Would you kiss me to last the night?

Kiss me deep and satisfy.

I gotta long time without your smile.

Make your lips last this goodbye.

-

I am nothing but ads I skim.
My cracked phone a sacrilege
to the sun of capital grift,
which shines a cost on all I've lived
and there's a lotta pity I need to pay back.

My debt of blood, the sea of snacks,
a timeline of keening packed
beyond the memory of even the
abusers I left but still live inside me.
There's nothing good,
my words or chains,
for all my bonds,
I wrecked their pains.
Few caught on
but still I take
every bit of kindness I know I can't deserve.

In those long hours
before the sun announces
fails of yesterday
I angst on
and depress back
my brooding song
a demon's pact
what I got was never
what the angels want for me

Cause I got a break.
There's a demon
who lives with my shame.
They're all mischief
what God forsakes.
But when they hold me
I can feel
a love I've longed
but always fought
to keep it out
how does this bliss
continue to find me?

-

Would you kiss me to last the night?

Kiss me deep and satisfy.

I gotta long time without your smile.

Make your lips last this goodbye.

-

I know my dark is past its prime

but I fought on too hard this time

in your sweet arms I realize

that everything wonderful

can still be in this world with us

-

I know my life is safe inside

your welcome arms

that's how I sigh

and squeeze on

through the roughest grind

knowing if you're there

we can beat to death to the last line

-

There's nothing warm,
in chest or mind.
Without you home,
my breath's a crime.
Few catch on
I steal and brave
every bit of kindness past friends willingly served.

In those long hours
after gray sun fast-flounces.
Trails of teenage pain
I walk on
retreading that
hard-head response
of eons past.
What I spoke was never
what I wanted to come out.

But I got a break.
There's a demon
who lives with my shame.
They're all mischief,
what God forsakes.
But when they hold me
I can feel
a love I've longed
but always fought
to keep it out
how does this bliss
continue to find me?

-

Would you kiss me to last the night?

Kiss me deep and satisfy.

I gotta long time without your smile.

Make your lips last this goodbye.