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"Look, can we still be friends. I really want things to go back to the way they were." I really hoped we could still be friends.

"I don't want to be your friend Madeline. I want you as my woman."

Before I could react, Dylan moved closer to me and kissed me. 

I immediately pushed him back. 

"What the hell Dylan! I have a boyfriend!" Now I was upset. He knew I was already in a relationship. 

Dylan suddenly looked scared. I wondered why? I then looked back and realized why he was uneasy, Grayson stood behind me clearly furious about what he had just witnessed. 

MADELINE POV

"Get the fuck away from her unless you want me to beat you!" Grayson's stare was honestly frightening. 

Dylan didn't move. 

"I'm sorry Madeline. I…" It seemed like he was about to say something but he left. 

I walked over to Grayson and gave him a hug. His body was tense but he immediately calmed down after I touched him.

"It's alright Grayson I'm fine." I looked up at him hoping he could look into my eyes. 

He stared at Dylan as he walked away. It was almost as if Grayson wanted to see for himself that Dylan wouldn't come near me again. Although finally, he looked at me and a gentle smile formed on his face.

I felt him kiss my forehead and he wrapped his arms around my waist protectively.

"We're going home." Is all he said as he held my hand and led me to his car. We got in and he drove away.  

Grayson was quiet throughout the whole ride. 
He seemed lost in thought and I desperately wondered what he could be thinking.

We finally arrived home. Grayson opened the door for us and we walked inside the mansion. He held my hand and led me upstairs. As soon as we walked inside my room he began to kiss me. 

(WARNING SMUT CONTENT)

He put his tongue in making the kiss more sensual. His hands were wrapped around my waist as he pulled me closer to him. Grayson seemed almost desperate to touch me.

He moved his right hand under my dress as he caressed my thigh. He occasionally pulled on the side of my lace underwear in a teasing manner. 

My body began to feel hot from how he was touching me.

Grayson pulled back allowing us both to regain our breath. I tried to calm down as I process what we're about to do. I could feel this warmth and heat radiating from his entire body and I wanted him closer to me.

 I felt him gently pull the straps on my dress down as he kissed my neck and shoulder. He then began to lick and suck on the spot sensually. 

"You're mine princess." He whispered.

Grayson was acting more possessive over me than usual. My kiss with Dylan must really have irritated him.

He sucked on the spot so hard I was positive it had left a mark.

"Now this will show everyone that you're mine." He whispered in my ear

We kissed again with passion and adoration. I wanted him more than anything right at that moment. He began to unzip my dress without breaking the kiss. As soon as I felt the dress fall, Grayson gently laid me on the bed. 

His strong body laid over me as he began to touch my body. 

"You're so beautiful Madeline. You have no idea how long I've waited to be the man to hold you. To be the only person to do these things to you is like a dream come true." There was lust and so much love in his eyes. 

"I love you Madeline." I could hear and see the sincerity in the way he looked at me. 

It was at this moment that I realized I loved him as well. We had known each other since we were kids, that I had never thought to see Grayson as a man. But over the course of our relationship and my time getting to really know him, I realized that he was the man for me.

Everything we had lived together and the small moments in the past that I had thought could mean something more, were real. It turns out he had been in love with me since we were children. I had learned of a caring and gentle side of Grayson once we started dating. He always made sure I was happy whenever we were together and he never forced me to do anything I didn't feel comfortable doing. But most importantly he made me feel loved and protected, I never felt scared being around him. 

I stared into those beautiful eyes of his and I said those words I knew he was dying to hear.

"I love you Grayson. I have never felt this much love for someone before so I could never say it back. I was confused about what the true meaning really was. Every second I'm not around you I feel so lonely. The thought of losing you hurts me so much and I know that no one else will ever be able to replace you. You're the only man for me Grayson." 

Grayson looked as if he were about to cry. I could see how much my words had affected him.

"I have been dying to hear you say those words since the moment I realized what you meant to me. I love you Madeline and I will always love you." 
We began to kiss again as we moved to a rhythm. 

He then removed my bra and began to massage my breasts. I felt him suck on my now hardened nipples and I couldn't help but moan from the attention he was giving my chest. 

He moved lower kissing my stomach and then even lower as he licked on the skin just above the rim of my underwear. He was teasing me and I could tell he was enjoying every minute of it. 

"Beg for it princess and I'll do whatever you ask of me." If I was in my right mind I would never beg him to touch me like that but since he had me in a daze I had no choice but to beg.

"Please, Grayson! I need you!" 

"FUCK! You're so sexy baby, I think I might cum from hearing speak like that." He practically ripped my panties off and put his finger inside me. 

"Damn you're so tight. I'm getting hard just touching you." 

I was breathing hard feeling the pleasure he was giving me. I began to moan again from how he touched my body. 

