I didn't know I was losing everything the day I lost you.
I thought I was strong,
walking away,
Thinking love would wait,
thinking you'd stay.
But now I see you
in every empty room,
Your laughter has now became
the silence that I can't fill.
I talk to the shadows, hoping
they'll carry my words to you,
But I know they won't.
I broke your heart,
and in doing so,
I shattered my own.
I would fall to my knees now,
without any pride, without any shame,
If it meant you'd look at me
the way you used to.
I wish you can love me again.

You gave me your whole heart,
And I held it like it was something
I could replace.
I thought I had time,
thought I could take it for granted.
But now every memory of you
cuts through me,
Every moment we shared
is a reminder of what I destroyed.
I remember your eyes-
how they looked at me,
With a love I didn't deserve.
Now, when I close mine,
all I see is the pain I put there.
I hate myself for it.
I hate that I made you hate me.
How I wish you can love me again!

You were the calm
I didn't know I needed.
The light I didn't see until it was gone.
I thought love was something
I could control.
But now it controls me.
(And I feel so helpless this way.)
Now I walk through days
that feel unfinished,
Nights that feel
too long, too empty.
I whisper your name into the dark,
Knowing it won't reach you,
Knowing I'm the reason
you're not here.
(And everytime I say so,
it breaks my heart.
'Cause it reminds me of you.
Of how I broke your heart.)
And now I'd give anything
to take it all back.

I would give up every false victory, every empty choice,
Just to go back to the moment,
before I let you go.
I'd hold you tighter, listen harder,
See the love you were giving me.
Now, all I have are these regrets,
The weight of everything I didn't do.
You deserve better than this;
better than me.
But still, I hope-
Hope that somewhere,
in some quiet place,
You still remember
the love we could have had.

I hope you find someone
who won't make my mistakes,
Someone who knows
how to hold a heart like yours.
But if you ever wonder,
ever look back,
Know that I'm still here.
Loving you in the quiet,
missing you in the empty spaces.
I carry this regret like a shadow,
A constant reminder of the lesson
I learned too late.
I don't deserve your forgiveness.
(And knowing it hurts more than anything else.)
But if I could hold you again,
I'd never let you go.
Never let you go.

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Whenever I look at the moon,
it reminds me of you.
Because I see you everyday, everywhere,
but you're so far away
that I can't be with you,
even if I wanted to.