A/N: The song is loop for an hour so p-p-p-play that shit!😊😉

(Pre-Apocalypse)
Your Pov:
I let one single tear slip from my eye. One tear that held so much pain as I stared into absolute darkness. But in the darkness my mind began to replay every single moment that lead me back here. In his bed again. When I promised myself I wouldn't let him get to me. I curse my hypocritical heart for leading me here with his protective arms wrapped around my naked torso and his face buried in the crook of my neck as he lets out soft snores.
I silently cry as my heart ached in despair. Before I knew it I had fallen asleep only to reminisce on a time where I knew he loved me.

Shane and I pulled up in front of my apartment. We are returning from another wonderful date. We have been dating for 5 months.
He opened the car door for me. I smiled and gave him a kiss on the cheek in gratitude for his constant chivalrous acts.

"Thank you officer." I said jokingly.

He flashed me with his award winning smile. "Anything for a fine lady such as yourself."

I giggled at him as he walked me upstairs to my apartment.  As soon as we arrived in front of the door of my complex we stood there for a while after I unlocked the door.

"I'm guessing this is where I kiss you goodnight and leave blushing like a teenager-"

We both laughed as he cupped my cheeks and kissed me passionately.
I continued giggling as he opened the door and lead us inside before slamming the door with his foot and throwing me over his shoulder and I squeal as he carries me to my bedroom. After our fun we laid still just enjoying each other. He caressed my back as he held me. I always felt so safe in his arms and we both knew that.

"I love you."  He said as he let his other hand lazily comb through my locks.

I giggled weakly and kissed his pec. "I love you too."

I woke up gasping as my heart ached again. I looked around to see that it was morning. I knew most likely Shane had gone off to work. Leaving no room for the awkward 'about last night' talk. I considered myself somewhat lucky for that. I don't know how I would face him after what we did. He tore my clothes to shreds as he always did. Leaving me no option but to go through his drawers and put on one of his old Grey t-shirts and some of his boxers. I walk out of his room in absolute shame as I pick up each one of my shoes which were strewn about the living room floor. My mind couldn't help but wonder to last night playing in my head. I could still feel his presence. I could still feel his lips on mine. His hands on my waist, My hips....everywhere.

"Dammit!!" I knocked the framed picture of Shane and I on the kitchen table off and I heard the glass shatter like my heart the night I walked in on him sleeping with his best friend's wife. He always put the picture on the kitchen table for me to see as I walk out the door from waking up from our escapades.
He does it as a sick mind game.
This had sadly become routine for us.
No matter how many I tell myself it's over I always end up in his bed again. Sometimes it takes two days sometimes it takes 5 but in the end. He always wins I end up in his arms again and again.

The idea of how many times I let him win floods my mind and I can't help but let out a scream as I collapse to the floor crying in defeat.

Why do I do this to myself?

I let out a patronizing laugh that was dripping with pure dread as I rose to my feet only to see the blood on my knees. I hadn't realized I sat on a shard of glass till now.
"Who am I kidding?" I said as continued to laugh at myself." I'm so weak!" I said as I continued to cry. I sat on the floor just crying it wasn't too long before picked myself up and walked out of the door.

I got in my car and drove home with voices mocking me endlessly. I hated how loud the silence was so I turned on the radio only to find that every song that played also mocked me in someway.

So loud silence it is....

I thought to myself as I turned the radio off again. Soon I arrived home and for the for the first time I look at my phone.

New messages from:
InShane(5)
Lexi(6)

I just didn't have it in me to talk to him so I just ignored him...

...for now....

I went on to Levi's text:

I called her immediately.
"Hello?Hello?"  she answered.

I let out a small laugh. "Hey Lexi. "

"(Y/n)! Girl thank goodness you called you had us worried I almost called the police!"

"I'm sorry..."

"No worries girl hey I know you're still dealing with the break up so I figured you just wanted to be left alone. How about you get dressed and meet me at the mall."

"I would love that."

"Great see you soon!"

I hung up and I just put my phone on the charger for a bit before I head back out. I grab my shades and my hoodie and put them on so I don't get recognized.
I mindlessly drove to the mall and sat at a table in the food court.
Soon Lexi came as always with a bright smile on her face until her eyes landed on me and worry busted in her brown eyes. She seemed to calm down though. She sat down at the table and looked at me.

