his words felt right and I couldn't balance myself.I felt weak and insulted.He was true I never treated her like my wife and even I was surprised when it slipped out of my tongue for the first time.

My wife.

Tears filled my eyes and I looked at him furiously.

"Kyu abb sacch lag raha hai?I don't know tum tum dono ki rishte ko mante bhi ho ya nahi lekin preeta ko woh sabse zyada important hai..uska first preference ho tum..she keeps you first no matter how much you may hurt and break her heart"He added and I gaped at him feeling ashamed.My heart clenched listening to him.

"Tum jante bhi ho usne tumse shaadi kyu ki..tumhare rejection janne ke baad bhi? Beacuse she loves you.She love you more than she loves herself.More than anyone,more than everything..aur woh bhi kuch mahine se nahi, ek saal se nahi pichle 6 saal se sirf tumse pyaar karti thi..aur karti hai.."My eyes widened in shock listening to his words.

My heart beat dropped and I could feel nothing except his words.She Loves me? She loves me? That too since 6 years.I couldn't process anything in my mind for secs.I was out of words and actions.My knees felt jelly and I stood taking the support of my car.

Did he said that she loves me?

Preeta loves me?

"Wo..woh mujhse..pyaa..pyaar karti hai?"I managed to ask so that I can confirm.I can't believe this.This was too much to take for now when she wasn't in front me.She can't do this with me.

He chucked and continued,

"Aur soch rahe honge ki kyu nahi batayi hogi?Jab kisi ladki ko pata chalega ki uska husband kisi aur se pyaar karta hai..ya uska koi past hai toh usse kaise tumse apni Dil ki baat batane ke bare mein soch sakti hai.. mujhe exactly toh nahi pata ki kya kya hua tha tum dono ke bich bas itna toh bata sakta hu jo mujhe pata hai"He paused and looked at me angrily.

I was literally breaking from inside.My heart was rupturing remembering the way I was rude towards her at the first phase.How much it may have hurted her.I can imagine those tears in her eyes and her crying face.

"Ba..batao please..I don't know anything..I don't know.."I requested with tears and shaked my head feeling shattered.

She loves me!

This was enough for me to break down and to take my left over energy.I wasn't feeling anything.I was not even able to stand properly without the support.i wanted to know more.I wanted to know her every thoughts.She never shared anything with me.She never did or may be I didn't gave her any chance.

Now this ache of my heart was increasing by each passing second leaving me in nothing but only her.Only her in my all senses.Only her face with tear stained face,her pale face and it was affecting me badly.I was the reason for her every cries and whatever happened.

"Kyu ki tumne usse kabhi kehne ka mouka nahi diya hoga..Mein sirf itna janta hu ki woh tumse tab se pyaar karti hai..she didn't even let me know that you both didn't had good terms.Kal tak bhi mujhe nahi pata tha..jab meine bohot force karke pucha toh tab bataya usne"He started and I looked at him with wet eyes.

Where are you babydoll? please come back to me!I just cannot bear this pain anymore.

"Usse roshni se problem nahi tha karan..lekin woh chahti thi ki tum usse apni wife jaise treat Karo..lekin tum kehte the toh the ki tum ye rishta nibhana chahte the lekin usse kabhi aisa feel nahi hua hai.. specially jab se Roshni tum dono ke saath rehne lagi hai tab se.Jab tum dono baat karte the toh she was feeling uncomfortable there..it shouldn't be right?Toh socho it was because you didn't treated her well.Tumne usse woh hak nahi diya tha jisse woh tumhare saath sab share kare.. that's why she was suffering from inside"He explained showing his anger on me.

But now I felt I deserve his hatred for me!

"And she was thinking that you still has feelings for roshni and she is becoming a wall between you both.Meine kaha ki tumse baat karo.but she wasn't sure.Usne kaha ki hum kisise pyaar karte hai iska matlab ye nahi ki hum wahi pyaar unki taraf se bhi expect kare,because she knew you don't love her..She knew tum dono ke shaadi ko tum nahi mante the..She was scared to loose you karan..par fir bhi usne ye decison liya ki tumhe tumhare Khushi Keliye chod ke gayi..ye soch ke ki tum roshni ke saath khush rahoge"He stopped and sighed.

