You plopped yourself on your bed, looking at the ceiling. A single tear escaped your eyes landed on your pillow. You sprung up and sit up straight, you couldn't believe you're crying right now, you're such an emotional bitch, you thought hitting your head with your knuckle.

But the image of your dad left you at the park and went with another woman makes your hands formed into a fist. Your face turns red, thinking if he ever comes back you will murder him and his fucking side chick. But part of you is heart broken, upset, thinking why can't you have a family like others do. You felt bad, for yourself and your mom.

You knew how your mom still looks at your family picture every night and cry to sleep, you knew how she have to take care of a big company all by herself. Your mom eventually became cold as ever, she sometimes doesn't even look at you in the eyes when comes home from work. It eventually doesn't even matter anymore, you're not bothered by it, it became a routine.

BULL SHIT

They were never there for you anyways, everything will eventually leave and you'll be left alone again.

All those sweet words your mom say to you when she's with her friends makes you sick to your stomach. Bull shit.

The fact that you have to act like perfect lil princess in that fucking school makes you turn to a bipolar bitch. Bull shit.

All of your friends became your friends because they pity your situation. Bull shit.

Why live in this fake ass world? why tryna fix shit when you can just disappear and things will eventually disappear too?

So that what you did

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A piece of paper on the table with your chicken scratch hand writing.

A black hoodie over your head, you climbed through the window with a backpack over your shoulder.

Your heart beat fast, sweats are forming on your forehead. Excited that you're leaving this house, scared...of how you'll ended up out there.

Your feet touches the hard cement floor, you took a glance at the mansion and the street that you grew up in. Two fingers went up to your lips, then up to heaven.

"Jesus take the wheel"