"You went back to him again didn't you?" she asked not in a judgemental tone but a tone of understanding.

I nodded avoiding eye contact with her.

She got on her phone and her thumbs  twiddled on her phone before she got up.
"C'mon hon." she said.

And I got up. She wrapped her arms around me.

"My god honey bee look at your knees. Let's get you home and cleaned up." she told me as she lead me to her black jeep wrangler. She opened the passenger door for me and I crawled inside. She closed the door and got in on the driver side and took off. I looked out the window and watched the many cars and building whiz by like the speed of light.

Soon we arrived at my apartment building. She walked with me up the steps.
She opened my door with a spare key I gave her only my most trusted friends and family have a spare key to my apartment.  She sat me down on the couch and ran to my bathroom then quickly returned with carbon peroxide, Cotton balls and two bandages.

She got on her knees in front of me.
"You know the drill sis this is gonna sting." she said as she dapped the peroxide covered cotton ball on my wounds I hissed once. But she continued.
She got up once she was done.
"C'mon go get showered up and I'll put a bandage on it when you get out."

I nodded and went to my room and got some new clothes. I went to the bathroom and took a shower.

Levi's Pov:

I texted the girls earlier they should be here soon.

Soon there was a knock on the door. I looked through the peep hole to see it was Elise, Elaine and BrieIle sighed in relief glad it wasn't Shane that bastard would have had a hard time with me. I opened the door and let the girls in.

"She gave into him again?" Elaine asked.

"Yea, she just needs someone to hold her and help her through this. She just won't say it."
"Where is she?" Elise asked

"Taking a shower she's just completely broken right now." I tell them.

"She'll bounce back from this she always does." Elaine says.

"Yea this one is just tougher than before." Elise says.

"C'mon let's go." we all go to her room and wait for her know she'll just want to lay in somebody's lap and cry.

Brielle grabbed her keys and went to pick her car up from the mall.

Your pov:

I got out of my bathroom to see Elise, Elaine and Lexi sitting on my bed.
Elaine opened her arms. I automatically just let myself fall into her embrace and I cried. Elaine caressed my hair. As Lexi rubbed my back.

They knew the last thing I wanted to hear was "it's gonna be okay." or "you deserve better" so they just stayed quiet and comforted me.
Soon I stopped crying and soon just sat in silence as they continued to comfort me. This silence was better. I could finally think straighter than before.

"I just keep t-trying s-so hard to let him go. But everytime I think *sniffle* even for a s-secon-d that I'm making progress, that I'm doing better that I'm finally getting over him! He calls me or he shows up at my apartment and it fucks me up everytime! I tried writing a song it always ends with ne tearing the paper to shreds and crying again!" I say letting more tears fall. "I can't eat, can't sleep. I'm loosing my fuckin sanity!"

Brielle came in the door with my keys.
"I knew you probably didn't eat so on the way back I bought you a muffin." She said giving me a bag.
I gave her a weak smile.
"Thank you."

Elise wiped my tears with a wet paper towel.

"It may not look like it honey but you will come back from him eventually. Maybe not today maybe not tomorrow but soon it may take weeks may even take a couple of months and god forbid if it takes a year but healing takes time and you can't rush heartache. Understand we will be here with you every step of the way." Lexi told me.

"How am I supposed to come back from the guy who knew what to say? What to do? He seemed so perfect!"

Lexi got up off the bed and pulled me into the bathroom the girls followed. She turned on the lights.

"Now look in the mirror and tell me what you see." she told me.

I looked in the steam covered mirror.
"A hot mess." I said.

"No that's only the surface." she joked and I laughed. "But I see one of the baddest bitches of all king's county.Do you remember what Shane first told you when he met you? He told you what he liked about you and what did he like about you?" Lexi asked

"He told me he liked my confidence. How I was hard to get. How independent and strong I was."

"And that girl is still there she's just facing yet another challenge that she will come back stronger from." Elise said.

"So this week we will be staying with you." Brielle said.

"At the end of this week we will be flying back to LA." Lexi said.

"First stop the club!" Elaine said.

We all laughed.