"Arey nahi khush hu mein uske bina..kuch bhi nahi hu.. I never knew woh kabhi itna sab kuch soch sakti hai..Roshni meri past thi..and she will be my past..mein kisiko mere aur preeta ke bich mein nahi leke aaunga..kabhi nahi this was enough.. Please tum batao usse ki mein Roshni se pyaar nahi karta..I don't love her..Mein nahi chahta ki preeta bhi mujhe uske jaise chod ke Jaye.. Please tum usse mana kar leke aao mere paas..woh mere paas nahi aayege.. please tum leke aao usse.. mujhe baat karni hai usse..sab khuch batana hai.. plea..please help me"I sat on my knees leaning to my car with tears.

Abhi held me and consoled me but this pain seemed never ending one.just growing per second making me breathless.My heartbeat raced like crazy with a fear of losing her.I cannot bear if she also leaves me like roshni did.I want her in my life,with me.She is my present and my future.

"Tum usse ye assurity pehle usse kyu nahi di? Abb woh chali gayi hai toh mere samne bata rahe ho? abb jiske samne kehna chahiye woh hi nahi hai..mein kya karunga karan.Mujhe bhi nahi pata woh kaha hai.I don't have any idea"Ritik said stabbing my heart more.

I shook my head in no and instantly stood up to reach him.

"Tu..tumhe pata hoga ki woh kaha gayi hogi..tum uske friend ho na..ple.. please usse mere paas leke aao..woh mujhe bohot tang karti hai tum nahi jante..kahi bhi chali jati hai..mein thak gaya hu"I whispered to him and wiped my teary face.

"Please mere paas leke aao preeta ko"I shouted and stumbled back.

"Sambhalo karan..Mujhe sach mein nahi pata ki preeta kaha gayi hogi..woh Delhi gayi hogi lekin hum abhi call karke nahi puch sakte..it's nearly 3 in the morning.Kya sochenge agar woh waha nahi hogi toh..aur mere kuch friends hai mein unhe contact karunga.. specially Riya..I will try my best..tum bhi koshish karo..we will find her soon.. don't worry"Ritik said holding my shoulder and assured.

"To..toh call Karo abhi pucho usse...mein kal tak kaise wait wait karunga.agar usse kuch hogaya toh..abhi tum jante ho na last time woh humhe kaise mili thi..Agar woh kisi probelm mein hogi toh?"I said looking at him and Abhi nods his head.

"Nahi karan,woh kisi problem mein nahi hogi.. don't worry.Woh kuch soch ke gayi hai.. please don't think like that..she went through that pain..woh fir se waisa kuch nahi karegi..she will be fine..tu tension mat le hum usse kal tak dund lenge..abb raat ko kuch hoga bhi nahi..I think woh Mumbai mein nahi hai..so we must wait till morning"Abhi suggested but I wasn't ready to listen anything.

I want to see her right now.Why this is so hard.How should I find her?

"Ha karan ye thik hai..tum sab aab Ghar jao..mein mere saare friends ko puchke tumhe information de dunga..subhe tak.Aur preeta ke ghar pe mein Riya ko jane Keliye kahunga kuch reason leke..hum call karke puch bhi nahi skate ki preeta hai ya nahi.nahi toh unhe doubt hoga right..It will be more complicated agar preeta waha nahi gayi hogi toh..so we have to take things carefully..unhe kuch pata nahi chalna chahiye..unhe jab tak pata chale tab tak humhe preeta ko dundna hi chaiye"Ritik informed him with a confident.

"Wo..woh kal milegi na?Kal mein uss dekh sakta hu right..Abhi agar woh nahi mili mujhse gussa hoke kahi dur gayi hogi toh? Mein kya karunga..kaise dundunga"I muttered painfully.

"Hum hai tumhare saath..hum sab milke usse dundenge karan..tum please aapne aap ko sambhalo..agar aise weak feel karoge toh usse kaise dundhenge..tumhe strong rehna hoga..tum sab abb Ghar jao..kal subhe hote hi mein fir milunga tum se"Ritik again suggested.

"Chalo karan!Ritik thik keh raha hai.woh apni friends se puchega itni raat ko koi information bhi hame nahi milega.. please tum socho..we will find her soon"Abhi said dragging me to the car.

"Ka..kal? Woh kal milegi mujhe!"I said with moist eyes.

He nodded to me and said, "ha kal..kal!kal dundenge usse".

"Nahi kal..kal mere saath hogi na woh?"I questioned with a ache in my heart.

"Ha karan..kal preeta tumhare saath hogi please abb ghar chalo"Abhi dragged me and opened the door of the car.

I shook my head in moist eyes but he made me sit inside and closed the door.

