A/n: FYI you are both 18 in this imagine continue on 😊

Your Pov:

"Wh-what?"  I questioned as my heart began to ache.

"I'm sorry but things just aren't working out between us (Y/n)...I-I'm sorry but I'm breaking up with you." Chandler said sadly.

I sat still for a second absorbing the heart-breaking news.

"It's ok....have a nice life." I said smiling though on the inside I knew there was a tsunami waiting to hit I just never knew when.

I kissed his forehead one last time before I turned away and walked away with my head down and my heart aching.  I got in my car and turned the music up I didn't want to think about it. Some part of me was waiting for him to call me and say it was a prank. But he never did. I realized that he never would the minute I arrived at home.I refused to cry in front of my mom down-right refused the last thing I want to do is talk about it or hear those stupid words I know that'll eventually come out of her mouth:

'It was his loss'

'You'll find better'

It didn't feel like his loss it seemed more like mine....
He was the best thing I ever had.
How can you find better once you believe you've stumbled upon perfection?
I ran upstairs to my room and laid on my bed. I was waiting for the tears..but I couldn't cry because my heart felt so numb. Hit so suddenly with so much pain my body didn't know how to react suddenly I started laughing. I now realized I was laughing to keep myself from crying.
I texted my best friend Lexi to let her know that Chandler and I were no longer together before turning off the phone I just wanted to be alone.

I shot up from the reoccurring dream with tears coming down my face. I didn't scream though my heart was crying out in pain begging for the never ending ache to end. This has been going on for two months now.

I lay back down letting the tears silently fall from my face as a quietly whimper. Not wanting anyone to hear me cry.  I looked at the side where he used to lay his head down and rest with me when he spent the night. Only to see him smiling back at me. But I knew he wasn't really there it's my brain playing tricks on me again. I lazily flopped my hand on the pillow to swipe the mirage away and when I blinked my bloodshot eyes he was gone which brought my heart even more pain.

Why do I still have a small hope that it was real this time?

I continued to cry and question myself.

Why do I feel him near when he's far away?

Why can't I let go?

Why do I see him when he's not there?

I got up and got in my car and drove. I didn't know where I was going till I got there. I ended up near a forest and subconsciously walked. My legs leading me to...

Our old treehouse...

I went inside though I knew it was bad for my health. When I got in I seen him again.

"(Y/n)?"

I blinked and he was gone.

Before I knew it I had fell to my knees and looked around me remembering everything.

I felt it all coming at once. The tsunami I was waiting for all this time....

I screamed at the top of my lungs as I cried. Not caring who could have heard.  I clutched my chest which held my aching heart.

"I gave you everything! My time! My attention! My trust! My...my heart....You swore that nothing would take us apart. Something did but dammit I wish you could tell me what! Tell me where we went wrong! So I can move on..." 

I continued to cry till I was weak.

"(Y/n)?" A familiar voice said.

I turned around to see Lexi holding a gun by her side.

"L-Lexi?" I questioned weakly before my vision went blurry and everything went black.

I woke up on a soft surface and when I opened my eyes I was looking at a fireplace.

"Thank goodness you're up, I was debating on waking you or letting you sleep and just have your mom pick you up. Anyways was that you screaming?"

I looked away.

"Can I just say you scared the living hell out of my parents and I."

"Why did you have your gun out?"

"I thought somebody was being hurt physically. But you were just hurting emotionally."

"I don-"

"I know you don't want to talk about it. But at some point you must because this break-up is getting to you! Look at you honey. You've gone pale and you don't look like you've slept in weeks!" She said.

"You know how much he meant to me.."

"Yes and I'm not expecting you to heal as fast but not talking about it is making it worse for you."

"How'd  you find me anyways?"

"You seem to be forgetting that you built you treehouse on my side of town. " She giggled

"We all used to be such great friends in the childhood days till' he went of to become Mr. Carl Grimes." Lexi sighed.
She then looked at me. "What things hurt the most?" She asked.

"The fact that I'll never know why we broke up. That...He already moved on. The things he'll never hear from me The words I wish I had said."
There was a long silent pause before Lexi got up and ran to hold me as I started to cry.

It wasn't before that I went home and laid down again.

I was tired not only physically...But mentally and emotionally. I'm tired of crying myself to sleep. Tired of loosing my sanity in the what ifs. I'm burned out from this.

It's time to let it go...
You left me all alone I...
Wanna feel your heartbeat but it doesn't beat for me no more... No...
It's time to let it go you...left me all alone!
It's holding me down It's burning me out!
I'm begging for sound but I can't bring you back now!

That's when I promised from here on out. I will be moving on...

Four months later...

I ended up back at the tree house. For a final goodbye. My official moving on. I went up the latter and when I got there I seen Chandler.

"(Y/n)?"
I looked away. "No...you're not real..." I say blinking.

Blink and he'll be gone...

"are you okay?" Chandler asked with concern.

"Why isn't it going away?" I question.

"Why isn't what going away? (Y/n) you don't look too good."

I backed up once I realized I wasn't imagining things. "No.." I whispered.

"What?" Suddenly his eyes widened and he was running towards me. "Watch out!" I was about to fall off the ledge when he caught me and I hated him for it. When his skin touched mine it ignited me again but it hurt. "Jesus (Y/n) you should watch where you're going!"

I pushed him away from me. "Why are you here?" I asked

"A thank you before going off on me would be nice." He said sarcadtically

"Just answer my question."

"....I.....I missed you and I've been coming back here when I felt bad."

"What about your girlfriend? The girl that played enid on the show."

"C'mon (Y/n) you and I both know that. She and wouldn't last long she doesn't compare to you..."

I looked away.

"(Y/n) I'm sorry for breaking up with you...I've done a lot of thinking...I wasn't to be with you again...will you be my girlfriend again?"

I looked up at him. "W-what?" I asked.

"I wanna be together again."

I looked down at my feet after all these tears he came back to me....

I knew I SHOULD jump at the oppurtunity to be with him again...

But I won't...........

This is not a movie where the guy realizes his mistake and runs back to the girl and gets her back......

This is reality where sometimes if you allow a person to they can break you not once but twice......

That is.....

Only if you allow them to.....

I'm not gonna play Russian roulette with my heart and allow him another chance to hurt me....

"Chandler....I would love to...."

He smiled and he was going to hug me but I placed my hand on his chest.

"But I can't...when you broke up with me....It hurt like hell...I screamed....I cried.....when you left it was like I was dying over and over. But you....you moved on like it was nothing....If you really loved me it wouldn't have been that easy...I realize you say you want a serious relationship just to get the girl...you aren't ready for that yet. We both aren't we're still kids...we need to explore our options. You're not ready to be held down...So for now I'm sorry but no...I can't take that chance with my heart on the line....who knows maybe somewhere down the like a couple of years if you really do love me we'll meet up and give it a go one last time but for now...Good-bye."  I gave him a passionate last kiss that was bittersweet. I smiled at him.
"Good-bye Chandler...I wish you well with life...."

I smiled at him and went down the ladder. I got in my car and smiled on the way home.

A/n: This is somewhat like the situation I went through with my ex. 2017:

I got my heart broke by two guys both who said they loved me unconunconditionally showed me otherwise and even when they did I told them I wished them well with the girls they had left me for.....
I broke down I gave up and gave in.
I lost hope and lost motivation for happiness...

2018:
I will regain motivation...
Restore my hope...
Get back up and keep moving.

This year not only do I promise to do my best to deliver you guys new stories but I also promise to do everything in my power to choose my happiness.