"Then we are gonna go to your mansion and have a whole day of relaxation to get you song-writing juices flowing.." Brielle said.

"And you will write a hit song." Lexi finished with a smile.

"But Shane will call me and I'll end up in his bed again.." I said as I draw a heart on the steaming mirror.

Lexi erased the heart. "That's what we're here for baby girl. All this week we will keep you from contacting him and vice versa." She said smiling.

"C'mon eat a muffin and watch Magic Mike with us." Elise said winking playfully.

Soon night rolled around and My phone went off. I picked it up and read the caller ID:
InShane

Elaine read it too and took my phone away from me.

"What if something wrong I'm still his friend he has to have someone there for him his best friend is in a coma!" I said.

"You and I both know the only reason he's calling is because he's drunk and alone." Elaine said pressing reject. Making me groan as a pang of guilt hit me as what ifs began to whirl my mind.

Soon there was a knock on the door.

Elise got up and looked through the peep hole.

"It's him." she mouthed.

Lexi, Elaine and Brielle rushed me into my room. Elise joined us as Lexi ran to answer the door.

Levi's Pov:
I opened the door to see Shane indeed drunk.

"What do you want bastard?" I asked in a monotone voice.

"Where's (Y/n)?" He slurred avoiding my insult.

"She took the quickest flight to LA to get the hell away from you asshole.I'm house sitting she'll be back in a month or two." I said rolling my eyes.

He looked at me in complete drunken disbelief.
"No....sh-she's here! She's in here! Let me see her!" He yelled and started trying to push past me.

"You wanna check officer be my guest. But as of tomorrow morning. I'll be going up to the office to file charges against you for harassment!" He growled at me and spit on my converse.
"How charming." I say smiling sarcastically as I watched him leave. I kept eye contact with him until he was no longer in sight. I slammed the door.

"Dammit!" I said angrily.

The girls rushed in.
"What?" Elaine asked.

"I'm pissed off Will just brought me these Shane the drunken dickwad just got his fuckin saliva on them!!"

"Sorry." (Y/n) said with her head hanging low.

"No honey don't be. It's his fault he lost you in the first place and karma and biting him in the ass and he's taking it out on the world."

The had gone by with me trying to answer the phone many times and trying to sneak away to get to him many times. But the girls kept me in check next thing I knew I was on a flight to LA.
We soon arrived at my mansion and for the first time in forever. I slept soundly a had a dream about Shane and I again. But this when I woke up I only shed one tear. But I smiled because something told me...that was gonna be the last tear I shed over him. I grabbed my pen and sing book and began writing:

Talkin' in my sleep at night
Makin' myself crazy
(Out of my mind, out of my mind.)
Wrote it down and read it out
Hopin' it would save me
(Too many times, too many times)
But oh, he makes me feel like nobody else, nobody else.
My love, he doesn't love me so I tell myself, I tell myself.

I had to remember what Lexi would tell me.

"-Don't pick up the phone you know he's only calling 'cause he's drunk and alone."
~
"Don't let him in you'll have to kick him out again."
~
"You can't be his friend because you know you'll be in his bed the next morning."
~

"Honey if you're under him you're never get over him."

I smiled as I began making the chorus.

One, don't pick up the phone
You know he's only calling 'cause he's drunk and alone
Two, don't let him in
You'll have to kick him out again
Three, don't be his friend
You know you're gonna wake up in his bed in the morning
And if you're under him, you ain't getting over him

I got new rules, I count 'em
I got new rules, I count 'em
I gotta tell them to myself
I got new rules, I count 'em
I gotta tell them to myself

I had to reminisce back to the times where I let him win.

I keep pushin' forwards, but he keeps pullin' me backwards
(Nowhere to turn) no way
(Nowhere to turn) no
Now I'm standing back from it, I finally see the pattern
(I never learn, I never learn)
But my love, he doesn't love me, so I tell myself
I tell myself
I do, I do, I do

One, don't pick up the phone
You know he's only calling 'cause he's drunk and alone
Two, don't let him in
You'll have to kick him out again
Three, don't be his friend
You know you're gonna wake up in his bed in the morning
And if you're under him, you ain't getting over him

The next verse came easily to me...