"Tum baitho mein hospital ke parking area mein mera car park karke aata hu..hum tumhare car mein jayenge"Abhi said and turned to look at Ritik.

"I think mein galat tha..Everyone has past and sorry for judging you with that.Ye sab missunderstandings ke wajeh se hua hai..they need to talk and clear it"I heard Ritik while talking with Abhi.

"Yeah..Thanks for the help..will meet you tomorrow.."Abhi nodded to him.

"Mein chalta hu..take care of him"Ritik said looking at me.But I didn't had any words to talk something to him.

Leaning to the head rest I closed my eyes  only to see her face which worsened my condition more.When will I see her?

With this thought in my mind I sat quietly drowing in my thoughts and didn't even realise when the car started and Abhi drove me back to home.

'Home' where she isn't there!

Roshni was silent through out the way.But this was not only her fault.I was equally wrong.It was my biggest mistake to bring roshni to my home.Realising the feeling what jelousy feels like, I got to know what preeta must have felt seeing us together.

Specially when she knew Roshni was once in my life.This must have hurt her to the core beacuse she loves me.Even If I was in place of her,It would have hurted me seeing the person we love with someone else.

It never reached my mind.I never thought like that but now slowly realising everything and through her point of view everything is making sense taking me to a conclusion.

She must be very hurt and Only I am the reason for that.I am the real culprit.

I shut my eyes turning my head to the window hiding my tears.This felt like the most painful day of my life and still continuing.

We reached the house after another 15 mins and Abhi called gaining my attention.

"Karan"he called and opened the door for me.

I nodded and came outside while closing the door behind me.I sighed and headed towards the steps.

"Tum dono jao mein park karke aata hu"Abhi said and I eyed at roshni who saw me nervously.

I chuckled painfully and took a step forward to go.Abhi joined her soon and they followed me till the elevator.

We reached our floor and I quickly made my way towards the door.Unlocking the door I stepped inside only to get welcomed by the darkness.

Without her!

I looked around emotionally and then eyed at Abhi who held my shoulder.

"We will find her soon karan..just go and take some rest..mein bhi yahi rahunga aaj..waise bhi  subhe hone mein kitna time hai.Phele kuch kha lo raat ko kuch khaya bhi nahi hoga"Abhi said but I took his hand back and shook my head negatively.

"She loves me!"I whispered to him and it didn't took much secs to form tears in my eyes.

He didn't said anything but took me in a hug.I closed my eyes controlling the pain and clutched his arm.

"Preeta loves you so much"He nodded and smiled at me.

"Me..mein aata hu"Saying I headed towards my room when I got to know that roshni was about to say something.

I didn't had any interest or mood to talk anything.I just wanted to be alone for sometime.

I entered my room and closed the door behind.Sorry our room!

My legs wobbled and my breath stuck in my throat realising her absence.She wasn't there here.

Since she was here,I have seen her sitting on the bed reading some books, while sleeping, while getting ready,in the balcony,on my dressing table with her things.

I had never shared my room with anyone  but they say life changes after marriage and it really did.May be after some months may be more than that when she started stayed in my room.

My room,my wardrobe with her clothes,my dressing table was almost occupied by her cosmetics,her perfumes, earrings, jewellery and every girl thing's and even my bed, sometimes my study table.She was completely a part of my life these days.

And I don't know why I loved sharing my room with her.She had the equal right.But I am not able to find anything which is hers in my room now.She just packed everything and went away.

I closed her wardrobe feeling shattered and then headed towards the dressing table to look for her things.But found none aching my heart more.

I went towards the cupboard and opened it only to find our wedding photo, which once I had thrown and became the reason for her cries.

I took it with a heavy heart and went towards the bed.Feeling like sitting on the floor I sat down leaning my head to the edge of the bed staring at the pic.

It was of the marriage day when we made a photoshoot after every rituals.She is the most beautiful bride..my bride.I traced her face with my fingers and closed my eyes leading the tears to flow down.

Her filled hairline and the nuptial necklace took my attention and I couldn't control myself from breaking down in the pool of tears.

This was the first time I am crying like this and feeling this much pain in my heart.It is just unexplainable and unbearable.

"Tu..tumne mujhe kyu nahi bataya babydoll.lekin meine kabhi mauka diya hi nahi hoga..hai na? Mein bohot bura hu.I am sorry for hurting you"I whispered staring at her face.

