John.

Just,,, john

The boy i may or may not like. The boy with the freckles all over and a laugh that makes me mentally melt into a big puddle of rainbow.

The boy who might have my heart in a tangle of emotions, and all it needs to unwind it is a simple "l like you to" to fix it. But alas i still don't know if this is all one sided, and im just over doing the whole "friendship" thing.

So i sit here on this park bench, a small bouquet of roses in hand. Cliche, i know. I don't know what type of flowers he likes or if he even likes them at all, so roses are the most beautiful and common, so eh. A romantic gesture that everyone does, either leaving them happy, or devastated afterwards.

Im aiming for happy.

So as the sky was turning into a swirl of sunset colors, i sharply inhaled. He should be here any minute..

I initially called him to meet me in the park, and told him it's a surprise. The second thoughts of my seemingly perfect plan was starting to become doubtful.

What was i gonna even say? What if he rejects me or isn't into me that way? Are roses even good for this occasion maybe he's allergic to them i dOn't kNow-

"Hi."

I about jumped out of my skin. But before i could wack someone or something for scaring the living shit out of me, i trailed my eyes upwards.

And then i fell off the bench.

Screaming.

"Woah dude are you ok?-"

hE diDnT evEN waRn mE jUst goNna pOp riGhT oUt oF nOwhErE a sCaRe tHe fuCK oUttA mE-

"JoHn yOur hErE-" i gasped, as if i didnt even invite him.

"Well yeah, you told me to come." He chuckles, and offers me his hand to pull me up.

My face goes red, and i let him pull me up from the grass. The roses now crushed from the fall.

My heart sinks alittle. Maybe this was a mistake..

"Hey, why do you have flowers?"

"Oh.. Um..." I stumble into a blank mind, trying to rack up what to say.

I grip the plastic bag holding the now smooshed petals, as my anixety rises.

Just say it!

"I got them for you.." I mumble so silently.

"What?" He says, apparently not hearing me.

I clenched my eyes shut.

Say it!

"I-i-i got them f-for you!." I say louder, heart pounding with anticipation. Curse the stuttering-

He stares at me. Then the roses.

I stare at the grass with tears threatening to spill over. Is this not right to do? Did i truly fuck this whole friendship thing up?

"Alex.." He speaks up.

I clench my eye's close.

"I love you."

I pop my eye's back open, terrified and taken back by the long response i never thought he'd say.

"You do?"

He smiles nervously, shaking his head slightly.

I shove the flowers into his hands and hug him with the tightest hug i ever done.

"I love you to i didn't think you'd ever say it oh my gOd wait am i going to far sorry for hugging you-"

"Alexander! Its ok! Your just fine." He giggles, as i sheepishly still hug him. I feel my face get hot, as he pulls me away gently.

"Does this mean were a thing?" I ask, trying to ease my anxiety and it's growing questions.

"Yeah, i guess it goes."

I grin with red cheeks, and glossy eyes.

"I like that."

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