Dean's perspective:
The minute I inhabited the Mark of Kane. I felt a change within myself. One that i had no control over. When I was laying down I knocked out I heard things. But I couldn't move or say anything.

I heard  (Y/n) crying.

"He's gonna be ok (Y/n)." Sam told her.

"But I almost lost him today. We almost lost him Sam. I can't help but be shaken up. I haven't even told our kids about what you do. What was I supposed to tell them if you didn't turn up?" She asked with a shake voice. I wanted to get up I needed to get up and let her know I'm ok. But I can't.  I'm trying with every fiber of my being I'm trying to pull through.  But I can't.  It's like a dark force was holding me down.

Your perspective:

"What was I gonna tell our 9 year old son and 6 year old daughter? That daddy and Uncle Sam were hunting monsters and died? You can't  just tell a kid that Sam." I say burying my face into Sam's stomach (since he's so tall) and crying.

"I know," Sam said comforting me. "But he's alright. He's gonna be ok. There will always be close calls but he will always find a way to get back to us and you know that."

I sniffled and nodded. "You're right. It's just that things are getting scarier and harder to fight the farther we go."

"I know but we always find a way to overcome it together. We always do and we always will."

I nod and wipe my eyes.

"Now go do what you can to relax. Take a bath, do your nails,steal Dean's pie." He joked and I couldn't help but giggle a little.
"Go relax," He said with a small smile.

"Thank you Sam, You're the best brother ever." I say hugging him.

"That's what I'm here for now go relax,"

I chuckle. "Yes,Sir," I say leaving the room. I take a nice hot bubble bath and then went to check in on the kids. They were both still sound asleep luckily. I stared at our oldest child Chris. He resembled his father so much and wanted to be like him. I smiled at  memories of when Chris first decided he wanted to be like Dean. He started trying to do everything his dad did around the house. Including drink beer but I wasn't having that so I got Chris plastic beer bottles that contained root beer. To this day he tells all his friends how he drinks beer like a strong man. I had alerted the teacher that it was root beer. My eyes fall on our little angel we named Genevieve. She was a true miracle baby. The doctors said she was too weak to live on passed 3 months but here she is. Daddy's tough little princess. Strong as ever and healthy. I was scared of them losing their father like I did. I swore to myself that if I ever had kids. I would give them the stable life I never had and that they would have their father in their lives. I got the scrap book that wasn't filled yet but had enough memories in it film a movie. Dean was scared of being a father at first. We both were but he was afraid he would be like his father and I was afraid he wouldn't want to be a father. But we pulled through. Dean was the best father and an even better husband. He took us everywhere. Every big to small landmark. The grand canyon,New York, Mt. Rushmore and so many other places. I looked the the book and smiled at the many memories. I ended up falling asleep on the floor with the scrap book in my lap.

I however woke up to someone calling my name. I slowly opened my eyes to see Sam with a panic in his eyes that automatically set off alarms in my head.

"What's wrong?!" I asked worriedly.

"Dean's gone," He said.

"What?! He just wouldn't up and leave like that!" I shout standing up.

He hands me a note.

If you see this then that means I'm gone and I'm not coming back. So don't come looking for me. It's better this way.

-D.Winchester

I looked up at Sam who have me a worried look. "(Y/n)?" He questioned. I fell to my knees and everything just went silent. I stared at the note.

"N-not coming back..." I say quietly as a tear goes down my face.

"I'll bring him back.  At least to explain what the he'll he was thinking. I promise you that  (Y/n)."

I clench my heart and shake my head. "I gotta go," I say getting up.

"Where?"

"Somewhere that's not here, I knew that having kids was too much for him. It's most likely because of me and the kids. So we'll leave and I-i'll figure it out." I say as tears flow freely from my eyes.

"No! You and those kids are gonna stay here. Because if anything were to happen to you I'll never forgive myself. I'm gonna find Dean. It make take a while because if he wants to stay hidden he knows how to. But I will find him. I promise you that," He says hugging me and cry into his shoulder.
"He loves you and the kids more than anything he can't stay away from you for too long. He'll come back one way or another." Sam said in a determined voice.

2 months later...

Sam's Pov:

She was okay the first week. She told the kids that Dean had went away to a business trip alone and would be back soon. She tried to keep together for the kids as days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. But then it was Gen's birthday. (Y/n) was better he wouldn't miss his little girl's birthday. But he did and she lost hope. That's when I went even crazier turning up every stone just to find him.

"(Y/n), I'm going to go find Dean I have a lead on him." I say popping my head into her room.

She was sitting on her bed with her knees to her chest and her arms around he legs with her head down. She looked up at me and let out a depressed sigh. "Give up Sammy, He's never gonna come back. Where ever he is. That's where he plans on staying and there's nothing we can do about it," she said looking up at me. "Not even his own kids," She said sobbing.