I got new rules, I count 'em
I got new rules, I count 'em
I gotta tell them to myself
I got new rules, I count 'em
I gotta tell them to myself

Practice makes perfect
I'm still tryna' learn it by heart
(I got new rules, I count 'em)
Eat, sleep, and breathe it
Rehearse and repeat it, 'cause I
(I got new, I got new, I...)

One, don't pick up the phone
You know he's only calling 'cause he's drunk and alone
Two, don't let him in
You'll have to kick him out again
Three, don't be his friend
You know you're gonna wake up in his bed in the morning
And if you're under him, you ain't getting over him

I got new rules, I count 'em
I got new rules, I count 'em
(Oh, whoa-oh)
I gotta tell them to myself
I got new rules, I count 'em
(Baby, you know I count 'em)
I gotta tell them to myself

Don't let him in, don't let him in
Don't, don't, don't, don't
Don't be his friend, don't be his friend
Don't, don't, don't, don't
Don't let him in, don't let him in
Don't, don't, don't, don't
Don't be his friend, don't be his friend
Don't, don't, don't, don't
You gettin' over him

After nonstop writing I finally put the pen and book down and fell asleep.

The next morning I was in the studio with Lexi and Elaine for background vocals.

Somehow writing was easier than actually singing it.

After a verse or two I'd break down luckily Lexi and Elaine would help me through it.

"Can we go over the last verse?" My producer asked.

"Practice make perfect?" I asked.

"Yep that one." they clarified.

"Are you okay?" Elaine asked me.

I nodded and wiped my eyes.

After a full week of recording the song it was finally released.
As Lexi predicted it was a hit.

Two weeks later I was in full again doing concerts. Though I refused to do interview for a while. Knowing that one of the questions would be about the song.

Eventually the day came around where I could no longer refuse interviews.

My agent scheduled me a interview with people's magazine.

I got all dressed up that night and went for the interview. Everything was smooth sailing up until that unwanted question popped up...

"So what's the inspiration behind the song?"

I laughed at how I knew I couldn't this question.
"The song is about a girl who couldn't stop herself from loving a man who obviously didn't love her back. So eventually her amazing friends stepped and helped her get over him. This girl happens to be me."

"So what was it like to sing the song?"

"When I first wrote it. It came with ease but when I actually started to record it. I couldn't help but remember everything and I broke down. This is one thing that I dislike about my job. It's when you write a song like this.It's emotionally and mentally draining. It was like opening a bullet round that had already been stitched up and pouring salt into it."

"I'm so sorry to hear-"

The interviewer was cut off by a blood curdling scream.

A week had passed and the apocalypse had began. I lost Elaine,Brielle, Elise and Lexi. So I was on my own. That was until I made my way back to Atlanta. Where I met up with...Rick and his little group who were headed back a camp. He had been in  coma all this time I don't know how to tell him his wife was cheating on him with his best friend.
S

o I stayed silent most of the ride.

"So how have you Shane been? He hasn't been given you problems has he?" He asked me jovially.

If only you knew the half of it...

"I-I don't know where Shane is..." I said quietly.

Being that Rick was an officer I knew he could tell something was up with me. I was never really good at hiding things from people. I fidgeted with my hands alot I avoided eye contact with him.

Luckily before he could ask any further questions we arrived at this camp only to find out that Shane and Rick's wife was also there with his son.

Shane ran to me and kissed me and I slapped him.

"Don't touch me, don't kiss me, don't come near me, don't look at me dammit don't you even THINK about me. I told you we were through and I meant it. Nothing changes." I said as I walked off.

Soon the truth had came out and Rick stayed calm he didn't talk to Lori but focused more on Carl. Later that night I had gotten settled in.
"You found out?" I heard a familiar voice asked.
I turned around to see Rick.

"They were screwing around way before you were in a coma... I just...didn't know how to tell you when I was barely processing it myself. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner I wish I ha-"

I was cut off by him kissing me sweetly something I never felt with Shane ever.
"I knew the moment I laid eyes on you. That you weren't with the right person and neither was I." He told me.
Three weeks had passed and even though times were tough one morning we walked through the camp hand in hand...and for the first time I in forever I felt better knowing better was better than shane.
I never thought nothing good would come from this break up.
But finding my true soulmate...

Rick

A/N: *shrugs* expect more maybe...