Your pov:

Sam and I have grown closer over these past few days.
We would go on runs together. Read, go jogging, watch tv and train together.

I was trying to sterilize my tattoo but I was sore from a hunt we just got from.

"Hey, Sam could you help me sterilize my tattoo?"

"Sure." he came over and I had to take off my shirt so he could reach the tattoo I had a tank top underneath luckily. We sat down on my bed and he cleaned off my tattoo.

Sam's pov:

While tending to her tattoo. I couldn't help but take a moment to absorb how beautiful radiant she looked. Her skin felt soft her hair was silky smooth and shiny.
I was snapped out of my trance when (y/n) said something.

"Huh?" I say.

"Are you done back there I kinda wanna get back to watching Dr.Who." she giggled.

I cleared my throat. "Uh yeah, yeah," I said getting up.

Your pov:

Gosh, I'm falling harder and harder every day for this man.
Every we made skin to skin contact my heart would skip a beat.
But seriously me.
An almost 30yr old fangirl.
My whole life revolves around fictional characters.
What are the chances of me having a shot with somebody like Sam?
I mean he's perfect imperfection.
He's tall and so damn hot.
Sweet, gentle, caring, kind, funny, adorable, intelligent.
I mean he's practical boyfriend, husband and father material. He's someone who you'd proudly take to dinner to meet your parents and you know they'd approve.
I'm a simple girl.
With no realistic life goals.
I used to work at a Starbucks three blocks away from my small cheap apartment that I've been living in ever since I graduated high school.
I'm basically a loser compared to him.

I get dressed in my pajamas:

And relax and watched Arrow.
Soon there was a knock on the door.

"Come in," I call.

In came sam.

"Hey," I say smiling.

"Hey, I just came to say goodnight and um thank you for being here we really could use an extra hand with the cases and having you around really helped."

"Uh, no problem," I say smiling.

"Good night."

"Night."  

Sam walked out of the room closing the door slowly and quietly.

"Huh weird." I shrug it off and read until I doze off.

Sam's pov:
I go into my room and fall on my bed feeling like an idiot
Wow, sam good job!
Goodnight was good enough!
You had to say thank you!
Thanks for what?!
She was forced to be here because of God's orders.
Yea thanks.
The things I do when I'm desperate just to hear her voice see her face again.
God, I can't function around her.
She's just so beautiful, quirky, funny, sweet and so smart.
It so cute the way her eyes light up when she's talking about something she's interested in. The way she gets so energetic, giddy, and excited when she's watching an episode of her favorite show or when we're training and she learns a new move.
And when we're training shes always so worried about hurting me even though she couldn't if she tried. Unless she had a weapon.

Flashback:

"Come on just punch my chest."
I tell her.

"No that's mean I don't wanna hurt you!"

"I swear it won't affect me one bit just throw a punch.."

"Ok," she said with uncertainty then she hits my chest

I pretend to groan and be in pain.
She gasped in shock.

"Oh my god sam I'm sorry I told you it wasn't a good idea are you ok?!"

I laughed. "I'm fine I was only kidding."

She punched my chest again except harder.

"Oow!!" she held her hand.

I ran to her side and took her hand and looked for any bruising. "You ok!?"

"Your chest is comprised of bedrock and stone under skin!"

I chuckle. "You're fine though right it doesn't hurt or anything?"

"No, I'm fine."

"Next time don't punch with your thumb over your other fingers that'll cause you to get sprained or worst broken"

"That would have been good to know before I punched your brick chest. You're like freaking iron man!"

I chuckled and we continued training.

She's so adorable when she's in training.
Even when whines and complains.
She such a geek a very attractive geek and I'm falling for her.
So hard.
When I'm around her my heart beats faster. I get a little jittery.
Shes just so amazing.

I fall fast asleep thinking about her.

5 hrs later.....

Your pov:

Just the two of us hidden away from the world cuddling on an oversized blanket staring at the stars.

"Did you know that your name means 'his name is god' in Hebrew?" I said randomly.

"Actually no. Thank for the random fact, you nerd." Sam joked

"Your welcome."

"Did you know that your name means beautiful in all languages." Sam said.

"No, I didn't." I said.

"Well, now you know," Sam said leaning in to kiss me I put a finger to his lips.

"I didn't know that because you made that up. My name means. (What your name means in what language)."