I hugged her. "This is my last time trying if I don't find him. I'll....I'll quit hunting and get a job to help you with Gen and Chris. I refuse to see you struggle with them alone." I said.

"S-sam..."

"No ifs,ands, or buts. That's the plan. If Dean wants disappear out of your kids lives. I'll be man enough to step in and clean up his mess." I say kissing her forehead in brotherly manner before heading out.

Your Pov:

"Mommy?" Genevieve said opening the door. I quickly wiped my face and plastered on a smile. "Yes,Sweetheart?"

"Is it our fault daddy is gone?" She asked with tears at the brim of her eyes.

My heart broke when I heard he ask that. I collapsed in front of her. "No honey no," I say crying. "It's not you and your brother's fault baby. Don't blame yourself. Please don't," I say crying into her shoulder while hugging her as I do the same.

"Mom!" I heard Chris yell as he came into the room. He automatically  came and hugged me as I just completely broke down. "I'm sorry babies, I'm sorry I let you down. I tried so hard. I did everything I could. I just want you to be happy and have a good life." I sobbed harder." I love you both so much." I said crying.

Chris lifted my head with his tiny hands and wiped my tears "Don't cry Mom, we're happy right Genny?"

Genevieve nodded. "You're the best mommy ever!!" Genevieve said.

I smiled as a few more tears fell and hugged them. "I love you babies," I say and they hug me back. "Hey, how about we go to the park and after that we get ice-cream?" I say smiling.

They both get excited and run out the door. I stayed sitting in the middle of the floor on my knees. I prayed.

"Dear God, if you can't send him to me...then please just help me and my children. Please." I whisper before getting up.

I took the to the park as promised and watch them play. They are my little beacons of light in my life. I probably would have completely lost myself had it not been for them and Sam.

It wasn't too long before we went home. When I arrive I see the Impala meaning Sam's back. I run inside.

"Sam?!" I call out.

When I look around I spot Dean coming out of the direction of our room.

"Dean?" I questioned. I run up and hug him.  He hesitantly hugged back. I sensed something was off about him.
But when I pulled away he kissed me but...It wasn't an 'I miss you' kiss it just felt empty  and lustful... I pull away.

"Dean...the kids..." I say and on cue they came into the bunker. He smiled and crouched to hug the kids. Genevieve ran into his arms without hesitation (she was always a daddy's girl) but Chris stood mad.

"C'mere kiddo give me a hug!" Dean said.

"You made mommy cry," Chris said sternly.

"I know uncle Sam told me and I'm sorry that I missed Gen' s birthday the trip ran longer than I thought. I will make it up to them I promise." He said. Chris gave in and hugged his dad. But I felt like something was off and my gut was right.

Later that night after I put the kids to bed and Dean pinned me against the mattress. He attacked my neck.

"Dean! Stop!" I yelled.

He paused to look at me as if i was in the wrong!

"What?" He questioned.

"You come in here after disappearing without even calling only leaving a note. Saying that you're gone and not coming back! And expect me to just let you fuck me?!" I yell.

He sighed. "I'm sorry." He said simply caressing my curves.

"What happened to you Dean? Where'd you go? Why'd you leave?" I asked sternly.

Dean sighed and then started laughing. "Dammit sweetheart...you had to go and ruin my fun with you." He said looking at me with....black eyes.

I began to hyperventilate. I was gonna scream when he covered my mouth
I hit him and Sam rushed  into the room with a gun.

"What happened?!" He yelled.

I ran out of Dean's arms and got behind Sam.

"H-he's a demon Sam!" I yell.

"About that..." Dean started.

"When he got the Mark of Kane....demon powers came with it." Sam said.

"What?!" I scream.

After letting that information settle in. I decided to sleep in the kids room with a gun under my pillow.

The next day...

I wake up to someone calling me. I look over to see Genevieve looking over me.

"Mommy,Why are you sleeping on the floor?" She asked holding her teddy bear tightly to her chest.

"I-um wanted to have a sleep over with you guys. But forgot to tell you." I lie.

"Sleep over? That sounds fun!!"

"Yea, I promise tonight we'll do more. We can watch movies and all that good stuff."

"Pinky swear?" She asked holding out her little pinky. I giggled and locked pinkies with her.

"Pinky swear." I say.

There was a knock on the door and in came Dean with a smile on his face. I still couldn't wrap my round him being demon at all. He smiled like Dean and looked like him. But hr acted different. But the kids they were so blind they just saw their father as they ran up to him and hugged him tightly.
"Dean" let out a chuckle as he hugged the kids. I was almost fooled that he was the same.

"There you are cutey what were you doing in here?" he asked wrapping his arm around my waist to help me up.
I pushed away remembering that's not the Dean Winchester I married.

