I actually have my exams from first week of April and here i am not able to stop myself from writing the chapters😑 beacuse I already have the storyline in my mind and that haunts me to write always and your love for the story makes me to write😟❤️I can't help🥺

Soo here you go✨

It's just what we love the most,
Hurts the most too..

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Authors pov:

On preeta's side,

"Kyu ki..Woh wo kisi aur ka tha...i just can't.."

"Tum..tum kisi aur ko chahte ho..au aur mein yaha tum..tumhare liye yaha.."she was unable to think or say something she was talking to herself..to understand the meaning of his words.

She was sobbing and crying hard leaning to the door.

"Kyu..karan kya kiya tha meine..ki..
tumne mere saath aisa kiya..I loved you from the bottom of my heart. Aur tumhara wait karti rahi ki tum bhi mujhse pyaar karte honge ya phir ho jayega.."

"Lekin mein galat thi...yo..you don't even like me..mein utni buri hu kya?..Mein ye kaise..kaise Maan lu ki tum kisi aur see pyaar karte ho..I just can't.."she broke down in tears saying to herself.

"Tum...tumhara kehne ka matalab wahi tha na...k...ki tum...tumne kaha kii woh jagah meri nahii.." she sobbed clutching her both hands together hugging her knees.

"Ki..meri nahi hai.." she was saying whatever her mind was telling her she was expressing her feelings to herself beacuse there was no one to listen her only she was with her..no one..

"Tum kaise keh sakte ho ki meri nahi haan?"She closed her face in her palms and was crying and was only crying on her fate for making her life this much complicated.

"Mei..mein nahi janti ki tum kiski baat kar rahe the..le..lekin mujhe zaroor pata hai ki...ki tum uski wajeh se hi ai..aise hue ho..ki...me..meine tum..tumhari uski...place leli me meine.."her heart was beating rapidly in fear..fear of loosing him.

"Tu..tum woh ki kisi aur se pyaar no..nooo"she cried loud screaming saying noo that he don't love anyone..she was assuring herself that he don't love anyone..but she already listened him saying.She Don't want to trust that he loved other woman.

"No...karan please..kaho ki jhooth haii.please...say ki it's lie...it's only my place in your life... please say..agar tum mu..mujhse baat nahi ka..karoge to..toh thik..hai I..I will manage from now..bu..but don't say..ki..ki tum kisi aur se noo...I don't believe..please.."

she was in pain..she didn't knew what she was saying she was just going on and was crying her heart out calming herself as there was no one to calm her or to say her something.

On karan's side,

He remembered everything just what happened and closed his eyes with the palms.

He looked at the glass pieces laying infront of him and his eyes fell on their wedding picture.

He moved back and hit the bed,he sat there placing his both hands on either sides of bed and leaned down reaching the floor.

He didn't knew what he did,what she did?

Why she did?

Reaching the floor he dropped his head on the edge of the bed and was staring the ceiling silently.

Tears started to gather his eyes without his notice.

"Kyu...kyu kiya ye sab.meine tumse pehle hi kaha tha na ki mein ye..ye sab this marriage doesn't matter to me..fir fir bhi tumne..kyuuuu"he screamed angrily.

To get the answer.but there was no one to answer him.She had already gone from there crying and her tears affected him.

Not that he had some feelings,but she makes him to argue with her for no reason.If she didn't did that all there was no reason to quarrel with her or to say her something.

"Tum apne app kyu nahi rehti..hamesha kuch na kuch karti rehti ho ki mein tum par chillau.kyuuu karti ho ye sab.kya chati ho tum. Ki ham ek normal couples ki tarah rahe? That's not possible,mein hamesha aise hi rahungi.wo..woh mein tumhe kabhi nahi apna sakta.. beacuse yo..you it's already..."

Tears started dropping from his eyes touching his cheeks and he just sat there remembering her..the one to whom he gave his heart,his eyes filled with tears remembering her.

On preeta's side,

Even here she was sitting there and was crying for him for.. hurting and breaking her heart.

"Au..aur agar tum ki..kisi aur ko chahte the to..toh mujhse pehle kyu nahi kaha..haa? Tumne reason nahi bataya..aur sirf kaha ki you were not ready..agar tu.. tum mujhe bata dete pehle..ki tum kisi aur se pyaar karte ho..toh mei..mein tumse ye..ye shaadi nahi karti..kyu ki meine tumse apne sacche dil se pyaar kiya tha..aur agar iska end agar mujhe tumhari kurbani deni padti toh mein khushi se de sakti thi ..kyu..ki" She kept hand on her mouth to control herself and said.

"Kyu..kii tum mujhse pyaar Jo nahi karte ho na.. already tumne kisi aur ko de..di hai woh..tumh..ara pyaar...tumhara pyaar jiske liye mein..itne saloon Tak wait karti rahi...tarasti..rahi..aur ye ye dil jo tum..tumhare liye hamesha se dhadakta raha...lekin abb uski koyi mayne nahi hai.. because you don't care..."

You don't care...

"Lekin tumne mujhse shaadi karke donoki ki life waste ki hai karan..kyu kiya Aisa...Isse accha yahi hota ki tum..mujhse keh deta ki tum kisi aur se pyaar karte the..aur mein pehle ki tarah tumse pyaar karti rehti..akelii..wahii... Aur..mein waise hi bohot khush thi..tumhe meri life mein imagine karte..aur abb de..dekho na tum samne ho kar bhi nahi ho.."she wiped her tears which were on her cheeks flowing like a rain continuosly.

On karan's side,

He wiped his tears and searched for something.

He remembered where her picture was and move dto the other side of bed ,he took it and sat there again leaning to the bed.

He looked at her sadly.

