"Tears tears tears
They burn the eye
Especially when they're made from shame
What will you do now?

Her voice rings within your mind
Hateful word after word
Piercing your soul
Your heart aches
You hate her

Then comes the guilt
She clothes you
She feeds you
Hell, she even gives you shelter
Is it okay to cut her off?

You think she changed
But you're wrong
Next day she yells again
This time over a broken cup
She doesn't care if you cut yourself
She just wants her cup back.

Tears tears tears
They sting the eyes again
You feel rage
But mostly disappointment
Not in her, but in yourself
You hate that feeling

Tears tears tears
They're finally free
Why?
Because you're alone
She's moved on from the topic
But you haven't

Her words imprinted in your brain
You sniffle and whimper
Tears tears tears,
They're you're only escape.

Tears tears tears,
They stain your pillow
You feel unloved
You feel ungrateful
You want to leave

Tears tears tears,
She's sick
You kneel and pray for her,
She needs you
You forgive her
She heals

Tears tears tears,
She's back home
You're happy
Your prayers, answered
Then it's back to zero

The toxic cycle restarts
Her words now more hurtful
She goes up a level
She hits you
But you still forgive her

As time goes you start to resent her
You take back your prayers,
Wishing that God smite her
And he does

Tears tears tears,
She's dead
Six feet below the earth
But she's engraved in your mind
Her words still hurt you each time you think of her
You feel guilty

Tears tears tears,
You're grown now
You have your own kids
A vow you made years back,
Now coming to reality
You end the toxic cycle,
You're not like HER
You're YOU

Tears tears tears,
Your children's smiles replace her words
You feel at peace
One last tear trickles down your face
......you're free."

He places the guitar down and sighs, wiping off his tears. It's Saturday morning and Cayden had woken up early. The howling snow storm outside didn't help either.

Sharing a bed with someone for the first time was interesting, they slept holding each other, it was comforting. A smile forms on his face as he thought about the man upstairs sleeping.

"I should make breakfast"

•°• ✾ •°•

Aiden was awoken by a pleasant scent. He stirs in bed and sighs seeing the empty spot next to him. His eyes glance at the clock.

8:33am

"Why is he up so early?" He whispers to himself.

After brushing his teeth, he goes downstairs heading to the kitchen. He finds Cayden serving up.

"Hey" he says. Cayden smiled and gestured to the seat.

"Come eat, I made blueberry pancakes"

Aiden smiled at sat down, he watches Cayden roam around the kitchen.

"How was your first night here?"

"It was okay. Fortunately you don't snore" he says as he sat down. A light chuckle escapes Aiden's mouth.

"Ah, fortunate indeed. So it's snowing today. What should we do instead of our date?"

The storm really blundered their plans but Cayden was not that displeased about it. He shrugs.

"We can stay indoors, watch Netflix"

"Sounds good to me and we'll be alone all day. My mom is preparing dinner for tonight, my brother is coming for a visit"

"You have a brother?"

"Yeah, he's a teenager"

"Oh....I've always wanted a younger sibling, a sister" he says.

Aiden's hand found Cayden's.

"Don't think about that woman....she doesn't deserve the time of day. I can share my brother with you"

Cayden laughed.

"You? Share? I'd like to see that"

"I can share, I've changed"

"Not completely....I'm glad you stayed the same....in some aspects"

Somehow that made Aiden blush.

"Well you haven't changed too, so we're in the same boat"

Cayden didn't respond. Has he not changed? He knows he changed psychically but mentally?

"I guess you're right"

They ate in silence. Cayden's mind buzzing with different scenarios of what could've happened if he did something different.

"Cayden? Are you still with me?"

"Hm? Yeah....why?"

"Well you've been rolling that blueberry for a while....are you okay? You know you can talk to me about anything"

Cayden gave him a warm smile. He sighs.

"I want to do something different, not stay in the house all day"

"We can do that. We can get you a job"

He smiled.

"I'd like that"

Aiden patted their joined hands.

"I got you"

•°• ✾ •°•

"How did a terrible movie like this even make it here? There's even a sequel!"