"Ok it took me two minutes to think of that can you at least give me flirt points for trying?"

I giggled and Sam kissed me.

We laid there together. When Sam started calling me.

"(Y/n) wake up!!!!!" he yelled.

I looked at him with confusion.

"What??"

"(Y/n) please wake up we need to get to the hospital!!"

I opened my eyes to see sam in front of me.

"Whats wrong?" I asked rubbing my eyes

"Mom somethings wrong with her!"

Oh no not now!

I get up and put on my converse and we all get into the Impala and speed down the highway to the hospital.

An hour later...

The doctors let us in her room.

"I'm sorry we don't know whats happening to her all of her systems are slowly shutting down we tried everything we could do. She has 20 minutes before her heart gives out. You may see her."

Sam, dean and I walk inside of her room one by one.
Then came my turn.

I go inside and she gave me a weak smile.

"You would think that they would make my death quick and painless considering all the good I've done down here," she said weakly.

I sat on the bed and took her hand." don't talk like that." I say letting tears fall down my face.

"This isn't any easier for me dear, remember what I made you promise?"

"I will uphold those promises with everything in me."

"Promise me one more thing."

"Yes, anything."

"Tell him how you feel and be happy make him happy."

I try to smile through my tear as I squeeze her hand. "I will."

"Thank you for being the daughter I've never had." she hugged me I hugged her.

"Thank you for being the mom I never had..... I love you, mom."

She kissed my forehead and kept hugging me "I love you too darlin'."

Dean and Sam came in and we all hugged her until she passed away.

We all cried what felt like forever. Then Dean went to the cafeteria to get something to eat.

I stepped outside it was cold.
I just sat in my pajamas in the cold letting out silent cries.

"(Y/n)?" I hear a voice call. I looked in the direction of the voice. It was sam.

"Hey," I said wiping my eyes.

"What are you doing out here all by yourself in those pajamas?"

"I needed to get some fresh air."

He sat beside me.
"Well its cold out. Here." he took off his jacket and draped it over my shoulders.

"What about you?" I asked.

"I'm pretty warm." 

"I'm sorry about your mom," I say.

"Its fine." he was quiet for a while before he pulled me close and nuzzled into my neck and cried silently.

Three days later.....

We had her funeral yesterday.
I had the hardest time letting go.
Today i just sat in my room watching Dr.Who.
Sam came in lately he just comes in when he needs comfort which I'm always glad to give him

"Hey (y/n)."

"Hey moosey, whats wrong?"

"Um.."

"Need cuddles?"

He blushed and nodded.

"Come onn," I tell him opening my arms.

I laid down and he wrapped his arms around my waist and laid his head on my stomach.

"It feels so off knowing she's not in her room or won't be in the kitchen cooking breakfast in the morning while talking about whatever you two talk about."

I giggled. "Stuff and thangs" I joked.

Sam looked up at me with a smile. "Seriously (y/n)"

"Can't be mad at Grimes," I say giggling.

"I just can't bring myself to believe she's gone."

"I cant either," I say letting a tear slip I quickly wipe it away.

"Even though she isn't my real mom she is my mom in a way."

"You should know better than anybody-"

"Family dont end in blood," we say at the same time.

"I know, I'm just saying whats on my mind. I've never had a mother until now."

"I understand."

Tell him

"This is not the best time for this but Sam I need to tell you something."

"Me too."

"You first."

We sat up and stopped cuddling which made me sad.

Sam's pov:
"It's weird to explain. I feel like you've found a safe haven, a happy place...in you," I say

She looked up at me in confusion.

She doesn't feel the same anymore

"Um, what I mean is um thank you for being there for me." I lie.

Your pov:
My heart shattered I thought he was confessing but I gonna do it either way.

"No problem, what I have to say is um I promised mom I would do this.....I have feelings for you..very strong feelings for you...and I know that there's no way in hell, heaven or purgatory tha-"

I was interrupted by a pair of soft lips on mine.

"I thought you stopped crushing on me once you seen how broken I was," he said.

"Broken? Everyone is broken Sam in their own way. Perfection is a lie."

He smiled."quote worthy."

I laughed. "Even if you were broken id spend whatever time it takes to put you back together again."

"Now this is why I'm falling for you."

I smiled and we shared another sweet kiss.

The end