KHUSHI

I was feeling really nervous, I know it wasn't our first date but it was our first date after our huge fight and breakup. I just hoped everything would go well, I didn't want to get hurt again and I really hoped Arnav was going to keep his promise of not letting Sonakshi come in between us.

I stood in front of the mirror staring at my reflection, I was dressed in a dark green satin dress, it was strappy from the top and it hugged my figure heading downwards, I paired it up with some gold heels and a gold clutch and left my hair hanging open with some curls at the bottom.

I heard the doorbell as soon as I walked out of my room so I headed to open the door immediately and there he was, standing right in front of me looking handsome as ever. He was dressed in one of his usual suits just black and white but somehow he looked hotter than ever.

I guess when you are in love with someone, they look hot to you no matter what, even when they are all messy, you'll just be mesmerized by them.

"Wow." He smiled as he held out his hand for me to hold, I smiled back and tried to hide my blush while he led me to the car.

"You always manage to amaze me, how do you end up looking so beautiful every time?" He asked as we stopped beside the car.

"What can I say, good genes?" I smirked.

"Oh how I missed you." He laughed as he opened the door for me, I got in and then he went the other way round and got in on the driver's side and drove us off. I had no idea where we were going, he just told me to dress glam so I did that, I guess it would be some five star hotel or something.

After a short drive, we actually stopped at a hotel, I hadn't been here before but it looked really nice from the outside.

Arnav held my hand once again and led me inside, it was cute how he was holding my hand, that was twice today, it looks like everything that had happened ended up making things better for us because so far, everything seemed good.

This place had such gorgeous interiors and it seemed really classy, like the type only specific people could come to. Arnav led me to our table as we both sat down and the waiter walked to us with the menu.

Everything seemed fine and normal like how a date should be but yet somehow deep down I kept feeling scared, what if something went wrong? What if something happened to ruin this once again? My thoughts were making me so anxious it was hard to enjoy this date because all I kept on thinking about was, what if something went wrong.

"You okay?" Arnav looked at me in concern.

"I... I don't know how to explain."

"It's okay, tell me whatever it is, I'll try to understand."

"Okay, everything was fine since we left from home, even throughout the drive I was fine and then we came here and as soon as we sat down, I don't know but I just feel strange."

"Strange in what way? Aren't you comfortable here? We can go somewhere else."

"No, it's not that, I am comfortable, it's just that I can't stop worrying about what if something went wrong again. It's scary, like I'm just nervous something bad is going to happen to ruin our date or something."

"Have you felt this way before?"

"No, all our dates before were fine, this is the first time."

"I don't mean just on our dates, but randomly, have you ever felt so worried even if it's not about our date, but just anything else?"

"Yeah... that day when Sonakshi came back, I felt something similar, and then a couple of times after that, and also that day at the mall. It's like I'll be fine and the out of nowhere I will be overwhelmed with so many thoughts and I would just get so worried. I think a lot of things have gone wrong since then so I just keep worrying what if something else will. I know it's stupid but I can't stop worrying." I almost cried.

I hated having this feeling, every time I would feel this way I wanted to scream and cry and just stop worrying so much you know but no matter what I tried nothing seemed to be helping.

Even after Arnav and I sorted everything out today morning, I thought the feeling would go away but here it is again and I just don't know how to get rid of it.

"It's not stupid Khushi, it just seems to be that you've become really anxious, and I think Sonakshi coming back triggered something in you to make you feel this way. You need to see a doctor about it."

"You're funny. Why do I need to see a doctor for my thoughts?" I laughed, I mean seriously, it wasn't like the doctor was going to control my thoughts right?

"I am serious, what you've been feeling sounds a lot like anxiety to me, so you need to see a doctor and just learn how to manage it. It has just started, it's better to see someone now before it gets worse. In fact I know a doctor, I'll take you to see him tomorrow."

"And how do you know all this?"

"Because I went through it some years back and I don't want for it to get as bad for you as it did for me, so please let's go see the doctor tomorrow?"