"I can't hold back anymore! You're too damn sexy Madeline!" 

He quickly took his clothes off while I gave him a helping hand. His well-defined six-pack was finally in view and his hard-on was quite evident as well.

He laid on top of me again and almost immediately entered me. It hurt at first and I could tell Grayson was trying to make me feel better by giving me gentle kisses on my body. 

Although after a while it began to feel good and Grayson moved faster inside me. It wasn't long before I felt myself climax. 

Grayson was also about to cum but he immediately pulled out which I appreciated. Neither one of us was ready to have a child and since we didn't have a condom, this was the next best thing. 

We laid in my bed as Grayson pulled me towards him in his arms. He kissed my forehead and then asked if I was ok.

"How are you feeling, did I hurt you?" 

He looked genuinely worried which I appreciated.

"I'm fine Grayson. It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would." 

He immediately smiled.

"I'm glad. I would hate for your first time to be a bad experience." 

"It was amazing Grayson. Thank you for being so gentle and considerate." 

We laid for a bit and then we headed to the shower together. 

It felt like we were a married couple. I helped Grayson's wash his back and he did the same for me. Although things did start getting steamy once again. 

We kissed sensually but I immediately got out of the shower so we wouldn't do anything else. I wasn't ready for another round just yet. 

Luckily Grayson understood and didn't push it. 

He stayed in the shower for a little while longer. This gave me time to change into some comfortable PJs and change the sheets of my bed for obvious reasons. 

Soon Grayson and I were downstairs in the kitchen as we prepared dinner together.

"So what are we making today chef?" 

Grayson gave me a quick peck on the lips and smiled. 

"I like that nickname, chef." 

I simply laughed from how much he was enjoying this. 

We ended up making pasta and eating it at the dinner table. 

"Look, about what happened earlier today with Dylan, I didn't expect him to kiss me. I didn't reciprocate, I would never kiss someone else that wasn't you. I'm sorry you had to witness that." 

Grayson held my hands to his mouth and kissed them.

"It's alright my love. It wasn't your fault. I will be honest, I was furious that he kissed you and touched what's mine. It took everything in me not to beat him for touching you. But your gentle touch helped me calm down." 

I gave Grayson a quick peck on the lips.

"Don't worry Grayson, I'm yours as you are mine." Grayson seemed to like my response because he began to kiss me. 

Without breaking the kiss, I sat on him with my body facing him. He wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him.  

Suddenly I felt him move his hands towards my ass as he gave it a tight squeeze. He then began to press my core against his manhood. He had an evident hard-on and I could feel it.

I couldn't help but moan from how he was making me feel. 

"You have no idea the things I want to do to you right now." He whispered.

Things were escalating fast and I didn't know if I was ready just yet to do this again. 

I tried to move away but Grayson wouldn't budge. Instead, he held onto me tightly keeping me in place. 

He broke the kiss but instead he began to lick and suck on my neck. 

"Grayson please stop." I began to feel scared. 

Although he just kept going almost as if he were in a daze. I couldn't help but recall how my father used to force himself on my mother. She always told me to run upstairs and I did. But ever since I was mature enough to comprehend what sexual abuse meant, I knew exactly what she went through.

I was shaking and my heart was beating fast.
I was having a panic attack.

"Let go of me!" I yelled loudly. 

This seemed to snap Grayson out of what he was doing and he immediately let go of me. Worry and genuine concern surged in his face.

I immediately got off of him and I began to walk away. Grayson grabbed my hand and pulled me back. 

"Madeline wait! What's wrong my love? I'm so sorry I didn't mean to hurt you. I just couldn't stop and I…" 

He looked at me with worrying eyes.

"You're crying." Is all he said.

I touched my cheeks to find warm tears on my face. I hadn't even realized I was crying.

Grayson moved closer to me almost like he was trying to hug me. I immediately moved back.

"Please just don't." Is all I said before running to my room and curling up in a ball as I cried all night. 

The horrors I lived as a child still haunted me. I was physically detached from the horrors of that home, but mentally I still lived in fear of the man I once called my father. 

I knew Grayson didn't mean to hurt me. Although with that single moment he had failed to stop touching me, made me feel powerless. That's how my father had made me feel before, and I hated it. I hated how much my father had affected my life and how he still affects me. 

I used to go to therapy as a child thanks to Ian and Grace. I thought I had healed that part of me, but since I would be seeing my mother soon it felt like that wound was reopening. 

Occasionally I heard Grayson knock on my door asking me if I was ok but I didn't say a thing. I simply sobbed in my pillow.

Maybe tomorrow I could talk to him about my childhood. He had no idea what I had gone through. But since he was my boyfriend and such a big part of my life now, he deserved to know. 

I finally fell asleep after some time. 

         END OF CHAPTER 12

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