Hello you unfortunate person,

My life is currently crap. You might wonder why however, and on other hand you might not care....well too bad you're here now.

So to this started, I'll set up the stage for this general storm of my terrible life. My name is Igarashi Kichirou. That's a swell name, right? Well I'd disagree with you, but you're a book...or a person reading said book....if so, give it back.

Anyway, my life changed when the move attacked out of flipping nowhere one day when I was young. Like, why did my parents NEED to move somewhere else? I have a life ya know, not like I have friends or anything....well not really, but you catch my drift! When we moved, I meet the nicest boy to ever life ever...who in high school would betray me for a witch....yep. Aren't I a lucky one?

The Boy....no, my best friend, lived down the street from where I moved into during middle school. The first thing he gave me was a book. Yep. A book...kinda strange but yeah, it was a nice gesture regardless. He already was a weird kid to start off with. He'd read all day, drink tea, draw, play piano....just...normal stuff a kid our age wouldn't do. Don't even ask how we became friends, I don't even know myself. One day I was riding a bike and crashed into his fence...yeah, his fence. I cried, he came outside to see what I did, he gave me a bandaid and water, I cried more....yeah a lot of crying happened. But after that he'd visit me to see if I was ok, and we became friends.

Later on, I kinda noticed something....weird. When we got to high school, I did everything to make sure he was happy and safe and all this other stuff. He was hungry? Yes I'll by a snack for you! He was tired? So was I! He was stuck on homework stuff? I'll help you out! It seemed like he was my everything in life and to be honest, I noticed other things to...

Like how he'd pause to think about everything he would do that day, or put his books away in a certain order....or even how his eyes would shine when getting to a good part in a book. All the little things he did mattered so much to me day after day....eventually I fell for him.

Hard.

It wasn't even intentional for it to happen. It just...did. I, of course, didn't tell him. Why would I ruin the one relationship that I love so much and that's dear to me. So I kinda made signs to show him that I did. I hug him longer than usual, I'd fixed his clothes for him-even though their already perfect, heck-I'd even would just stare at him while he didn't notice.

That's creepy but still!

I just fell for him and he wasn't taking notice at all! It was frustrating and truth to be honest, I couldn't take it anymore....so I planned on telling him! But the day I planned on telling him, the worst week of my life proceeded...

Monday:

I planned to confess today. If he didn't accept it....I would stay home and think about my life choices for a week. Sounded good...at first.

I went to school and a new girl moved in. She was nothing special to me....another high pitched voice to ruin my life...great. She introduced herself as Katsukawa Saya and overall was kinda nice....My best friend however looked at her like she was his favorite book.

At that moment, my heart stopped. I had to confess today, I just had to! There is no way I would lose to a witch like that!

The proceeding days were a nightmare. Every time I tried to confess, it was always "Saya this" and "Saya that", which kinda made me upset in a relative sense....If he talked about me we would be ok! On Thursday however, I was politely informed that my best friend had a crush on the witch and I wasn't that surprised. What really surprised me was that he wanted to confess to her today....Are you kidding me? NOW?! But as a friend I wished him luck, which made him laugh. He calmly said that he's glad I'm supporting him and hugged me. I wanted to cry. I wanted to stop him. I wanted to hold on forever and never let go....but I did. I knew he would never like me back and probably will reject me regardless...so I let go.

The next day they were dating.

My heart was in pain as I saw them holding hand, saying sweet nothings in their ears, and overall was getting praise from other classmates for their "Amazing Relationship". My best friend didn't hang out that much with me now, as he only had time for her. She'd go to his house, they'd go on dates, he asked me to leave or said he have to go for his girlfriend....

Girlfriend....would he like me if I was a girl? If I told him I liked him earlier, would he have time for his boyfriend? All of these thoughts flooded me daily and to be honest, I felt terrible. Day by Day, our time together was shorter and shorter and I was surrounded by a feeling of loneliness and sadness while watching them fall more and more in love. I felt depressed. I felt gone. I felt like garbage, and I didn't know how to fix it.

