"Do you guys have anything to say?" I asked Noah and Jax as they continued giving each other side glanced, I sighed. "I'll continue then..."

"The day that I called you guys and the reason for the whole fight at the treehouse was because I was jealous of Ivy..." I glanced at her then bored my eyes in Jax's blue one. "Because you liked her, Jax and... I liked you..."

Vanessa cracked up, shaking her head. "He already knew that, Lexi. I mean, you were pretty obvious."

My eyes widened, then turned back to guilty-looking Jax. "You knew I liked you." I clenched my fists and stalked towards him, growling. "And you still asked me to fake date you!" I fumed.

"What the f**k?!" Kevin screamed, making me halt. Jax and I stared at each other with wide eyes.

I wasn't supposed to say that!

I let out a nervous laugh and tried to cover it. "What I mean was that-"

"Jax asked Lexi to fake date her to make Ivy jealous." Emily finished.

"Em!" I yelled.

"What?" She gave me her sweet smile. "It's time for the truth." I knew she was helping, but the timing wasn't right.

I roamed my eyes as everyone stared at me and Jax in shock and stopped at Noah. His mouth parted and his eyes darted between Jax and me. I stepped towards him.

"Noah-" I halted when Noah turned his icy gaze on me and his jaw clenched.

"All this time..." he gritted, "..you were fake dating him." I licked my dry lips and opened my mouth, but nothing came out.

"It's not her fault." Jax came in front defending me. "I was the one-"

"F**k you, Jax!" Noah yelled and my eyes widened. This was the first time I heard him curse.

Jax stepped forward and continued. "I was the one who-" Before he could finish, Noah launched at him.

Everything went in slow motion as I watched Noah tackling Jax and he stumbled back to the wooden wall, which was years old, Jax back hit the wall and it broke and they fall on the ground.

"Shit!" I heard someone screaming. I went towards the broken wall and watched Noah and Jax down, groaning.

I turned around and ran with everyone. Reaching down, I saw Noah punching Jax, and I blew a breath when I saw them alive. I was glad that the treehouse was at low height and no one broke anything, but when I saw Jax punching Noah in return; I winced.

"I did what I thought was right at that moment, so I'm sorry for what I did!" Jax grunted getting up.

"Don't..." Noah groaned, standing straight. "Don't you dare."

"That's enough." Ivy stepped in between them. "You should stop this-"

"Don't interfere, Ivy." Noah fumed. "It's between me and him."

"Stop it, Noah, I don't want to fight you," Jax said.

"But I do, a**hole!" Noah punched him again. Jax dodged his attack and punched him in the stomach.

"Jax!" I screamed, getting his attention. "Don't hurt hi-" my sentence was cut off as Noah took the opportunity and punched on his jaw.

"Stop them, Kevin!" I yelled at him as he watched them in amusement.

"No way!" He chuckled. "Let them kill each other."I gasped at him in disbelief and glanced at Darren. "Darren!"

Snapping out of the shook Darren for between the fight. He pulled Noah from Jax, who laid on the ground.

"Let me go! I'm going to kill this bastard today!" Noah tried to wiggle out of Darren's grip and launch at him Jax but I stepped between.

"Enough, Noah!" He paused and watched me with his intense glare. I watched his chest rose and fall with rapid breath as he tried to calm himself down. From the corner of my eye, I saw Ivy and Vanessa helping Jax.

This was the first time in my life I saw him angry, he was always the calm one.

"Enough?" He let out a dry laugh and glared. "Right... I have enough of this." My brows furrowed in confusion as Noah stood straight, dusting his shirt. "Everyone's confessing today, so it's my turn now." He snapped his eyes to mine. "I love you, Lexi."

I took a sharp inhale and stared at him with wide eyes.

He... what?

"I've been in love with you since we were kids." He breathe. "I wasn't sure of my feelings but the day you grabbed Kevin's hand and turned your back on me I realized what it was, and whenever I tried to come for you..." He scoffed. "... You pushed me away."