Cayden giggled and sat down with a bowl of popcorn on his lap.

"You can always change it you know"

"Yeah but it's too late. I'm already invested"

The two were now in the living room watching a movie, a blanket spread over themselves to hide their exposed legs.

"What kind of popcorn is that?" Aiden asks.

"Caramel, you have five packs you know"

"I do? Huh.....I guess i need to check my pantry" he says and grabs a handful. Cayden gasped, pulling the man's hand back.

"I made this, they're mine"

"I bought them so i own them"

"Give it back" Cayden says pulling Aiden's fingers apart. The crumbs fell back into the bowl and he laughed in victory.

"I win! Loser loser!"

Aiden huffed.

"You cheated"

"How?"

"You touched my dick!"

What?!

"No i did not, you faker!"

"Okay okay, you win"

They sat back down and Cayden laughed.

"What are you laughing at now?" Aiden asks, feeling grumpy.

"I still can't believe you're a sore loser"

He huffs and covers Cayden with the blanket.

"And you're a sore winner"

Cayden pulled the mink blanket down laughing. The sparkle in his eyes shimmering like polished diamonds. Aiden couldn't help but stare at them.

After calming down from his laughing fit, Cayden gives Aiden one bite.

"I'll give you only one" he says holding the kernel in his hand. Aiden's mind was quick to come up with an idea.

"Feed me" he says. They locked eyes immediately.

"Feed....you?"

"Yeah"

"Oh....don't bite me though"

"I won't" he replies, opening his mouth. Cayden's fingers slipped into Aiden's mouth, the warmth and wetness made him shudder. He tried to pull away but Aiden held his wrist.

"W-What are you doing?" He asks, avoiding eye contact. Aiden kissed his hand, pulling the man forward.

"Can I have one more bite?" He whispers. Cayden blushed, he grabs another piece and placed it on Aiden's lips.

Cayden felt his mouth go dry, eyes locked on Aiden's lips. The way they moved as he chewed was something else.

"Cayden....kiss me"

He blinks, did he hear right? Did Aiden's lips just say....kiss me?

He squeaked when Aiden suddenly pinned him down on the couch, his warm breath fanning his face. He places the bowl on the floor.

"Aiden..."

"Shhh.....I know" he says leaning forward for a kiss. Their lips touch, the softness was pleasant, their breathing heavy.

Cayden's wrapped his arms around Aiden's neck, deepening the kiss. Their tongues meet halfway, dancing with each other making both men moan in pleasure.

Aiden pulled away, kissing Cayden along his neck going towards his clavicle, sucking and nipping the skin softly.

"Aiden..." he breathes out, the feeling was surreal. He wanted more, he needed more.

The blanket is thrown to the floor, revealing their intertwined legs. Aiden pops the buttons of Cayden's shirt, revealing his pale skin. The faint green veins running along the man's chest were turning him on even more.

"Please....Aiden" he begs. Aiden's touch was like fire, he melted under it. The places Aiden's hands went made Cayden moan and whimper.

Suddenly they flip over, Cayden sitting on Aiden's crotch. Aiden runs his hands up the man's chest and pulls him towards him, giving him another kiss.

"Do you want to cum?" He asked as he felt Cayden's hard on press on his stomach. Cayden blushed and nods.

They change positions again, this time laying side by side. Aiden's hand on Cayden's hard on, stroking him gently, rubbing his thumb over the wet tip.

Cayden held Aiden by the shoulder, head burried in the crook of his neck.

"Just let go baby" he says, going faster. He  could feel the dick in his hands weep with pre cum, Cayden's labored breath giving an indication that he was close to his peak.

He starts to move his hips forward, matching Aiden's rythm. The familiar tightness in his stomach making him moan, he pulled Aiden closer, breath stuck on his throat.

"Cum baby, cum for me" he whispers and gives him a kiss, Cayden pulled away and cried out in pleasure, falling over the climax peak.

"Feeling better?" Aiden asks. Cayden kissed him again and smiled.

"Amazing"