how lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard

The scenery rushed past, field, after field, after field. He had been on the train an hour now, and after talking to his best friend Lily about the summer, although he hadn't mentioned his boyfriend, he had laid his head against the window and his mind had wandered. His mind was on the events of a good four hours ago. Of when he left Danny.

He had gone to Danny's on the way to the station, the boy had opened the door to the house he lived in with his family, rubbing his eyes, dressed in a hoodie and sweatpants and upon seeing his boyfriend, he had hugged him at once.

"Don't go." Danny had whispered. Brandon just stood there with his arms around him, he hadn't known what to say, he just wanted his boy in his arms. He hated doing this, it got harder each time.

"I have to." He had finally answered, Danny  buried his head in the crook of Brandon's neck sadly, Brandon had hugged him harder. It was times like these that Danny was quieter, more subdued, when he wasn't smiling.

"I love you."  It wasn't often Danny said it first, he never seemed to deem the time right to say such things. He wasn't very emotional, unless that emotion was happiness, or anger.

"I love you too." Brandon kissed the top of his boyfriend's head lovingly. "Baby I have to go."

"Please don't leave me." Danny had murmured back. Brandon kissed him again. 

"I'll be back soon, don't worry. I'll be back before you know it." He  told the boy, who shook his head and hugged him close again.

"I'll miss you." Danny  muttered.

"I'll miss you too."

Brandon sighed and buried his head in his hands, making his friend, Lily Luna Potter, look at him, eyebrows raised.

"What's up with you?" She asked him, he sighed again.

"It's nothing." He answered.

"Yeah, yeah, come on kiddo, speak up." She looked at him with a disapproving look, one she must have inherited from her grandmother.

"I miss him." He finally answered. She leaned forward in interest.

"Who? What have you been hiding from me? And for how long?" she asked, he winced and looked at her, she gave him a look that told him he would have to tell her, whether he wanted to or not.

"My boyfriend." He finally admitted, her eyes lit up.

"I knew it!" She shrieked, "So, is he cute? How did you meet? Where is he?"

"He's a muggle, he's adorable and we met when I was nine." Brandon answered reluctantly.

"Awe, what's his name?" She asked.

"Danny." Brandon answered, his voice changing as he spoke the boy's name.

"What does he look like? I need pictures!" Lily told him.

With a sigh, Brandon took his phone out of his pocket, although he couldn't use it in Hogwarts, he felt weird without it. He flicked through his photos, looking for a picture of him and Danny. He found a cute one and showed it to her.

"Awe you two are so cute! He's gorgeous! How did you get that one?" She squealed. "So that's the cutie that's always all over your snapchat! And how long have you two been together?"

"a year two weeks last Friday." He answered after a long while.

"A year! And you've only just told me!" she yelled at him, he winced at her shouts, she had every right to be upset. "And when did he tell his friends?" She asked.

"The same day I asked him to be my boyfriend." He answered, the glare she gave him was impressive, and scary.

"Oh I hate you right now!" She punched his arm angrily. "Not telling me you had a boyfriend! And I'm your best friend." She sighed, sitting back in her seat, but standing up again as the trolley lady walked to the door.

"Anything from the trolley dears?" she asked them, Brandon followed Lily to the door, buying a couple chocolate frogs before sitting back down. The elderly woman pottered off to the next compartment, leaving the two friends alone again.

"So when I went to yours last summer, did you purposefully not let me meet him?" She asked angrily.

"No, he was on holiday, and I was thinking about asking him out then." Brandon answered with a sigh, he wasn't going to get out of this one so easy.

"Uh huh, so you tell me a few more things and I'll let you off the hook." Lily told him, he nodded at once, thinking about Danny and not being able to easily go and find the boy, to hold him in his arms hurt his heart.

"Okay, what is it?" he asked.

"First you have to tell me how you asked him out, secondly you have to tell me a bit about him, then you don't have to answer any more questions." She told him, he nodded.

"Okay, We were sat on my bed, just talking, I can't even remember what about, I bet he'll remember though. I just... I kissed him, and then he kissed me back, which kinda surprised me, I hadn't realised he felt the same way, I just knew I wanted to kiss him. Then, I asked him to be my boyfriend, he said yes at once." He told her, relishing in the memory of that moment, and their first kiss.

"That's really sweet." Lily told him. "So go on, what is he like?"

"He's really quiet, unless he really knows you, then he's so relaxed. He laughs all the time and he and his friends are like their own family, and they're really welcoming. He's so sweet, and I know he worries about me a lot. I miss him Lil, I really do." Brandon finally confessed, Lily smiled at hi.

"Bran, I think I just met the side of you that is sweeter and caring." She told him, he frowned at her.

"What is that supposed to mean?" He asked her defensively. She sighed.

"Never mind." She told him.

"Lily, do you ever worry about the future?" he asked her suddenly, she looked at him in confusion and shook her head.

"No, I just take every day as it comes, Bran if you worry about the future too much, you won't go anywhere in life." She told him, he stared at her in surprise.

"I- I guess you're right, but I don't know what I want to do in life and we're taking N.E.W.Ts next year!" Brandon told her, she rolled her eyes at him.

"Chill out! This year will be great, next year, not so much, but everything will be fine, stop freaking out or I will hit you." She told him, he took a deep breath and nodded, agreeing with her.

"I hope they have cake at the feast." He said, opening a chocolate frog.

"That's my boy, now tell me which card you got!" She told him, he laughed and looked at the card, laughing louder when he saw who it was.

"What? Did you get my uncle Ron again?" she asked, he shook his head.

"I got your dad." He answered, she took the card from him with a disgusted look on her face.

"Ew," She threw the card back at her friend.

"Thanks Lils." He laughed.

"Finally! My best friend is back and not moping!" She cheered.

"OY!" He yelled back at her. "I was not moping!"

"Oh sure."