You know how life is so happy one day and the next day it all comes crashing down. her life has never been easy for her and she has always done what she shouldnt have, like falling in love with him. Him, the only one who can bring a smile so bright on her face, the only one who can make those butterflies her my stomach go crazy, the only one to understand her when she cries on stupid things that don't even make sense. they both found ways to fix each other, he made her pain his pain and she? she cried when he cried, all those times when he remembered his nightmares she was there to make him fight through it and she doesn't even know when she fell for that person. Its like one day she woke up and realized that her heart would rather beat for him than beat without a purpose. she was happy and damn she was, but like they say too much happiness can sometimes be a hurdle for your way. there is nothing she wants more than him in her entire life but as cliché as this sounds u know what they say, let them go if you love them. Now she's supposed to let go of the reason of her smile, the reason of her happiness but she cant hurt him. she cant watch him go back to the dark place he was before because watching him become that person again is like driving a stake through her heart every minute. It hurts to the point where she cant breathe, she cant think, she cant function but a heartbreak is supposed to feel like that. It feels like broken ribs, to the point where it hurts to breathe and him and her both have gone through it. she cant put him through this feeling again even if it means to feel it herself, to go through it herself because at least she will know that he is smiling and he is not hurting because in the end he is all that matters. "Dear heart I'm sorry for what I'm going to put you through but it has to be done, he lives in you and he always will but you cant hold him back" she whispers to herself every night. she will watch him grow, she will watch him fall in love and make mistakes and she will be there for him through it all, its going to be the hardest thing but again in the end he is all that matters. she will be smiling with traces of no tears because she has to be strong and she will be. She just wanted a forever with him and she is not sure if she'll get it but what if she doesn't? that will mean breaking his heart and that is one thing she can never do. she cant make him fall in love with her and let him go just because being together was not in there destiny, she cant put him through that feeling again. Her heart is in a million pieces but its okay his heart his fixed. She promised herself to never stop loving him and to always be there for him and just like that she let him go with a heavy heart that was crying for him, and this is going to be her hardest journey but she is ready to do it for him.