RECAP:

A knock on the door tore our eyes away from Nick Cannon. The door opened and Reuben peeped through. "Er, I was just checking you two were alright." he said. I looked back at the TV and ignored him, even though I could feel his eyes locked onto me. When we didn't answer he sighed. "Er, okay." he shut the door and I breathed a sigh of relief. Courtnee left after a few hours and Reuben took the opportunity to do everything he could so I would forgive him. He kept on promising that he wouldn't hurt me again and that he loved me. He behaved like this for the next two weeks, letting me out the flat, and letting me stay out late with Courtz. I stayed over hers one night and headed back to his. I unlocked the door and we cuddled on the couch, eating jacket potato and watching The Fresh Prince of Bel Air. See, this is how it was supposed to be. And I was enjoying every minute.

END OF RECAP

So it turns out that was only temporary. He's started hitting me again. We argued over the stupidest things.

"I didn't do it." I was at the sink, washing up. Reuben accused me of deleting some show he recorded.

"Well who did?" He asked. I sighed and turned slightly.

"I already told you; you did!" I explained. He came home high last night and put on the telly. He wanted to record something but the Sky box was full so he deleted a show.

"Well if I did, I would remember wouldn't I?"

"Well I don't know, you were high." I moaned.

"You were with someone weren't you?" He spat.

"What the hell are you talking about?" He comes up with the craziest things.

"You brought someone here and they deleted my show."

"That's crazy! What's wrong with you, why are you getting so emotional man?" My temper was slowly rising.

"I'm getting emotional because my girl is cheating on me."

"I'm not cheating on you!"

"Yes you are! They were here and they deleted my show. So who was it? Who were you with?" He asked aggressively.

"No one! I'm not cheating, you deleted the show!" I shouted, drying my hands.

"Stop fucking lying!"

"I'm not!"

"You're lying to me! Who deleted it? Who were you with?" He pointed a finger at me.

"No one! I'm not cheating on you!" I replied defensively.

"Yes you are! Who is he? Who are you fucking?"

"No one!"

"Stop lying!"

"I'm not lying."

"Yes you are!"

He gripped my ponytail and pulled me to him. I already knew what was coming.

"No! Please!" I begged.

"Shut your mouth!" He pulled me to the floor and began punching me. I was so tired of his shit. Each punch was harder and hurt more than the last. At that point, I knew Patrice was right. I cried thinking about how foolish I was to dismiss her.

"Stop! Reuben please!" I pleaded.

"SHUT UP!" The anger in his voice silenced me and I pressed my lips together to muffle my crying. My tears wouldn't stop flowing as I looked up at his face. The strong, sweet and caring guy I had fallen in love with had vanished. And was replaced with this aggressive, obsessive control freak who gave me little freedom and treated me with no respect whatsoever. I pushed him as hard as I could.

"Stop hitting me!" I yelled at him. He stood up straight, confused. He suddenly kicked my face and my head jerked back. That hurt the most. I clutched my nose momentarily before looking back up at him.

"For fuck sake, Reuben I am tired of this shit. You keep doing this. I'm not your personal punching bag, I'm your girlfriend. If you keep doing this, you could kill me Reuben. I'm not looking to make you a single parent. You get angry sometimes, yes, I get it. But that doesn't give you the right to treat me like this. I am carrying yourchild. The one that was created when you rapedme. Fine take out your anger but don't be risking the life of your child or me. Maybe I should have left you when they told me to, because this," I pointed between him and I.

"Definitely isn't what I signed up for." I cried. His gaze swept over me slowly.

"Shanae." He bent down to help me up and I moved away, forcing myself to stand up. "Baby please."

"Don't touch me." I slapped his hand away. I hated it when he switched suddenly. Deep down I knew something was up with him, mentally. I was hurt and angry but loved him too much to walk away from him and out of his life. I walked to the stairs.

"Baby."

"Leave me alone Reuben. I'm at my wits end with you." I started collecting my things.

"What you doin'? Where you going?"

"Home." I replied harshly.

"I thought this was your home."

"Nope, not anymore."

"So you're leaving?"

"There's no reason for me to stay. My boyfriend abuses me and I'm too weak to even fight him back or protect myself."

"I'll stop hitting you."

"I don't give a shit. The same way you obviously don't give a shit about me or your child." Tears clouded my vision as I packed my things. I could feel Reuben staring at me.

