Xiao Zhan

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1 year have passed since Yibo and I broke up. I didn't know the reason of our break up but I'm guessing he got bored of me already. We've been together for 6 years and not once did Yibo asked about marriage. When we talk no questions about having to get married is asked. It's like he doesn't care. I feel like I've just been used all those years we've been together. Yibo and I went through a lot of hardships with his Uncle not supporting him for being gay and with me not having any family left.

Yibo was my only family and yet he left me just like my parents did. Maybe I'm just not a likeable or lovable person at all. When Yibo left me I tried finding someone else to be happy with but no one was good enough. Whenever I go to date with different guys I can't help but compare them to Yibo. Yibo might be a cold looking person but he's caring and loving on the inside. He cares about everyone's well being especially mine.

Whenever we would go on dates he would take me somewhere fun, like the amusement park or in a different country. He knows me best and always make sure that I'm okay. I guess the only flaw with Yibo is when he lost interest in things or someone. Back when we were in highschool he loves to play basketball but as time passed by he lost interest at it. It was a very huge loss for the basketball team since Yibo was a very good player. And then when we are in college and he was chosen as the student body president. It hasn't even been half a month when he lost interest and quit.

This was the major issue with Yibo but I don't mind this as long as he loves me but I guess he also got bored with that since he left me. It was our 6 anniversary and I was planning for us to go out but what surprise me was Yibo bringing home a guy. They were both laughing while I was breaking from the inside at what I'm seeing especially when Yibo kiss the guy he was holding. The next day I confronted him asking questions but what he said broke my heart into pieces. With a bored look he broke up with me. He told me that he didn't love me anymore and that I wasn't good enough anymore to be his lover.

We fought after that I left without getting my things. The only I have woth me that time was my phone nd my wallet. Good thing that I save up all the money that Yibo always gives me. It's enough to buy plain tickets and to at least sustain me for a few months. I left China that very same day Yibo and I broke up. I went to Korea and began a new life again. There I found another guy. He's great and more than what Yibo could ever be. Cho Seung-Youn and I met at a bar when I decided to have a drink one time and after our first meeting we began hanging out, getting to know each other until we both fell in love.

Seung-Youn has been a great boyfriend. He's funny, cute, thoughtful, creative, honest, kind and attractive. We've been together for 5 months now and I'm so happy about it. He made me forget about Yibo slowly. Being his boyfriend was great and I found out that the bar I went to was his and his friend Wooseok. Now I've been working with them at the bar. I also knew that Wooseok has a crush on Seung-Youn but he told me that he is already moving on since Seung-Youn got me already. But I still feel bad for him. I just stole his crush but we can't really dictate our heart to choose who we will love or who we will hate.

Everything was going great until I saw him. Wang Yibo walked in so casually like he owns the place. My heart skip a beat and I grew nervous. After pur break up this is the first time I've seen Yibo again and he looks just fine. He's even flirting with girls now. Maybe he wasn't gay after all. Maybe he's just trying, experimenting on me to know how it feels to fuck and love a guy. Maybe I was just a toy for him. But what is he doing here in Korea?

I shook my head a couple times before goung back to work. I've been handling the drinks ever since Seung-Youn tought me how. He told me that my drink combination was amazing. It was also the reason why a lot of people come to our bar for a taste of my drinks. While shaking I decided to give the people a show by dancing to the beat of the music. Cheers and claps as well as whistling is all I heard before I bowed at them. I served my drink as Seung-Youn stood beside me.

"That was great dancing hon. But please don't dance to good. I don't want those people enjoying your dancing too much." I giggled before kissing him right as Yibo stood infront of us. He cleared his throat making me and Seung-Youn pull apart. Looking at him now I began remembering those hurtful words he told me. It made my rage come out again. The rage that I've been keeping lock up in me for so long.

"Nice to see you again Zhanzhan. It's only been a year and you've alteady found someone else." He sneered at me while looking so disgusted. I laugh hard at what he said to me.

"Wow at least I got someone else  after a year but you. You got yourself someone else when we were still in a relationship so don't give me that disgusted look of yours. At least someone treasures me more than you did." I shouted back at him which earned us a crowd. Seung-Youn wrap his arms around my waist as he tried to pull me out of there but I'm not having it. I want to humiliate Yibo so bad for what he did to me. How he just used me like a fucking toy for his own pleasure.

"Babe what's going on?" Yibo and I both turned towards a girl who looks like a fucking pornstar with her extra short skirt and crop top. She looks slutty as she walk towards Yibo. I gave the girl a disgusted look before looking at Yibo who's now looking at me with an amuse look in his eyes.

"Didn't know your into pornstars now. Such a bad taste you now have." I heard a few people cheering for me which made me smirk. This is gonna be fun. I'm so gonna humiliate Yibo big time.

"Excuse me, but who are you to say that to my baby?" The bitch asked as she clung to Yibo while glaring at me. Her glare is making me want to puke. With her face full of different cosmetics she looks like a clown and to add it all up she's also glaring making her look like a killer clown. Really creepy.

"Me? Well I'm the one this baby of yours dump for different guys who looks nothing like me. They are all second rate as well as you."

"How dare you call me second rate. I'm more beautiful than you." A few 'boos'were heard from the crowd making me laugh hard. She's calling herself beautiful wow talk about confidence. If I were in Yibo's place I would've ran away already. Who would want to bang a girl like her. But knowing Yibo he might do her.

"The crowds speaks for me girl. Try to look at a mirror first before saying such things. Oh maybe you shouldn't... the mirror might break when you see yourself." The crowd laugh along with me as she walked out of the bar. Yibo just stood there doing nothing but looking at me. With a final glare at him I wrap my arms around Seung-Youn's waist and we went upstairs to his office.

"Okay I admit that was hot hon but please don't do it again. I don't like it when others pick a fight with you." I smiled at how caring Seung-Youn can be. It makes me fall for him more but still, a part of my heart still belongs to Yibo and it's hard to take it back. Not when I'm still holding on to all of our sweet memories unable to forget them. It makes me sometimes think that I'm only using Seung-Youn as a rebound to forget Yibo.

"Stop thinking about that guy Zhan. He's not worth it." I kiss Seung-Youn's cheeks as I can see jealousy in hiss eyes. Seung-Youn knew who Yibo was so I was very impressed when he didn't just go to Yibo and just give him a hard punch like he's been saying all the time. I suddenly felt dizzy. Grabbing Seung-Youn's arms I tried to stand straight but my knees gave up on me making me fall on the floor but Seung-Youn was quick to catch me. He was panicking and I can tell from his voice.

"Hon what's wrong. Hey, hon don't close your eyes. Zhan! Zhan!" He kept yelling but my senses are slowly shutting down. With a tired smile I caress Seung-Youn's face before blacking out.