Later that month, I was asked out. I said yes out of pure desperation for attention and just...overall neediness. Maybe I could get back at him for breaking my heart I thought....yeah....that would all right. This of course failed in the end....like everything else has.

My girlfriend was terrible. Down right terrible. She was snobbish and rude and I was clearly a object to her, but I didn't care. She had a million boyfriends before, but I didn't care. She'd want money? Sure. She'd want flowers? On it. She'd want to go to a party? Let's go. I was stuck in this horrible loop of giving her stuff and letting her do mean stuff to me, but I didn't care. I wanted to suffer, along with my best friend.

We'd both deserved it.

My best friend would looked at me sometimes, maybe shoot a little "Hi" and a "How are you?" sometimes, but I'd ignore him. I only had eyes for my terrible girlfriend, who I was "Madly in love" with. I was more upset than I had ever been before, and to be honest, I was used to it. One day however, made my life worse. While going to school, I saw a rainbow.

Yep, a rainbow.

That meant good luck right? My name meant luck too....I laughed at it. "Luck" is all a lie, I thought I had luck and look where I am now...I'm with a girl who's using me, My best friend doesn't talk to me, and his girlfriend is the icing on the cake. But maybe, just maybe...things will brighten up. Then the "Event" happened...

Lunch time, 11:30 and I was sitting with my girlfriend. She was loudly talking about how great I am and how "disgusting" it was for someone as good as me to like anyone else besides her. Her friends agreed with her, saying how nice I was and how there was a party tonight and saying how I should go. She giggled and hugged my arm, swaying me back and forth while saying we were "busy" tonight and how she'd "love me until I died". I remember my best friend staring at me with concern on his face, wondering if i'm ok, wondering if I like her, maybe even....wanting to be my friend again.

I snapped back into reality and saw a guy talking to my girlfriend. She was flirting with him of course, but I just sat there watching her do it. Afterwards, she yelled at me for not doing anything about it saying that "I'm the worst boyfriend sometimes". I was fed up at this rate. I might be dead on the inside, but I'm not going to just take it again! I told her that she did it, and that she's been doing it for a while now, and that I was done with it. She glared at me saying that I was horrible to suggest hat in front of her friends. Everyone was looking now, and I started to get upset....and this is where I screwed up. I said I never liked her in the first place and how she's been using me for money and as a sexual object the entire time we've been dating. I also said I was only using her for personal benefit, so I could make my best friend feel bad about breaking my heart because I liked him more then a friend and he had to date a girl instead!

Silence.

Deathly silence filled the air.

All I could hear was my heartbeat pounding against my chest and felt sweat pouring down my face.

She slapped me. She was in tears, I didn't even know why....She then proceed to call me things and say things...I rather not write down. After that she screamed that we were through and called me a "good for nothing" and left the room. Everyone's eyes were on me. I then walked out of the room, my head hung low and shame crawling up my back. I saw him. I saw him hold his hand out, as if he was saying "Wait!"...but I kept moving.

I left school.

I went home.

And this is where I am now.

Writing about my good life gone to literal crap, all because of a god dang rainbow.

Luck is crap.

Complete crap.

And I'm here to tell the story. Aren't I?

Well, now you know how my normal life from a Normal high school boy turned into a Depressed, lonely, Anti-Social outcast who was dumped for being in love with his best friend.

Who's perfect name was Shiokawa Manami.

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So this was completely unedited and was written over 2 day's...this is why I don't write much...

This is kinda a prompt and or one-shot book. If you want me to do more I guess....I will

(My writing is crapppppp)

But anyway, I plan on doing something special for my Drawing notebook for chapter 100 that will take a lot of time to do. I hope not but that's the situation that we're in...

Well.

May my love lead the way~

C.A💖