"I am realising it now.. tumhe kitna Dard hua hoga.Kitna rulaya hai tumhe,kitna jhagda kiya hai tumse..fir bhi tum mere saath thi..mere paas thi..lekin mein hi samjh nahi paya ki tum itna compromise kyu kar rahi ho mere saath.I never knew the feelings of your heart"

"Meine tumhe kaha tha ki aisa kuch nahi hai roshni aur mere bich.tumne sirf woh password ke wajeh se itna sab socha..ek baar bhi nahi pucha tumne..Mujhe toh pata bhi nahi tha.. atleast hint toh deti..I would have explained you..itna kaise soch sakti ho babydoll"I said feeling a slight Angry on her.

"Tum dekhna tum jab milogi na sach mein dantunga tumhe..mujhe aise chod ke jane Keliye,aise kon jata hai? Tum nahi janti ki kaisa feel hota hai.I am not able breath calmly.Iss ghar mein aane ka bhi Maan nahi karta tumhare bina.I want your presence everyday.Jab mein office se aau toh tum ghar mein chahiye mujhe"

"Roz Tumhare saath breakfast,dinner karna hai..tumhare saath baatein karna hai..aur jab so rahe honge toh tum chahiye preeta..jaise tum mujhe hug karti ho..waise.Aur har Subhe tumhare chehre dekh ke uthna chahta hu..jab tum mere baho mein so rahi hogi toh sirf tumhe dekhte rehne ka maan karta hai..kabhi uthane ke maan nahi karta.Tum meri aadat hogayi ho babydoll"

"I can't even imagine my life without you in my future, jab aage ka sochta hu toh sab tumhare baare mein, sirf tumhare saath.I don't know kya kiya hai tumne..lekin mein sirf tumhara hoke rehna chahta hu preeta.Kabhi mere past ke bare mein sochna bhi nahi chahta.Never"I explained as if she was listening to me.I wanted someone to tell her my heart out.

"Jab se tum meri life mein aayi ho.Tab se mein sab kuch dheere dheere bhul gaya.You changed me,you made me smile again,you made me laugh with you like before.You are the reason for my happiness.Tum agar mere saath nahi hogi toh kuch bhi accha nahi lagta.I want you with me forever"

"Abhi ne aaj jo bhi pucha mujhe sab positive hi Jawab mile hai babydoll.I feel jelousy when you are with someone else,I love to drown in your beautiful eyes,I love to stay close to you,you closeness affects me a lot and I can't even describe it through words"

"Tum jab paas hoti ho na toh kuch nahi bohot kuch hota hai.I never felt like this for anyone..sirf tum mujhe waise feel Kara sakti ho preeta..I can't live away from you.and I agree agar hazaron ladkiya hongi na tab bhi mein tumhe hi dundunga..hamesha, sirf tumhe dekhna chahunga..agar ye sab pyaar se connected hai..aur jo abb mujhe feel ho raha ye sab kehte hai ki mein tumse pyaar karta hu toh.."I paused as a tear drop rolled down my eyes and looked at her emotionally.

"I love you! I Love you babydoll..my preeta! I love you so much!"I let it out and sobbed painfully.

This realisation gave me pain as much as it made me happy.Because she wasn't in front of me while confessing that I love her.

It broke me to the depth and I leaned my head on the edge of the bed while wetting my cheeks with tears.

I wanted to see her reaction and to hear that back from her.I wanted to hear those magical words from her so that I could scream and confess it in front of her.

But look at my fate.How unlucky I am.I realised it now when she is gone away from me and now calling for her to hear me.But she can't hear me.

"Tu..tum kab milogi mujhe..ka..kal milogi na.. mujhe tumse kehna hai babydoll..I love you.I love you! Ye tumne sunna hai toh tumhe mujhe kal milna hi hoga"I muttered painfully and clutched the photo near my chest.

Just the last night she was in my embrace sleeping peacefully but today I am sitting on the floor waiting for her to come and hug me in the same way she always does.

With that puppy face, eyes showing some emotions, her lips slightly pouted, her hands sliding around my torse and locking her fingers behind my back then meekly resting her head on my chest.

I want this right now!I want to hold her back tightly and will never let her go away from me.I want to feel her presence,I want to see her face,I want to drown in those pearl eyes,I want to kiss her forehead,I just want her close.

"Please mujhe ek baar mil jao..mein kabhi tumhe fir se jane nahi dunga"I sobbed clutching the photo near to my heart waiting for her.

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To be continued.

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Finally he realised it now! But what is the use when she already left him💔.

Did Ritik was right by confessing preeta's feelings for karan?

Will they be able to find her or it will be too late? where she must be and how she must be?

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