"Mommy wants to have a sleep over!" Genevieve said happily.

'Dean' looked at me with a smile.  But I felt his eyes scolding me. "Really?" He asked.

"Yea daddy! You should join us!!" Chris said.

"I will! But kids.." He started while looking at me."...go and ask Uncle Sam to take you to go pick out some movies for the sleepover." He says giving them a card then crouching down on their level."Get some good snacks too and lots of popcorn," He whispered and the kids got giddy with excitement as they ran out of the room. Leaving me alone with him. I felt so uneasy and unsure. I didn't know if I should run or grab my gun or let it be. But I froze when he looked at me. God his eyes when I looked in his eyes I seen Dean.

"Are you afraid of me?" He asked. He sounded hurt. I know that voice well. When Dean would have a nightmare he would always be on the verge of tears. Because he thought his nightmares were real. He would hug me so tight with his head in the crook of my neck as he told me about his nightmares.

I had to look away."You are," He confirmed sounding hurt. He came toward me slowly and got down on his knees in front of me he looked up at me with puppy eyes. They made me weak.  He took my hands and placed them on his cheeks as he looked at me.

"You feel that? I'm still warm. I'm still alive.." He said as he brushed my hand against his cheek. I closed my eyes and remembered all the times I've ever caressed his stubbly cheek and it felt no difference and I felt weaker because I missed him so much and I was scared when he was gone he left for good.

He then stood up without his eyes leaving mine. He kissed both of my hands and them placed them on his chest. I felt his heartbeat and damn it. I lost it. A tear slipped.
"My heart still beats and it still beats for you," He said. "I'm still me sweetheart," He said smirking. "The only difference is I'm a better version of me. Think now I can protect you and the kids better with these powers. I'm stronger but in still me." He said smirking as his hands moved to my waist.  "Now I want you to go put my gun back under my pillow." He said and it startled me. "Because that doesn't do much against me anyway," He said smiling.

I nodded and got the gun and put it back under Deans pillow. Though I will still shaken how he knew. Once I came back into the kids room he looked at me with that same cocky smirk from before.
"Come here," He said.

I hesitantly came over to him. "You love me don't you?" He asked a bit maliciously.

"Of course I do," I answered.

He forced his lips on mine in a hungry kiss as he pulled me in as close groaned. "I'm all yours...and you're all mine." He said.before latching his lips onto mine. I tried to push away. When I finally did I quickly came up with an excuse.

"Dean the kids could be back any minute!" I said quickly.

He chuckled. "You're right, maybe next time." He whispered before very roughly slapping my backside.

Before the day was over Dean said he wanted to take me on a little trip to the park with a small "pit stop" he said he had to make. But it involved the blade they had cursed him in the first place. I We stopped in front of a house. A big nice one at that.

"Dean...I don't know what you're doing. I just know that whatever it is. You're doing it begins Sam's back meaning it's no good."

"Sweetheart it's just a little business I need to take care of. I don't need to tell Sam everything (Y/n). Now I'm going to this and we can go have fun," He said smirking then winking before betting out if the car with the blade.
Dean's POV:
I got another call from Crowley to collect a soul. But it was a trap. A while bunch of demons were coming at me and I used my power and blade to take every last one of them down. Then suddenly I had gotten and urge to keep stabbing my last kill. An uncontrollable blood lust was being fed as I continued and didn't stop. Until i heard a familiar scream. I looked up amd saw (Y/n) looking at me with an emotion i thought I'd never have to see in her eyes. Fear.

"Dean please give me a good reason why you didn't stop. He's passed dead!" She yelled.

I tried to explain but I couldn't open up my mouth. "I'm still me," is all I could say.

She ran and everything in me was screaming to run after her,comfort her, but my body was disobeying. I had no control.

After she calmed down we went back home and she slept in the kids room again.

I'm sorry (Y/n)..this isn't me. I'm fighting for you. I am.

Your POV:

The next day..

After Dean went out for a beer. Sam told me what happened before they got back to the bunker and he had a plan to get Dean back but he needed help. We were gonna put the plan in motion   soon after Sam and Dean got done with an up coming hunt.

Soon they came through the door and I was nervous.
Dean was covered in blood and arguing with Sam.

"You stay away from my wife Sam...." He warned.

"(Y/n) is like my sister!"

"But while I was gone I bet you were planning to replace me. Play Daddy for my kid and try to win her for yourself. You've always wanted her. You think I don't notice you when you look at her?"

"What? Dean you had left her without warning. She was scared as hell of being a single mother what was I supposed to do leave her to follow in her pain while you were off partying with Crowley?!"

"Guys stop!" I yell before in notice Dean's attire was covered in blood. That I know for a fact wasn't his.