"Tu.. tum kyu gayi haan? Mujhe chod kar kyuu..ye sab bohot galat hora hai..U know i am married now..aur woh bhi meri best friend se preeta Arora .woh tumhari tarah nahi hai.she is not like you.woh bilkul opposite hai woh kaise chahti hai waisa hona chahiye usse..jaise bachpan mein thi..aur mujhse ladti thi..
Abb bhi waisi hi hai, Le..lekin mein waisa nahi hu be beacuse of you tum jo nahi rahi meri saath aur mein aisa hi accha feel karta hu I don't want to move on "

He was talking to the picture and saying his heart out feeling pain.

"Agar tum hoti toh ye sab nahi hota hum already saath hote..isliye mujhe preeta se shaadi karni padi aur ye sab...mein ye relationship aage nahi bada sakta..I just Can't..I..I miss you"he said with teary eyes

"Aur mein preeta ko hurt nahi karna chahta..but she does such things that I loose my senses and will end up in shouting at her then its her mistake right. Woh kyu karti hai ye sab Jo mujhe bilkul accha nahi lagta"

he was stuck between the two relationships.He was not able to forgot her and move on giving a chance to his marriage.

He have already paused his personal life 2 years ago but now there was person in his life with him as his wife.

Suddenly the picture of flew from his hands , he didn't held it thight ,beacuse of the wind as the balcony door was open.

He suddenly looked at the picture sadly which flew and reached the corner.He chuckled bitterly sitting there.

"Abb sach mein gayi na.. atleast picture mein toh tum thi abb woh bhi nahi chahti ho?toh thik hai haan!! I am fine mein aisa hi rahunga abb tum bhi nahi wo..woh bhi nahi beacuse I can't abb tum nahi ho aur mein uske saath rahunga toh ye galat hoga right..it's wrong yes it's totally wrong Aisa nahi hoga kabhi nahi"

He stood up from there stumbling wiping his tears and fell on bed closing his eyes.

On preeta's side,

She stood up from there ,sat on the bed and fell numbly.She closed her eyes to control herself and fisted the bedsheet tightly.

"Ab..abb mein kyaa Karu karan...kaise jii sakti hu tumhare bina..aur woh bhi yee janne ke baad ke tu..tum kisi aur ke..hoo"again tears gathered in her eyes and she felt her heart heavy with pain.

"Lekin agar tum yahi chate ho to..toh mein..bhi bhi ya..yahi chaungi ki tum khush raho..kiske bhi saath raho..I want you to be happy...it matters to me the most...atleast tum aise toh nahi rahoge tu..tum khush rahoge to..mei bhi...Mera kya hai mein waise bhi pehle aise hi thi toh waise hi rahungi..aur tumhe kabhi nahi bataungi ki meine tumse pyaar kiya tha..waise bhi usse batane se koyi fayda nahi hai toh it's better it never reaches you..kyu ki abb mein nahi chahti..shayad mein tumhari life mein late aayi hongi..ki you already have gave your heart to someone else.."

"Par mein aur mera ye dil..hamesha tumhare liye hi dhadakta rahega..and my love will remain same for you...shayad meri hi galti thi ki meine tumhari problem nahi suni shaadi karte wakt..toh aisa nahi hota..."

She was saying everything staring the bedsheet where she was laying by side clutching the bedsheet in her fist making it wet with her tears..

"Abb mein tumse dur ri rahungi karan..jaisa tum chante ho..waise hi rahungi..bilkul.. tumse dur...aur shayad ek din tumse dur chali bhi jaungi..kyu ki mujhme itna himmat nahi hai ki tumhara gussa seh saku..mein nahi chahti ki tum mujhse nafrat Karo..Mein chali jaungi thode din ke baad sab thik karne ke baad..aur tum pehle ki tarah tumhare pyaar ki saath reh sakte ho..mujhe Jaana bhi nahi hai ki tum kisse pyaar karte ho Karan..mein nahi seh sakti tumhe kisi aur ke saath dekhe.."

"Tum jisse bhi pyaar karlo...lekin mujhse zyada pyaar tumhe koyi nahi kar sakta utna pyaar karti hu tumse...aur tumhare khushi liye tumse dur bhi jaa sakti hu"

She was just thinking and saying like that consoling and assuring her heart whatever her mind was saying her and fell asleep crying there looking like a broken girl with a tear stained face.

"I..I love..you...ka.. please.. don't.."she was mumbling continuously in her sleepy voice.

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Next morning,

Karan's pov

I woke up feeling Sunrays Falling on my face and sat leaning to the headrest.

Suddenly last night flashed through my mind and I closed my eyes feeling agressive.

No please it's morning and i don't want to spoil another day like this from morning.

I have to forgot that what happened and its better to stay away from her.thats it otherwise she won't get out of my mind.

Saying I stood up and went to Washroom to get ready.I was late already.

I came out and dressed in formals then moved out of my room getting ready.

I went to kitchen and Maria was already there preparing breakfast.

I went and sat on the dining table.Maria came and served the breakfast.

She was not there ,she usually have Breakfast at this time then..I remember about yesterday ,ignoring my thoughts I started having silently.

I glanced at her room it was still closed means she has not woke up yet, I guess.

And suddenly I remember what I was thinking about.

Why the hell i am thinking about her..karan leave..

How can I and my stupid mind won't stop me.Its her wish to have Whenever she wants and to get up.I will not think about her and it's good that I won't face her.

Yes it's good..let her..

I completed my breakfast and stood up to leave.

Wearing my blazer I once glanced at her room then moved out from the house.
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to be continued..

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And again sorry for this emotional chapter😬but it was needed..

Just wait for upcoming chapters 🌈

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