"Noah..." I took a step forward but he back away, making me freeze in my steps.

"I knew you liked Jax, so I never told you. It hurt when I saw you started talking to Jax after years, but not me. I stood outside your door every day just to see you and wrote you letters hoping you'll answer me..." A tear escaped my eyes as I watched him. "It pained me here-" He pointed at his heart. "When you started dating him, but I tried to be happy because being with him made you happy." He licked his lips and blinked his glossy eyes. "And all that for what? Just so you can have fun with Ivy."

My heart ached at the sight of him. "Noah..." I swallow the lump forming in my throat and bit my quivering lip. "I-I know how it sound-"

"I'm tired." He whispered. "I'm tired of all your drama and games, Lexi..." He looked at me in disapproval. "I'm done with you."

He turned around, and I watched him walking away from me, frozen in my place. Tears streamed down my face as his words rang in my ears. My knees gave in and I slumped on the ground.

"Lexi..." Emily came to my side and hugged me tightly. "It's going to be okay..." She murmured soothing words but I couldn't pay attention.

I'm done with you...

I lost him.

* * * * *

"Are you sure you're going to be ok?" Dad asked as I watched him wearing his tie.

"I'm going to be fine, daddy," I mumbled.

It's been almost a week since Noah left me. I was so devastated that I locked myself in my room and didn't even go to school, and dad got worried. I told him I had a fever plus it was that time of the month, listening to that he stopped bothering me and let me be alone. I switched my phone off and told dad not to let anyone in and being my dad; he did as I asked him.

I cried every night at my stupidity and how ridiculous I had been and had nothing else to do than mourn over the fact that I lost the guy I loved.

"I'm going to come back in a few days," Dad said, kissing my head. "If you need anything, just call me and I'll be here." He looked at me with the same hazel eyes we shared.

"It's just flue daddy." His eyes darted over my face, looking unconvinced.

"But you don't look like-"

"I'm having my girls' problem so you won't understand it." I sniffed, waving my hand, closing the topic. He nodded and grabbed his bag.

I watched him getting in his car and as soon as he was out of sight. I ran into the kitchen and grabbed my strawberry ice-cream then went to the lounge and turned on the speaking on full volume, listening to sad songs.

"Put on a brave face
Act like an earthquake didn't come right in and tear it up
And everything we've built inside this beautiful and safe space
Here in this room where you should be
I'm losing sight of you
A stranger simply passing through again, again, again"

I stuffed my mouth with ice-cream and screamed with the song.

"HEARTS AREN'T SUPPOSED TO HURT LIKE THAT." I whimpered. "THEY'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO BREAK SO FAST! THEY SAY THAT TIME'S A HEALER... How long the burn supposed to last..." I sobbed, stuffing my face again.

"Too proud to it say, and I let you leave straight out of spite
And now I'm missing you, sometimes I wish you missed me too
Maybe you do, I'm hoping, but you're too proud to say it too
Maybe I've just been dreaming, dreaming that you'll come right back again, again, again..."

Flashback of Noah leaving me came to my mind, and I wailed. I paused my weeping when my doorbell ring. Ignoring it, I continued to listen to the song.

"... If I could ask a smoking gun, how it feels to hurt someone
I would just ask you
If I could ask someone I love, how it feels to lose someone
I would just ask you..."

Clearly whoever was outside didn't get the point and continued to ring the bell.

I jolted up from my place and furiously walked towards the door. "ISTG If it's home services I'm going to kill-"

I mid-paused in my sentence as I yanked the door and saw the last person I expected to be.

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A/N
Hey'ya peeps,
Firstly I'm so sorry for the late update. Today was my first day of university and having physical classes after almost a year is tiring 😩

Anyways... As I said earlier that I'll make it up for all of the waiting...I'm doing a triple update!!!

Enjoy! ❤️

And for the above song, I'm watching shadowhunters at the moment amd this song is in season 3 and I fell in love with it 😍