"Dean!!" I yelled and the kids came out to see their father covered in blood and they screamed.

"What? Never seen a little blood before?" Dean asked the kids.

"Dean stop!" I yelled.

Dean's POV:

"Stop what? Yknow this quite irritating. I learned about monsters when I was their age.  You're so wrapped up into giving them the perfect lives and keeping them away from the truth. Even though they'll end up finding out anyways. Hey kids wanna know why Daddy's been acting funny?" I asked in a joyful voice.

No please don't they're not ready to know. They are too young!

"Dean no,please stop!" She cried.

I was trying get a hold of myself harder than before no thing was working.

"They have to learn sooner or later (y/n). Come closer kids." I said and the kids took small steps towards me. "Daddy and Uncle hunt monsters. The funny thing is.." My eyes flicker black and he smirks. "I am one."

They backed up.
"Dad please stop you're scarying me!" Genevieve cried hugging Chris. It hurt me to see them scared of me. I tried so hard to make it stop but I wasn't in co trol. I couldn't stop the dark energy that was pulling my strings.

"You should be scared of me," I said before I suddenly started roaring.

Your POV:

The kids run off behind me.

"Dean you promised!" I yelled.

"It was a family secret the was bound to come out soon. Ahh speaking of secrets.  So you and Sammy tryna get rid of my powers?"

My eyes went wide and I backed up.

He smiled. "What's wrong honey? The new and improved Dean new for you? Too raw?"

"No, You're not Dean."

"Oh I am Dean!"

"Sam!"I yelled as I ran to him.

Sam came at Dean with an axe that plan completely backfired.

Dean got a hold of the axe. Dean got a hold of me and I screamed.

"Please don't hurt them Dean!!" I cried.

He chuckled.  "I wouldn't hurt them or you. You're too sexy to lose," He shoved me in the room with the kids. "When I get finished with uncle Sammy we can all have a family discussion." He says before slamming the door. A few minutes later all the lights went out and the emergency lights went on.

I have to do something.

I hugged the kids and gave them a kiss before I grab the gun under my pillow and and a syringe full of holy water. I kiss them again.

"Mommy has to go help uncle Sam," I say with tears running down my face.

"Mommy no!" Genevieve cried.

"I have to genny," I say. "Chris protect your sister ok?" I say. He nods. I smile as tears go down my face. "If mommy doesn't come back in 10 minutes you run outside and go pray to castiel ok chris?" I say.  I went out in the hall and looked at the kids one last time before I leave. Knowing it might be the last time I see them. I go down the hall listening for Dean's footsteps.

"Oh Sammy!!" Dean called along with a sound of the axe chopping into wood. I looked to see him chopping into a door. I guessed Sammy was in that room.

"Dean!" I yelled to get his attention. It worked he turned to me. "Didn't I say wait in the room with the kids?" He questioned.

I fired a shot at him purposely missing.

"Oh so you want to play naughty? Fine be me he said coming at me."

I ran. "Listen to me baby! You can fight this! " I yell as I run and hide.

"Fight why? I feel fantastic!" He yelled.

"Because you scare the kids and you scare me..."

"Change is scary sweetheart I get that but you'll get used to it. I promise." He yells. We play this in this game of cat and mouse for a while until he finally catches me and slams me against the walls using his powers my vision went black and suddenly everything became a blur and I heard voices before I completely passed out only to be awakened by Sam.

"Thank goodness." Sam said. "Are you okay?"

"Dean." I muttered as I feel the back of my head. There was a bump and I had a headache.

"Cad got here on time and knocked him out with his angel magic."

"The kids?"

"Shaken but safe."

Castiel came over to me and touched my forehead and I suddenly felt ok.

I shot up and looked around. "Where's dean?!" I asked.

Sam lead me to him. When he seen me...he roared like a lion. It scared me and hurt me to see him that way. Even if he put me through hell recently. I still loved him. I cried as I watched him struggle against his restraints and roar at me like a foul beast. Sam hugged me.

Soon Sam had managed to almost completely rid Dean of the demon that possessed him.

"(Y/n)?" Dean said once he woke up. Before I could run to him Sam splashed him with holy water. He didn't react to it. Other than spit it out. I ran to him and undid his restraints. He hugged me tightly. So tightly he was shaking. He started sniffling.
"I'm so sorry for what I  put you through. I tried to stop it but I wasn't in control. I tried so hard to pull through. I was trapped in my own body watching you hurt. I was hurting you and mg own kids and I felt so weak watching it all happen knowing there was nothing I could do to stop,"

I cried with him because that's when I knew he was back. I had my husband back and I was so relieved.

We are all agreed that after this Fiasco a break from hunting was well deserved. Plus it would take sometime for the kids to trust dean again. After a while all was fine and Dean was mostly OK to go hunting.