"Okay, if you say so."

"Good. Now relax, I know it's hard but just try to be in the moment okay? I am right here and nothing will go wrong, I promise." He assured me with a smile. I nodded as I started going through the menu.

I was still worrying but after talking to him about it, I felt a bit better, all this while I had been thinking I was just worrying stupidly for no reason, I had no idea it wasn't stupid and I kept on cursing myself for being stupid.

Arnav looked at me as we waited for the waiter to get our food, I wondered what he was thinking while staring at me like that.

He slowly slid his hand towards my and put his palm on top of mine and smiled.

"You know I love you right?"

"I know."

"Then trust me when I say it's all going to be okay, nothing will go wrong okay?"

"Okay." I nodded.

*****

After dinner, Arnav decided to take me for a walk, he said it would make me feel better, so I agreed, it also just meant more time together and I wanted more time with him.

We walked out of the restaurant and headed to the left, we had taken like two steps and suddenly, he grabbed my hand and pulled me back.

"Sorry, wrong way, we're going towards the right." He said.

"But the elevator is on the left." I looked at him in confusion.

"Yeah, but I thought we would just take the stairs, it would be a start for our walk."

"Seriously? I'm wearing heels Arnav." I pouted.

"I'll carry you in my arms if you get tired, it's going to be so romantic." He tried to convince me so I just nodded, he clearly wanted to take the staircase for God know what reason.

He held my hand once again and led the way, I turned around to look, it was just an instinct, maybe it was something he saw that dint want me to see that's why he was insisting on the staircase and I was right because I saw Sonakshi standing there with Asha.

Okay, what was she doing here? At the same place where we had our date? Could this be a coincidence? Or did she show up on purpose? Did she know we were coming here for a date?

"So... did you tell your family members that we are back together?" I asked indirectly trying to know if anyone knew about our date or not.

"No. We're starting out again and I just want for it to be us only for the time being, I don't want any third person so I dint tell them and they don't usually ask where I'm going unless I inform them, why di you ask though?"

"Just like that." I smiled, so could Sonakshi showing up here be just a coincidence? I liked how he chose to avoid her though and decided to take me he opposite way.

He drove us to some place that he said was safe for a walk at night so we parked the car and headed inside, it pretty much seemed like a park where people would come for walks.

I stepped out while he grabbed something from the back of his car and then walked towards me.

"You can wear this and get rid of the heels, they will make you tired." He said as he handed me some slippers.

"Do you always carry around slippers." I joked as I took them from him and exchanged them with my heels.

"I like taking walks at night, sometimes I will stop in random places and decide to walk for a while so I always keep a pair, these shoes aren't usually comfortable for walks so."

"Will you be okay walking in them right now?"

"Yeah, I'm sure they are more comfortable than heels, don't worry about me, I'm fine." He smiled, I nodded as I put my heels in the car and then we started walking, once again he held my hand and continued walking with me.

"Walks like this usually help with the anxiety, when my doctors suggested it to me I thought it was stupid but once I tried it, I noticed it made a difference so I thought you should try it, might help you too." He smiled.

I nodded because I really dint know what to say so we just kept on walking silently for a while until he broke the silence.

"You feeling any better?" He asked.

"Yeah, much better than before." I nodded. I don't know if it was the walk or if it was what he did back at the hotel, but it gave me confidence, it made me realize that things might go wrong, but he will be there to handle them.

"I know why you insisted we take the staircase back at the hotel though." I said.

"You do?" He looked at me in surprise.

"Yeah, I saw Sonakshi there." I nodded.

"You were already so worried about something going wrong, I didn't want anything to actually go wrong so I decided it was better if we avoided her."

"It's okay, I get it. I love that you did that, it just builds my confidence in you more." I smiled.

"Anything to make things better between us." He smiled as he wrapped his arms around me and held me tightly.

Everything was going to be better between us if this is how it was going to be.