"I do Shanae." He replied. I turned and faced him. He stood leaning on the door with his hands shoved in his pockets.

"No you don't. Whether you like it or not, I'm not staying here." I resumed packing.

"Don't go babe. Don't do this to us."

"I'm not doing anything. As I recall it, I'm not the one who raped my girlfriend and got her pregnant."

"Shanae."

"I'm not the one who took her away from her friends and family. I'm not the one who abuses their girlfriend to the point where she's in hospital and to the point where she realises that the only people that cared about her are the very people she got taken away from and are at bloody war with her boyfriend." I breathed. I couldn't contain my tears anymore. A sob escaped me and I broke down, throwing the top I was currently folding.

Reuben rushed over and pulled me into him. I cried into his muscular chest. I punched his sides weakly, muttering "I hate you."

"Shh sh sh." He held me tightly and I gave up hitting him. I wrapped my arms around him, still crying.

"I hate you so much right now Reuben, I fucking hate you." I grumbled.

"I know. I'm sorry." He whispered. "I won't do it again babe, I promise."

"Don't make a promise you can't keep." I told him.

"I'm not."

"Whatever. Now let me go, I need to pee." I smiled slightly, pulling away. He wiped my tears for me and leant down to kiss me.

"I love you babe."

"Love you too Reuben."

After I finished on the toilet and washed my hands, I looked in the mirror. Sighing at my reflection, I studied my face more. My skin looked dull and I was breaking out. My cheek was turning red and a blood vessel had popped in my eye, making it appear red. He really needed to stop hitting me. It was becoming too much now.

I joined him on the couch and sat beside him silently. He gently pulled me onto his lap and smiled proudly.

"What?" I questioned.

"You're mine." His smile widened and he returned his attention to the TV. Shortly afterwards, he got up and came back with a frozen steak, tablets and a glass of water. He handed me the steak and put the glass and tablets on the table.

"Thanks." I smiled gratefully, placing the steak on my cheek and nose. I took the tablets and water and stood up so he could lay on the couch. I was going to walk to the other couch when he pulled me back.

"Come." He commanded gently. I sat on the little space that wasn't taken up by his body and he laughed. "You can lie on me you know." I lay down and settled me head on his chest. I could hear his strong heartbeat and smiled. I soon became tired and fell asleep.

When I woke up again, Reuben wasn't underneath me and there was a blanket on me. The room was dark but I could see Reuben standing in front of the sofa with his back to me. He was on the phone.

"What you talking about?"

"..."

"Don't lie to me about those things.

"..."

"If you're fucking joking, fam, I swear-"

"..."

"Shit man, who snaked?"

"..."

"What? But no one told them the location of the warehouse."

"..."

"Yes I'm sure. Every Soulja is loyal to me."

"..."

"What'd you mean?"

"..."

"Nah don't bring my girl into this."

"..."

"She wouldn't tell her dad, she hates him."

"..."

"Shut up man, she didn't snake. Anyway, I'm coming."

"..."

"Yeah yeah yeah."

"..."

"Alright, hold it down 'till I get there."

"..."

"Aight safe." He hung up and sighed. He looked at me.

"You didn't tell, did you babe?" He walked towards me and I sat up.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I murmured sleepily, rubbing my eye. He sighed again.

"DDK tried to break into the warehouse. They were unsuccessful but now they know where we're based at. Well at least the 3 that tried to break in. We have them detained right now and we're gonna sort it out but Shanae, did you tell your dad where the warehouse is?"

I was mortified. "No. I wouldn't- I wouldn't tell him anything." He looked uncertain about my answer.

"Babe I promise." I ended. He kissed his teeth and stood up. He paced back and forth, his fists clenched tightly.

"Chill man chill. She's telling the truth, don't hit her. You promised, don't hit her." He was trying to calm himself down so he wouldn't hurt me.

"Reuben-" I whispered. He punched the wall, infuriated. I held my stomach as he grunted and yelled. He ran upstairs and his phone rang, so I answered, putting it on record.

"Hello?"

"Ay Murder man. Don't come, we're outnumbered. More DDK are starting to arrive. There's about 10 of 'em at the door, and another 20 or so spread out around the whole building. There's only 15 of us here and we can't call more men to come back us cos it takes them about half an hour to an hour to get here." There was a loud bang in the distance.

