"Kartik, come this way, today we'll go to the park." I said clasping our hands. 

"Are you sure you want to go there?........... I think we should not go to this park." Kartik said staring me oddly.
"Why not? Riya told me that it's most safe place for couples." I said crossing my arms on my chest. He nodded.
"Ok. As you wish." He said then we walked into the park. It was very huge place, full of greenery and very calm atmosphere. I instantly liked the place.

"Kartik Look there is one empty place, we can sit there." I said. We went to one coach under big tree and sat down.
"Wow, I didn't know this place before. I think we should come here often." I exclaimed excitingly.
"Really?" Kartik asked. Why he is giving me odd gaze. What's wrong with him?
"Yeah. didn't you like this place?" I asked incredulously.
"I like this place but I thought you won't like it." He said smiling.
"Kartik, this park is far away from our houses so we can spend some good time without fear of being caught." I explained.
"Oh cool" he said smirking.

I drank some water from my water bottle which I always keep in my bag.
"You want water?" I asked. But he didn't replied, he was looking somewhere.
"Kartik?" I called him again.
Still No response.
I followed his gaze where he was looking at.

I saw one boy was kissing his girl on her cheeks and feeding her ice cream. They were looking so much in love. I blushed as I imagined Kartik kissing my cheek. But the reality is I don't let him kiss my cheeks because if I allow him then he might become demanding for kisses. I don't want him to unnecessarily kiss me here and there before our marriage. Sometimes he agrees, sometimes he gets upset when I don't let him kiss my cheek, but what do I do. I feel this kissing thing awkward and scary. I feel kissing increases desire and leads to the extreme point where we lose our controls. I don't want to lose my control before marriage. Kartik said he understands my concern but I really doubt sometimes, after all he's boy.

I love him so much but more than that I want him to respect my values and opinion and my faith in marriage.

"OMG" I gasped.
"What happened Saumya?" Kartik asked in rush.
"That girl is literally sitting on lap of her boyfriend and she is lowering her head near his lips." I stated what I saw with my eyes.

"Shit. How shameless! They are eating each other's mouth." I exclaimed in disgusting tone.
"Saumya, don't say like this. They are in love and the thing they are doing is kissing." Kartik admonished me.
"Shut up Kartik. Is this only thing to show love? That too at public place. This is gross." I shook my head in disapproval.

"Ok ok. You please don't check out them." Kartik said.
I averted my gaze and looked other side. There was another couple where boy was nibbling the neck of his girlfriend. I felt so hot suddenly. I immediately averted my eyes. Later I realized almost all the couples eating each other's mouth like there is no tomorrow and some of them were even worse. Oh god! Now I am regretting my decision of coming to this park. I shouldn't have listen to Riya. Now I am understanding, why Kartik was giving me odd stares and why he was smirking. How stupid I am to tell him that we should come here often.

"It's ok Saumya. You please don't bother what you are seeing here. Let them enjoy their time. We will enjoy our time." Kartik said taking my palm in his hand and kissed it gently. That little kiss on my palm made me hot suddenly. Oh god help me! This place and these couples are affecting my mind. I wanted to leave this place immediately.

"We should leave Kartik. This place isn't nice." I said grabbing hands of my bag. But Kartik didn't move, instead he held my hand and sat me down. I frowned.

"Saumya, please sit down here. Just imagine that there is no one here except us. Ok. Now relax." He said staring deep into my eyes. My heart fluttered as he touched my cheeks gently. I closed my eyes for a while and tried to relax my pacing heartbeats.

"You know how cute you are? Just innocent like baby." Kartik said smiling. I smiled at him and rested my head over his shoulder. He intertwined out fingers and kissed the back of my palm. I flushed red.

"Kartik, are you happy with me?" I asked him. I really wonder why Kartik is still with me as I am not giving him benefits of kissing or touching me freely.

"What kind of question is this?" Kartik asked scrunching his brows.

"Tell me honestly Kartik. I won't get mad, I promise." I said looking straight in his eyes.

He stared me intently for seconds then chuckled as if I told him any joke. I frowned irately.

"Kartik." I said in scolding tone.

"Alright. Look, I know you are one traditional kind of girl who strongly persistent to deprive her boyfriend from kissing or touching intimately. But I am not intent to give up on our relationship so chill. Ok" he said coolly but I am not satisfied with his answer. In fact it's more like taunting me.

"Don't bother to stay with me. There are so many girls crazy for you, just pick up one of them and have your way with them. They will gladly let you kiss and touch them. Why are you with me?" I said in aggressive tone. Kartik's face saddened hearing my words and that's the moment I realised what I have said to him. Oh my god! I really have no bones in my tongue. Why I am so impulsive. I hurt my Kartik.

"I am sorry. I didn't mean what I said." I said in rush and averted my eyes. I hope he shouldn't get mad at me. Oh god, please don't let him leave me. I am feeling so guilty, what came over me suddenly.

"You mean it dammit. I know you don't trust me enough. I truly love you and that's why I respect your all beliefs and decisions.

I feel complete just having you by my side. My day starts and ends with your thought only. My world revolves around you.

With you I learned that love is not only about getting physical pleasures, Love is integration of hearts and souls.

I feel happy just by seeing adorable smile on your pretty face. I feel your love when you hold my hand. I feel your love when you feel bothered seeing me sad. I feel your love when I look deep inside your eyes. Your eyes always tell me that I belong to you...... forever."

I was feeling overwhelmed with his confession that my eyes filled with tears of joy.

"Trust me Saumya, I can't live without you. I feel so scared when you think negative about me. I do have craving sometimes to kiss you insanely but I fully intent to wait for that moment when you will desire for that.

But sometimes you look too much hot and it becomes so much difficult to handle. I feel afraid of my own thoughts." Kartik said heaving long sigh.

"What?.... When did I look hot? I don't remember. And why didn't you tell me that before." I burst out in surprise.

He coughed and lowered his head.

"Tell me Kartik." I insisted.

"Ok. Don't get mad. It's your red top which you bought last month. Whenever you wear it, I feel aroused. I am sorry." He said in low voice.

I narrowed my eyes. I was ignorant of this thing. But instead of feeling angry or shy, I felt so happy that my Kartik finds me hot. I laughed seeing his anxious face.

"Oh ok. So only when I wear red top?" I asked amused. His face relaxed a bit.

"When you wear black net saree which I gifted you on your birthday, you look extremely ravishing." He said grinning.

"Ahaan! So I can do one thing. I won't wear my red top and black net saree until our marriage." I said smirking.

"If I say you look sexy in your all dresses, would you stop wearing them too?" He teased.

"Kartik." I said pouting my lips. He chuckled.

"One more thing. Don't pout your lips before me, don't blame me if I kiss them."

I gulped. He laughed heartily. I punched his chest playfully.

"I know most of boys make girlfriends to satisfy their physical cravings but I am not like them. Don't compare my love to this category of boys. I am irrevocably in love with you." Kartik said earnestly.

I couldn't help but hugged him. He enveloped me into his arms. It was first time I was hugging him and it felt so amazing.

"I got heaven in my arms." Kartik whispered in my ears. I smiled with contentment and snuggled to his chest.

The End.....

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