KHUSHI

It was a never ending cycle, every morning I'd wake up to a text from him, it was like he didn't want to leave me alone or something. The text always asked if we can meet once and talk but there was nothing left to talk about, I didn't want to reply to him, I didn't want to meet him, and I definitely dint want to talk to him.

What was he going to talk to me about anyway? About Sona? About how he still isn't sure what he feels towards me? I was so done with him and as usual I ignored his text hoping one day he would stop texting me and leave me the hell alone.

In the past few weeks, I've bumped into him many times than I'd expect, and every time I'd see him coming towards me I would run away, I wasn't going to let myself fall weak again, I wasn't going to beg for his love like I once did.

He would always try to call me, shout my name tell me to just listen to him once but I knew better, I knew he would just try to trap me with his sweet words again so there was no way I was ever talking to him.

I really couldn't understand what was wrong with him, I mean everything else apart he even had the audacity to show up at my house a couple of times but thank God for Manvi, she always chased him away and warned him against trying to talk to me.

I mean after everything that happened, you could think he would stay away but he wouldn't. There was another text from him today, a bit different than the usual ones.

"I know you are avoiding me, but please Khushi, I beg you, just talk to me once, I promise I won't say anything to hurt you, I Just want to say something very important which I can't over a text. I've tried to talk to you in all ways possible but you just run away from me, I swear just listen to what I have to say once and then you can decide to ignore me forever and I promise I won't bother you. This is the last text I am sending you, I know it must be irritating to wake up every day with the same text from me and even after this if you don't want to talk to me, I promise I'll leave you alone. This is my last try, if you choose to ignore me, I'll just leave you alone."

I wondered what it was that he wanted to talk to me about, I mean what could be more important now? The only important thing was his choice where he didn't choose me so I guess there was nothing more important than that right?

I looked at the time and rushed out of bed, I had a wedding to attend today, of course the one I planned, I had to be there to make sure everything goes well, so I got ready in a hurry ignoring all the thoughts I was having about his texts right now.

I didn't know if I wanted to give him that chance, who was he to decide that whatever he had to say me won't hurt me, maybe he could thing it wouldn't hurt me but it would, he had promised not to hurt me and he had always done that anyway.

*****

I stood in one corner after I had confirmed everything was like I had planned, the wedding was ongoing and I was just looking at the bride and groom who were really happy. I've loved weddings since I can remember and deep down I've always wished to plan my own wedding someday and since I met Arnav, I had always imagined a perfect wedding with him, it was now harder to even imagine one.

A group of few men blocked my view as they came to stand in between but they quickly walked to the stage to take pictures with the bride and groom clearing my view again. What I wasn't expecting was Arnav to be one of those men, how come he always ended up in the same place as I?

It was like destiny trying to throw us into each other's paths even though nothing between us was ever going to work out. Quite honestly, I had given up all my hopes.

As I looked at him, I remembered the text he had sent me today and it made me wonder whether I should give him that chance, whether I should talk to him once and listen to whatever important stuff he had to say to me or whether I should just stay away for the sake of my mental peace.

He walked off the stage and stood in one place just looking around and I don't know why but I felt like maybe I should just listen to what he had to say, maybe it was important like he had mentioned so I inhaled a deep breath and took a step towards him, but at that exact moment I also saw Sonakshi approach him, she stood beside him and smiled at him, and that made me change my mind.

They were always meant to be together and it seemed like they were now and I didn't want to go talk to him and give him another chance to hurt me once again. I shut my eyes trying to get rid of the pain I was feeling, knowing I would never be the one for him was another thing but seeing him with someone he belonged to, that had to be the worst kind of a heartbreak.

Why was this so freaking hard? Every time I told myself that I was doing better, every time I made myself believe that I could live without him but every time this pain ended up making me wrong.

Maybe it wasn't that I couldn't live without him, maybe I didn't want to.

Since I met him, I had surrounded my whole freaking life around him, I had imagined of so many scenarios in my mind where we were going to have our happily ever after and now it was just so difficult to accept that none of that was going to happen.

It was the harsh truth but I had to just accept it for my own self, him and I were never meant to be together. For whatever reason destiny might have brought us together, being together wasn't one of them.

When I opened my eyes, I saw him heading towards me and like I always did, I turned around and ran away from him, he said in his text if I didn't want to talk to him he wouldn't bother me anymore, I hoped this was the last time he was trying to approach me because I didn't want to be bothered by him anymore. I just wanted some freaking peace.

*****

I sat down in one corner, away from everyone and unlocked my phone, I scrolled through my contacts, stopped at his and blocked it. This was me moving on. Yes he said he wouldn't bother me anymore but I really dint think so and after seeing him with Sonakshi I dint want anything to do with him.

Once I was done, I wiped off my tears and stood up to head back to work, I checked on everything once again and then left for home leaving one of my employees to sort everything out once the wedding was over, I didn't want to stay here anymore.

You know when I said destiny kept on throwing us at each other's paths?

On my way out, I actually found him with the group he was, they were all standing and talking, he looked at me and or the first time, he didn't try to approach me.

We looked at each other for what seemed like forever, so many memories flashing through my mind, reminding of the first time I met him, how everything else just kept on getting us together after that and how at last he ended up with Sonakshi.

I continued walking and he looked away, maybe today was the day we both gave up on each other, and I was okay with it, I needed to become the person I was before I met him, I wanted to stop being so heartbroken and just feel happy for once, and maybe actually acting like strangers with him was going to do it for me.

"Khushi?" I heard someone call me just when I was about to get into the car, I turned around and saw Sonali walking towards me.

"Hey." She stopped in front of me and stared at me from top to bottom as if to really make sure I was okay, well I wasn't, and it was all because none of them would leave me alone.

"Did you talk to Arnav?" She asked, why was she asking me that though?

"No." I shrugged.

"Why not?" She looked confused, it's funny how everything seemed confusing, I mean after everything that happened why was she even asking me this question?

"Because we are done, I don't want to talk to him, I don't want to see him, or have to do anything with him, I am heartbroken enough, I don't want to break anymore, now if you would excuse me, I need to leave!"

I got into my car and drove off, she kept on trying to talk to me but like I said, I didn't want to listen. It was so frustrating how everyone was acting so normal about this situation when there was nothing normal to it.

Firstly, Barkha and now Sonali, it's like they lived in a bubble where Arnav and I were together and Sonakshi wasn't back. Were they all so oblivious or were they doing it on purpose to hurt me? What sort of sick game were they trying to play with me?

Here I was, trying my best to move on and every time one of his family member would show up in my life and remind me of everything once again, all these days it was Arnav with his never ending texts, now that I was finally sure they would stop, then Sonali came up.

After this I didn't even know who else was planning to come remind me of it again, this was the last time I was taking it, I swear after this if anyone ever showed up, I was going to snap and tell them off in a rude way not caring who they were. I was so done being the only one feeling this damn pain!