"Shit man, we don't even have half an hour." He cried.

"Man, I'm gonna stay here and protect the place but don't expect to see me again." He was crying. "I'm gonna miss you man. I know we're not supposed to say this but I love you Murder. You're a brother to me, we'll always be brothers. That's why I'm fighting here for you. Don't forget me brudda, stay blessed." He hung up. Reuben came back down dressed in all black. He was carrying a black duffel bag and looked at me.

"Where you going?" I stuttered.

"Out." He reached behind the sofa and pulled out a shotgun.

"To the warehouse?"

"Well what do you think?" He reached behind the TV and pulled out 2 machine guns.

"Don't go." I begged.

"I have to." He picked up my keys and put them in his pocket.

"No, you're outnumbered." I answered. He looked at me and his phone sitting in the palm of my hand and took it. I followed him out of the living room.

"Ty called?" He looked at his phone.

"Yeah, I recorded the conversation. Please don't go."

"I have to go."

"No please." I ran and stood in front of the door.

"Shanae move."

"No. You're not going." I looked up at him and saw he was angry.

"Shanae move!" He shouted.

"No! You can't go! Listen to the conversation please! You'll understand why you can't go!"

"Shanae-"

"Listen to it!" I yelled. He sighed reluctantly. His face fell as he listened to the call.

"Ty." He whispered dropping his arm to his side.

"See, you can't go."

"I have to save them, I have to save Ty."

"Reuben, are you mad? You heard what he said; you're outnumbered!"

"That's my family in there Shanae! I have to save them!" He yelled.

"You're gonna get yourself killed!"

"I'm saving my family! I'm not leaving them on their own!"

"What about our family? I can't live without you in my life, how am I going to raise a child by myself?"

"Shanae, you have family besides me! Those man in there have no one! I'm all they have! South Souljas is a family! We stick together, and I'm going to help them!"

"Aren't we a family? Me you and our baby is a family! Don't get yourself killed!"

"I'm not getting myself killed, I'm going to save my family!"

"I'm your family! Me and your baby are your family!"

"No you're not! You're just a chick that I fuck and flush! You just so happened to get pregnant! I don't want you; I don't want this child! My real family is out there, trying to protect my shit! If you were my family, you'd move out my way, and let me protect what's mine!" He yelled. I swear, I felt my heart break inside my chest.

"Reuben don't go." I pleaded. He looked at the door, avoiding eye contact.

"Shanae move."

"Reuben I'm begging you."

"Shanae move!"

"Please! You're gonna get yourself killed!"

"SHANAE, MOVE OUT THE FUCKING WAY!" He screamed, flinging me into the wall. I groaned in pain and he opened the door.

"DON'T YOU GET IT? IF I DON'T GO, ALL OF THEM WILL DIE! IF I GO, I SAVE THEIR LIVES! SO FUCK ME BEING APART OF YOUR FAMILY! MY FAMILY IS PROTECTING MY SHIT, UNLIKE YOU! FUCK YOU, AND THAT FUCKING BABY!" He slammed the door behind him and I ran to it opening it again. He was holding onto the handle still.

"Reuben please!" I pulled the door more and ran out and hugged him.

"Get the fuck off me!" He pulled himself from me.

"Reuben don't!"

"Get inside!" He pointed into his flat.

"No!" I cried, clutching onto his arm.

"Get inside now!" He yelled.

"No! Please!" I was going mental. He pushed me forcefully back into the flat. He was closing the door as I was getting back up.

"Don't go!" I yelled. By the time I stood up, he had closed the door. I tried to open it but he had locked it from the outside.

"REUBEN!" I screamed hysterically. I'm sure the whole floor heard me. I banged on the door but eventually gave up, sinking to the floor, defeated. My whole world was over.

Ya so, dere it is. Ummm, short as heck, I know, I know, nothing happened much but I wanted to update. It's my birthday!!!! I turned 17 about and hour ago cos I was born at like 4:30 something PM haha. Sorry I ain't updated in forever, sixth form is sooooo long, you have to teach yourself basically, the teachers just recap stuff. And my head of sixth form is such a bloody sideman, first I can't wear Kickers, then I'm rude and giving attitude "have that attitude again and you'll be walking that'a way" (he points to the door" KMT dickhead.

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